It's not good to be a coquettish bitch

"I, I choose..."

Gu Yuan raised his finger and put it to his lips, his soft tone echoed in the empty room: "Shhh - don't make such a hasty decision, you still have a day to think about it, think about who you should choose, and then tomorrow Give me the answer, okay?"

With tears still on his face, the teenager nodded in a daze.

"Hehe, what a good boy, I'm looking forward to seeing you tomorrow." Gu Yuan's voice became lower and lower, his eyes slightly lowered, his black pupils bottomless.

Turning around to leave, the cold cell door closed behind him, the colonel who had been waiting for a long time saw the two come out, and was about to take them to the room where Brother Qiang was detained, but Gu Yuan stopped and said: "I'm tired, let's go back."

"Uh...then this way please..."

The dark corridor seemed to have no end in sight, and the breath of silence permeated the air. The white light above the head cast spots of light on the ground one after another, and the breathing of the three of them was a little depressing.

Gu Yuan suddenly said: "Colonel, I don't know how to deal with prisoners like them in the base now?"

"Currently, all criminals in the base are expelled, and those who kill are directly killed. Their crimes can be called kidnapping if they are light, or murder if they are serious. It depends on how you feel..." Huatou.

A few steps behind Bosen, Gu Yuan lowered his voice and whispered in the Colonel's ear: "Then I would like to trouble you for a favor, tomorrow... can I?"

Berson's fists on the side suddenly clenched.

The colonel turned pale after hearing this, and his face turned ugly for a moment, his wide eyes were full of disbelief: "You really want to do this?!"

"If you have difficulties here, then I will find a way by myself."

"Things are not difficult, but this is too..."

Gu Yuan raised the corners of his lips, and smiled indifferently: "I'm giving them a chance, whether they can survive or not depends on their own good fortune."

When the two returned to the house, Lucia and Drake were teasing the little taro crawling all over the floor, trying to train her to stand up by herself.

The baby's babbling sounds echoed in the room, and the weather was rare outside the window. The breeze was blowing, and the white curtains were fluttering, making it look quiet and peaceful.

Gu Yuan took off his coat and was about to step forward, but Bosen grabbed his arm.

"what happened?"

The tall man in front of him looked unhappy, and his voice was full of anger: "I heard what you said to the colonel, what exactly are you trying to do?!"

The two children next to them were so frightened that they immediately stopped talking. Lucia stood up holding the little taro, and Drake also stood still and didn't dare to move. He asked with some fear: "Brother Bosen, what happened? Are you okay?" Say, don't fight."

Bosen rubbed his brows with a headache, took a deep breath, and tried to soften his tone: "Take the little taro and go back to the room first, Gu Yuan, you stay here, I have something to say to you."

The two returned to the room obediently with Little Taro in their arms, and before closing the door, Lucia emphasized again: "Speak up if you have something to say, don't quarrel."

Bosen nodded helplessly, and turned to look at Gu Yuan when the door was closed.

Gu Yuan went to the sofa and sat down on his own, poured two glasses of water, and said in a calm and distant manner, "Sit down and talk."

Berson walked up to him and sat down, and asked, "Why did you do this? If you are not relieved, you can just ask the major to order them to be killed."

"What's the point of doing that?"

Bosen squeezed Gu Yuan's shoulder and growled: "Are you crazy? Torturing others for fun? What's the difference between you and those people?!"

crazy?I guess so.

Without answering his question, Gu Yuan looked at the cup in his hand with cold eyes, and asked Bosen, "Have you ever died?"

"I……"

He has made great military achievements and has faced countless battles. Just as he wanted to say that he had brushed shoulders with death many times, he was mercilessly interrupted by Gu Yuan.

"I'm not talking about the kind of life hanging by a thread in a critical moment, but in the end they all survived. I'm talking about the real death. Watching the closest person fall in front of you, life goes by bit by bit, but you can't do anything. Have you experienced this feeling?"

"..."

"My father and mother died in front of me like this, and now I have to add Grandpa Ax, even myself. Do you know? Actually, I should have died."

Gu Yuan said he was dead? !

Bosen was stunned in his heart, and immediately stretched out his mental tentacles to check his whole body, but found that the people around him were breathing warmly and their hearts were beating rhythmically. There was nothing wrong with him other than recovering from a serious illness and being weak. big problem.

"Hehe, don't look at me like that, I don't know why I'm still alive."

Putting down the cup, Gu Yuan leaned back and sank into the back of the sofa, staring at the snow-white ceiling and gradually emptied, already lost in memories.

"At the beginning, in order to avenge my parents, I stayed up for seven years, seven years... I endured the humiliation in the dark, while those people spent their lives outside, so what if I finally took revenge? My parents have turned into a pile of dead bones , My originally smooth life was completely ruined by them, and I became the most shady existence."

"..."

Seeing Bosen's confused appearance, Gu Yuan simply spoke clearly.

"Do you know how painful it is to accompany a drinker to a stomach perforation?"

"Do you know what it's like to be greeted with a smile every day when you're mobbed?"

"Do you know what nurturing means?"

"When I was about to lose consciousness, I felt a sense of relief. Physical torture is not terrible, and death is not terrible. The terrible thing is that the person who destroyed you dies easily, but you lose everything. Painfully alive."

"So, that's why you asked me why I did this, death is never the most painful, living is."

Gu Yuan's face in front of him was still a little immature, but his words seemed to have gone through centuries of vicissitudes. He was obviously expressionless, but Bosen felt that he was about to shed tears.

"Now I feel the pain of powerlessness, why didn't I meet you sooner..." Bosen felt distressed, took his hand, and kissed his fingertips one by one.

He raised his eyes to look at Gu Yuan, his pupils were full of seriousness and persistence: "Those people are certainly hateful, and it is not an exaggeration to cut them into pieces, but I don't want to see you become like this, don't let them change you, you are not the most Do you hate people like that?"

Gu Yuan turned his head away and didn't speak.

Berson clenched his hand and said, "Don't let yourself be the person you hate the most, okay?"

"Have you ever heard a saying: We fight all the way, not to change the world, but to prevent the world from changing us. But now I have lost, completely lost." Gu Yuan smiled self-deprecatingly, his eyes were full of tears dry up.

Berson opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something more.

Gu Yuan with a tired look pulled out his hand, got up and left: "Stop talking, you never know how much it hurts until the knife is stuck in your body."

"Oh!"

With a loud noise, Gu Yuan closed the door and walked out. The heavy door blocked Bosen's sight and seemed to separate their souls.

Berson, who was left on the sofa, bent down slumped, inserted his hands into his messy blond hair, and hated himself for the first time.

Gu Yuan walked towards the teams patrolling the perimeter of the house, stopped one of them, and asked the leading team leader, "Do any of you have cigarettes on you?"

Several people looked at each other, and the team leader gritted his teeth and replied, "...I have."

I saw him taking out the unopened pack of cigarettes from his pocket slowly, and handing it to Gu Yuan with extreme reluctance, unwilling but not daring to show it, as if he had been greatly wronged.

Seeing that his heart was bleeding, Gu Yuan couldn't laugh or cry, the haze in his heart was diluted a little, but he still took out a cigarette and lit it.

"Aren't you going to patrol? I just want to be more active, let's go together."

Just like that, with a cigarette between his fingertips, Gu Yuan followed the neat patrol team, puffing and puffing, and kept chatting with the captain about everything.

"By the way, what are the scarcest supplies in the base now? Medicines? Cigarettes? Instant noodles? Or canned food?"

"Neither." The team leader had a serious face, without squinting.

Gu Yuan curled his lips: "Isn't this just a casual chat... I'm just curious. With the material support from the general base and so many hiring teams, why do you feel that you are still living so tight?"

The soldier behind him interjected: "Most of the support supplies are for emergency use, only enough to meet people's minimum needs. Going outside the base to collect supplies is extremely risky, and there are only a few kinds of food that can be eaten when they come and go, alas ... Eating the nutrient solution sent by the empire every day, I have forgotten what the fruit tastes like..."

When mentioning fruit, a group of soldiers seemed to be pressed a certain switch.

"It's a bright day, what dream?"

"Since the land and water sources have been polluted, even Selaginella can't survive. Do you still want fruit?"

"Yes."

"Damn, I just thought about it...why are you so excited? How dare you say you never thought about it?"

"Ahem!" The captain coughed twice, and everyone immediately stood up straight, as if nothing had happened just now.

Soon, the time for one cigarette passed, and Gu Yuan followed the team back to the door of the house. The team leader stopped in his tracks and stared at the cigarette case in Gu Yuan's hand, fearing that he might not have enough cigarettes to buy another one.

Gu Yuan threw the cigarette case over, drawing a beautiful arc in the air: "Don't go, just wait for me."

Catching the cigarette case in a hurry, the team leader led his subordinates to stand there in a daze, waiting for Gu Yuan to come out.

The author has something to say: We fight all the way, not to change the world, but to prevent the world from changing us. ——Kong Zhiyong