Have fate with you

In the empty June, all the burdens were unloaded at once, which made me feel a little uncomfortable.Just like every night before, I would fantasize about the unknown future, and how relaxed I would be in the three months after the college entrance examination.However, when it really came, I missed the past time and the traces I had left in those three years.

So Li Ning euphemistically called it two words: Hypocritical!

At that time, she was sitting on the sofa in the corner, holding a copy of "Thus Spoke Zarathustra" in her hand and listening to me, speaking aimlessly.

The white light cast a faint shadow on her thin long eyelashes. From time to time, she circled and crossed the book, and occasionally looked up at me who was chattering away, then lowered her head and continued to read.

At that time, I thought, when I couldn't see Li Ning, when I didn't enter her life as a girlfriend, Li Ning should be like this too.On a quiet night, sitting in the corner of the study room, the brilliance sprinkled on her face, she turned page after page of the book with yellowed feet, time flowed quietly on her body, but she couldn't see any change.

She sat there quietly, and I watched her in a daze. This is my best fantasy about future life.

But later, I realized that sometimes a person fantasizes too much and asks for too much.

The Li Ning I saw was always the one looking into the distance under the sun.She stands in the brightest place in my heart and exists in every corner of my life in the form of Aurora.But I forgot that there is no one who can live in the world without any stains. After all, even the noble lotus was born in the mud.

Under the sun, the shadows are most abundant.

It was Li Ning who taught me that seeing is not believing.

She's a... liar.

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It was the first of July.The 45th anniversary of me and Li Ning being together is also the No. 15 day when I moved into Li Ning's house.

It was a scorching summer, and the weather was very good that day, with no clouds in the sky, the vast sky without a trace of haze, clear and blue, very much like the day of military training.

Li Ning stood on the balcony, I looked at her back, happiness was out of reach.

Next, there will be a full two-month vacation. In order to celebrate that she and I have finally been admitted to the same university, we plan to go out to play together.

This is the first time we go out together.I value it very much in my heart, but in the end, as long as everything is tinged with the color of the first time, it will always appear solemn and memorable.

So told her, would like to check our luggage again.Li Ning looked at me jokingly, walked over and patted my head, pointing out that after being with her, I became a mother-in-law, so she let me go.

I opened the room where the luggage was stored, turned on the lights, and unzipped the luggage. I had checked everything last night, but I was still feeling a little uneasy this year. After the inspection this time, I felt a throbbing feeling. Still hasn't faded from my body.

Rubbing my face, I scolded myself, I really became a mother-in-law, worrying about everything, then turned around, wanting to retreat from the room.But I didn't know what I touched under my feet, which made me stumble forward, and my elbow rubbed against the cabinet like this. In pain, a black notebook was brought out by me like this. It fell to the ground with a "bang".

It's a cheap, soft-covered notebook that looks just like the ones I used to write sketches on.

The breeze blew and opened the first side of the book.

The traces of ink smudged, the words of different shades.

Blood flowed from the scratched scar on the elbow, hitting the ground drop by drop. Li Ning opened the door, saw the embarrassing situation in front of him, was speechless for a while, frowned, opened and closed his red lips, and then walked to the In front of me, I seem to want to see the condition of my arm.

I watched her lower her head, looked in her direction, and turned to the book.

This was the first time I saw her so flustered, or the first time I saw her so flustered in front of me.

I didn't know where to put my eyes, let go of the hand that was holding my arm, and curled up into a ball.After all, she still looked at me, and the water droplets that condensed in her eyes slid down, which was exactly the same as the expression of the person whose secret was discovered in the TV series.

"Feel sorry."

Picking up the notebook on the ground, Li Ning faced me and retreated step by step towards the entrance of the room. The brown door, instead of her figure, appeared in front of my eyes.

"July [-]st in illegible handwriting

A Yuan died, and I went back to the past. "