lost summer

Not long after this summer vacation started, one day after having lunch at noon, my grandpa was shaking a cattail fan in the shade of a tree in front of our house to enjoy the shade, while I moved a small stool beside him and chatted with him, listening to grandpa tell interesting stories .I don't know why, but today's grandfather looks a little bit wrong. I have already noticed this kind of something wrong when I was at the dinner table just now, but I didn't think about it, and I didn't ask.

After a while, my mother suddenly came out of the room. She looked weird today, with a loss of expression on her face.My mother walked up to me, leaned down and put her right hand on my shoulder, looked at me and said, "Xiaohe, Mom and Dad have something to go out recently, and they may not come back for a long time. You have to listen to Grandpa when you are at home. It's such a mess outside now, don't walk around, okay?"

This news was undoubtedly a bolt from the blue to me. I endured the uncomfortable emotions and asked my mother: "Where are you going? Why didn't you tell me before?"

My mother held my clothes lightly, and said, "There is nothing we can do. Anyway, you are still young, and you will know later."

I looked up and saw behind my mother, my father was looking down at me, his eyes were dull, his face was haggard, and his hands were hanging down weakly.

My mother looked at me again and said: "Xiaohe, you are almost 13 years old, you are an older child. Mom and Dad believe in you, you can take care of yourself. In addition to taking care of yourself, you also need to take care of your grandpa. Do something for him."

"But." I asked.

"But what?" Mom asked.

"Grandpa always looks lifeless, and he doesn't laugh when joking with him." I was a little disappointed: "I don't want you to go."

"Xiaohe, you have no choice this time."

"Okay." I replied without looking at my mother.

I turned around, went back to my room in frustration, slammed the door hard on the door, and sat at the desk, looking out the window.Cicadas screamed endlessly on the tree, the strong sunlight shone on the leaves, showing a silver light, and the branches swayed gently and slowly with the breeze.The picture is so peaceful and beautiful, but my heart is in chaos.

I lowered my head and took out a little book from the desk drawer.When I was looking for comic books, I accidentally saw a small kite in the drawer.The blue kite will be a bird when unfolded.I vaguely remember that a few years ago, my parents would still take me and run around the nearby square and fly this kite with me.Today, however, it is sleeping in this small drawer, its color has changed, and some dust has accumulated on it.

I feel that I am growing up every day, breaking away from the naive and ignorant child I used to be.Invisible pressure always comes from different places.I often feel tired and feel that I have lost the happiness I once had.

But I don't want to admit it, how I wish I was a child forever.When I saw the noisy appearance of those adults, I felt terrible.I don't want to be that kind of person. This world should not only have struggle and interests, but also equality and love, just like the people in the fairy tales my father told me when I was young.The world in fairy tales and myths and legends is a fantasy, no matter whether the ending is good or bad, it makes me want to step into the fairy tale.I don't like the world I live in because it's very imperfect and there are so many things I don't like.

After thinking about it, I lay down on the bed and started reading.I have read the story of this little book countless times, but I still don't get tired of it.Every time I read this story, it is like reliving an adventure with the protagonist.Although the plot may already be known, I like the process of following the protagonist's adventure.

"Xiaohe, Xiaohe. Come out." Outside the door, Grandpa suddenly called.

"Grandpa, what's the matter!" I yelled and put the book down.

I jumped out of bed, walked out and opened the door, and saw the familiar face of grandpa.He bowed his head and said to me: "Your parents are going on a long journey, let's go out and see them off."

I said, "How? So fast?"

In a panic, I took my grandfather and ran to the door, only to see my parents carrying a big bag.

"Mom and Dad, where are you going?" My tears could no longer be controlled and rolled down.I threw myself on top of Dad and hugged him.

Dad lowered his head and touched my head, and said in a choked voice, "Xiaohe, remember to listen to grandpa at home."

"Well." I replied.

"Our son has grown up. In the future, he will help grandpa do more housework and learn to take care of himself." Dad smiled sadly, looked at me and said.

"Well, I know." I looked into my father's eyes and said seriously.

"Then... Dad, when are you coming back?" I asked.

Dad replied, "I don't know either,"

Xiao He and Grandpa stood at the door, watching their parents leave.The parents went further and further away, gradually disappearing from their sight.

Later I heard from my grandfather that my parents did many things they were unwilling to do and said many things against their will in order to survive, and cooperated in doing everything that needed to be done.But even so, in the end they still ended up being sent to labor camps.This is a crazy age, but also a horrible age.I said, Grandpa, look at how blue the sky is and how bright the sun is, this world is still very beautiful.Grandpa smiled and said to me, Xiaohe, Grandpa really hopes that you will never grow up and be so carefree forever.I smiled too and walked away.

Looking at the back of my parents walking out of the courtyard, my tears flowed down again.In front of my eyes, the bright sunlight pierced through the gaps in the leaves, and the shadows of the trees were mottled all over the place.The branches on the wall and the gate swayed slightly in the wind, as if telling the farewell this time.

Grandpa and I turned around and went back into the house, the air was filled with dead silence.Grandpa sat on the sofa, closed his eyes and meditated, remaining silent the whole time.On the table in front of him was the pipe that Grandpa had been using for a long time.

I couldn't bear to disturb my grandpa who was taking a nap, and I stood there but didn't know what to do.Grandpa likes to close his eyes and meditate, which reminds me of the turtle mentioned in the book.I wonder if people will be like tortoises when they get old, slow to move and unresponsive, but also leisurely.I think it's terrible to be old, and I don't want to be like that.

I walked out of the house and walked down the side path of the house to the yard behind the house.There are a few bushes in the backyard that have been left unkempt from neglect.In the open space in the middle, there is a dilapidated swing.The swing is hung on the branch of a big tree, swaying slightly in the wind.My parents made this for me when I was young. At that time, my mother still had a lot of time to play with me. As soon as the kindergarten came to school, my mother would take me here to play on the swing.Looking at this autumn, it seems that her soft fingers and gentle voice can still be touched and heard. They lie deep in my memory, and outsiders cannot get close.

I haven't been here for some time, and some dust has accumulated on the brown seats.I walked over slowly, bent down, opened my mouth, and took a breath to blow off the dust on the wooden swing.I turned around and sat on the swing, only to realize that I had grown a lot taller in the past few months.I kicked the ground with my feet and shook it slightly, and there was a creaking sound from above.

Fragments of sunlight fell on me, and my eyes were covered with green in the courtyard.After lunch, it is inevitable to be sleepy.I was tired from shaking, so I slowly leaned my head on the rope, feeling sleepy, and wanted to close my eyes and rest.

"Xiaohe!" A familiar boy's voice came out of nowhere.

"Xiaohe!"

I woke up and realized that it was Guofeng's voice.I jumped off the swing.Follow the direction of the sound and look towards the wall.

Guofeng was lying on the wall of my house, and he said to me with a smile: "Xiaohe, come out to play?"

I said, "Why are you there, how dangerous it is."

Guofeng said: "So you come out quickly, Jiajun is supporting me below."

I said, "Okay then, I'll go talk to my grandpa."

I trotted back home and saw grandpa lying on a chair with his face covered by a newspaper.I was a little scared and gently pushed Grandpa to wake him up.Grandpa looked at me and asked, "What's the matter?" I said, "Grandpa, Guofeng came to play with me, can I go out?"

Grandpa thought for two seconds and said, "Go and come back quickly, don't stay outside for too long."

"Okay." I replied, turned around and happily ran towards the door of the house.