the world in which he exists

The last touch of gray belonging to the night withdrew from the sky, and the sky slowly turned white, and a new sun fell silently on the horizon.

The morning light jumped into the open window, and the footsteps were too light to be heard, which did not disturb the teenager sleeping on the desk.When the faint morning light caressed the boy's face, the early birds downstairs also chirped.

A few minutes later, the sleeping teenager at the desk finally moved.He was awakened by the sound of birds, and sat up, but still closed his eyes, breathed evenly through his nose, sat for a few seconds, and got up in a daze.

Chen Guang thought he had woken up, but the boy just lifted the quilt and threw himself on the bed next to the table.

I don't know how long it has passed, the mobile phone on the desk rang countless times, and the boy on the bed made any movement again.

The vague ringtone rang in his ears, Gu Chaoming turned over, closed his eyes and raised his hand to touch the vibrating mobile phone to turn off the alarm clock.Turning off the alarm clock seemed to have exhausted all his strength, and Gu Chaoming fell into a deep sleep for the last 3 minutes in this posture.

After 3 minutes, Gu Chaoming felt a little pain in his neck and discomfort in all his bones, like an unoiled machine.

After waking up, Gu Chaoming sat up from the bed, stretched his neck, and turned his head to look out the window.It was another sunny day, and the sunlight outside the window painted the bedroom floor, outlining the open window.

Glancing at the window, Gu Chaoming turned to the desk where he could see.

The homework book was spread out on the desk, the desk lamp was still on, the schoolbag was hung on the back of the chair, the zipper was unzipped, and it opened a wide mouth.

I seem to have slept there last night?

Gu Chaoming sat on the bed and scratched his head, the image of himself walking from the desk to the bed was still vaguely in his memory.

My mind became clearer and clearer, and memories flooded in.

I seemed to fall asleep while doing my homework yesterday, and then got up and went to bed before I woke up early in the morning?

The hypnotic effect of this homework is better than sleeping pills, Gu Chaoming stretched his waist and thought.

Emotions are most sensitive in the dark.

Gu Chaoming, who had fallen asleep last night, thought of Qu Yingyi's life in his new home, of the little girl calling him brother, of the man asking him about his grades...

With a force, Gu Chaoming, who had already fallen asleep, got up from the bed and started to read at night like a tube of chicken blood.

I can't embarrass my mother with my grades, at least I have to be decent.

Regretting that he didn't bring home the homework that Cen Xili said was simple after school, Gu Chaoming opened his schoolbag and took out the messy textbooks and exercise books that had been stuffed in the schoolbag in order to prevent the dean from checking.

The beginning of anything is always confusing and the most difficult.

The few exercise books and textbooks on hand basically do not match the numbers. I brought the textbooks but did not bring the exercise books, or I brought the exercise books but did not bring the textbooks.Looking at the few books on the table, Gu Chaoming felt at a loss for what to do.

Relying on the strength of his random thoughts at night, Gu Chaoming buried himself in his studies for several hours, and was finally pushed into a deep sleep by his homework, and ran back to bed to sleep as if he was sleepwalking.

Gu Chaoming rubbed his sore neck and walked to the desk to look at the homework on his desk.

I didn't write a few questions in a few hours, and some of the answers were wrong. The Chinese books were folded into many corners, and the English books were turned over in the vocabulary list.

Hours of hard work didn't yield any results. Sure enough, the night is the most emotional and hardworking.

The imaginary new home, the homework that cannot be completed, the mother that cannot be protected, and the night outside the window, all of these are urging Gu Chaoming to realize his shortcomings repeatedly.

It was a night of terrible low self-esteem, Gu Chaoming even thought of all kinds of embarrassing scenes when he went to a man's house.

The night goes out, the sun rises.

With a clear mind and no longer thinking about it like last night, Gu Chaoming closed the textbook, like a good student took the schoolbag on the back of the chair, and tidied up the textbooks on the table.

After brushing his teeth and washing his face, he saw that there was not enough time. Gu Chaoming didn't plan to make breakfast at home, but went out to buy some breakfast on the way.

The warm sunlight poured into the rickety carriage through the glass windows, and the bus was driving so fast that Gu Chaoming dozed off.

Gu Chaoming took a deep breath, inhaled the warm and warm sunshine, and his whole body became clear.

It's just that the textbooks in the schoolbag are neater, and a few more strokes and drawings are added to the textbooks, and the whole world seems to become lighter.

Not as rigid and heavy as before.

After talking on the phone with my mother yesterday, my mother said to wait, so he will wait.

Gu Chaoming once again fantasized about his life in his new home.

In the dark night, I repeatedly realize my own shortcomings, and in the sunny day, I look forward to a new life that I can wait for.

Good things need enough waiting to be beautiful. I know that I have many shortcomings, so why not take advantage of the waiting time to make up for it and prepare for a better new life?

Gu Chaoming looked at the sun outside the window and smiled, and the gentle sunlight through the car window filled his face.

Gu Chaoming, who was in a happy mood, walked into the classroom. The classroom in the morning was always noisy and never stopped.

Gu Chaoming came late, and the class was full of people, those who handed in their homework, those who cleaned, cleaned, and those who chatted.

Gu Chaoming set down the stool amidst the noise of the class, and put the schoolbag into the table.

After putting away the schoolbag, Gu Chaoming also tidied up the messy book wall on the desk.After school yesterday, Cen Xili said that the easy homework was lying on the top of the book wall. Gu Chaoming took it and flipped through it, wanting to see how easy the simple homework is, and whether he should try it out and see if he can do it.

Open the homework, wait, where did this homework come from?

Gu Chaoming raised his eyebrows to resolve his embarrassment.

Putting down the homework in his hand, Gu Chaoming removed a large pile of books on the table.The books were moved away, and the field of vision opened up a lot.

Picking one by one, sorting them by size, Gu Chaoming sorted them out carefully, and some textbooks still contained test papers that he didn’t remember when they were issued...

Seeing Gu Chaoming tidying his desk, Cen Xili jokingly asked him, "Where's the cleaning?"

Gu Chaoming turned his head and smiled.

After tidying up a pile of waste papers and piling them up on the table, Lao Chen passed by the back door of the classroom. He was studying Chinese in another class early. He passed by his class and took a look at the back door. He saw Gu Chaoming's table of waste papers and asked, "What are you doing?" What are you doing?"

"Clean up." Gu Chaoming said.

Gu Chaoming said to tidy up, but Lao Chen didn't care. When he went to his class's Chinese class, he was surprised to see Gu Chaoming's clean desk and his serious state of listening to the class.

Gu Chaoming received a large pile of books on his desk, the wall of books that had long resisted external interference disappeared, and the textbooks were stacked in an orderly manner. Instead of other strange novels, there was a Chinese textbook on the desk.Old Chen wondered if he had gone to the wrong classroom.

Not only Lao Chen was surprised, but Cen Xili was also quite surprised.In the morning, after Gu Chaoming cleaned up the desks, Cen Xili gave him the completed homework as usual.

Cen Xili glanced at Su Bing's empty desk. Su Bing hadn't come today, so he must be late. Then he glanced at the clock on the blackboard and heard Gu Chaoming ask in his ear: "Xili, what do you think is simpler? I will do."

Cen Xili turned his head in surprise, thinking he was hallucinating.

The person who said he didn’t want to do it yesterday, today ask him what simple things he can do?

"Gu Shuai?" Cen Xili looked at him, "You are really Gu Shuai? Why do you think of studying?"

"Just suddenly, you don't allow others to suddenly wake up." Gu Chaoming embraced Cen Xili, "I will ask you any questions in the future."

"Okay, but my grades are only average, and some of them don't, especially math."

Mathematics is Cen Xili's weakness.

After listening to Cen Xili's words, Gu Chaoming couldn't believe it: "You are so ordinary, Xili, don't be humble in front of me, how can I live if you can't do it among thirty people?"

Cen Xili still said firmly: "My grades are really only average."

Gu Chaoming looked at Cen Xili, the best of the three of them actually said that his grades were only average, so wouldn't he be the worst?

"It's okay, anyway, if I don't know how to do it, you will definitely do it. If I really come across something you don't know how to do, I will ask others." Gu Chaoming said.

Cen Xili gave him a suggestion: "Actually, you can ask Lin Jianfan, isn't he the number one? And Lao Chen also set up a study group, aren't you a group?"

After finishing his morning reading, Gu Chaoming walked towards Lin Jianfan with the homework notebook that Lin Jianfan had given him.

"Gu Shuai, Xili's homework." Su Bing stopped Gu Chaoming.

As soon as Gu Chaoming lowered his head, there were a lot of snacks on Su Bing's table, such as candy, potato chips, chocolate...everything.

"Are you running a canteen?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"Yes, do you want to buy it?"

When Su Bing turned on the scenario mode, Gu Chaoming smiled and asked in cooperation, "How do you sell it?"

"The jump price, nine hundred and ninety-nine."

"Fuck you," Gu Chaoming turned off the melodrama mode, "Didn't you just lose your relationship? Why are you planning to have a relationship for 33 days? You still have so many snacks."

Gu Chaoming grabbed a handful of candies from Su Bing's table, tore open one for himself and patted Lin Jianfan on the back.

Lin saw Fan turned his head.

Hearing Gu Chaoming and Su Bing chatting behind him, Lin Jianfan always thought that Gu Chaoming was looking for Su Bing, as usual, he had nothing to do with himself, after all, Gu Chaoming came to their side to play with Su Bing.Sitting in front of Su Bing, Lin Jianfan also "overheard" many of their endless melodramas like the canteen just now.

Gu Chaoming only ate one candy, and gave the rest to Lin Jianfan.

"Su Bing gave it, you're welcome." Gu Chaoming said with a smile.

Seeing that Fan was in a daze and didn't know what was going on, Gu Chaoming wanted to give it to him, but he caught it with both hands.

"Thank you." Another thank you, Lin Jianfan's style.

Gu Chaoming handed Lin Jianfan the homework record book that was handed over after many hardships in class yesterday.

After Lin Jianfan took the notebook, he turned back as usual.

"Alas, don't turn around so quickly, I still have something to tell you." Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan turned his head and shouted.

Su Bing guarded his table full of snacks and took a look at Gu Chaoming who was calling out.

Lin Jianfan turned his head again and looked at Gu Chaoming with the usual confusion on his face.

Gu Chaoming coughed and said, "Aren't you the number one, we are in a group again, you give me tutoring, will it work?"

Lin Jianfan never thought that what Gu Chaoming was going to talk about was this matter, the confusion on his face turned into shock, and there was a little confusion in the shock.

Lin Jianfan nodded in shock: "Okay...Okay."

"I'll come and ask you if I have any questions in the future." Gu Chaoming said.

Seeing Fan nodded again, Lin replied, "Okay."

The process was so smooth, within a few words, Su Bing, who was sitting behind Lin Jianfan, was stunned.

The candy just put into his mouth did not start chewing, Su Bing grabbed Gu Chaoming who was about to leave: "Gu Shuai? Are you really Gu Shuai?"

Gu Chaoming stopped, looked at Su Bing who was holding him back, and took a candy from his table: "What's wrong? Are you stupid to eat candy?"

"Why did you suddenly change your mind and want to study?" Su Bing asked.

"Just thinking about it," Gu Chaoming tore off the candy wrapper, "Last night I watched the sky and felt that today is a good day to start studying."

Gu Chaoming began to try to do homework by himself, and first asked his deskmate, Cen Xueba, for advice.

Gu Chaoming asked Cen Xili to pick some simple questions.

"Simple enough to explode, the kind you think I can do." Gu Chaoming said.

But even with the simple questions screened out by Cen Xili layer by layer, Gu Chaoming could only answer a few questions in the morning, and could not do anything else.

Scribbling and drawing on draft paper, the frustration of learning is much easier than the sense of accomplishment of learning.It was another question that he couldn't do. Gu Chaoming was a little discouraged and scratched his head in anger. He even wanted to stop studying, but he thought that he gave up halfway like this before.

No, he didn't reach it halfway, and it doesn't count as giving up halfway, at most, he gave up at the beginning.

Is it going to be the same as before?

Su Bing came over after class and saw Gu Chaoming recite the words after finishing the topic: "Gu Shuai, you are awesome, why are you working so hard all of a sudden?"

Gu Chaoming continued to recite words and ignored Su Bing.

Su Bing couldn't bear it and told him: "It's not how you memorize words."

Su Bing's grades are all supported by English. Gu Chaoming thought he was noisy at first, but when he heard him say that he made a mistake in reciting vocabulary, he asked, "Then how do you recite it?"

Su Bing pointed to his own head: "I rely on my smart head."

Gu Chao took a look at him understandingly: "Get out, don't disturb my study."

The difficulty of studying was much more difficult than Gu Chaoming imagined. The good mood at the beginning was buried in the fatigue of studying hard in the next few days but feeling that there was no progress.The motivation to study hard is all based on not wanting to embarrass my mother and getting good grades in my new home.

Gu Chaoming only knew that he couldn't memorize faces, but he didn't expect that he couldn't memorize knowledge points either. He memorized them by rote every day.Rote memorization is a headache, and within a few days, the exhaustion of studying hard can almost overwhelm Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming felt that his previous life was numb, and he thought that he would get better by studying hard, but now it seems that he is just numb in a different way, but in the numb study and life, he can find some shortcuts to solve problems and enjoy it for a while.

The world propped up by his weak knowledge in the numbness made Gu Chaoming's life clearer and more organized.

Sometimes when Cen Xili was not free, Gu Chaoming went to find Lin Jianfan.Lin Jianfan deserved to be number one in his grade, and Gu Chaoming had clearly sensed the gap between himself and him when he asked him the first question.Lin Jianfan had a lot of knowledge that he didn't understand when he was talking to him about the problem.Gu Chaoming knew the questions he was asking, and the top students in their grades would not practice them at all, they could get the answers at a glance.

Lin Jianfan has never had the arrogance of being the first in his grade, and his top grades did not change his submissive temperament, and did not give him the support of his arrogance. He said "sorry" and "thank you" every day as usual. The halo might just bring him a few days of discussion heat.

Gu Chaoming likes to listen to Lin Jianfan explaining the questions to himself. Gu Chaoming can hear from Lin Jianfan's words that he is giving himself serious answers. Gu Chaoming can feel that Lin Jianfan is breaking the questions bit by bit, because I seemed a little incomprehensible the day before.

Lin Jianfan explained slowly and carefully, and recommended tutoring materials for him to help him synthesize knowledge points, although Gu Chaoming didn't tell him that he didn't understand many of them.

Gu Chaoming accepted the notebook handed over by Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan was still explaining to him the range of knowledge points in the notebook.

Gu Chaoming opened the notebook and saw the beautiful and correct fonts on it, and the formulas he didn't know were arranged in an orderly manner. Gu Chaoming knew more clearly the gap between himself and Lin Jianfan.

Gu Chaoming didn't want to compare with Lin Jianfan, his own grades were at the bottom of the list, and Lin Jianfan was the first in grade, there was no comparison at all, Gu Chaoming would not be so stupid as to feel inferior because of these.

Gu Chaoming has no inferiority complex, he is very happy looking at the formulas and symbols he doesn't know in his notebook.

He doesn't compare himself with Lin Jianfan, he compares himself with his former self.

In the past, he lived in confusion, living in this world but knowing nothing.He doesn't know what level he is at or how deep the water is under his feet. He lives in a mess, and now that he works hard, it seems that his feet are on the ground.

There is frustration in learning, but as long as you work hard and persist, the accumulated frustration will become a step by step and a road to success.

The sense of accomplishment in learning is a quantitative change from the accumulated frustration.

"My writing may not be comprehensive enough." Lin Jianfan said.

Gu Chaoming flipped through the notebook that contained Lin Jianfan's painstaking efforts: "It doesn't need to be so comprehensive, anyway, I don't need a lot of it anyway, so take your time."

Gu Chaoming stood by Lin Jianfan's table, and Lin Jianfan sat on the seat and looked up at Gu Chaoming, who was 1.8 meters tall. Fan lowered his head and smiled.

During that time, Gu Chaoming studied every day and hardly touched his mobile phone except for studying.I get up in the morning and recite words, and I also recite words in the car.I do my homework every day, and read my homework when I get home.

The days are the same as usual, day after day, but it seems to be different from before.The days pass numbly day by day, and it is easy to become a ball. I can't tell the time, and I just feel that it has passed in a flash. It is like cooking porridge. After cooking for a long time, the originally distinct grains of rice will become a ball.

Gu Chaoming lived in a daze for many years, until recently he felt that his life was no longer a sticky mess.

"This is actually very simple, you don't need to count this at the beginning, you split this up..."

The tip of the pen pointed at the printed characters on the book. Lin Jianfan's voice was not loud, and he explained every step carefully from beginning to end.

The class bell rang, and before the topic was finished, the teacher walked in with a stack of papers and asked the class representative to distribute them.

"There are two classes today, let's take a test." The teacher said.

This is Gu Chaoming's first test after studying hard.

Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming who collected his textbooks and was about to go back to his seat: "Come on for the exam, let's see the results of your recent efforts."

Gu Chaoming turned his head and grinned.

"Let you see how good I am."