Yufeng

The letter reads:

"Old Wooden Fish: University life is really great. I have a great time every day and have made many friends. I am so busy that I can't remember what you look like. Are you sad? Haha, you will be sad! Also, I listened carefully to your words. I ate three bowls of rice and a large piece of steak every day. I think I should grow taller again. The pants are too tight to wear. I want to buy a new pair. Do you think jeans are better or... ..."

Here's what he wrote on the undeliverable letter:

"Li Muyu: You will probably never know that I miss you so much. In class, self-study, eating and playing football, or even sleeping and dreaming, thinking about what you are doing, who you are with, all the time, I feel like I am going crazy. When Ah Cheng scolded, do you know how panicked I was? At that moment, I wished I could buy a train ticket and rush home to kill you. Really! If it wasn’t for you, I would never have become like this, nor would I have been You call me a pervert. You always say I'm a fool, and I feel stupid too. I know you won't do anything to me, but why do you still hug me so tightly in your dreams..."

Returning to the dormitory after recovering from his injury, Jiang Ku saw that Ah Cheng was already lying in the dormitory blowing water in good shape, he was inevitably a little scared.

There was nothing unusual about the other roommates, they just gathered around to check on his injuries.

Everyone tried to smooth things over: "Everyone is going to be roommates for four years, don't turn your back on us anymore! Let's forget about fighting, we're still good brothers!"

Ah Cheng got out of bed, walked slowly to Jiang Ku's bed, stretched out a hand, and hummed hummingly.

"Brother Jiang, I don't know you well. Don't take the past to heart. Anyway, we both received the same punishment, and neither of us gets involved."

Jiang Ku nodded, and shook his hand back sloppily.

The looks of the roommates were quite natural, but Ah Cheng avoided his gaze and crawled back to his bed.

Early the next morning, there was still chaos in the mobile phone alarm.

Jiang Kui was covered under the blanket, stupefied and remained silent.

"Jiang Gu, you rest, we will ask for leave for you."

A roommate yelled, and everyone hurriedly picked up their books and went to class, but Ah Cheng was the last to leave.

When there were only two people left in the dormitory, he poked Jiang Kuang's bulging blanket with his finger.

"Don't worry, I didn't say anything."

"Thank you."

Jiang Ku's eyes were still closed, he didn't want to talk too much with Ah Cheng.

"I stuffed that piece of paper under your pillow, no one saw it."

Ah Cheng babbled and did not leave.

"That day... I really didn't intend to read what you wrote. I dropped the paper on the floor. I just wanted to pick it up for you, but I misunderstood you... I just wanted to make a joke, really."

"I'm sorry, I went too far." Jiang Kuo opened his eyes and apologized sincerely.

Ah Cheng nodded and left, as if fleeing in a hurry.

Jiang Kuan let out a long breath, and stretched out his hand under the pillow, and the paper was indeed there.

He took it out and folded it neatly, ready to hide it back in the locked notebook.

Then, I found a line of unfamiliar writing on the back of the paper: I am also gay.

Jiang Ku stared blankly for a long time. He already knew the meaning of this word, but he just felt that the word "also" in front of it was a bit eye-catching.

Am I?He asked himself repeatedly.

The extraordinary admiration for Li Muyu, the same sex, may be able to directly classify him, but so far, except for Li Muyu, he has never had any thoughts about other boys.

Is this considered gay?

No, of course not!

Just as he had assumed in middle school, he was just accidentally poisoned by a poison called "Li Muyu", and Li Muyu happened to be a man.

Jiang Ku stubbornly forced himself to believe this extremely childish conclusion over and over again.

However, Ah Cheng's self-exposure gave him a little sense of peace of mind.

Perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, it is really the old saying that if you don't fight, you don't know each other.

After a bloody fight between the little Nanfang Jiang and the Northeast man Acheng, they miraculously became iron buddies who were so good that they could wear a pair of pants, which made other roommates amazed.

You know, these two guys have completely contradictory personalities of one yin and one yang.

Ah Cheng is generous, outgoing and has a rough temper. He likes to joke and talk dirty, and likes to make friends everywhere.On the other hand, Jiang Gu is sensitive and introverted, gentle and delicate, and is often so polite that he is difficult to get close to.

It's really unbelievable that such "across the world" who can't get together in eight lifetimes can actually become an iron man hooking shoulders and backs.

Ah Cheng was joking around in the dormitory: "Look at Jiang Ku's slender arms and legs, does she look like my wife?"

Other roommates booed: "Like, so fucking like!"

Encouraged, Ah Cheng suddenly went crazy and yelled at Jiang Kuan who was sleeping on the opposite bed.

"Did you hear that, wife, quickly call your husband to listen?!"

Everyone laughed.

Shua Shua wrote again, and Jiang Ku turned his eyes cold violently.

"You still want to fight?"

Ah Cheng was not afraid of him at all, and even stuck out a finger to hook and hook.

"You look white and tender like a girl, no matter how you stand together, you look like my wife?!"

Jiang Ku threw the pen, rushed over and started fighting, and the two of them twisted into a twisted ball on the bed again.

But this time no one is in a hurry, the roommates have long been used to their usual noisy, disguised kindness.

Ah Cheng often told Jiang Gu in private that these jokes are actually okay, most people are very nervous, who would think about that kind of relationship when it's okay? !

But Jiang Ku is thin-skinned and guilty, and often breaks out in a cold sweat.

He repeatedly warned Ah Cheng not to make such jokes indiscriminately, sooner or later he would be looked at differently.

Ordinary people just seldom pay attention to the same-sex thing, but it doesn't mean they have no concept.These days, let’s not talk about the Internet that is constantly being called “friends of friends”. Even a serious TV station likes to sell a few rotten couples when it broadcasts a TV series. It’s always right to be cautious.

Ah Cheng couldn't help feeling sour when he saw how stupid he was as if he was facing an enemy every day.

"Don't keep making it seem like we really have something, why do I feel so bad?!"

Jiang Kui ignored the teasing.He was so full of thoughts that he was about to explode on the spot, and he didn't know how to ask Ah Cheng to help solve the problem.

Seeing that most of the semester was going to pass, Li Muyu still didn't call or reply to the letter. This situation had never happened since Jiang Kuan Elementary School.

When I entered junior high school, I lost the qualification to sleep together.

After entering high school, I lost the qualification to be hugged.

After entering university, the qualifications for caring are gone?

What kind of fucking growing up is this? !

Jiang Ku knew that the way he looked at people casually was full of lust, and a single spark could directly blow people into dust.

But Ah Cheng felt this serious anxiety, but leisurely suppressed his curiosity and insisted on not asking much.

Jiang Gu, who had missed a grade in elementary school, was two years older, but Ah Cheng was obviously much older than him in terms of dealing with others.

Before evening self-study, the two would wander around the twilight campus, sometimes with a sausage or popsicle in their mouths.

The stalls before dinner time are crowded with people coming and going.

Unlike Chen Yan who forced him to go on a boring date in middle school, Jiang Kui rather likes to wander around side by side with Ah Cheng, and can experience the sense of alienation of being a world of his own among the crowd.

He felt that Acheng and Acheng were like two lonely and confused wolves, cuddling together only to expose wounds and warm each other.

In fact, Ah Cheng seems to be quite used to being gay, and being around him can make Jiang Kuo feel a kind of unprecedented relaxation, which is something that the best Tie Zi A Liang ever could not give.

"Ah Cheng, when did you realize that you... like men?"

"It was very early, probably at the time when it was just developing."

Ah Cheng wiped his greasy hands on his pants, then crossed his palms and hugged the back of his head.

He returned casually, and was so bored that he whistled at the long-legged and thin-waisted female classmate passing by, causing a burst of laughter and cursing.

Jiang Ku thought about it for a long time but didn't remember how he was "poisoned". He should be the same as Ah Cheng, let's start with the development there.

"What if you fell in love with someone who wouldn't like you at all?" He continued to ask shamelessly.

"You're talking about a straight man, give up, there's no way around this kind of thing."

Ah Cheng turned his head and glanced at him, returning very seriously.

Jiang Gu had no choice but to remain silent for a long time before humming dejectedly.

"Can't give up..."

"If you haven't tried it, how do you know you can't give up?" Ah Cheng snorted.

Jiang Kuang couldn't answer.He hadn't tried it, and he didn't know how to try it.

Because Li Muyu has been occupying all his mind by his side, even if he can't say it out, even if he can't get anything in the end, but once he gives up, his heart will become an empty city, leaving nothing but barrenness.

He could tell Ah Cheng everything about his relationship with Li Muyu, but he couldn't share the dilemma of being "poisoned" into the quagmire.

"Jiang Gu, I don't know what's going on between you and your fake dad. But I can give you one of the most important warnings: Don't worry about straight men, they are not in the same world as us, so remember it!"

Ah Cheng's sudden and repeated reminders made Jiang Kuo understand that for Ah Cheng, this warning must have a deep meaning.

But he didn't ask too much, unlike Ah Cheng's mature way of life, he didn't ask because he didn't have much interest in Ah Cheng.

Jiang Ku knew that his purpose of making this friend was a bit snobby, he just needed someone to share the anxiety and pressure in his chest that would explode at any time.

As long as he doesn't fight, Ah Cheng is quite gentle to get along with. He often laughs at how innocent and cute he is, and there is a sense of pity in his words.

Jiang Ku felt that others were not bad, and sometimes a little more reliable than Ah Liang.