Through Thick and Thin

Chen Yuan turned his head and found that they were all from his own department.

Chen Yuan smiled and said, "I came back yesterday, where are you going out for dinner?"

"Yeah, why didn't you tell us? I invited you if I knew about it."

The person who spoke was an intern who had just joined Chen Yuan's department this year and later became an assistant to the team leader, a boy who had just graduated from school.

Chen Yuan usually has no airs in his work, he is gentle and has a good relationship with the staff.

As soon as Lu Chuiqing arrived at the hotel, he walked quickly to the Thai restaurant that Chen Yuan said. As soon as he walked into the corridor, he saw Chen Yuan chatting and laughing with a group of people he didn't know, and stopped involuntarily.

Lu Chuiqing subconsciously looked at his own figure reflected in the glass wall of the restaurant at the side, because he walked in a hurry, he only wore a simple white T-shirt and jeans, the T-shirt was slightly wrinkled, and the jeans were also the bad street style.Although those people also dressed casually, they were all decent and generous.

In particular, that young boy, although he stood politely beside Chen Yuan without any outrageous behavior, who couldn't see the love and longing in his clear and twinkling eyes?

Lu Chuiqing stood stiffly at the corner, completely hiding herself in the shadows.

Chen Yuan looked down at the assistant slightly, and smiled softly: "Go back quickly after eating, and slow down on the way."

Everyone agreed, said goodbye to Chen Yuan respectfully, and walked towards the gate. The assistant secretly looked back at Chen Yuan with a reluctant expression on his face.

Lu Chuiqing huddled tightly in the corner of the wall, her eyes were a little red.

After the department staff left, Chen Yuan's friend bumped into Chen Yuan's shoulder, his eyes were full of ridicule, he raised his chin and said, "Oh, that kid just now was pretty, who is it?"

"Assistant, new here."

"Does he like you?"

"Don't talk nonsense."

"What nonsense, I think everyone knows it in their hearts." The friend sighed, "I have been friends with you for so many years so I dare to tell you this. Look at my wife, who quarrels with me all day long. After getting married I don’t like to dress up as much as I used to. I’m sloppy, and I don’t like to work. I just hate this and that, and I have cold wars with my mother all day long. Now that I have a child, what else can I do? Can’t I just make do? With a wretched wife at home, who doesn't like a young and beautiful one outside? Responsibility is one thing, but feelings are another."

Chen Yuan laughed helplessly, maybe it was hard to refute at this time, so he didn't speak for a while.

"Why hasn't your wife come yet? Do you want to make a call?"

"Well, let me ask."

Lu Chuiqing was startled, he immediately turned his mobile phone to silent, and ran to the bathroom in the hall as if fleeing in a panic. In the mirror, tears kept rolling in his eyes.

Soon, Chen Yuan called.

Lu Chuiqing took a few deep breaths, suppressed the choking in her voice, and pressed the connect button with trembling fingers.

Chen Yuan: "Changqing, have you arrived yet?"

"...Well, we'll be there soon." Lu Chuiqing wiped her eyes, "Wait for me."

A few minutes later, Lu Chuiqing slowly walked out of the corridor.Chen Yuan waved to him, and his friend turned his head, and when he saw Lu Chuiqing, he was surprised for a moment.

My friend met Lu Chuiqing two or three years ago. Although it's not polite to think so, he really felt that Chen Yuan's wife had really changed a lot, and she seemed not as cheerful and charming as before.

The friend quickly hid the surprise and doubt in his eyes, and greeted Lu Chuiqing with a polite smile.Lu Chuiqing smiled palely at him, and didn't say anything to greet him, but silently took Chen Yuan's coat and waited quietly for Chen Yuan, which made the warmly greeting friend a little embarrassed.

Chen Yuan said to his friend: "Then I'll leave first, and we'll meet again another day."

"Okay, slow down on the road."

After seeing off Chen Yuan, his friend's wife also called him. The two chatted casually, and finally the friend couldn't help gossiping: "Hey, let me tell you, Chen Yuan, do you remember? I That very handsome and excellent classmate, I saw his wife just now, my God, his wife has changed too much..."

That year, Lu Chuiqing lived like a walking dead. He no longer paid attention to finance and finance that he liked before, and no longer took the initiative to ask Chen Yuan about anything about his work.At the end of the year, Chen Yuan officially returned from studying abroad, and his mother-in-law happily urged him to have a child.

After returning to China, Chen Yuan was transferred to a more core and important department of the company, and his salary was raised to another level.The mother-in-law is a person who loves to talk about her son, and even the neighbors know about it. When Lu Chuiqing runs into a neighbor when she goes out to buy groceries, she will always be praised by the other party as her husband.

Lu Chuiqing learned to smile with the neighbors and mechanically listen to the conversations of the neighbors.

In April, Lu Chuiqing got up at night and vomited once. When her mother-in-law found out, she immediately asked Chen Yuan to take him to the hospital for an examination. Sure enough, Lu Chuiqing was eight weeks pregnant.

Chen Yuan hugged Lu Chuiqing, who was still a little sluggish, and kissed his forehead in relief.The mother-in-law was very happy when she found out, and took the checklist and read it over and over again for a long time.

On the night when she found out that she was pregnant, Lu Chuiqing tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.He likes children, and has always wanted to have a child of his own, but he doesn't know why, bitterness always haunts him, like a terrible shadow hiding in the corner, and there is a dark side in his heart.

He pushed his disguise to the end, and his life finally became only his husband, Chen Yuan, and their unborn child.

The conversation between Chen Yuan and him also became less, and most of the time they were greetings about his body. The joy and like-minded fun they had when they first met were slowly smoothed out.

One night when Chen Yuan was three months pregnant, when Chen Yuan came back from the company, he found that Lu Chuiqing was not there. After calling him to ask him, Lu Chuiqing said that he had gone to drink tea with the neighbor's wife.

Chen Yuan didn't think much about it, but just asked Lu Chuiqing to come back early and drive carefully.

"Well, good bye."

Lu Chuiqing put down his phone, and there was a cup of iced lemon tea on the bar in front of him.The ice cubes in the glass floated slowly, and the edges and corners were shredded by the light of the bar, reflecting grotesque colors everywhere.

Lu Chuiqing quietly stared out of the window, the noise dissolving around him.

He gently stroked his lower abdomen with a calm expression.

He loves Chen Yuan, and he also loves this child, and his future life will probably be like this.

He hypnotized himself, telling himself that this was enough.

Lu Chuiqing's hand tightened, and the sore pain surged up again, making him tremble all over.He hunched over, his throat burning from the urge to cry, and he really didn't want to cry anymore, never.

For Chen Yuan and for his children, he will live a good life.

Lu Chuiqing picked up the car keys on the bar and walked out of the bar door.He got into his car, wiped his eyes, took a deep breath, and started the car.

The street lights at night were dim, and the shadows of the vehicles driving out stretched long on the ground.

At [-]:[-] that night, on the way Lu Chuiqing had to go home, a serious serial car accident occurred due to a large truck overturning out of control. Before the truck rolled over, it directly hit a car, causing the car to The car was the most severely damaged.

When the rescuers arrived, the owner of the car still had vital signs. The emergency doctor saw that the injured man was protecting his abdomen, and knew that the injured man might be pregnant, so he rushed him to the hospital immediately. .

On the way to the hospital, the doctors were trying their best to call Lu Chuiqing to keep him conscious. Lu Chuiqing felt severe pain everywhere in his body, the smell of blood was all over his nose and mouth, and the pain in his abdomen was especially severe.

In the end, the darkness completely engulfed him, and his wandering life for several years was unexpectedly and forcefully brought to an end by the heavens.

The darkness gradually dissipated, and in the blur, Lu Chuiqing seemed to feel voices around him.

Zhou Ruiyang sat worriedly by the hospital bed in the school hospital, looked at Lu Chuiqing, who was lying on the bed with a pale face, and said to his roommate, "Why is he still awake? Didn't the doctor say it was mainly due to hypoglycemia? "

The roommate replied: "I don't know, why is he in such a hurry and doesn't even eat breakfast?"

Zhou Ruiyang sighed: "Isn't it because of the accounting exam? I stay up late every day, and I don't even have breakfast."

"Isn't the exam only in October? Is it so urgent now?"

"That's how he is."

Lu Chuiqing listened to the blurred human voice, and all kinds of noisy, distorted and bloody horrific images were entangled in her mind.He felt a splitting headache, snorted, frowned and opened his eyes with difficulty.

Zhou Ruiyang: "Hey, I'm awake, buddy, how do you feel?"

Lu Chuiqing lay restlessly on the bed, panting slightly, her heart was still beating violently, as if he had just experienced something extremely terrifying.For a moment he couldn't tell where he was, who the people around him were, and he didn't even know if he was alive.

The warm sunlight outside the window came in through the thin beige curtains of the ward, Lu Chuiqing was stunned for a while, he moved his fingers slowly, and murmured hoarsely: "I... am not dead..."

Zhou Ruiyang said in surprise: "What's the matter? You fainted because of hypoglycemia! I think you fainted from hunger. I bought you breakfast. Hurry up later... What's wrong with you? Why are you crying?"

Lu Chuiqing choked up hoarsely, crying hoarsely.He grabbed the clothes on his abdomen tightly, and his mind was full of the scene of himself sitting in the driver's seat, his abdomen being squeezed hard. He saw the dazzling lights, large blood stains, and felt the bone-piercing pain.

He knew that his child could not be kept, and he failed to protect his and Chen Yuan's child well.

Why did he go to the bar alone?Why didn't he listen to Chen Yuan and go back earlier?Why is someone like him still alive?

Zhou Ruiyang turned his head and stared at the two roommates standing aside, and the two roommates all looked dazed.He bent down and patted Lu Chuiqing's shoulder, worried: "Chuiqing, are you okay?"

Lu Chuiqing was out of breath from crying, he curled up tightly, his mind was in a mess.Hearing Zhou Ruiyang's voice, he raised his eyes to look at him, and finally managed to see his face clearly through the mist.

Lu Chuiqing was taken aback for a moment, then said blankly: "Ruiyang..."

Zhou Ruiyang worried: "May I call the doctor for an examination for you? I'm afraid you have other things..."

Lu Chuiqing stared at him for a moment, stunned: "Why are you here?"

"I heard that you fainted by the basketball court due to hypoglycemia, so I came to see you."

Lu Chuiqing lay dumbfounded for a while, staring at Zhou Ruiyang's face, and suddenly sat up from the bed, which startled Zhou Ruiyang.

Zhou Ruiyang asked in surprise, "What's the matter?"

Lu Chuiqing jumped off the bed and ran out the door amidst Zhou Ruiyang's surprised shout.

At this time, there were not many people in the school hospital.Lu Chuiqing stumbled across the corridor and accidentally bumped into a nurse, and only had time to say sorry in a hurry.

Everything in front of him was a scene in his long memory, this corridor, this school, that cheerful and young friend who had never experienced the hardships of life.

He ran forward vigorously, as if if he slowed down a bit, he would miss something important.

Impossible...it's impossible...how is it possible!

Lu Chuiqing pushed open the bathroom door, came to the mirror of the sink panting, slowly raised her head, and looked at herself in the mirror.

During the five years of his marriage with Chen Yuan, he has done this action countless times, looking at himself in the mirror day by day, becoming sluggish, swollen and pale.

Lu Chuiqing's breathing stopped for a moment, and he stared stiffly at the person in the mirror who looked back at him with astonished, shocked, and unbelievable eyes.

It was a young boy who was only in his memory, young and full of campus atmosphere.He is thin, with smooth and fair skin, and there is no trace of years of struggle and pain on his face.

Zhou Ruiyang chased after him, and looked at the dazed Lu Chuiqing in surprise: "What are you doing?!"

Lu Chuiqing mechanically turned her head and stared blankly at Zhou Ruiyang: "Today... what date is it?"

The more Zhou Ruiyang looked at it, the more he felt that something was wrong with Lu Chuiqing, he hesitated and said, "NO.14... Let me tell you what's wrong with you?"

"How many months?"

Lu Chuiqing remembered that on this morning seven years ago, he left in a hurry because he was going to meet a teacher who was instructing him on the exam. He didn't have breakfast, and he felt dizzy on the way.

He suppressed his discomfort and finished seeing the teacher. He wanted to go back to the dormitory to take a rest, but when he passed the basketball court, his eyes went dark and he fainted because of hypoglycemia.