you are my accident

Just wandering around in the suburbs for another day, the two went back.Probably because he finally made up his mind, Shi Zhe's mood was much more stable than before, and the smile on his face was a little bit more, and he looked relieved.

Looking at the calendar, Wang Zicai suddenly realized that the New Year would be coming soon.

Anyway, being idle is also idle, so he simply asked Shi Zhe to go out to buy New Year's goods together.This will be the first New Year he spends at Shi's house, and he wants to decorate it with a more homely and New Year's feel.

"Do you think this set of bowls is good?" Wang Zicai asked, "Is that set better?"

"It's all good." Shi Zhe said lightly.

"You don't seem very happy?" Wang Zicai put down the things in his hands and looked at him sideways.

"It's nothing." Shi Zhe said, "It's just that I haven't celebrated the New Year with others for too long."

"In the future, I will celebrate the New Year with you." Wang Zicai frowned, "Besides, I am not 'someone else'."

Shi Zhe looked at him for a long time before answering, "Yes."

Wang Zicai took out a candy from his pocket, peeled it off and stuffed it into his mouth, and said with a smile, "Is it sweet?"

"Yeah." The sugar melted on the tip of the tongue, and it seemed to spread to the heart.

Wang Zicai checked that there were not many people around, and it seemed that no one noticed them, so he quickly kissed the corner of Shi Zhe's mouth, licked his lips, and said, "It's really sweet."

At this moment, the way Shi Zhe looked at him changed, it was mysterious, as if he wanted to eat people.

Before Shi Zhe could get angry, Wang Zicai pulled him up and laughed: "Okay, let's go and see what kind of vase we can buy."

When the two of them put the things they bought in the car, it was already noon, and Wang Zicai proposed to have something to eat at a nearby restaurant before going back.

After lunch, as soon as I stepped out of the door, I heard a loud commotion not far away.The two looked along the source of the sound, only to see a group of black shadows falling rapidly from above, making a heavy bang with a "bang".

Immediately, someone screamed: "Dead!"

"Jumped off the building! Someone jumped off the building!"

"Sin, why can't you think about it so much?"

The one lying on the ground looked like a woman, face down, with blood overflowing on the ground, lifeless.

Some of the people around were calling on the phone, and some were watching and discussing.Wang Zicai turned his head to look at Shi Zhe, he was startled, and couldn't care about the others, "How are you doing?"

Shi Zhe stared straight there, his pupils constricted violently, his face was pale, and his lips were bloodless.Wang Zicai immediately held his hand, only to feel that the tentacles were bitingly cold and trembling.

"Are you okay?" Wang Zicai asked worriedly.

Looking at the situation, could it be that he is ill?He was about to take out the medicine, but secretly cried out that it was not good.In the past few days, seeing that Shi Zhe's condition was stable, he actually forgot the medicine in the car.He secretly regretted his carelessness, took Shi Zhe by the hand, and said, "Let's go, let's go first."

The ambulance arrived quickly, with a screeching sound.Shi Zhe seemed to have exhausted all his strength, and squeezed out a few words from between his teeth: "Go, go quickly..."

As soon as he lifted his step, his body's center of gravity was unstable, and he almost fell down.Fortunately, Wang Zicai used all his strength to help him stagger back to the car.

Wang Zicai waited for him to take the medicine, and it took a while before Shi Zhe managed to calm down.He sat there quietly, without saying a word, closing his eyes as if exhausted.

"Take a rest, we'll go home right away." Wang Zicai said immediately because the medicine has a hypnotic effect.

Hearing the word "home", his eyelids moved, but he still didn't open his eyes, and just murmured in his throat.

The car drove back home quickly.Wang Zicai parked the car in the garage, and turned his head to look at Shi Zhe. His eyes were closed, his brows were deeply furrowed, and he looked extremely unstable, as if he had fallen into a nightmare.

Wang Zicai patted him lightly to wake him up: "Wake up, Shi Zhe, Shi Zhe!"

Shi Zhe slowly opened his eyes, as if he was still a little dazed, but regained his clarity in an instant.Wang Zicai looked at him intently, only to see that the other party's eyes were calm and unwavering, no longer the look of losing his composure just now.

Wang Zicai said, "Get out of the car."

Back in the room, Wang Zi just wanted to go out and pack up the things he bought, and let Shi Zhe take a good rest by the way.As soon as he turned around, he heard Shi Zhe say in a suppressed voice behind him, "Don't go."

Wang Zicai immediately turned around, sat next to him, squeezed his palm and said, "Okay, I won't go."

Shi Zhe breathed a sigh of relief, and after a moment of silence, he suddenly said, "My mother... just jumped to her death."

Wang Zicai was surprised. He had heard about Mrs. Shi, but didn't that mean she was seriously ill and there was no cure for it?If he really jumped off a building, it's no wonder Shi Zhe lost his composure just now.

As if seeing his doubts, Shi Zhe twitched the corners of his mouth and said sarcastically, "The old man certainly said that to the outside world in order to whitewash the peace. After all, there are not many people who know the truth now."

At that time, Shi's father and Shi's mother had a rift in their marriage, and they had separated long ago, but to the outside world, Shi's father only said that Shi's mother was unwell and went to recuperate.At that time, Shi Zhe still lived with his mother, and his father only visited them once during Chinese New Year and holidays, but they broke up unhappy every time.Therefore, the young Shi Zhe still hated his father, and this hatred intensified with his mother's death.

"That day, when my mother heard the news that the woman had given birth to a child, she couldn't think about it for a while, so she jumped off the building." He took a deep breath and said, "At that time, I watched her fall from such a high place, There was blood all over the ground." In the dream just now, it was also full of the resolute figure of his mother jumping down and the blood all over the ground, oppressing him to the point of suffocation.

The tone of his retelling was very flat, but Wang Zicai could still hear the thrill inside.Living in an unhappy family and witnessing his mother's death, it's no wonder that Shi Zhe has a heart attack.

"But, that person," Shi Zhe paused for a moment, his tone suddenly becoming resentful, "For so many years, he only remembers his son's birthday, but did he remember that it was also my mother's death? Why can he be so nonchalant? And my mother’s bones were not cold, so he married that woman back home. Does he still think that my mother died well, so that she can help that woman to be in power?” After so many years, he still vividly remembers the look in his mother’s eyes .It was a look that went from expectation to disappointment to despair, like ashes that were gradually cooling down, and could no longer ignite a spark.

Wang Zicai wanted to comfort him, but thousands of words came to his mouth but he couldn't come out.He only hated the paleness of his words at the moment, so he got up and hugged Shi Zhe, leaning his head on his shoulder, and said softly, "Cry if you want to."

"I didn't want to cry." Shi Zhe said, but didn't push him away.Tears were a sign of weakness, and he had to harden his heart.

It's strange to say that these things that have been suppressed in his heart for many years, he thought they would be dusted in the past with time, but unexpectedly he confides them so easily.

"I didn't expect that I would tell you this." Shi Zhe took a deep breath and said, "But it's not as painful as I imagined." Recalling the bloody past, there is still pain and resentment, but he doesn't know when he is talking. I feel a lot lighter.

Wang Zicai said, "Because you have me."

In fact, when he listened to the old things he said, his heart ached, his heart was pierced like a knife, and his body felt the same. He wished that time could go back in time, so that he could meet the young Shi Zhe earlier and bring him home; Give Shi Zhe more of the love he got, so that he will no longer be alone.

Shi Zhe squeezed his palm, but said nothing.

"Remember what I said? I want to be your family." Wang Zicai said again, "I'm not joking, I'm serious." He wanted to give him a family, and this desire was unprecedentedly strong.

"I understand." Shi Zhe said, "Do you know why I kept rejecting you before?"

"why?"

"It's not just my condition." His voice was soft, but dangerous, "Because if you regret it first, I will definitely destroy you with my own hands."

"And what if you regret it?"

Shi Zhe closed his eyes and said in a low voice, "Then I will destroy myself."

Wang Zicai felt a pain in his heart, the tragedy of his childhood cast a heavy shadow on him, he could only bring him out if he stepped into his heart more firmly.Thinking about it, Wang Zicai hugged him more closely, trying to pass on all the warmth from his body to him.The two were silent for a while, and Wang Zicai felt that Shi Zhe's mood had almost recovered, and suddenly remembered something, and asked cautiously, "Then will you go home for the Chinese New Year?"

"Go back to dinner on New Year's Eve." This is a routine, and he is used to it.His wings are not yet full, he has no choice but to pretend to be a snake, even if he faces the most hated and disgusting person, he still has to have dinner together.

"I will stay at Wang's house from the [-]th to the second day of the new year, why don't you go back with me?" Wang Zicai asked.

"On the second day of the new year?"

Shi Zhe's tone was so normal that Wang Zicai didn't realize that he was teasing him.After he reacted, he asked in surprise, "Are you serious?"

"No?" Shi Zhe asked back.

Wang Zicai didn't mind about the second day of the new year, he just smiled and said, "Then it's settled, I'll take you home when the time comes. I've come out to them a long time ago, so you don't have to worry about our family's situation. Of course, I I also want to introduce you to my parents and my brother. Ah, but it seems that there is no need to introduce you, they all know you. My mother should be quite satisfied, um, you have to behave well on my father's side..."

Shi Zhe let him babble, and waited for him to finish before responding, "Okay."

"Then I'm not at home for a few days, are you not used to it?" Wang Zicai asked jokingly.

"No." Shi Zhe said very calmly, "But I will miss you."

For a moment, Wang Zi felt that something was right in his heart, which made him hard to guard against.He widened his eyes and said, "Say it again?!"

Shi Zhe repeated helplessly: "I will miss you."

Wang Zicai moved closer: "Who taught you these words?"

"Nobody taught it."

"Then why are you so sneaky when you say it?" Wang Zicai was still in disbelief.

"Probably self-taught." Shi Zhe raised his eyebrows slightly, "Or...the one who is close to ink is black."

The corners of Wang Zicai's mouth curled up, and he said, "Why do I feel that you have become a lot more frank after you became enlightened?"

"do not like?"

"I like it, I like it very much." Wang Zicai responded hastily, and couldn't help plucking the hair on the top of the tiger when he was so proud, and touched Shi Zhe's face, "It's very painful for you to be honest."

Shi Zhe suddenly felt that sooner or later he had to set up some house rules for this guy, otherwise he would have to go to the house every day to expose the tiles.He patted Wang Zicai's butt and said, "Don't make trouble."

This time, the picture was just right, and it reminded Wang Zicai of some tragic memories.He immediately clenched his tail and became honest, "Okay, okay, I won't bother you anymore, you are not in a good state today, you should take a rest, I will pack up."

"Hmm." Shi Zhe responded.

It's a pity that Wang Zicai was honest for only three seconds. Before he left, he still gave him a quick kiss, winked at him and said, "Just to make a sweet deal first."

Shi Zhe watched him slip out of the door angrily and amusedly, shaking his head and laughing.