Have fate with you

To be honest, Li Ning became serious, which made people feel a little scared.There is a cool temperament that can only be seen from a distance but not played with, which is not like what we should have in our age group.

Sun Zhao seemed a little surprised and said, "Yes... yes, but they are not in the same class."

Li Ning seemed to realize that there was something wrong with her performance at this time, and the cold aura disappeared, which was no different from the previous gentleness, as if the person just now was not her, the only difference was that her voice was obviously condensed, "Our school I'm quite surprised that there are very few people in this middle school." After speaking, she smiled, but the smile obviously didn't reach her eyes.

The scene faded, Li Ning obviously wanted to end this topic, she didn't show any desire to delve into it at this moment.Because of the scene just now, everyone didn't talk much.I just agreed to meet at a certain time and place on Monday, and then go to dinner together.

Earlier, I might have thought that Li Ning was interested.But as soon as the time and place are agreed upon, it's like a nail in the coffin, it's confirmed.

The three of us parted ways on the third floor.The situation is no different from the last time we parted, but there is one more person to watch with me.

And, when we were about to part, Li Ning took a step slowly on purpose and secretly took my hand.Although the time was not long, it was enough to make me sweetly affirm that the sentence she said when she parted: "See you next time." The target was only me, not me and Sun Zhao.

Sun Zhao patted me on the shoulder, indicating that we should go upstairs.The atmosphere in the class was the same as before, it was quiet, and it seemed that it was a sin to say one more word to disturb this silence.

She glanced at me and parted her lips, as if she wanted to say something to me, but when we landed in our seats, she didn't say anything and went about her business quietly.

I also turned on the chemistry homework as usual, and started to study the content of electrochemistry.The time for evening self-study is long and long, and it is fast.After a while, an hour and a half passed.After all, it was the end of get out of class, so there was still a lot of noise in the class.

Sun Zhao pushed my elbow and pushed me out of thinking.It seems that it wasn't that I didn't want to speak just now, but that I went to organize the language.

"You like her." The voice is different from the hippie smile in the past, but very dignified.And it is an affirmative sentence. Although the name of the person is not mentioned, the direction is clear enough.

……

"How did you find out?" I was a little flustered, I've hidden it well enough, I've never talked to anyone, the only object I confide in is the diary, how did she see it.

Sun Zhao's eyes darkened: "When did you feel that you can hide your liking for this kind of relationship?"

She paused for a moment and then asked me, "Are you really going to continue? She..."

I waved my hand to stop Sun Zhao's words. From her concerned eyes, I suddenly knew what she wanted to say to me.

That's right, even today, Li Ning said that he likes me and wants to be friends with me.The distance between the two of us was shortened, but I was shocked and delighted at the time, but I forgot, the most important prerequisite for the relationship between the two to blossom and bear fruit——

She has a boyfriend.

In my memory, the last time Li Ning and I talked was not when we were divided into classes. I lied to myself.The last time we talked was about three months ago, in early spring.

At that time, I took my mother to the bookstore to buy books. Sadly, I bought books, mainly teaching aids.I was dazzled in front of a wide variety of teaching aids, and I always felt that each one had its own advantages.Just as my eyes were changing, I was thinking about which of these two mathematics textbooks to choose, but I was attracted by a figure in the distance.

It suddenly occurred to me that I once saw a question in Zhihu, "What is it like to like someone", and I answered anonymously, "In the vast sea of ​​people, I can lock her at a glance."

She seemed to have noticed me too, and walked towards me in a different direction.

Plop, plop, I seem to hear my own heartbeat, a little faster.What she greeted me, what I answered, I forgot.But it was just an extremely ordinary conversation between ordinary classmates, but the indifferent smile on the corner of her mouth turned into a notch and remained in my heart.Our relationship was only normal at that time, and there was nothing to talk about.She greeted her mother, said hello, auntie, and walked away.

So now that I think about it, what Sun Zhao said is not entirely true—at least, my feelings are by Li Ning's side, and I have been lying.

One of the characteristics of parents is that they are extremely solemn in front of their classmates, maintaining their solemn status as parents, and in front of their children, they also have the attributes of a mother-in-law. They are very reluctant to those students with good grades and good looks.

After Li Ning left, my mother praised Li Ning for being good-looking and good at dressing up, and asked me to learn more from her.

I refuted my mother in my mouth, I am a science student, but my heart is like eating honey, sweeter than complimenting me.Today, I don’t know where the chicken blood came from. It may be my mother’s praise for Li Ning, which made me feel optimistic for no reason. Isn’t there a saying that hard work pays off, and three thousand Yuejia can swallow Wu ?

To put it bluntly, people have to have a dream, what if it comes true?Maybe if I persist and work hard, I can get close to her world.

Picked out one of my favorite books at the time - Yiyi's "Lonely Frequency" and planned to give it to Li Ning the next day.I still remember the joy and excitement at that time, not only because I was able to get close to her, but also because I took the initiative to take the first step in the matter, maybe some of the past could be lost in the wind.

I was thinking about the reason for giving her the book: Is it because I met you yesterday, so I want to read a book for you; or is it because I think this book is destined for you?I'm hesitant about every reason, and I'm constantly inventing new ones.At this moment, Sun Zhao ran over panting, obviously very excited:

"Liu Yuan, Liu Yuan, do you know? Li Ning and Ke Zheshou are together."

Crack, the sound of something breaking.The bitterness lingers in the mouth endlessly.I put down the book in my hand with a blank expression, and put it exactly the same as the other book on the book stand.

Sun Zhao’s voice seemed far away, and she said, “Aren’t you stupid? Buying the same book twice, is there nothing to do?” I agreed in my heart, yes, this person is really stupid, really idle I have nothing to do, but I don't even have the strength to speak out.

I once said that I am a nerd, so I know very few people who work outside the class, but Ke Zheshou wants to exclude others.The reason is that I have known him since junior high school.Our school is a direct entry school, with both junior high school and high school. I only transferred in high school, but I have seen people who went to the same elementary school as me show their love for him unscrupulously in QQ space, Even the profile picture is set as a selfie of himself.There is more than one, which shows that he can be regarded as the prince charming in girls' minds.

The combination of him and Li Ning can be regarded as a strong encounter, creating an effect where one plus one is greater than two.On that day, many people were talking about the two of them either publicly or privately. Some said that they lived together forever, while others said that they were just a flash in the pan.And I said, never ending.

Ha, yes, how did I forget her boyfriend?How can I forget that she has a boyfriend?How can you give yourself hope?I patted Sun Zhao on the shoulder and walked quickly to the toilet.Once, Sun Zhao and I complained maliciously, saying that the school has too much money and has nothing to do, and even the toilet has to be locked against theft. Is it possible that we are afraid of others stealing shit?However, now I am extremely grateful to the school for providing such a place where I can cry and release all emotions that should not have appeared safely.

But I was far stronger than I thought and didn't cry.It may be because of the past, and I didn't have too many expectations myself.I just told myself over and over again that certain things would not belong to me, give up quickly.

I returned to the classroom after the second period of evening self-study, packed up my things and prepared to go home.

Press the 7th floor of the elevator, and the red light is on.The elevator accelerates upward and is overweight.I try to use academic thinking to block thinking too much.I opened the door and looked at the rotten flowers and plants on the balcony. I had no intention of repairing it, so just scold me, it won't be better anyway, it's better to be a little more miserable to remind myself that I still live in this world.

After entering my room and turning on the light, I threw myself on the bed. The quilt had just been dried, and it was fluffy and smelled like the sun.Continue to recite physical formulas and theorems silently in my heart.After a while, I stretched out my hand and took it towards the mobile phone I put next to the quilt.Although my parents were very ruthless and left me alone at home, they still had to report to them every day whether I was okay.I turn on the screen.The reminder list shows that there is a new friend adding me on qq.

I clicked to open it, and I didn't fill in my remarks, the avatar is very cute.It's Tuffy from Tom and Jerry.

With such a cute profile picture, she must be very cute herself.

Clicked the green agree below.I opened WeChat and started to write about the weather is cloudy today, I take good care of myself, don't read this news if Mom and Dad are having fun.Shortly after clicking send, my phone vibrated again.But the reply letter was not Mom and Dad, but Tuffy, whom I praised for being cute just now.

The message window slid out from the screen.

"I'm Li Ning." It said so.

I watched as this message was slowly retracted by the system, the screen dimmed slowly, and the screen automatically locked slowly.

The black screen is like a mirror, reflecting my face.It didn't turn pale or turn black as shown in the novel, on the contrary, I feel that my face is pale and rosy now, which can't be better.I just feel that there is a strong unwillingness in the eyes of myself on the screen.

It turns out that I am not as open-minded as I thought.

You are also laughing at yourself, look, Liu Yuan, how good you are at hiding, you have liked someone for two years, and you have hidden so much that you don’t even have her contact information.What do you really like?What do you really know?Is it her that you like, or your own obsession.

I want to let go.

But the screen was on again.

Tuffy: "Good night."

The author has something to say:

Liu Xiaoyuan is sad...

Li Xiaoning was anxious and distressed, saying: What the hell is Ke Zheshou ~ fuck off! ! !