seven days without love

When you walk away from me slowly, my eyes move slowly with your steps.In fact, as long as you are willing to look into my eyes, you will find the love and reluctance in my eyes who often complain about ignoring you.Unfortunately, from the beginning to the end, you still refused to look at me.

——by Xu Haohao.

The weather is fine, the sun is soft and the wind is warm.It's just that how many times the spring has reincarnated has yet to be agreed.

Light sneaked in through the window, silently, even if there was sound, probably no one noticed.

Oh, I forgot to say, this is a nursing home, and a mental patient lives here.

You see, surrounded by white walls, he sat on the bed with his legs crossed and sang to the corner as if facing the wall alone.Flat tone, humming a song that is almost out of tune, maybe looking somewhere outside the window, maybe it's just an unconscious fugue.Short soft stubble, backlight, like light fluff, more cute taste.

"What are you singing? Can you tell me?"

When Xu Haohao heard the sound, he was stunned for a while, then slowly turned his head like a robot, looked at Xiao Bai for a while, then turned back, and continued humming a few intermittent notes.

"Mr. Xiao, you are here."

Xiao Bai moved away the shadow falling on Xu Haohao's body, and at some point, the nurse came to the bedside.

Outside the door, Xiao Bai was silent for a long time looking at the extremely beautiful sunny sky with no cloud in the sky.

"Recently, how is he...?"

"It's a little better than when I first came here. When I first came here, no one paid attention to him. Now when I talk to him, he will occasionally respond. You can also see that recently he is always singing, singing something, We don't know either. And..."

"how?"

"Also, one time when I was on duty, Mr. Xu sat on the bed and talked to himself, but I didn't understand what he was saying. Suddenly something in Mr. Xu's hand fell under the bed, and immediately he... I got excited, and I quickly picked it up from under the bed and gave it to him. It was a ring. It was the first time I saw such a big reaction from him, so I joked, what kind of baby is this, so precious. Who knows , as soon as he finished speaking, Mr. Xu... cried..."

Xiao Bai smiled, and said cheerfully: "It's good to cry, this guy, when he is sober, he doesn't cry when he is beaten. After all these years, it doesn't feel uncomfortable to hold back. Cry a few more times while you are in a daze, maybe It will be fine if you cry and get sick."

Back then, an unknown little doctor told Xu Haohao that he would go crazy soon, and it turned out that Xu Haohao really went crazy.

It's just that the time when he went crazy was when he snapped his fingers and insisted on holding on for a week, only waiting to send that "baby" away before he was willing to go crazy with peace of mind.

Xu Haohao, this idiot, arranged for his ex-boyfriend, arranged for his brother, and even planned a bright future for him.Why can't he make plans for himself and just stay in this small place when he's crazy?

"..." The nurse saw that Xiao Bai was still interested in joking, and suddenly let go of some feelings that she couldn't let go of.Even if you are deceiving yourself and others, being optimistic is much better than living without seeing a glimmer of light.This kind of disease, to put it bluntly, may have to stay in this cage for a lifetime.Most people who are obsessed with obsession have extremely deep feelings and are too important, so they are reluctant to let go of even a spark of light.

"That ring may be the key, so..."

"useless……"

"What's useless? I don't quite understand what Mr. Xiao said."

"That baby, it's...not here..."

The baby is indeed the baby, but the baby is never the ring, but the name he has called countless times.Xiao Bai walked through the crack of the door, that skinny and quiet fool who made people feel distressed, where is your baby?I'm afraid it would be a heart-wrenching pain to say it out loud.

In fact, as long as there is a desire for love, sparks of love will inevitably arise. As long as the relationship between two people becomes stronger and stronger, one of them will inevitably be burned by love.

But, why did you get hurt?You deserve it, who made you love me more?

If cuteness can master this degree, can it still be called love?

What does it look like to be crazy?

Xiao Bai once thought that he would go crazy like a crazy woman, talk nonsense, and do some radical behaviors.

Later, he didn't understand the life of a neuropathy until he raised a neuropathy, because he was almost forced to become a neuropathy.

At the very beginning when Xu Haohao came looking for him, Xu Haohao was in good condition, and no one believed that he had mental problems.

It's just that Xiao Bai changed his mind soon, as if time was constantly drawing a curve in front of him, every minute and every second seemed to be able to see Xu Haohao's changes.Gentle, rising, falling, and fluctuating, it seems that this trend is becoming more and more irregular.

Xu Haohao began to be unreasonable, as if living in a small world that was separated, and no one could get in.So no one knows why he always starts to cry at one o'clock in the morning, and the low tone is very penetrating.Whenever I cry, I can't stop for half an hour.When you ask him the next day, why are you crying, he will still look at you with the expression that you are crazy.

Xu Haohao's memory is getting worse and worse, and he seldom speaks, but sometimes he mutters a lot to himself, which no one else can understand.

Xu Haohao likes to be in a daze, and also likes to throw things more and more. All the objects placed in front of him disappear without making a sound.

Clothes, shoes, mobile phones, wallets, and even TVs and computers can always be found on all the roads in the community. If he meets an old man walking around, Xu Haohao will even take the initiative to give them something.

So Xiao Bai always picked up things behind Xu Haohao's ass for several months.

If so, it's acceptable.It was only discovered one day that Xu Haohao had the tendency to commit suicide, indicating that the problem had reached a serious level.

He did not choose to jump off a building or swallow sleeping pills, but on a certain day, Xiao Bai walked into the living room, casually glanced at the white bathrobe floating in the bath, and when he saw a big living person again, he was frightened out of his wits. .

I had to seek help from my cousin, who was a psychiatrist, and sent him to the hospital.

My cousin said, Xu Haohao is no longer fit to live with ordinary people.

What is not suitable?It took Xiao Bai a long time to digest such a simple sentence.

Xiao Bai stared at Xu Haohao who was sluggish in the room, getting thinner and paler.

Who knows where his gaze will fall?After all, it is dull, as if the soul has been sucked, and the life energy is shrinking day by day, there is nothing to do except sigh.

One day, the nurse was checking Xu Haohao's body, and the wind was sunny outside the window.

This young man who should be called a youth, time seems to have left no traces on him, but has become more and more immature.

She has short fluffy hair, and because of her sickness, her complexion is much paler.Lips are pale, eyes are clear and shallow, for some reason, the breath of ice and snow is getting heavier.

"The scenery outside the window is really beautiful, sunshine, white clouds, and a few kites."

The nurse wiped the boy's arm while describing it.

"In front is the botanical garden. If you look down like this, the bamboo forest has dense bamboo shoots, but you can only look at it, and some guards won't let you touch it."

"Pine trees, all kinds of pine trees, I heard that they are collected from all over the country."

Looking at Xu Haohao's arm, he made a gesture, feeling a little distressed, "I haven't got your arm yet, but it's really expensive."

Didn't expect the patient to respond, never been here for almost two years.This young man who has an outstanding appearance and is unique even when he is sick is considered an outlier in this place called a nursing home.

After staying here for so long, the nurses have not only developed the speed of response to emergencies, but also honed their psychological quality to be very strong.

Only this heterogeneous one is restrained even from getting sick.He also makes trouble and does strange things.But compared to other patients, it is completely negligible, it is too quiet and easy to carry.

"It's strange, how can such a thin arm have such a strong explosive power?" Min Heyue was a little puzzled.

When the patient first came, there was an incident, which was also the incident in which the patient became famous in one fell swoop.

There is a male doctor who is a deep cabinet. Because of the signs of long-term patients, he is quiet and gradually develops dirty thoughts.As a result, he was beaten by the patient and broke three ribs, and was almost lifted up by these arms and thrown from the window on the fourth floor.

Not only the whole hospital was alarmed, even the police came, but the doctor never showed up again.However, it was probably too blockbuster, no matter how much the patients in the hospital made a fuss, they didn't dare to provoke him, and a lot of trouble was avoided.