The following guilty

Liu Yuan forgot how he got out of the hospital that day, and felt that his steps were getting heavier and heavier, as if his feet were covered with melted wax, and it took all the strength of his whole body to not take a step, and finally he couldn't walk anymore, and fell down Sitting on the chair at the bus station by the side of the road, staring at the traffic coming and going in a daze.

Afterwards, he received a call from Gu Heng, the voice was very urgent, Liu Yuan didn't hear what he said, so he only reported his location and hung up.

Twenty minutes later, when Gu Heng arrived, Liu Yuan raised his eyes and looked at his figure who was getting closer and closer. For a moment, sadness, grievance, resentment...all burst out!

His chest heaved and fell, and bloodshot eyes burst out. When Gu Heng walked up to him with his coat in his arms to put it on, he raised his hand and tore it off. He got up like crazy, and roared:

"I said they wouldn't care about me at all!!"

"Why on earth do you want me to live in harmony with them, why do you want me to call that woman's mother!?"

"Do you know my family?! Do you know what I've been through? You gave me those stupid ideas based on what I told you!! In the end, no one appreciated it! Do you know! !"

Gu Heng opened his blank eyes wide, covered his coat on his chest, leaned back, was startled by Liu Yuan's sudden rage, and tremblingly said: "Don't, don't be angry, Xiao Yuan... "

"Xiao Yuan..."

The fierce light in Liu Yuan's black eyes made Gu Heng hardly dare to look at him, his nose twitched upwards, and his back was arched, like a wild beast that was about to pounce on people and skin them alive.

Gu Heng was panicked, his chest was pounding, he had never seen such a terrifying Liu Yuan, he saw Liu Yuan gasped for a few breaths, as if he was extremely restrained, then fell back to the chair, covering his head Said: "Go back...don't bother with me anymore."

Gu Heng observed him for a while, raised his foot and took a small step closer, and slowly moved towards him. As soon as he opened his mouth, he found that his voice was trembling: "Is it cold? Put on... put on the coat and let's talk..."

He put the coat on Liu Yuan, and seeing that he was not moving, he carefully sat next to him, hugged him tightly, and slid his palms on his spine-protruding back like smoothing the fur of a large animal.

"it's already over……"

"never mind……"

After a while, Liu Yuan kowtowed his head on his shoulder, Gu Heng looked at him, his heart tightened, his throat was blocked, and he didn't know how to say a thousand words.

The two sat quietly for a while, the sky was getting dark, the street lights were flickering, the cold air was slowly invading, pedestrians put their hands in their pockets, and hurried on their feet, as if only the two of them were separated from the world Separate and separate, no one will notice their existence.Gu Heng stroked his back, leaned closer and said, "Xiao Yuan, I know you are not that kind of child..."

"I am your soul, and I understand everything about you."

"There is no room for too many people in the journey of life. It is enough for us to have each other. Why do we care what other people think?"

Liu Yuan nodded for a while.

Gu Heng showed a faint smile, and asked another topic: "Can you eat barbecue, okay? Huh?"

"I do not want to eat."

Gu Heng gently stroked the hair on his forehead, leaned close to his face and said, "What about noodles? Spicy pea noodles? What do you like, okay?"

Hearing this name, Liu Yuan finally whetted his appetite, and he was indeed hungry, so he nodded.Only then did the two get up, and walked to a noodle shop that they frequented, ordered a bowl of pea noodles and a bowl of green vegetable noodles, sat in front of the glass window and ate with their heads buried.

The window of the noodle shop with lights on was covered with mist. From the outside, there were only two vague figures, and the room was lit with warm yellow light.After eating a whole bowl of noodles, the person is enriched from the inside out, and the body is warmed up.The two lay side by side on the table, their fingertips touching.

"Teacher Gu."

"Ok?"

"Am I your soul?"

"Of course you are." Gu Heng smiled, "You know everything about me, who are you?"

"You know everything about me, the things in my family, such embarrassing things... Teacher Gu." Liu Yuan looked indifferently, "Did I scare you?"

Gu Heng thought about it and nodded.

"Will you leave me?"

Gu Heng shook his head.

Then he smiled softly, "If you never showed up, I should be eating noodles here by myself now."

"Xiaoyuan, remember...you are very important."

In an instant, Liu Yuan's eyes became moist, Gu Heng's words echoed in his empty heart,

Xiaoyuan

you remember

You are very important

Am I important...?

It didn't know when it started raining outside, and it flowed down the signboard, the two of them watched the rain for a while, and Liu Yuan had the cheek to ask the owner of the noodle shop to borrow an umbrella, and then walked home with Gu Heng on his back.

"Xiao Yuan." Gu Heng circled his neck, sniffed his body vigorously, then rubbed the tip of his nose against the side of his face and asked, "Is it heavy?"

"How about you relive the past?"

"Have you heard it?" Gu Heng laughed, "It's good that you understand."

"I don't understand." Liu Yuan said deliberately.

"It's better not knowing." Gu Heng sneered, and buried the tip of his chin a little deeper into Liu Yuan's neck.

He didn't dare to imagine, didn't dare to imagine at all what he would do if the child wanted to leave him in the future.

In the past, he was ignorant and knew nothing about love, but once he tasted this sweetness, he couldn't give up anymore.

He is walking on a road that cannot be turned back, he knows it well.

But he is willing to go on like this without hesitation, and he is not even willing to estimate the risks, regardless of whether there is a dead end ahead.His life has always been on a regular track, but this time, like a rebellious child, he put everything behind him and tried his best to taste the thrill of being off track.

The raindrops hit the umbrella, making a crisp sound. Gu Heng held the handle of the umbrella and turned it around. The raindrops flew away like fireworks. He was very happy. He looked up at those playful raindrops, his eyes curled up.

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After Liu's mother's miscarriage, although it was not found out who it was, Liu Yuan and his father had a complete quarrel, and they never went home after that day.

As winter is getting closer, Liu Yuan spends less and less time at school. Sometimes when Gu Heng is walking on campus, he finds that he has not been haunted by an annoying spirit around him for a long time, and he can't get used to it.Fortunately, the two of them could meet every night, but recently he went out with Liu Yu to socialize, often returning home in the middle of the night, when Gu Heng was usually ready to go to bed.

It was almost eleven o'clock that day, just as Gu Heng changed into his pajamas and climbed into bed, there was a hasty knock on the door in the living room, and he hurriedly kicked on his slippers to open the door.

As soon as Liu Yuan entered the door, Gu Heng noticed that something was wrong with him today, he was panting heavily, and his eyes were a little indifferent.Seeing him entering the bedroom, throwing the briefcase on the floor, and unbuttoning his shirt, Gu Heng quickly stepped forward to help him unbutton it while asking, "Have you been drinking?"

"Yeah." Liu Yuan raised his head, "I drank a little."

"Can I cook some porridge for you?"

"How long will it take to cook?"

"Two and 10 minutes will be fine."

"Forget it, I can't drink enough. Huh—"

"Sleep directly?" Gu Heng asked softly.

Liu Yuan turned his head and looked at him solemnly, "Huh?"

Gu Heng's heart suddenly jumped wildly, and he didn't know what happened, and suddenly felt that Liu Yuan's slightly disheveled hair was very attractive at this time.

He turned his head and said, "Oh, just ask, it's nothing."

Liu Yuan smiled, stretched out two thin fingers, the fingertips were cold from the outside temperature, pinched his chin, and straightened his face.

Gu Heng raised his heart and said nervously: "You, what are you doing?"

"What are you doing?" Liu Yuan repeated, staring at him and smiling, leaning forward, slowly approaching his face, blowing a cloud of hot air into his ear, "Fuck you."

Gu Heng's fingertips tightened suddenly, and he reacted almost instantly, and then his eyes suddenly darkened, and his lips were blocked.

Liu Yuan's lips were very moist, with the smell of alcohol slowly blowing out, while he was kissing, he held Gu Heng's hand and put it on his belt buckle.

The leather buckle was made of metal, cold and chilly. Gu Heng fumbled with a red face, and unbuttoned it a few times. Liu Yuan kicked the pants aside with his feet, pinched Gu Heng's butt, and used his underwear to hold it against it. The crotch of his soft pajamas slowly moved forward.

He bit Gu Heng's lower lip, and the alcohol surged up, and he blurted out a sentence: "Give my husband a bite, okay?"

Is it ok? ...

The two words lingered in Gu Heng's bewildered brain, he felt his eyes were spinning, bursts of desire were about to break through the restraints, and turned upside down and surged to the top of his head.Then his body went limp, and he knelt on the ground almost uncontrollably...

It turns out that I have worse self-control than I imagined...

The author has something to say:

I don’t know if there are any little angels who remember the phrase “Is it sinking or not”~~嘤~~~

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