one step away [Interstellar]

109.

"I thought Professor Sylvia was your partner, but I didn't expect it to be Your Excellency Xia Zuo." When Mrs. Louis said this, Sylvia was sitting next to Xia Zuo and Heber, and the other wives chatting.

"Xia Zuo and Heber and I are very good friends. By the way, these are the new biscuits newly developed by Sugar Heart Cottage. Ladies, please taste them first." Sylvia lightly transferred Mrs. Louis' insinuation, and sat down. Xia Zuo, who was beside Heber, clenched his hands on his knees.

From the moment she was recognized, this lady started targeting Xia Zuo everywhere.Elvira Louise is Mrs. Louis' younger sister. The Louise family fell in love with Xia Zuo a few years ago.As a relative of the queen, it is very beneficial to marry the Weir family. Besides, there is another reason, Elvira really likes Xia Zuo very much.

As early as the eve of Marquis Ellen's wedding, the royal family had the intention of marrying them.However, Xia Zuo's repeated refusals made Elvira, who was already very prominent in that conservative family, even more attention-grabbing.What followed were many dissatisfied accusations and gossip.This kind of thing has always happened, but when the rumors about Xia Zuo and his sister-in-law spread, it became even more serious.

Thanks to Xia Zuo, her poor sister's remarks at home have become even worse.They said the young duke would have chosen an unfaithful woman rather than Elvira, whom the conservative feudal remnants privately regarded as more profligate than an unfaithful woman.

Even though her sister didn't care, Mrs. Louis, who loved her dearly, couldn't help but sneer when she saw Xia Zuo.

Fortunately, Madam still remembered that it was her child's friend's birthday party, so she didn't embarrass Xia Zuo too much.She didn't vent her complaints on the children, so Xia Zuo took it coldly.

All in all, the children's birthday party was quite happy.After playing a game and cutting the cake, Xia Zuo and He Bo sent off the children's friends, which ended a busy day.

Qian Nuo and Li Qi had a great time today, and they were too sleepy by midnight, but the sensible children still said goodbye to Xia Zuo after they put on their pajamas.

"Are you going to leave now, Charles?" Li Qi, who had been slowly getting rid of the baby fat, gradually took on the posture of a girl.She stood side by side with Cheno, looking at Xia Zuo who had already put on his uniform with red eyes and said.

"Yes, go to bed quickly, good night." Xia Zuo leaned over, hugged the two children in his arms, and kissed their cheeks, "Be good, I'll buy you something delicious when I come back next time."

The children knew that she was busy with work, so they nodded obediently, and said in unison, "Okay, stay safe, goodbye, Charles."

After saying goodbye to the children, Xia Zuo looked at Amanda beside him.From the time when the children were sent away just now, my partner looked at her with a hesitant expression on his face.After receiving the message from the officer, Amanda subconsciously looked at Sang Xu who was packing up with the maids.

Her Lady Queen glanced at her with a half-smile.Amanda sighed, and watched Xia Zuo bite the bullet and said, "General...I have something suddenly...so I can't accompany you to San Lorenzo today..."

"Did something happen?" Xia Zuo who didn't know the truth asked curiously.Heber on the side obviously saw something, and interrupted Xia Zuo, "Since Amanda is not free, then I will take you to the port."

"But it's already very late..." Xia Zuo said, his words were full of worry and hesitation.

"There's no problem, don't worry." Heber, who has had this experience many times, can guarantee that he will return safely.And the way she looked at Xia Zuo was so unquestionable, in desperation, Xia Zuo had no choice but to agree to her request.

After watching Amanda's car leave, Heber drove Xia Zuo to the port by driving his suspension car close to the road on the ground.

It was already late at night, and occasionally cars roared by on the empty road.Xia Zuo sat in the co-pilot, looking at the ambiguous scenery ahead, his whole body was wrapped in dark shadows.

"Xu...should like Amanda, they seem to be in a relationship." Thinking about the aura of the two people before, Heber, who had already noticed it, said hesitantly.

"Huh?" Xia Zuo, who was confused, looked at He Bo and her fair side face illuminated by the lights of the dial instrument, and said doubtfully, "When did this..."

"What I feel... um... how do you feel about Amanda?" Hebe asked her, and the two discussed things between them about the choice shown by their sister.

"A great kid, self-motivated, outstanding ability, no bad habits, very reliable." Xia Zuo thought for a while, and commented.

This is also the Amanda that Heber came into contact with, and it is indeed what Xia Zuo said.

"She is only in her 30s, and she is already a lieutenant colonel. She will be a general in less than 50 years." Xia Zuo said, and finally came to a conclusion, "She is an extremely good soldier."

"Hmm...the future is boundless, isn't it?" Heber smiled and accurately summed up Xia Zuo's meaning.

"That's right, that's right." Xia Zuo nodded and said, "But I don't understand the specific situation. I'll ask her when I have time. If... it's not convenient for you to ask Sang Xu."

"Could it be...a little too young." Heber asked hesitantly, thinking of Amanda's age.

"No, my children are all five years old at this age." Xia Zuo looked at He Bo and said with a chuckle, "She is just right, mature enough and stable enough, it is understandable that San Xu would like her."

Heber turned to look at her, and said, "Then...are you too busy?"

"Busy... there's nothing I can do about it." Suddenly mentioning this matter, Xia Zuo thought of what he said in the kitchen before, and his heart sank.She wondered if she should open her mouth to say something more, but she hesitated to speak, so she had no choice but to swallow it.

"It's true...it's just that Xu really has a hard time getting along with her." Not seeing her for a long time is really a painful torture.Heber, who had deeply experienced this kind of torture, just commented casually without thinking too much, and then said, "However, as long as she likes it."

It's just that the speaker is unintentional, but the listener is interested.

Thinking about those complicated things, Xia Zuo felt stuck in his throat.She swallowed hard, pressed her back against the back seat, looked at the dim Fangfang with eyes as bright as cold stars and said in a low voice, "What about you...do you feel...hard?"

"Me? How could it be?" Heber smiled, very casually.

"That's right... that's good." Xia Zuo's voice was a little low, with a hoarse voice that didn't know how to speak.Just such an answer made her feel uncomfortable.

This kind of feeling is not good, Xia Zuo tried his best to ignore the helplessness and guilt rising from his heart, and changed the topic to other places.

"You know the Winston family, right?" she said.

"I know, what's the matter?" He Bo wondered why Xia Zuo said this at this time, but he followed her words.

"The recent thing... was done by them." Xia Zuo said softly.Even Lewis's pursuit of Heber two years ago did not expose Heber's identity, and the media did not dare to easily report these intimate royal family gossip.

The matter between her and Heber reappeared in the eyes of so many people last month.Heber didn't care much about what others thought of her, but Xia Zuo tried his best to track down the truth.The reason is simple, they are just implicated.

"My mother will announce that she will run for prime minister next month." As the crown prince who has given up his inheritance rights and changed his surname, he is no longer considered part of the royal family.The empire allows such royals to run for the highest office of state leader.

"The Winston family supports the leader of the Conservative Party, so they are looking for every opportunity to lower their mother's votes. You know, after Marshal Norton left the military, they need a strong political partner." Xia Zuo sighed, He said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, Heber, for implicating you in such a matter."

"It's okay, Xia Zuo, I don't mind such things." He Bo spoke softly.

"It's all right though, I'll get this sorted out before the campaign meeting starts."

"I believe in you." Heber's voice was firm, and she was always full of confidence in the person sitting beside her.

Her love is like this, it won't say it, but it can make you feel everywhere.

The longer we get along, the more Xia Zuo understands how heavy Heber's love is compared to what he gives.

This made her feel anxious, guilty and distressed.She clearly couldn't even stay by her side well, and couldn't even guarantee that she wouldn't get hurt.

Maybe...Is it really not suitable for her?

Whether it's professionally or... sexually.

"If I were to get married, I'd choose a beta, not an alpha."

This sentence lingered in her mind for several years, and she kept thinking about what Heber really wanted.She used to think she understood very well, but now she feels very confused.

Even though she and Heber had two children, and even though their bodies fit so well, at such a moment, she still couldn't help feeling a little pessimistic.

Heber really loves her, but... maybe they don't fit that well, do they?

She knew the reason why Hebe did not agree to get married, and after she got married, it was almost a breeze for her to mark Hebe without breaking the law.After marriage, her freedom was completely restricted.

For a rational person like Heber, no matter how much he loves himself, he will not give up any guarantee for maintaining an independent and self-improving soul.Therefore, she could understand why Heber did not agree to get married for so long.

If she was a beta, wouldn't the relationship between them be much easier?At the very least, Heber will not be defensive when facing her.She loves Hebe, loves her, how can she have the heart to let her worry and fear by her side

and so……

"I wish I was a beta." Ah, how did this sentence come out.Xia Zuo nestled himself in a chair, wrapped in a heavy uniform, looking at a little street lamp leaking from the forest, his eyes sparkling with water.

Her tone was so strange, Heber turned to look at her, and saw the tears in the corner of her eyes.

The woman driving the car could hardly control the suspension car, and stopped the car abruptly on the side of the road amidst the harsh sound of brakes.

"Charles... what's wrong?" Heber stopped the car and looked at her anxiously.

Xia Zuo leaned over, buried his cheeks between his palms, and said sullenly, "It's nothing, I'm just a little envious of Sylvia."

"..."

"She has plenty of time to be by your side. She can also be with the children, and I... I'm not even a beta."

"Heber, if I'm a beta, are we all married?"

She didn't dare to look at Heber's expression, because the long-soaked loss mixed together and became a very complicated emotion.

She was buried between her palms, as vulnerable as a puppy.

He Bo has never seen such a fragile Xia Zuo, even when she was rejected by her countless times, she never saw such a Xia Zuo.She is always high-spirited, proud and expensive.Where would it be like now, like a puppy that fell into the water.

She is obviously an alpha who should be so proud that she is domineering, but because of this love, she wants to obey herself to this extent.

Is it because we haven't been together for too long, or because I never gave him affirmation, that's why I let this person's pride shine in front of my eyes little by little.

Since they like each other, why do they feel tortured to each other.

So... Xia Zuo is also so scared?

Waves of pain spread from his heart, Heber undid the safety device, leaned over and hugged Xia Zuo, and said softly, "Charles... I don't need you to be a beta, you are an alpha, it's too much for me. alright."

If Xia Zuo wasn't an alpha, she would always be one step short of the courage to accept the true side of this world.

"Please don't be sad, Charles." Heber said softly, coaxing her gently, "Look up at me, okay Charles."

Xia Zuo, who had lost his composure enough, tried his best to maintain his image, and raised his head obediently.

What I got was a kiss gently on Heber's lips.

The author has something to say: let you think about it, and make you cry.