my ten years with you

"Okay, let's stop here tonight, go back to the house, I'll give you some medicine." Bai Xiaonan didn't care about his disobedience, and reached out to pat his face.

Ah Wu opened his eyes wide in surprise, or rather in horror: "Aren't you going to untie it for me?"

"You have to wear it for a long time, until you don't need it anymore. Get up, you need to sleep." A Wu panicked and wanted to ask why she didn't need it anymore. Bai Xiaonan didn't explain too much, this time he didn't ask again When Ah Wu went to get his crutches and stood up, he hugged Ah Wu horizontally, being careful not to touch the injuries on his back and thighs, and easily carried him back to his room.

Ah Wu was a little afraid that he would fall off, so he tightly grabbed Bai Xiaonan's clothes, trying to lean in.He grew up so big, and no one had ever hugged him like this in his memory.Never once, even in his childhood, he had to stand up by himself when he fell down, and no one ever hugged him when he was injured.

Although the wound and embrace came from the same person this time, he still felt a little moved.

He is so lonely, any little thing is enough to move him.He needs to hold on to these things tightly so that he can keep on living.

Bai Xiaonan gently put him on the bed, took out the medicine box from the bedside table, and ordered: "Take off your clothes."

Ah Wu hesitated for a moment, although the clothes he was wearing now were no different from none, and the only jacket was torn apart by the whip, and it was just hanging on him one by one, but he was still not sure that he could be with another man. Undress in front of you.

"Ok?"

Bai Xiaonan took out the anti-swelling medicine from the medicine box, turned her head and saw that he was still dawdling, and made a dissatisfied reminder with her nose.

Ah Wu didn't want to make him angry anymore, he was exhausted and his whole body ached, he didn't have the energy to fight for this seemingly insignificant matter anymore.He quickly took off his clothes, turned around, and faced Bai Xiaonan completely.

Bai Xiaonan raised one eyebrow and looked at Ah Wu up and down. He was very thin, and he had been suffering from malnutrition all year round. His ribs were all exposed. He was like a bamboo being pulled out. His shoulders had already begun to grow. Widened, but the chest and waist looked slender and thin like a teenager.He is very white, his skin is so white that it is almost transparent, his breasts are as pink as the bottom, with a hint of shyness, just like their owner at the moment.

Ah Wu subconsciously lowered her head, not wanting to face his scrutinizing eyes, but Bai Xiaonan raised his chin, looking intently into his eyes.

The best part of his whole body is his eyes. His eyebrows are expressive and not flattering. Even the best fine brushwork can hardly describe such exquisite eyebrows and eyes. When he smiles, he still has a little youthful innocence. when……

When he cried, Mei made him want to destroy him.

Bai Xiaonan was a little dazed, Ah Wu looked at him with questioning eyes, he came back to his senses, poured some medicine in his hand, and said softly: "Turn around, I'll give you the medicine."

A Wu obediently turned around, Bai Xiaonan asked him to lie on the bed, carefully treated his scars, no ruptures, no bleeding, his strength just now was well controlled, it hurts, but it won't leave scars, bruises It will clear up in a few days.

Now is not the time to mark him.

Ah Wu's eye sockets are a bit hot, not just because the wound hurts when touched, on the contrary, the medicine is cool and comfortable when applied to her body.Bai Xiaonan's hand strength was just right, the fingertips were warm, with a little cool ointment on his back and thighs, it was so comfortable that he wanted to cry.

Ah Wu didn't know why he suddenly became so fragile. It wasn't the first time he was beaten. He thought that he could grit his teeth and not beg for mercy or admit defeat in the face of no matter how many ordeals he faced, but he didn't expect to be so easily beaten by this person. crushed.

He won so easily and easily, which made Ah Wu very dissatisfied, and at the same time deeply worried: this time it will be difficult for him to escape his control.

The enemy is too powerful, and this is just the beginning, he already feels powerless.

Bai Xiaonan applied the medicine to him, and rewrapped the loose gauze on his feet. When she looked up, she saw that Ah Wu's eyes were red, and she turned her face to the other side, curled her mouth, and said with a light smile, "What's the matter?" This is, it hurts?"

Ah Wu gently shook her head on the pillow, Bai Xiaonan took out another ointment, rubbed it on his lips, and said softly, "I have bitten my lips, this hurts a bit, bear with it a little bit."

Ah Wu felt her nose sore, she subconsciously cried a little, and whispered almost coquettishly: "Then why do you still hit me?"

"Hitting you is to educate you. Pain can help you to have a better long-term memory. It is not to make you hurt. This is punishment, and that is called abuse. They are two very different things." Bai Xiaonan touched him Looking at his red nose, he spoke calmly to let Ah Wu understand that he was just explaining the facts, not humiliating him in disguise: "You should have been beaten a lot in the past, those people beat you for themselves, I I hit you because of you."

for him?

Ah Wu stared at him blankly, not sure how she should understand his words.

"It doesn't matter if you don't understand now, sooner or later you will understand." Bai Xiaonan smiled patiently and pinched his fleshless face.

"You said you wouldn't let me go no matter what happened?" Ah Wu frowned slightly, expressing doubts, and said more like complaining: "But you didn't even ask me what my name is."

"I don't need to ask, the person who gave you your first and last name will no longer mean anything to you from now on, so your previous name also has no meaning, you only have me, your life without me is just a barrenness. Bai Xiaonan paused, looked him in the eyes and said, "Your name is Ah Wu."

Ah Wu blinked, didn't have much thought about the new name, his expression was blank for a while, looking a little dazed, Bai Xiaonan saw a trace of innocence for a child of his age for the first time on his beautiful face.

"Go to sleep, wake up tomorrow morning and come to my room and wait for me to wake up, good night." Bai Xiaonan pulled the quilt up for him, turned off the light and went out.

Ah Wu thought that he would kiss her, so he was nervous for a long time, but in the end he just covered the quilt and didn't touch him. He didn't know why, but unexpectedly felt an unexpected disappointment.

Soon, this disappointment turned from Bai Xiaonan to himself, Ah Wu was disappointed and even confused, why did he have such an idea, and was even disappointed that this idea failed?

He turned over and was afraid of pressing the wound, so he continued to lie on his stomach.He is now lying in the home of a man who is almost unknown, his body is full of injuries, and he has put on a strange harness under his body, but he doesn't feel scared, just tired.

Tired and a little lonely.

He kind of understood the source of that disappointment, maybe what he was afraid of was never hurt, just being alone.

He thought he would lose sleep, just as he thought he would be scared, it didn't happen.Before he even had time to think about these things clearly, he fell into a deep sleep.

In the dream, many faceless people yelled at him. He couldn't see their faces clearly, but he could feel their emotions, anger, fear, and greed.A man grabbed his ankle and yelled at him: Live for me!

Afterwards, the man was dragged into the darkness, out of sight, and Ah Wu woke up with an inexplicable dullness.

He touched his face, it was all wet, whether it was tears or sweat, he didn't know.

Ah Wu sat up and felt an unspeakable bloating in his lower abdomen. He subconsciously wanted to go to the toilet, but when he got up, he felt pain all over his body. He suddenly remembered what happened yesterday, and stretched out his hand to touch it. Only then did he realize the seriousness of the matter: he couldn't even go to the toilet by himself.

Ah Wu glanced at the small clock beside the bed. It was a little past seven o'clock, and the room was very quiet. There was no movement at all in Bai Xiaonan's room. He searched around the room but found no clothes that could be worn. It wasn't Bai Xiaonan's intention.

Ah Wu is almost certain that this is intentional.

He walked around the room several times, finally pushed open the door helplessly, walked to Bai Xiaonan's room on tiptoe, knocked on the door, the sound was very low, for fear of disturbing anyone who might pass by here, a strong sense of shame even Let him ignore the discomfort in his body, and he can only silently pray that no one will pass by here so early.

A Wu tremblingly knocked on the door for a while, but no one answered. The only good news is that no one was disturbed. Maybe others would not dare to go into Bai Xiaonan's room without permission. This thought made A Wu feel relieved. A little, but he couldn't continue to stand in the corridor, so he boldly twisted the handle, and the door opened.

He didn't even realize that he would subconsciously regard Bai Xiaonan's room as a safe place, at least no one would see him there: covered in welts, with unspeakable instruments on his ass .

But Bai Xiaonan is not someone else, he has already seen it, he is the instigator of all this humiliation, anyone can despise him, look down on him, Bai Xiaonan can't, and he won't either.Ah Wu couldn't explain why he thought this way, but he knew that Bai Xiaonan wouldn't.

He walked into the room and closed the door tightly behind him. The room was large and quiet, and Ah Wu looked at the door for a while, making sure that Bai Xiaonan hadn't gotten up yet, so he walked in boldly.

Although it still feels strange to be naked, at least now he doesn't have to worry about being seen by others at any time. After relaxing a little, he feels how strange the two extra things in his body are.

The author has something to say:

Maybe it's because it's winter, and I feel like I don't get enough sleep every day.