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16.

In the morning, half past six.

Ji Chennan came to the agreed place.

The sun is shining outside, the sky is blue and the trees are swaying.After yesterday's drizzle, today's world is full of vigor and vitality, and there is a tendency to heat up.

The location of Jichen South Station is not biased, and all the streets meet each other in front of you.There are breakfast stalls not far away, and the taste of steamed buns, pancakes and tofu nao is constantly intertwined, and there is an endless stream of people coming and going to buy breakfast, which is very lively.

He stared at one spot, and that stall happened to be selling white porridge. The plump rice grains were boiled to a sticky consistency. The iron spoon stirred in the pot, scooped it up, and put it into a red porcelain bowl. The movements were very crisp and neat.

I have to say that these stalls are still very conscientious.

Staring in a daze, Ji Chennan began to think of Song Wan who was asleep at home.I don't know if he woke up or if he feels better.A sick person should eat lightly the next day. If he can go back earlier, he will come back here to buy porridge.

I didn't sleep well, causing my thoughts to be scattered and I couldn't get them back.

He didn't even hear Bai Mu calling his name.

"Ji Chennan?" Bai Mu who walked up to him patted Ji Chennan on the shoulder.

Ji Chennan tilted his head, greatly frightening Bai Mu.Drowsiness controls the brain, and the vision is blurred for a moment.He fought back, frowning, trying to see clearly.

Bai Mu wore a long skirt today.

The dress is white, simple and elegant, surrounded by yellow sunlight, giving off a youthful and bright atmosphere.

She wore light makeup, black hair draped over her shoulders, without any decoration.The whole person is at least 5 years younger, and she lacks the strong and domineering feeling of an urban woman, and she is as pure as the girl next door.

This is the first time Bai Mu and Ji Chennan have worn a skirt since they were together.

The earliest time was at the train station, she dressed up meticulously, but Ji Chennan didn't come.Wearing a skirt that doesn't suit the climate, it hit her face like a thick palm, and her face was swollen.

But today, she wanted to change things up a bit.

It's like a last-ditch fight, with a determination like moths to a flame.

Ji Chennan didn't answer her phone yesterday. She is a woman by nature. She thinks something will happen today at the earliest and tomorrow at the latest.

But seeing Ji Chennan's steadfast gaze, Bai Mu was secretly happy.

Bai Mu: "Didn't you sleep well?"

"Yeah." Ji Chennan pinched his nose wearily, "Working too late."

Nonsense, I was taking care of Song Wan who was sick yesterday, and finally fell asleep in the early morning, and you called again to remind me, where can I rest well.

Bai Mu thoughtfully said: "Work is important, but the body is the capital of the revolution. Remember to go to bed early in the future."

Ji Chennan nodded.

Bai Mu: "Are you hungry? I'll treat you today."

She wisely didn't mention yesterday's call.

Ji Chennan: "No, what do you want to eat?"

Bai Mu stared at the breakfast stall on the opposite side, and smiled at Ji Chennan: "Let's go to KFC, I heard that there is a new breakfast set recently, I haven't tried it yet."

KFC is around the corner and it's a bit of a distance from here to there.

Obviously, there are piles of breakfasts in front of you, which are unique Chinese delicacies.But Ji Chennan was embarrassed to say anything, so he nodded in agreement helplessly.

Come out after breakfast.

After being bombarded by the air-conditioning inside KFC, the hot weather outside was simply unbearable.Ji Chennan squinted his eyes to see the large area of ​​yellow shadows on the ground. This could almost be called a scorching summer, he thought.

After waiting for a while, Bai Mu came out.

The girl's beauty-loving nature made her go to the bathroom to touch up her makeup.

"Today's weather is really good." Bai Mu looked around, "It was raining all the time yesterday, and I was worried that it would affect it, after all, it would be troublesome to go out on a rainy day."

It just so happens that you don't have to go out, Ji Chennan muttered strangely in his heart.

Bai Mu continued: "It's so quiet here, this is the first time I've come to such a place in this city."

Ji Chennan didn't respond for a while, his dizzy brain couldn't turn around.

He always smelled a smell of fried chicken, which floated between the two of them, greasy and overbearing, which made him feel sick for no reason.Sleep deprivation always affects everything, including mood.

And bad emotions are often the demons that destroy everything.

Ji Chennan was silent, he was not in the mood to admire the pure white dress or the delicate makeup of the woman at this time.

Bai Mu's words seemed to be engulfed in water, hazy and hazy, even though they were close at hand, they seemed far away.He couldn't control it, and his thoughts were like fishing nets being thrown into the sea ambitiously, so fast that he couldn't pull them back.

Is it too fast? No, no, Ji Chennan denied it.

It's just repressed for too long.Blind dates, marriage and having children seem to be a very normal path for ordinary people to take, and at first he walked with peace of mind.But something started to change.Ever since he met Bai Mu, the life he wanted has always been within his reach.

But what is the faint anxiety in my heart?

It seemed that the entire sky was gray, with faint thunder, and the rain was about to come.

I couldn't find a breakthrough, so I used the lack of sleep as an excuse to play my temper.

"Still uncomfortable?" Bai Mu noticed Ji Chennan's increasingly ugly face.

Ji Chennan frowned: "No, he should be the one who said he was uncomfortable..."

There was no sound in the middle of the conversation, and the man who realized it was stunned.

Bai Mu looked at him: "Who?"

Ji Chennan's whole body froze in place.

They were now walking down a back alley, out of the sun and surrounded by thick trees on both sides.No one came, and the bustle of the breakfast stalls could not be conveyed.It's quiet and cool.

But the difference is that at this time, a ball of fire surged from his body inexplicably.The fire burned more and more vigorously, and gradually started a prairie fire.Ji Chennan turned his head hesitantly, and happened to meet Bai Mu's gaze.He saw the woman's eyes, the pupils were black and bright, like a mirror, trying to fully illuminate the man who lied at any time.

With nowhere to hide, Ji Chennan felt a little angry for no reason.

Can't tell why.He took a few steps towards her, Bai Mu backed away naturally, and Ji Chennan pushed her against the wall.

Being too close, the breathing of both sides is slightly intertwined.

Bai Mu vaguely knew what was going to happen, her heart was beating wildly.

She won't stop it, it should be said that this is what she has wanted for a long time.

12 days, Bai Mu has lived in this strange city with no parents and no friends for 12 days, it's time to come.

She closed her eyes first, her curled eyelashes fluttering.

Ji Chennan looked at it from a close distance, and there was a very light perfume smell in his nostrils.It wasn't until he got so close that he realized how different everything was.They have never been two people alike.

Gritting his teeth, enduring the discomfort, he lowered his head.

A pair of eyes full of water mist flashed extremely quickly in the nothingness's brain.

Ji Chennan stopped when he was about to approach.

As if being hit by a thunderbolt, I felt great regret, and cold sweat immediately ran down my back.

Shiragure waited for a while, but the soft touch he imagined did not come.Opening his eyes hesitantly, he found that Ji Chennan stopped in front of him and didn't take a step forward.Their lips were so close that Shirakure could touch them with just a little tiptoe.

In fact she did the same, throwing away all shame in that moment.

Ji Chennan noticed it, subconsciously pushed Bai Mu, and took a few steps back.

The distance between the two is terrifying.

Bai Mu was stunned.

This feeling of being helpless with your heart hanging in the air is exactly the same as the countless late night dreams you have had.

No, she held her hand tightly, he was with her these days, he shouldn't.

"Ji Chennan?" Bai Mu wanted to walk over.

The scene is too similar, at this moment and falsehood, in the gloomy dream, Ji Chennan leads another person away, but she follows behind wretchedly like a thief, until she sees them disappear completely.

Bai Mu didn't want to do that, she hoped that she could hold Ji Chennan in the palm of her hand, and the relationship could be cultivated the day after tomorrow.

Indeed it did.

Every day she was there, she firmly occupied Ji Chennan's time off work.

Bai Mu didn't know what went wrong.

"No, don't come here first..."

Ji Chennan continued to retreat hastily, covering his face with his hands.

The whole person exudes a dense exhaustion and decadence from the outside.

He is still struggling, but unfortunately, his emotions can't be restrained from pouring out.His rationality had been half-swallowed by sleepiness a long time ago, and now he couldn't resist it even more, and fell into the vortex of emotion wholeheartedly.

Ji Chennan kept thinking about Song Wan, it was more dense than before, and he couldn't dodge it in time.

Bai Mu: "What's wrong with you?"

"I... didn't fall asleep until 5 o'clock this morning..."

He stammered, it must be admitted, how embarrassing it was to say it in person.

Bai Mu suddenly breathed a sigh of relief: "I'm sorry, I didn't know. Then go back to sleep, we won't go out today. I know, you work very hard."

"No..." Ji Chennan said, "I was taking care of someone. He had a fever yesterday, and I stayed with him in the hospital all night."

The resting heart was instantly lifted into the throat.

"Bai Mu, I'm the one who's sorry." Ji Chennan exhaled and looked directly at the woman.

This time it was Bai Mu panicking, there was a wall behind her, she kept backing up, leaning her back against the wall, there was nowhere to escape.

Bai Mu panicked: "Don't look at me like this."

Ji Chennan: "I'm sorry, Bai Mu, I've been lying to you. In fact, I don't like staying in bookstores. I can't read a single book there. I also don't like to eat cumbersome foreign meals, Chinese delicacies The unique color and smell are all there. Similarly, taking a walk every night gives me a headache..."

"What are you talking about? Are you blaming me?!"

The false dream created was ruthlessly pierced at that moment.

Vanity is destroyed, and the woman begins to attack like a hedgehog.

Ji Chennan was a little at a loss: "No, no, that's not what I mean. I just want to show that we are not compatible, have different interests, and we will not be happy if we are forced to be together."

There was no talking for a while, but the smoke was everywhere.

Bai Mu was furious, and at the same time felt ridiculous for himself who had fallen into a self-comforting predicament in the past.

It would be useless to delay any longer. After a while, Ji Chennan spoke again: "I..."

"Ji Chennan." Bai Mu hastily interrupted, and stopped calling Mr. Ji politely as before, "I'm very glad you said it. I thought we were too unfamiliar with each other, and we were already blind dates." Palely Smiling, the sharp nails pinched her fingertips, and she tried her best to restrain herself, not to collapse, "This will change, believe me. Relationships or marriages are the product of mutual tolerance between the two parties, and since you have endured to the end , then I'll come, really..."

There was light in Bai Mu's eyes, a desperate but weak light that could be easily stamped out.

This man has let go of all his figure.

For the man in front of him, for a period of throbbing in the green.

"If you don't want to read, I don't have to go to the old bookstore. If you are not used to foreign food, we will go to a small restaurant outside. To tell you the truth, I have long felt that foreign food is not as good as the food of our big country. I'm sorry , I will pay more attention to you in the future, and I won't let my temper. I know that you are busy with work and very tired, and I called you so many calls yesterday...Ji Chennan, really, I will change..."

"You don't have to..." Ji Chennan regained the right to speak, "You don't need to be like this, Bai Mu, you are a good girl, and you will meet someone who cherishes you."

Bai Mu: "Since I'm so nice, why don't you have a little bit of a heartbeat? Ji Chennan, let me ask you, have you ever been in love with me, even for a second."

Ji Chennan lowered his head, not looking at her: "I'm sorry."

Bai Mu crouched down slowly disheartened and covered her ears: "Don't ever say sorry to me again."

Ji Chennan looked at it, feeling a little unbearable in his heart.But it's a pity, just can't bear it.

He finally plucked up the courage to walk over and pull the woman up.

"You are really nice, talented and beautiful. Sometimes when I look at you, I feel like I am looking at a beautiful painting, which is pleasing to the eye. I am not lucky. I met someone before you .”

Bai Mu looked up, she didn't know how to describe her mood at this moment, it was like a great grief, but it was ordinary.She knew who that person was, and had met it the first day she came.Maybe in the bottom of Bai Mu's heart, that man is like a time bomb, sooner or later it will have a huge impact.

But, but...

Bai Mu carefully looked at the handsome Ji Chennan in front of him.

I was the one who met you first, have you completely forgotten? ! When I was 16, kapok bloomed, and you still smiled at me.

The fantasies of girlhood belonged to her after all.

Ji Chennan: "Before you came, my mother told me to take care of you more. After being with you, I would occasionally think of him. But nothing happened to him, and I don't need to worry about it. I have seen him once or twice But he told me not to go again, so I didn't contact him. I understand that as a man, getting married and having children is the only way to go. I really wanted to take this way before. However, he fell ill yesterday. He doesn't have any family or friends here, no one to take care of him, I'm worried. I'm full of him now, I can't get rid of it, I want to go home quickly, see if he wakes up, if his fever is gone, if he wants to eat thing……"

Bai Mu: "Is he a man?"

Ji Chennan: "You know?"

Bai Mu bit her lower lip and said, "I've seen him before. I saw you at the entrance of the supermarket."

"Really?" Ji Chennan showed a helpless smile, "So you already knew it."

"Ji Chennan!" Bai Mu grabbed his hand in turn, and the woman still had a little hope in her heart, "When you are young, you will inevitably take a special path out of curiosity. Maybe you think it is him now, but in the future? ...No one will understand you. But I can accept you like this, as long as..."

Ji Chennan frowned, the unbearable feeling just now dissipated.

Withdrawing his hand silently, "He is not special, he is just like me, just an ordinary person, and also a normal person." Ji Chennan bit the word "normal person" very hard, as if he was arguing for Song Wan who was habitually withdrawn .

Bai Mu was desperate.

Her eyes never left Ji Chennan when she spoke.

The man was close in front of him, but his eyes never really fell on her.

He was looking at her, but he didn't seem to be looking at her.

Bai Mu remembered that at the supper stand, when Ji Chennan paid the bill, she held the Hello Kitty he caught in her hand.Soft in the hand, but cold in the heart.

Ji Chennan has been acting in a state of alienation from beginning to end, at the beginning and now.But at least Bai Mu thought that he could slowly warm Ji Chennan back then, but he doesn't think so today.

It doesn't make sense, the road ahead is blocked, the relationship withers, and there is no way to recover.

Bai Mu put away his expression, and gradually regained the indifference that a white-collar woman should have.

"I understand, Ji Chennan." While speaking, she heard her heart beating and shattering into pieces, "Since you have already made up your mind, I won't hold back."

Bai Mu humbled herself once, and she will never allow it to happen again.

After all, there is a strange integrity in his bones, otherwise he would not have watched in vain for so many years, immersed in unknown unrequited love.

Bai Mu: "But I want to say one more thing, so far, no one will support you."

Ji Chennan hummed.

Bai Mu smiled sarcastically: "Blind date is so good. If both men and women feel that they are in harmony, they will continue to go down. If it is not suitable, they will get together and break up, and they will be entangled like in different relationships."

Ji Chennan: "I'm sorry..."

Bai Mu: "You don't need to apologize to me, but please allow me to retract my words. Now I can't accept you, nor can I accept that man."

She walked to the side, away from Ji Chennan.

"I'm leaving today, and I booked the train ticket last night. The vacation has been delayed for too long, and the boss has urged me several times."

Ji Chennan was slightly surprised: "So soon, shall I take you to the train station?"

"No need." Uncontrollable, his voice trembled slightly, Bai Mu remembered the purpose of going back this time.I wanted to resign, quit my job in a different place, settle down in this city, and be with Ji Chennan, "I can go alone."

For 12 days, during this period, she was like a traveler struggling in the desert, and happened to run into a mirage.

Everything is fake.There is nothing.

His nose started to feel sour, and uncomfortable emotions lingered in his heart belatedly.

Even though she said some sour words bravely, the sudden end of the relationship still makes people sad.

"I won't tell your family about you, let alone help you. I'll rot this matter in my stomach." Turning my back, "When Mr. Ji asks the reason for the failure of the blind date, can you please?" Slander me, and if you are in a good mood, say something nice for me. Mr. Ji doesn't want to get married, but I still want to get married."

In order to get close to Ji Chennan, Bai Mu once peeled off the outer solid surface bit by bit, revealing the softest inner part.Now she had to pick those surfaces back, bit by bit, and rearm.

It was difficult for Ji Chennan to adapt to Bai Mu's attitude for a while, but it was all reasonable.

He nodded in agreement.

"I have nothing to do, I will go first, goodbye."

Bai Mu didn't give Ji Chennan a chance to speak, she quickly finished everything by herself, and then fled in despair.

Walking forward along the alleyway, after a few turns, Bai Mu walked out suddenly.

The quiet environment around him was completely replaced, and the voices of people and cars roared overwhelmingly.Bai Mu took a breath, the feeling of depression was about to suffocate her.Bai Mu looked back in a daze, there was no one behind him, Ji Chennan could not be seen at all.

In the gap between looking back, two lines of hot tears flowed down.

I dressed up and wore skirts twice, but ended up like this.

Feeling sour, Bai Mu covered his eyes with his hands, and walked forward desperately.

She doesn't want to make herself a person who can only be immersed in sadness.

The author has something to say:

I set up a picture for the 16-year-old lovely Miss Bai Mu, thanks to Bishui's painter, the drawing is very good (#.ε.#)