you are so cute

Outside Dongyang City, Xiangye Mountain.

After a heavy rain, the temperature dropped a lot and the weather was much cooler.In the early morning, the mountains and forests are full of moist mist, making them look more ethereal and deserted.

With the support of Lu Changting, Yun Ran, who was dressed in plain clothes, stumbled and walked, holding a black box tightly in his arms, his face ashen.A Zhan led A Ci and Fang Jingping and followed them quietly. A Ci's big eyes were empty, and he followed A Zhan mechanically. His eyes seemed to fall on Yun Ran in front of him, but he didn't seem to.

"...Here we are, here it is." Zhao Yan'er who was leading the way suddenly stopped after walking for an unknown amount of time, and said softly.

Five steps away from where she was standing, there was a small solitary grave with a tablet without characters, which looked very desolate in this barren mountain.

"It's not that I didn't come to investigate back then, it's just that when I found out, I just saw the people in the palace throwing the child away..." Zhao Yan'er's face was so ugly that she couldn't bear to continue. Dare to see Yunran's reaction.

Yun Ran knelt down in front of the grave, caressed the bulging grave with trembling hands, moved her bloodless lips twice, but couldn't make any sound.After Cong Yunshu's death, he didn't speak for several days.If it wasn't for Zhao Yan'er who suddenly came in and said he knew the place where the child was buried, he might have died holding Yun Shu's ashes like this without eating or drinking.

Lu Changting fell to his knees along with Yun Ran. He suppressed his breath just now, intentionally or unintentionally avoiding his eyes and daring not to look in this direction, but at this moment when he approached, he couldn't help but see that this is a tomb, a grave. A small solitary grave, in which his newborn child was buried, passed away five years ago, and he, the father, only now knows the truth.

The suppressed breath finally couldn't be restrained, and with tears pouring out, Lu Changting was sobbing, his eyes blurred, "Son, child, Daddy is here to see you..."

Ah Ci also approached slowly, his eyes lost the bright look of the past, his nose was flushed, he choked up and said in a small voice: "Little baby, my brother came to see you...it's my brother who is sorry for you, sorry for you... ..."

Yunran didn't cry, he put his arms on it and slowly pressed down, put his face on the grave and rubbed it lightly, closed his eyes, as if holding it, intimate and gentle .

It was so quiet, and I don't know how long it took, a gust of wind passed by, and the trees swayed, as if someone was whispering.

Yunran suddenly bent the corners of her mouth slightly, put her hand on the grave, and whispered: "Don't be afraid, baby, I'll take you home. Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Yun Ran temporarily handed over Yun Shu's urn, which had not been out of his hand for several days, into Lu Changting's hands, then bent down and started... Digging the grave with his bare hands.

Lu Changting wiped away tears, was slightly startled, and asked hoarsely, "Aran, you..."

Yunran didn't look back, and continued to dig persistently with those slender white fingers, "I want to take the child home, he's too cold and scared here, I want to take him away."

Lu Changting was silent for a while, and said, "Okay, let's take him home."

Zhao Yan'er finally raised her head and saw that Yun Ran's hands were already bleeding, she frowned gloomily and hesitated to speak, but in the end she didn't start, and didn't stop her.

Lu Changting was heartbroken and grabbed the dazed Yunran's hand, not letting him use his hand, "Aran, Aran? Look at me, a child like you will feel bad! Let me do it, okay?"

Yun Ran stared at him blankly with black eyes, and continued to dig on the ground as if he hadn't heard it. A Zhan, Fang Ping, and Lu Changting all stood silently to help. The urn handed over by Lu Changting stood aside, tightly hugging it with his little hands.

Lu Changting really didn't want Yunran's cell phone to become bloody and bloody, so he hit the sleeping point while he wasn't paying attention, made him fall into a coma, hugged him to the side of the tree and let him sit on it, and A Ci followed , squatting beside her without blinking her eyes, guarding Yunran closely.

When Yunran woke up again, he had already returned to the Qin Mansion's room. It was already dark. Besides Yun Shu's urn, there was another smaller box next to him. The whole body was completely black, revealing a A bone-biting bleakness.

Yunran sat up slowly, his eyes fixed on it for a moment, holding a box in one hand and leaning against the bed, as if he had exhausted all his strength so that his hands were trembling slightly, his black hair was loose, and his complexion was pale , breathing shallow and weak, he didn't cry much after Yun Shu's death, but there was a silent desolation and despair all over his body.At this moment, his silent and empty appearance is even worse than the previous few days.

Lu Changting was still red-eyed, trying his best to hold a bowl of porridge and knelt beside Yun Ran and begged for a long time, thinking that he could have a bite.As a result, Yun Ran didn't even open his mouth, as if he isolated himself, and didn't respond to his words at all.

"Aran, eat something, just treat it, just treat it for me, okay?" Lu Changting couldn't sleep at night these days, his complexion was ugly, and he looked very tired. In addition, Yunran refused to eat, Lu Changting Dejected and sad.

How much he wanted to drag this person out of the endless abyss of pain, but now he is also suffering in it, how can he save Yun Ran?All he can do now is try his best to persuade him to eat something.

Faced with Yunran's indifference, Lu Changting's hand holding the bowl finally collapsed powerlessly, and the other hand squeezed the center of his eyebrows, feeling like he was in a mess.

In the next few days, people always came and went in and out of Yunran's room, A Zhan, Fang Ping, Qin Shi, Zhao Yan'er, A Ci, the doctor... They were sad or sad when they saw Yun Ran's lost soul. Worried or uncomfortable or sighing, they talked to him carefully, but none of them could get Yunran's reaction.

Except for Lu Changting, who was indiscriminately dressed and took care of him.

Lu Changting insisted on serving three meals a day in front of Yunran, coaxing softly, begging painstakingly, and finally managed to feed some porridge once, watching Yunran swallow subconsciously, suffering for a few days Lu Changting burst into tears with excitement, and instantly felt that he had received a little redemption, and hurriedly fed him a little, but he refused to open his mouth after eating only half a bowl.

The already thin person is even worse now, like a paper man who flies away when the wind blows.

However, take your time, don't be in a hurry, as long as he is willing to take a sip, Lu Changting will be thankful.

"Aran, something is wrong with Aci recently..." Although the weather is cooler now, in order to make Yunran more comfortable, Lu Changting coaxes Yunran to put the box in his arms aside temporarily every night before going to bed, and then Wipe his face and body with warm water.

This day, he wiped Yun Ran's face carefully while sighing in pain, "After this sudden change, he was a little worried. I wanted to talk to him, but he only said that I would take good care of you. I brought him up since childhood. I have never seen him look so gloomy since I was a child, Ah Ran... Ah Ci, he doesn't call me dad now. I've been his dad for so many years, and I won't call him if I don't want to. What should I do in the future... ...He has always kissed you and is willing to listen to you, so cheer up and talk to him, Ah Ran, okay?"

The moist and warm towel stroked Yunran's picturesque and beautiful eyebrows and eyes, and Yunran's eyelashes were also stained with water vapor, trembling slightly like butterfly wings. The redness and blush finally made him look less weak.

What softened Lu Changting's heart even more was that Yun Ran's gaze was no longer blank, but slowly lifted up to meet his gaze.

Lu Changting's eyes lit up slightly, and he softly called out as if afraid of scaring him: "Aran? Are you looking at me?"

Yun Ran's lips moved a few times. Although she couldn't make a sound, Lu Changting didn't dare to blink his eyes. "Do you want to see A Ci?"

Yun Ran nodded slowly.

Lu Changting hurriedly said, "I'll call, I'll call right away."

He took two steps in a hurry, a dizziness in his head made him stop abruptly, he suddenly turned his head to look at Yunran, and saw him sitting there quietly with his eyes closed like a painting, For some reason, a sense of uneasiness came over me in an instant.He hesitated for a while and didn't move, Ah Ran wouldn't, probably wouldn't leave him...

At this moment, Yun Ran raised his face, a trace of doubt seemed to flash in his black pupils, and he looked at him, as if asking why he hadn't left yet.

Lu Changting walked back again, and suddenly held Yun Ran's hands tightly, and fixed his gaze on him, "A Ran, you will obediently wait for me and Ah Ci, right?"

Yunran looked back at him softly for a long while, then his throat rolled slightly, and he finally spoke again. Although the voice was so small that it was only breath, Lu Changting still felt his heart tremble violently.

"Correct."

Lu Changting's eyes were hot, he took his hand on the back of his hand, touched his lips lightly on it, choked up and said, "A Ran, neither I nor A Ci can live without you, do you know?"

Yun Ran nodded, her voice still not loud, "I know."

"then you……"

"I won't kill myself." Yun Ran seemed to know what he was afraid of, reached out and touched his face to reassure softly, there seemed to be a ray of clear light in his eyes, which made Lu Changting heave a sigh of relief.

Yun Ran whispered again: "Call Ah Ci, I have something to tell him."

"Okay, I'll go right now."

As soon as Lu Changting pushed the door, he bumped into A Zhan who was coming to see Yunran. Lu Changting grabbed him and told him to watch Yunran carefully.Although Yunran had a guarantee, Lu Changting was now a frightened bird and could not withstand more unexpected blows.

A Zhan nodded solemnly, and walked into the room. Lu Changting exchanged a glance with Yun Ran who was looking at him, and then he really left to find A Ci.

These days, he was exhausted and stayed by Yunran's side all the time. Although Ah Ci often came to see Yunran, he was not under Lu Changting's nose for the rest of the time. Lu Changting had no time/scruples and could only let Fang Ping and A Zhan helped to watch the children more.

So when he searched around and finally found Ah Ci in a corner of a side courtyard, squatting there suppressing his voice, his face flushed from crying and out of breath, Lu Changting For a moment, he was so distressed that he even stopped breathing.

What has he been ignoring these past few days? !Lu Changting felt that he was too stupid.

As if he heard the movement, Ah Ci's sobbing voice suddenly stopped, he wiped his face suddenly, wiped away the tears from the corner of his mouth, and stood up quickly.

With the light of the light, Ah Ci saw the face of the person coming, he blinked his wet eyes, but didn't call anyone.

Lu Changting approached, leaned down to look at his tear-stained face, and said softly, "Why doesn't Ah Ci call you daddy anymore?"

After hearing his words, Ah Ci's tears, which he had tried so hard to hold back, flattened his mouth and fell even more fiercely. He took a few breaths of discomfort before carefully asking: "You...are you really willing to be me? Daddy?"

What are you willing or not?Lu Changting was taken aback, "Why did Ah Ci ask such a question?"

Ah Ci looked at him, lowered his eyes, the eyeballs slid from his cheeks to his chin as if they were broken, and fell straight to the ground, his shoulders shrugged and he didn't speak until he cried.

Lu Changting frowned, knelt down, wiped his tears, and asked softly, "Aci? What's the matter, tell dad, why did you ask like that?"

"You...don't you hate me?" Ah Ci's voice was hoarse from crying.

"We...hate you?" Lu Changting was shocked by his words.Hate, why hate him?What the hell is this kid thinking?

Ah Ci's eyes were red, and he sobbed: "I, I know that I was the one who should have died back then, but I was replaced by someone else, so you and your mother, and your and mother's children will die. I killed him Your little baby, damn it was originally mine, and it was because it wasn’t me who died back then, his grandfather, he committed suicide. It’s all A Ci’s fault for you, it’s all A Ci’s fault, you must hate me to death , I feel so uncomfortable every day, I can't breathe when I see my mother like that, I, I, should I die, woo woo woo..."

Lu Changting only felt a numbness in his heart, and it took him a while to find his voice. He said in an unbelievable stern voice: "Ah Ci, why do you think so? This matter is with you from the beginning to the end. It doesn't matter, you didn't kill anyone, how could we hate you?!"

Lu Changting thought that during the days and nights when he neglected his child, he might have been sobbing and crying alone and helpless, and his heart was broken. He was only five years old, why did he have to bear so much?

He hugged the feverish child from crying into his arms, and hugged him tightly, Lu Changting gritted his teeth and said, "A Ci, father doesn't allow you to think like that, do you hear me?! Father can't live without you, and neither can your mother." I can't live without you. You have seen your mother's appearance now, if you have any troubles, he will definitely not be able to live on!"

Ah Ci leaned against this familiar An Xin's embrace, his little head went blank for a moment, and then asked softly, extremely uneasy: "Don't you hate Ah Ci?"

"Father said, this matter has nothing to do with you! Don't think about Ah Ci in the future, do you hear me?" Lu Changting was very strict.

"Then you guys still want me?"

"Yes, of course I want you, silly boy, a father is a father, how can there be any reason why you should not be half of it?"

Ah Ci's breath froze for a moment, and then he stood up a little in Lu Changting's arms, raised his hand to wipe his tears, and wiped his hand wet, "Then, can I continue to call you Daddy in the future?"

Lu Changting looked at him tenderly, nodded, "Of course."

A Ci's eyes overflowed with water, his cheeks bulged and his mouth turned white, no matter what he couldn't suppress the turbulent tears.

"Then... what about mother, can I continue to call him mother? Will he still want Ah Ci?"

Just as Lu Changting was about to speak, a low and hoarse voice came from behind: "A Ci."

Lu Changting didn't expect Yun Ran to come out, so he immediately turned his head in surprise, and A Ci also looked over Lu Changting's shoulder and followed his line of sight to see Yun Ran standing not far behind him, dressed in plain white and looking cool with the wind Swing lightly.

"A Ci." There seemed to be tears in Yunran's eyes, and there were slight ripples, and under the moonlight, there were tiny lights shining. He knelt down and waved at A Ci, "A Ci , come here, to mother's place."

Ah Ci's moist eyes were wide open for a moment, and he immediately flew over without hesitation, crashing into Yun Ran's arms, his thin arms desperately hugging his body, like a Hug the driftwood in the water.And these days, the fear and uneasiness that has been entangled and permeated in my heart like a nightmare all the time, finally disappeared in this hug little by little...

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