The following guilty

Gu Heng woke up early in the morning.

The whole city has woken up, and the melodious and melodious bird calls sounded from the trees above his head. With his eyes closed, he thought he was in an inn in Qinghai, and the birds outside the window were jumping around mischievously. Urging myself to get up, today I will go to Qinghai Lake with Xiaoyuan, the water there is so blue, the sky is so blue, Xiaoyuan is wearing a silver-gray coat, tall and big, my eyes can't help but want to go to Looking at him, the wind blowing by the lake made his body feel slightly chilled, so comfortable...

A sharp whistle sounded, and Gu Heng suddenly opened his eyes.

where is this?

He curled up on the ground, looking at the dust in front of him, and it took him 5 minutes to piece together all the pieces—alcohol, night, this dark alley, his screaming desperately, his desperate struggle...

So are you still lying here?

go home... i want to go home...

Gu Heng used all his strength to prop himself up, but as soon as he lifted his leg and knee, he felt a piercing pain. The seam in the bone was like a needle prick, and he was about to pass out from the pain. Painful, stroking the wall to stand up again, walking out of the alley slowly and clumsily——

The huge city was unfolded in front of his eyes, with heavy traffic, sirens and crowds mixed together, and the silver buildings shone with white light. The sense of oppression almost made him panic.

He patted the dust off his body vigorously, trying not to be too embarrassed, and then he took out his pocket, but there was no money.All the mobile phones and pocket change were taken away...

Walking on the road with his head bowed, Gu Heng walked heavily, panting exhaustedly, looking at the floor tiles, he felt that he couldn't add more misery.

This kind of misery is the despair that seems to have lost everything, but nothing can be ignored.

Beep! ——

A whistle sounded suddenly, Gu Heng turned his head and found a silver car parked on the side of the road, the window slowly rolled down, revealing a familiar face, raised his hand and shook his sunglasses, "Gu Heng!"

"I actually ran into you on the street early this Saturday morning." Zhao Yiming said with a smile, "Where are you going? I'll take you with me."

It was like the last straw, even though Gu Heng wanted to hide, but he was already penniless and could hardly move, Zhao Yiming's car was a huge temptation for him.

"What are you doing in a daze, come up quickly!—" Zhao Yiming clicked on the car lock.

Gu Heng walked over, opened the door and got into the car.As soon as Zhao Yiming sat down, he was suddenly taken aback. He didn't see it clearly when he was far away, but now that he got closer, he found that Gu Heng's face was frighteningly pale, as if he had suffered a serious illness.

"What's the matter with you? Didn't sleep well?"

"Why, what's the matter?" Gu Heng lowered his head, but pinched his fingertips into his palm.

"Look at your dark circles, yo, you lost a button on your shirt, what did you do? Nothing happened, right?"

Now Gu Heng knew that Zhao Yiming would not believe it if he said nothing happened, so he said softly, "I drank some wine."

"I have a headache... just take me home."

Zhao Yiming rolled his eyes, he had to digest the huge amount of information for a while.So he clicked on the car lock, started the car and said, "Let's take you home first, and we'll talk about the situation on the way."

Gu Heng sank into the spacious leather seat, his heavy body finally had a support, and he didn't even have the strength to move his fingers.

Zhao Yiming asked, "You didn't go home last night?"

"……Um."

"Didn't drink all night?"

"Afterwards I slept at the bar for a while."

"What—what's the matter? Drinking to relieve your worries? Did you have a bad time with that student?"

"……Um."

"Hey, tell me, it's quite out of the ordinary to fall in love with a student. You two are still living together, so you are not afraid that your leader will know? You are also working hard. How much do you have to sacrifice for that child? Speaking of which, you and him What's the matter? Do you need me to help you solve your problems?"

There was no response after speaking for a long time, he turned his head and saw that Gu Heng had fallen asleep.

Zhao Yiming sighed and turned down the air conditioner.

The car drove steadily to the downstairs of Gu Heng's unit, Zhao Yiming was about to wake him up, but suddenly looked at his face in a daze.

That face is usually a little paler, and the thin lips are even more bloodless, tightly pressed.

The former self admired him, and the Gu Heng at that time always had an inviolable light, as if he was the most holy existence.

I don't know when, the "god" in my heart lost all the dazzling and reserved posture, and gradually fell like this, and fell into an ordinary man.

Is it because of being with that student?

When I returned to J City for the first time, I eagerly wanted to have him, and even used the excuse of a class reunion to get him drunk in exchange for a little skin contact.But at this moment... this person is right in front of my eyes, looking at his faint eye lines, but I can't bring up any thought of touching him.

Are you also responsible?Zhao Yiming felt an inexplicable guilt.He has used many people, but he has never felt guilty towards them, only this pale and soft face makes everything he does look so dirty.

"Gu Heng?" He called out to him, "Gu Heng? Wake up."

The eyelashes flicked slightly, and the eyes slowly opened, revealing the pupils that were light golden by the sun, revealing a fragmented and hazy brilliance.

"It's downstairs at your house."

Gu Heng squinted his eyes, said sorry, and sat up straight.

"I'll go buy you some steamed stuffed bun porridge or something? You take it home for breakfast."

"No need." Gu Heng breathed weakly, "I'm fine."

"Soon, five minutes, just sit in the car and wait for me."

"Let's not eat it...I have a bad stomach recently."

"That's fine, you go back and have a good sleep, I have to rush to the company."

Gu Heng nodded, "I'm sorry to trouble you, Ah Ming, go get busy." After saying that, he opened the door and prepared to get out of the car.

Zhao Yiming also got out of the car from the other side, and as soon as he came over, he saw Gu Heng's body swaying, and quickly supported him, "Are you okay!"

Gu Heng shook his hand, "I'm fine, you go, don't worry about me."

"Can you go? Shall I help you upstairs?"

"No...no need, you go and get busy." Gu Heng, who was afraid of being spotted, just wanted to get away quickly, but Zhao Yiming gave up when he saw that he insisted on going upstairs by himself, got into the car and drove away.

Gu Heng rarely drank so much wine.

The hangover headache made him breathless, the muscles all over his body were sore, his knees were aching, and he went straight to the download every time he went up.The three-story building took a full 5 minutes.

Finally reached the last step, he looked up——

It was actually Liu Yuan standing at the door.

His expression was very cold, with a suitcase at his feet, he just stood there motionless and watched Gu Heng walk over while leaning on the wall.

Tomorrow, he will leave for City H. He has already packed up all his belongings in Gu Heng's house, and left behind the key that he personally handed over to him. At the last moment when he closes the door and is about to leave, he can't move. up.

I still want to see him one last time.

Since seven o'clock last night, he has been waiting until now, just to see when Gu Heng will come back.

He waited until early in the morning, when the carved wall in the corridor was shining with sunlight, he saw Zhao Yiming's car from the middle, and saw that the car had been parked downstairs for 10 minutes, with the windows closed tightly, and inside was a person who was completely different from him. isolated world.

He never knew that 10 minutes would be so difficult, almost every moment, every second, he thought of everything, he stared at the car intently, the light shone through the hollowed-out wall on his face, densely packed Sweating, I can't taste the cold or hot in my heart.

Is it already numb?

Until the person I was looking forward to after staying up all night finally got out of the car and was held in Zhao Yiming's arms, Liu Yuan's heart twitched fiercely, he turned around and forced himself to stop watching.

Gu Heng...

Do you know how cruel this is to me?

The thin figure gradually approached, Liu Yuan had a cold face, sniffing the huge smell of alcohol in the air, and asked condescendingly:

"How much wine did you drink?"

Gu Heng was silent.

Liu Yuan looked at his disheveled appearance, at the collar of his collar where a button was missing, and only a short white line remained. He knew that the result of asking would make his heart ache even more, but he could no longer suppress everything. Furious like an explosion, he rushed forward and grabbed Gu Heng's collar, "You..."

Squeeze out a few words through clenched teeth, "You slept with him...?"

"Isn't it!!—" The roar echoed in the corridor.

"say!--"

"answer me!--"

Gu Heng closed his eyes and pursed his lips in a straight line.

I'm sorry Liu Yuan, their separation is doomed!That being the case, what else is there to say?Two years of relationship actually waited for this question... It's really like an irony...

Liu Yuan clutched the neckline that was about to be crushed in his hands, stared carefully at the face in front of him with red eyes, and breathed out intermittent panting.

Gu Heng was shaken by him and couldn't stand the nausea for a while, so he quickly covered his mouth, Liu Yuan finally let go, Gu Heng knelt down on the ground with a plop, retched violently against the floor, his back uncontrollably one volt.

Liu Yuan looked at him gloomyly. After a long while, he took out a pack of tissues from his pocket, took out one and handed it over.

"Take it."

"..."

"I told you to take it!!"

Gu Heng lowered his head, raised his hand, his fingertips were frighteningly white, and took the tissue tremblingly.

Liu Yuan took a breath, feeling that his chest was about to explode, he picked up his suitcase and strode out of the corridor.

Let's stop here, let's stop here, never again, he never wants to come back...

Walking to the end of the corridor, he looked back for the last time - Gu Heng, with disheveled hair, was kneeling in front of the door, with a shimmering light on his back, like a sculpture.

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... The first relationship between the two can be regarded as completely over, and the reunion fighting

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