Yufeng

"You've been, always, been fooling me? You don't know, do you?! You, you, you... have been fooling me all this time?"

After screaming, the voice stuck in his throat again.

Grief and humiliation were intertwined with distorted expressions on his pale face.

If he had a knife in his hand, Jiang Ku could stab his dearest person to see if he had an organ called "heart".

He rushed in front of Li Muyu, grabbed his skirt tightly and forced him to stand up and face himself.

Li Muyu wanted to use tenderness to deal with the raging waves of anger, but at this moment, Jiang Kuang's eyes were full of irony.

"Jiang Gu, I'm not lying to you..."

He wanted to hug the teetering boy, the pained and distorted expression made his heart ache to stop beating.

What he said was as empty as nothing.

"Do not touch me!"

Jiang Kuan roared hoarsely, let go of his hand and stepped back.

Tears burst into his eyes, and he couldn't care less.

"Yeah, you didn't! You just...don't want me, right?"

He gritted his teeth and grinned bitterly.

Li Muyu wanted to hug his hands and stopped in the air.

He nodded again.

Ah Cheng was full of doubts and shock.That shouldn't be his answer, absolutely not, how could this be? !

Jiang Kui finally got the final answer.

His Li Muyu didn't want him, didn't want his feelings, all his infatuated love, even the last hope of persistence, disappeared.

"Li Muyu, I... hate you!"

Jiang Zhu paused every word, and stopped looking at Li Muyu.

After several years of confusion, I finally woke up completely enough.

Too thorough, he wasn't ready yet...

After struggling for so many years, he still couldn't bear the ruthless rejection.

My heart hurts so much, it seems to be torn piece by piece by someone's hand.

Ah Cheng watched Jiang Ku slowly walk towards his room, closed the door without making a sound.

He couldn't help feeling a little worried.

He knows the pain when dreams are shattered, and the blood is terrible.

He even began to wonder if he did something wrong?Is it the most merciful way to let Jiang Zuo be trapped in fantasy for the rest of his life?

Ah Cheng suddenly panicked, he didn't taste the joy of victory, not at all.

Li Muyu sat down again, resting her head on the back of the sofa, staring at the ceiling, looking exhausted.

"Are you satisfied?" He asked Ah Cheng in a deep voice.

"I……"

Ah Cheng was at a loss.

Li Muyu seemed to have aged a lot in an instant.

"Why...don't you admit it?"

"What do I need to admit?" Li Muyu asked back.

Ah Cheng was puzzled: "Do you really not love him?"

Li Muyu smiled sadly: "What do you want from me, do I still love you enough?"

"Why did you admit it just now and didn't tell him directly?" Ah Cheng was angry, angry for Jiang Ku.

"I admit it, I told him, then what?" Li Muyu asked lightly.

Ah Cheng was embarrassed.

He could only shake his head, he didn't know, never thought about it.

"In my life, I can't afford to give him the kind of affection he wants..." Li Muyu murmured blankly, "Maybe, you can."

"No, I can't." Ah Cheng lowered his head in frustration.

In Li Muyu's smile, he knew that he couldn't win anything from the beginning.

"Jiang Gu can't hold anyone else in his heart, except you... I can't replace you, Li Muyu, forever."

Li Muyu closed his eyes and fell into silence.

"If you can't afford it, let him go."

Ah Cheng was sorry to hear that there was a whiff of pleading in his words.

"I...have never imprisoned him, never." Li Muyu replied.

"Fart!" Ah Cheng kicked the sofa irritably, "Dare you say no?! You let him indulge in fantasies about you and stay away from reality. You are the real fucking sick. You are enjoying his treatment of you. Li Muyu, if you really want to be his father, how can you let him have so deep fantasies that he can't extricate himself?!"

"You want to drive him crazy, don't you?! Turn him into a little idiot who only knows you, Li Muyu, and doesn't know how to love and understand life?! Don't you?!"

"Are you fucking revenge?!" Ah Cheng continued to accuse viciously. He wanted to tear off the gentle skin of the man in front of him.

Li Muyu didn't refute, he continued to remain silent until he saw Jiang Zhu standing in front of him again, staring at him in a daze.

There was a faint hope in Jiang Ku's red eyes, and he knew that he was also waiting for his own explanation.

He wants to explain, to explain that he has already read all his thoughts, to explain the struggle in the entangled emotional belonging for so long, to explain that he has been waiting for him to grow up, and to explain that he also has feelings when holding him. Everlasting desire, want to explain that he understands his fragility, never bear to hurt more, want to explain how much he wants to protect him, from the moment we first met, I have longed for eternity.

But life is life.

It's time to end all this, he doesn't need to know these explanations and the impending departure behind them.

"I'm sorry, Jiang Gu, you should go."

He said to him, still gazing gently with his father's eyes, but his words were ruthless expulsion.

A cold apology put an end to years of unrequited love.

Jiang Ku heard it, and this time he stopped making noise, pleading, and holding onto him.

He nodded seriously.

The play of Salted Egg Superman finally ended, and it was too late to miss it. He heard that the world he thought was eternal collapsed in the depths of his heart, and it was a mess. His hero was wiped out in the ruins.

He still wanted to ask, if time could turn back, if everything hadn't changed, if he was still that boy in the sixth grade, if his mother hadn't brought him to this man, what would his world be like?

If there is no such person as Li Muyu, what would a child named Jiang Zhu look like?

He couldn't guess, but none of that mattered anymore.

Its daybreak.

§ending§

Its daybreak……

The child named Jiang Gu had no choice but to leave.

This home was given by Li Muyu, so it should belong to Li Muyu.

Jiang Ku felt that the man who had adopted him for so many years should be paid.

And that was the end of his relationship with him.

The so-called father-son relationship established never existed before, and everyone knew that this day would come sooner or later.

Li Muyu seemed to have aged overnight, haggard as if she had changed her body.

Before Jiang Gu left, he hugged him gently: Li Muyu, I will never forget you, never.

Li Muyu looked at his face with a weary smile: good.

Jiang Gu also laughed: But I will hate you, always will.

Li Muyu is helpless: It's okay, but don't say forever.There are not so many "forever" in the world, you have to learn to cherish the present.

Then, he handed over a passbook: I said that I will bear it until the end of your university.

Jiang Ku took the passbook and walked out of this place that used to be his home without looking back, out of this world where he had built love and then ruthlessly destroyed it.

He had been extremely afraid of parting, but he never imagined that the person who carried it out again and again was always himself, what an ironic reality.

In this life, he might never see this man named Li Muyu again, he thought.

Isn't it pathetic?That would be too fake!

He still loves him, but there is no hope...

He has been brutally expelled from all his future life without even a trace of nostalgia.

The roar of the train concealed the choked crying, and Jiang Kuo exchanged the last bit of bloody growth for the rebirth of his feelings, waiting for the confused future in the dazzling white lights of the sleeper.

Acheng has been hugging him tightly.

He knew that Jiang Gu would fall into a painful process of being reborn, and he could only see the sunshine of tomorrow if he survived it.

The first day of the new year is always lively and warm. Everyone is sending and receiving messages to exchange blessings, and praying for a happy and happy future with family and friends.

Only Jiang Ku's love life died in a hurry in the cold and silent, without even having time to erect a tombstone.

And time will turn all the seemingly indelible past into a passing cloud.

Ah Cheng knew that the rebirth of his spirit would bring unpredictable consequences.

So he didn't insist on seeking more from the new Jiang Kuo.

The two oscillated between buddies and lovers for two years, until Jiang Zuo, who started to indulge his identity, was hooked by another man in a gay bar.

This time, Ah Cheng very quickly chose to let go and retreat to the position of a pure buddy.He had to admit that he had lost Jiang Zhu the moment he pierced Li Muyu.

Jiang Ku's new boyfriend is an office worker a round older than him, with a gentle face, tall and thin.

Ah Cheng laughed at him for finding a high imitation version of Li Muyu.

Jiang Gu didn't deny it, it didn't matter if it was him or not.

Since He Weiwei can find a high imitation version of Jiang Comb, why can't he find a high imitation version of Li Muyu?

After all, hate is one thing, and blood-and-blood feelings are another.

He seeks sustenance in his new boyfriend in the way of falling in love with Li Muyu, but soon finds out that doing so is stupid, because no one can replace another person.

What's more, Li Muyu's meticulous care for nearly ten years has made him unattainable and can't be "cottage" in particular, and it has also made it difficult for Jiang Kuo to love and dedicate from extravagance to simplicity.

The new boyfriend really can't bear the pressure of high demands, so the relationship fails quickly.

Jiang Gu had no choice but to keep searching, changing and learning to forget a man named Li Muyu.

Photos are deleted, mobile phone numbers can be blocked, social accounts can be blocked, and all contact information can be cleaned up without omission.

If this world really wants to decide to abandon a person from its own life, it is still very easy.

But, is there anyone who can block the memory and forget how he grew up?

When he begins to experience the world with his heart, that person fills the air he breathes and the space he lives in.

Forgetting him is tantamount to forgetting all the paths you have lived.

Jiang Gu had no choice but to give up, treating himself as a cancerous tumor, and painstakingly guarding against it for the rest of his life.