my ten years with you

Ah Wu slept for a long time, very peacefully, and fell asleep peacefully for the first time without any pain or obsession. He hoped that he could sleep peacefully forever.

The past few days can be called chaos, Li Shengwen was arrested, but how many people are still related to him, how many people will be involved in this investigation, it is hard to know for the Bai family. It's broken.

As for Bai Xiaonan, the head of the new generation, he didn't go anywhere, just sat in the ward, silently waiting for Ah Wu to wake up.Ever since he came out of the operating room, he had been in such a peaceful state, sleeping deeply in the intensive care unit, until he passed the critical period and was moved to the general ward, he fell asleep and refused to wake up.

"Doctor, are you sure he's okay?" In the first few days, the doctor was called to ask every few hours.

"Yes, Mr. Bai, we are sure that he is fine, he lost a lot of blood, but the rescue was timely, the bullets were successfully removed, no vital organs were injured, and the main blood vessels were avoided. We also performed a brain examination on him. , there is no problem, just wait for him to wake up." I don't know how many times the doctor explained it to Bai Xiaonan, feeling helpless and unable to offend.

"But..." Bai Xiaonan said anxiously, "Why is he still awake?"

"It may be that the body thinks that he has not recovered well, has entered a state of stress, and is unwilling to wake up." The doctor paused, "In other words, the patient himself is unwilling to wake up. What we can do now is Just wait."

One day passed, three days passed, and on the fifth day, Ah Wu finally opened his eyes.

When he woke up, he didn't know where he was for a while.

He stared blankly at the blank ceiling in front of him for a long time, turned his head and saw the infusion needle in his hand, and Bai Xiaonan who was dozing on the chair beside the hospital bed, and felt that it was too unreal for a moment.

Ah Wu moved her body lightly, the wound was well bandaged, and she could no longer feel the pain. Bai Xiaonan sat on the chair and slept soundly. It can be seen that he has been very tired recently, and he hasn't been able to take a good rest for several days.

Ah Wu's nose became sour, and she stared blankly at Bai Xiaonan for a long time, reluctant to take her eyes away.

He was very scared at first, afraid that this was a dream of his.He was afraid that if he moved a little, the dream would wake up, and the person in front of him would disappear again.

Immediately, I felt wronged again, because all this was true.He actually woke up.

If only time could stop at the last time they hugged.

Ah Wu's eyes were red, she struggled to sit up, pulled out the infusion needle in her hand, and tiptoed down to the ground without even changing her slippers, for fear of waking Bai Xiaonan.

He was going to leave, and left quietly before Bai Xiaonan woke up, he was afraid that if he stayed for a second longer, he would be reluctant.

It's not that I don't miss it either.

It's just that he has no strength left.

Ah Wu wiped his eyes, the corners of his eyes were aching, he didn't dare to turn his head, but hugged a coat that Bai Xiaonan hung at the door, planning to take it away quietly.

Ah Wu hugged the coat tightly, bowed his head and sniffed it, the familiar feeling came over his face along with the familiar smell, he almost couldn't hold back his tears, sniffed his nose, and planned to escape quickly.

"Where are you going?"

A familiar voice sounded from behind, and when Ah Wu heard these words, her legs went limp, she staggered, dropped her hand on the doorknob, and turned around slowly with tears in her eyes.

Bai Xiaonan woke up at some point, and kept looking at Ah Wu silently, until he hesitated to leave before calling out to him, and when she raised her head, she bumped into a pair of smoky eyes.

Ah Wu's lips were trembling, or his whole body was trembling, he could hardly stand up, holding the clothes tightly to absorb the warmth, as if the air conditioner in this ward was not turned on, but a freezer.

He was trembling almost unable to stand, bit his lips tightly with his teeth, sucked his nose a few times, and tentatively called in a low voice: "Master..."

"Just woke up, where are you going?" Bai Xiaonan didn't deny the address, but changed to a more comfortable sitting position, moved her stiff neck, and waved to Ah Wu, "Come here."

Ah Wu looked at him stubbornly and desperately, his eyes were red, and tears flowed down his face as soon as he opened his mouth: "No, I'm leaving. I can't go back. I..."

"Where are you going?" Bai Xiaonan raised her eyebrows and asked calmly, "Where do you want to go? Where can you go?"

These three questions fixed Ah Wu's question in place. He took a few breaths, but couldn't control it, and immediately burst into tears.This question has haunted him from the very beginning until now. He has always only thought about where to run, never thought about where else he could go.

"But I, I'm already...I'm not worthy of you, and you won't love me anymore..." After Ah Wu finished speaking, she squatted on the ground and hugged his clothes and cried bitterly. Why did he wake up?Why wake up and face this cruel world?

"You want me to love you..." Bai Xiaonan raised her head, let out a long sigh, covered her eyes with her hands, and sighed belatedly: "You didn't choose that way back then."

He stood up, walked in front of A Wu, squatted down, snatched the clothes he was holding from his arms and put them on him, slowly stretched out his hand, and stroked A Wu's hair.

"When did you regret it?"

Bai Xiaonan's voice was very soft, and Ah Wu could hear it clearly. He cried hoarsely, sobbing reluctantly, looked at him, and murmured: "Master..."

His feet were numb from squatting, and he was exhausted from crying, Bai Xiaonan stretched his arms slightly, and he threw himself into Bai Xiaonan's arms.He missed the most in this world, the most familiar smell lingered in front of his eyes, Bai Xiaonan was afraid that his wound would open, so she hugged him gently, and he immediately collapsed into his arms vulnerable.

"You want to run now, have you given yourself a way out? Have you given me a way out?" Bai Xiaonan asked in a low voice, but his voice was too low and restrained, it didn't sound like a questioning, but rather Competing with myself: "Don't even think about going anywhere, just stay here for me, don't even think about running anywhere."

Ah Wu struggled slightly, but his strength was not overwhelmed, Bai Xiaonan picked up Ah Wu, put him back on the bed, covered him with a quilt, and covered him with his own coat.He went into the bathroom, twisted out a hot towel and asked Ah Wu to wipe his face. Ah Wu buried his face in the hot towel, unwilling to look up for a long time.

Bai Xiaonan gave him time to calm down, and he himself needed to calm down, these days he had been anxiously waiting for Ah Wu to wake up, but when he really did wake up, he didn't think about how to treat Ah Wu.

Ah Wu said, you won't love me anymore.

Were they once in love?

Is it love for Ah Wu to him?

When the towel had completely lost its temperature, Ah Wu raised his face and looked at Bai Xiaonan slowly, as if he didn't know how to talk to him. Bai Xiaonan glanced at him, coughed, poured him a glass of water, and said to him Said: "Drink a glass of water first, and I will call the doctor over to check you. I haven't eaten for several days, and I have been infused with glucose. If there is no problem, I can eat at noon."

Ah Wu nodded, he didn't have any opinion on this arrangement.He looked at Bai Xiaonan inquiringly, wanting to know what plans he had for the future, but Bai Xiaonan avoided his gaze, and Ah Wu's heart sank severely.

Soon, the doctor came. He checked Ah Wu's wound, measured all aspects of the index, and focused on checking Ah Wu's nerves. After confirming that there was no problem, he nodded to Bai Xiaonan: "Mr. Bai, you can rest assured now. Now, everything is not a problem. Eat something easy to digest for the first meal, and slowly increase nutrition. Nutrition injections can be given for another two days, and then there will be no problems. Keep the wound clean. If you want, it will take another two days Then you can go home and recuperate.”

"Okay, I see, thank you." Bai Xiaonan nodded, and nodded to the subordinate who opened the door. He smiled knowingly, knowing that this doctor's monthly bonus is indispensable.

After the doctor went out, the problem came between the two of them again, especially when the doctor mentioned that they could go home to recuperate in two days, so that they could no longer ignore this problem.

After a period of silence, Bai Xiaonan spoke first: "Ah Wu, we need to talk when your health is better."

Ah Wu was too suppressed by the silence. Hearing his question, she immediately sat up and looked at him intently: "You can ask me anything, but... will you still believe me?"

Bai Xiaonan hesitated for about a second, and Ah Wu broke out in a moment of nervousness. He didn't expect that one day, Bai Xiaonan would hesitate to talk to him.

That's why they're so awkward with each other, if they can't trust each other, they're nothing.It was all because of trust, and he ruined it all with his own hands.

"A Wu, don't cry." Bai Xiaonan raised his hand to wipe the tears on Ah Wu's face, and said calmly, "I haven't gone anywhere during the few days you've been sleeping, and I don't care about Li Shengwen, I'll just wait You wake up, and I will give you a chance to explain. Tell me, as long as you tell me now, I will believe you. "

"Really?" Ah Wu choked up, showing a wry smile, "But I have nothing to say. He encouraged me and designed Zhang Chengyan with me, but I did it, and I have no way to deny it."

"Ah Wu, I don't understand. Li Shengwen wants Zhang Chengyan's position, but what about you? What do you want?" Bai Xiaonan clenched her fists and asked almost in pain: "Did I treat you badly? Didn't I trust you enough? Why did you...betray me?"

Ah Wu's tears flowed out again uncontrollably. He shook his head, buried his face on his knees, and cried in a muffled voice: "No, no, it's all my fault. I'm too jealous. I'm so jealous. Jealous of him, I am also angry with myself, why do I look like him, why do you like me, just like my face like his..."

"I understand now, since you want me to love you, of course you won't be reconciled." Bai Xiaonan closed her eyes, her voice was obscure, as if she finally understood something, "I asked them to find someone, if you want to hate, Why don't you come and hate me?"

"I want to, but I can't do it." Ah Wu's voice was intermittent, he was trembling all the time, he raised his red eyes, looked at Bai Xiaonan, and said in despair: "Don't you understand, I Hate you, but I love you too. I only have you, how can I hate you. "

Before Bai Xiaonan could speak, she heard Ah Wu cry in pain, and said sadly: "But you don't want me anymore, you said no matter what I do, you won't give up on me, you don't want me anymore, don't want me anymore ah!"

Ah Wu cried bitterly, as if she wanted to cry all the grievances and resentment away. Bai Xiaonan didn't stop him, but sat beside him, listening to his painful crying, and felt that a hand was stretched into his heart, holding his heart Kneading is as painful as Ah Wu.

Where do I go wrong?How did they come to this point?

Bai Xiaonan endured and endured, couldn't help but got up and lit a cigarette, he opened the window of the ward a small gap, and smoked in front of that gap, after smoking one cigarette, most of the upwelling emotions were suppressed, he sat down When he came back, he watched Ah Wu gradually stop crying.

He couldn't cry anymore, this crying method hurt his body very much, and he was just rescued, so now he only had the strength to sob, and shed a few tears from time to time.

Bai Xiaonan handed the paper to Ah Wu, Ah Wu took it and blew his nose, Bai Xiaonan kicked the trash can to the side of the bed again, he threw the trash into the trash can, and curled up in the corner of the bed.

Looking at his appearance, Bai Xiaonan felt that after ten years, Ah Wu had barely changed, she was still so small and so beautiful.But if he hadn't changed, he was so different from the stubborn and proud young man back then.

"Why did you save me?" Ah Wu asked in a hoarse voice, blowing his nose, not questioning, but calm despair, "You don't want me anymore, so why do you save me? I can't wait and love Don’t move. It’s better to let me die, at least the ending is not bad.”

Bai Xiaonan was silent.

Ah Wu didn't talk anymore, he had stopped crying, but he still couldn't stop sobbing from time to time, holding a piece of paper and wiping his nose non-stop, his whole body was limp and tired, from inside to outside Feeling exhausted, he lay down and closed his eyes, no longer touching Bai Xiaonan's touch or gaze, hoping that the pain would stop, and that he could stop being nostalgic.

Bai Xiaonan's voice resounded faintly, with a hint of forbearance trembling, and he was trying to restrain himself, "I thought that you couldn't forget that Brother Scar for so many years, and you should have planned to leave me before you did it. At that time, I I let you go. I was the one who asked to start. If you really want to leave, I won't stay. Now that you come back, I thought you didn't want to leave again, but you said, you want to leave. "

Ah Wu twitched slightly under the quilt, avoiding Bai Xiaonan's eyes and not making contact with him, Bai Xiaonan sighed: "What should I do with you?"

"Probably I owe you an apology. I snatched you here without considering your opinion, and let you go without considering your feelings. What I thought would make you think, almost killed you in the end. If you arrive If I pretend to be indifferent today, then I am not a man. Ah Wu, you choose, this time I respect your opinion."

Bai Xiaonan smiled wryly, and added: "Whether to go or stay is up to you. You say you don't know if I can trust you, but in fact, I don't know if you can continue to trust me. But I have to tell you, never A long time ago, you didn't look like Qin Ruo. Or, since a long time ago, I stopped looking for Qin Ruo's shadow in you. "

After finishing speaking, Bai Xiaonan got up and gave Ah Wu some space to think.

They should all calm down and think about what all these years really mean.

The author has something to say:

Let me explain, before I actually wanted Bai Xiaonan to solve all the interfering factors and focus on solving the problems between the two of them with Ah Wu. After being pointed out that the progress was too fast and too perfunctory, I thought about it for two days. Suddenly, the two of them have too many problems. Instead of worrying about what others will think, it is better to solve their own problems before facing other people's eyes.However, having said that, as long as there is no problem between the two of them, Bai Xiaonan will not really care what others think.

Thank you for your comments and suggestions. I wish you all a happy summer vacation and all the exams go well!

Finally, if you feel that Ah Wu is being mean, it is not too late to abandon the article.