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I don't know how I got home.Swaying, as soon as I entered the door, I startled my mother, who was nestling on the sofa, gnawing an apple and watching a soap opera. She looked at me blankly, and forgot to chew half of the apple in her mouth. . "Stinky, what's wrong with you?"

I shook my head and said it was fine.Then, ignoring the gaze behind him, he went straight upstairs and locked the lock.Flopped on the bed.I buried my head in the pillow, and the mood that had been suppressed all the way finally broke out as if I had found a breakthrough.

I lowered my voice so that the outside world would not hear my unbearable crying.I'm really tired, I obviously did nothing wrong, why did you let me go?Is it disgusting to the point where you have to be replaced by someone else?Why is it that I know the ending, but it still hurts my heart in the end?I really want to yell, and I also want to vent.It turns out that what is said to be calm is false.

My shoulders couldn't help shaking.Cry until the dark, feeling that there are no more tears to squeeze out.

I covered my swollen head and sat up unsteadily.The sky outside the window is already dark, and the warm yellow lights of the neighbor’s house are shining. I heard that the uncle who is a soldier just came home not long ago, and occasionally I can hear the laughter of the little girl. There must be a warm and cozy scene in the house , I was just a spectator, but I couldn't be happy.

"Son, are you okay? Do you want to show up? The food is cold!" My mother knocked on the door, and I could feel her worry through the wooden boards.

"Son, you come out first and eat first. Nothing is as important as your body. If you are hungry, it will be fine." My dad also knocked on the door.

I nodded and said "En".It's just that my throat is extremely dry, and I'm probably the only one who can clearly hear the sound coming out of my throat.I tried to stand up, but when I stood up suddenly after sitting for a long time, my blood pressure surged, making me dizzy uncontrollably.

I shook my head and walked to the bathroom.Fortunately, the swollen eyes are not particularly obvious, but there is a circle of redness around the eye sockets, and I don't need to look to know that it is from crying.I rubbed my face with cold water to relieve my mood.I tried my best to pull out a little smile, but the way I forced myself to smile in the mirror was very weird, so I gave up.

When I opened the door, my mother was very worried when she saw my muddled appearance, "Oh, stinky, I figured it out, let's eat first."

I was eating a cold dish, moved my chopsticks with two concentrated gazes, and finally couldn't help but said, "Well... can you stop looking at me like this? I can't eat it." "Oh oh , let's go, let's go, eat more!" My mother patted my dad, pulled him, and the two of them went to the sofa to watch TV.

In order not to worry my parents, under the hospitality of my mother, I ate one more bowl than usual.

I was a little stuffed, and my parents pulled me aside, and they said they wanted to talk to me, but in fact they were going to give me ideological education.As a result, there are horror movies on TV, and no one watches them.My mother sat on the left, my father sat on the right, and I was caught in the middle.My mother took my hand very earnestly.For some reason, maybe it was the intuition of the woman she was proud of, she decided that I was emotionally hurt, broke up and was unhappy.Tell me about the dangers of puppy love, and give me a lot of folk gossip. I don’t even know where to look. Rogue robbery.Said that when I grow up and graduate, I will have a career, go out and break through the society, and find the right person for me.When I look back suddenly, I realize how ignorant I was when I fell in love with you at the beginning.I listened to her words, and my head was a little dizzy.Looking at my mother's persuasiveness, I am embarrassed to remind her that the old man and my dad have been in love since the first love in junior high school, and they are happy and happy. The exception is that I don't like women at all. The chances of falling in love and getting pregnant early are pitifully small.

However, my dad didn't think so. He probably used the super intuition of a man who is not often mentioned, and decided that I was injured because of my ankle and the frustration of the league.He told me stories, from when he left home to start a career when he was young, to his ups and downs all the way in the shopping malls, and finally broke through the ups and downs of life, telling me that only failure can lead to success.When it comes to his suffering, pain and emotion, he can't help but sigh, and when it comes to excitement, my father slapped the coffee table with his palm, shaking the ancient purple sand teacup that cost a lot of money and almost fell to the ground , Fortunately, I have quick eyesight and quick hands, otherwise my dad will be hurt for a long time if I break it.I didn't tell my dad that I wasn't going to play in the league, nor was I going to watch the league.I have already promised others to keep a distance, so I will naturally avoid the opportunity to meet. Although I am very reluctant, this is what I need to do, and I need to keep my promise.

I stared at my legs quietly, listening to my parents tell me anecdotes about my childhood, it was really funny, and I really wanted to share some stories with Shelley.When the biological clocks of the couple went online at the same time, they fell asleep and went back to the bedroom arm in arm.Turning off the lights, I sat quietly on the sofa, looking at the galaxies in the distance outside the window, and listening to the croaking of insects and frogs in the bushes nearby. It is a quiet and peaceful night, and the years are peaceful, but things, people, and emotions have already been turned upside down.I think, the stars and rivers are turning, and things are right and people are wrong.During my stay, I stayed at home for almost three or four days without going out.Because of the shutdown of my mobile phone, I turned off my mobile phone. To be honest, I have stayed at home these few days and haven't had much contact with the outside world, so it's hard to relax.I slept until noon again, and I rolled out of bed like a carp. When I was brushing my teeth, I stared at myself in the mirror, feeling a little strange.Because I haven't taken care of myself, it goes without saying that I have a bird's nest hairstyle on my head, but I didn't expect that in just a few days, some blue stubble grew on my chin.I touched it, and it was extremely painful.The self in the mirror is like a decadent ronin, his eyes are dull, and his listless look can't tell that he is a handsome young man.I hung up the stubble and thought about it.What day is it today.It's just that my brain is slow, and I can't remember what day it is today for a long time.

I took my phone out of the drawer, turned it on, and was about to check the time.But when I turned it on, more than 40 missed calls jumped out, which really shocked me.Except for a few calls from Chen Qianhe and Lin Rui, the remaining more than 30 calls were from Shelley at different times.My hand paused, and I was lingering on that name for a long time, but I still chose to clear it with one click.I just can't figure it out, I'm sure I've shut down the phone, how can I still be able to make calls.I saw that there was a recharge text message.Shelley charged me [-] phone bills. . . .Really, I obviously wanted to quit, but now that Shelley seems to be chasing after him, it really hurts my heart, and it is difficult to continue to maintain a decisive distance.Is he still cherishing a little bit of brotherhood, but it's a pity that I don't have the blessing to enjoy it. What I long for is not a simple brotherhood!Shelley.

I shook my head, emptied the text messages with a wry smile, and flipped through the secret photos saved on my phone. There are more than 200 photos of Shelley, some were taken when he was playing basketball, some were taken when he was eating, and some he knew. There are also sneak shots that he doesn't know about.I looked at them one by one, and in the photos he was the same as in my memory, with thick eyebrows, light colored pupils, a tall nose, slightly parted thin lips and a sharp-edged face.Every expression and every movement of his is enough to make my heart flutter. Under the morning light, he doesn't know what he is thinking about, frowning, a faint halo hits him, a little hazy but very real.I stared at this picture for a long time before I came back to my senses and deleted the photo and the number in my contacts.

I looked at the date, today is the date of the first league game.I sent a cheering text message to all the team members, and asked the physical education teacher in charge for a leave of absence. Considering that I was a substitute, I was of no importance at all, so the teacher readily agreed.

[Brother Shen!I haven't been able to contact you these days, I thought you were a missing person!Today we competed with those guys from No. [-] Middle School, we are all acquaintances haha, hey, brother Shen, you can find brother Yi when you have time, he hasn't come yet. ] Lin Rui replied to my text message in seconds, with a picture of a laughing emoji.Shelley hasn't come yet?I was also taken aback, and subconsciously opened the contact list, only to realize that I had just deleted him. Although the number has long been familiar to me, I still couldn't help being a little annoyed.

As soon as I read the text message on my side, Chen Qianhe on the other side called.

"Hello?" "Hey, Mu Yang, have you been missing for the past few days? It's really not easy to call you." Chen Qianhe seemed to be a little noisy, and his voice was a little noisy.

"No, something has happened these few days. What? Want me to cheer you up?" I couldn't help laughing.

"Come on? Come on, brother, I also had some accidents. The Internet cafe has made an appointment, Jin Zuo, waiting for you." After finishing speaking, Chen Qianhe hung up the phone and sent me a text message, which read " Come quickly."

I thought for a while that this guy wouldn't do anything wrong again, and I really haven't been out for a long time, so I went to have a look.

When I went, the golden seat was full of people.Some people still have two or three buckets of instant noodles piled up next to them.

There are many people, but it does not prevent me from seeing Chen Qianhe at a glance.He waved to me as soon as I entered.

When I got closer, I realized that this guy really had an accident. He was holding a mouse in one hand and a plaster cast in the other. He was hanging with a bandage around his neck.

Seeing him like this, I couldn't help being taken aback, "What's the matter with you? You have become a disabled person in just a few days."

He didn't care about it at all, and he was in a good mood to compare me with scissors with his hand in plaster, and said something inexplicable. "It seems that Yi Shelley really likes you."

What do you mean?

Seeing my dumbfounded look, Chen Qianhe shook his head, "Forget it, sit down."

I sat beside him in a daze, and couldn't help looking at his hands, "You're like this... you can't even play in the league!"

"It doesn't matter, the batch in our school was all trained by my brother. Without me, it is enough to deal with you." Chen Qianhe smiled disdainfully, and with one hand, he led us a few scumbags to fight StarCraft. "Hey, don't resurrect yourself, you have to die anyway."

I let out a very boring "Oh", looked at the gray screen, sat there and played the stand-alone game of destroying stars.Just about to erase the purple string, a call came in, and I answered it before I could see who it was.

The string of numbers on it made my eyelids twitch. I stared blankly for a few seconds, and hesitantly brought the phone to my ear.

"Mu Yang? Why don't you speak." The voice was deep and magnetic, and I couldn't help my eyes getting sore when I heard the voice I hadn't seen for a long time.

"Muyang, where are you? I'll look for you." Hearing this, I was shocked, and hurriedly pressed the phone and threw the phone aside.

Chen Qianhe glanced at me and asked, "Iselle?"

I nodded, suddenly, speechless.

My heart was beating "bang bang".I kept my head down and didn't think about it. I continued to play games, but I was absent-minded, and the "I came to find you" echoed in my mind. How could it be possible? Shelley was going to play in the league, how could it be possible to come to me.

I died again. I had just ordered to revive, and before I could run, my hand was held down. The hand clasping my wrist was slender and strong, and a low, sweet but emotionless voice came from my ear, "Found You, Mu Yang."