my ten years with you

"You feel terrible, don't you? Do you think they are very pitiful? Let me tell you, they are much happier than you. Their consciousness only exists for the master, they have no feelings, no worries, as long as they are instructed, they will follow. Someone If you need them, just lie down in front of that person, don’t have to think about anything, don’t have to worry about anything, the only thing to do is to accept. You feel terrible? But for them, maybe it’s a kind of kindness.”

Bai Xiaonan said calmly, and Ah Wu asked uncontrollably, "Why?"

"Why? Because fate is like this. Someone can help them transform pain into happiness and fear into dependence. They can accept everything calmly and even feel happy. If they retain their consciousness, then they can only suffer soberly, Don't you think it's cruel to watch all this happen, but can't change it?"

"But what's the point of living like this?" Ah Wu almost shouted, Bai Xiaonan glared at him, and he trembled all over.

"Because even living like this is better than dying." Bai Xiaonan said calmly, "Each of them had a choice before, and they all chose to survive, even in this way. They can't choose their own destiny, but Here at least they can choose to end that fate, and they don't want to."

"It is everyone's instinct to live. No matter how painful it is, it is better than death. You always tell me that you are not afraid of death, but what is your choice?" Bai Xiaonan raised one eyebrow and pointed The boy on the ground said, "This time, I will hand over his fate to you. Do you choose for him, whether to let him die here clean and happy, or to live numbly like those people?"

Ah Wu's knees softened, and she knelt on the ground, reaching out to grab Bai Xiaonan's clothes, "Why?"

"Because no matter what you choose, he will suffer and be relieved." Bai Xiaonan said softly, "You can clearly see how kind the choice I gave you is, but you don't know how to appreciate it."

"I understand, really, I understand." Ah Wu didn't know when tears were streaming down his face, he held onto Bai Xiaonan's clothes tightly and didn't dare to let go, for fear that if he let go, he would fall into an irreversible abyss .

"Zhang Chengyan could have sent you here directly, and brought it to me when it's done." Bai Xiaonan slightly parted her lips, and said unhurriedly, "But he didn't. Unlike Li Shengwen, he did it to claim credit. Not even to please me, he and I don't have to do it. Do you know why he does it?"

Ah Wu shook her head, feeling a deep fear in her heart.

"Because he thinks you are pitiful." Bai Xiaonan's flat voice seemed so cruel, Ah Wu listened silently, and unknowingly bit his own lips, "He thinks you have nothing, at least you should remember who you are. He and I said you have a big temper, but it's nice to cry, because he knows that I will soon get tired of a soulless skin. And you, because of this kindness, can continue to hate him, don't you think it's strange? You think he took everything from you, but he is the only one who still wants to leave you something."

Ah Wu slumped on the ground, feeling that all this was too ironic.Tears couldn't stop pouring out of his eyes, he was too weak to get such a small amount of charity, but that person also took away the most important person in his life, and exchanged Brother Scar's life for everything now, What qualifications does this give him to live?What makes him eligible to die?

He didn't, he didn't.

"If you want to hate, it should be me. I will not allow you to keep even that little bit. The choice is yours, and you should bear the consequences yourself. Now, tell me, you want him to live , or do you want him to die?" Bai Xiaonan's voice was calm from beginning to end, he knew exactly what Ah Wu would choose, but he pressed on every step of the way, not giving any excuses to Ah Wu.

"Master..." Ah Wu trembled and said, wanting to ask for help and a little mercy, "You know how I will choose."

"I know, but you have to say it yourself." Bai Xiaonan said cruelly.

Ah Wu closed his eyes, tears flowed down his cheeks, his voice was very small, but he could hear clearly, "survive."

"I want him to live," he cried, repeating.

"Okay, as you said." Bai Xiaonan waved his hand, and someone picked up the fainted boy, and went somewhere.

Ah Wu looked at their disappearing backs, and secretly hoped that the boy would survive and live well. This time he didn't just choose fate for one person.

After their figures completely disappeared, Ah Wu sat on the ground weakly, Bai Xiaonan reached out to pull him up, squatted down, looked into his eyes and asked, "Do you hate me?"

Ah Wu shook her head, "I don't hate it. I chose it myself."

"You chose to resist your stepfather and also chose to help your mother pay back the money, you chose to believe that your own father would care about you, you chose to survive, and in the end, you chose me." Bai Xiaonan's voice was finally no longer so cold, Ah Wu was moved and wanted to cry, but his tears could not be stopped. "You can't choose fate, but you choose me, Ah Wu."

"Why did you ask me to choose again?" Ah Wu murmured, helplessly like a child without a home, "Aren't you afraid that I will choose something else?"

"I know you better than you think." Bai Xiaonan said, "Besides, no matter how you choose, you will belong to me. You can't change this, it's just a different form."

"Thank you." Ah Wu cried, stretching out her hand tentatively, longing for some warmth, "Thank you for not giving up on me."

He finally understood what Bai Xiaonan had said from the very beginning, he would not give up on him, believe in him, no matter how many choices he made, the ending would be the same.

And Ah Wu can no longer continue to pretend that he is just helpless, he understands that no matter how many times he chooses, the choice will be the same, he is just grateful to Bai Xiaonan for giving him the opportunity to choose.

Twice, he picked two.And no matter how many times he chooses again, he will always belong to him.

Bai Xiaonan wiped away the tears on his face with his thumb, Ah Wu felt both guilty and grateful.

He had lost everything that could be lost, and for the rest, he was to be grateful for.

And he actually thought about asking for it, he had nothing left to ask for, Bai Xiaonan was everything to him.

Back in the room, the boy didn't move a bit, he was still kneeling in the same place, his posture didn't change a bit, but Ah Wu didn't have any extra sympathy to feel sorry for him, he just rejoiced that he wasn't the one kneeling on the ground .

Ah Wu went over to turn on the light, and Bai Xiaonan followed him and pushed him against the wall, licked his ears, and asked in a low voice, "Ah Wu, haven't you fucked anyone yet?"

Ah Wu felt himself blushing, he hummed in a low voice, and nodded.

The light was turned on, and the light shone on his face, and he felt his face was steaming.

Bai Xiaonan hugged him tightly from behind, Ah Wu lowered his head, he turned Ah Wu around, looked at himself, and teased, "I have enough experience in the back, but I'm still a little virgin in the front."

Ah Wu lowered his head, didn't quite understand what he meant, and didn't dare to guess too boldly, so he muttered: "Master."

"Hey, you, go to bed and wait."

Bai Xiaonan snapped his fingers at the boy who was waiting on the ground, and the boy immediately got up and climbed onto the bed, put on a good posture, and lowered his waist.

"Master, what... what do you mean?" A Wu asked in confusion, and grabbed the corner of Bai Xiaonan's clothes tightly.

"Let you try it, I'll give you some meat." Bai Xiaonan laughed twice, and both Ah Wu and the person on the bed blushed, he stopped laughing, and said to Ah Wu: "You know, no matter the pain or the Happiness is all from me, and you have to be grateful. No matter how good it is for you to fuck him, it's all because of me."

Ah Wu bit her lip and said, "I understand."

"Go." Bai Xiaonan patted his butt, Ah Wu walked over, untied his belt, and was about to go in while pressing the boy's waist, Bai Xiaonan hurriedly stopped: "Hey, you're going to get into trouble like this."

"Are you going to hurt him to death? I'll let you have a good time, so you can have a good time?" Bai Xiaonan found a bottle of lubricating lotion and a pack of condoms from the bedside table, and threw them to Ah Wu, "Put them on, Think about what I did to you."

Ah Wu responded, and the boy breathed a sigh of relief, and his hands that were tightly gripping the bed sheet relaxed a little.

He is very familiar with this matter, and he can enjoy it with his eyes closed most of the time when others don't intend to hurt him intentionally.

He knew that Ah Wu was a novice, and it hurt a little at the beginning, but he didn't mean to hurt him, he actively cooperated, and soon the two of them began to enjoy it.

Looking at this matter alone, there is nothing shameful about it. Since human beings were born, who has not come into this world naked?This is the moment when humans are closest to animals, so the more primitive, the happier.

At first, Ah Wu couldn't let go of his hands and feet, and was afraid of hurting him, and cared that Bai Xiaonan was watching, and soon he also entered the state, and when he was about to arrive, Bai Xiaonan yelled in time: "Stop."

Ah Wu's hand pinched the boy's waist vigorously, exhausted his own restraint and did not straighten his waist, and left the boy's body.

"Is it comfortable?" Bai Xiaonan looked under him and looked at him with a smile.

"Comfortable, Master." Ah Wu replied honestly.

"It's not your most comfortable time yet." Bai Xiaonan said, pushing Ah Wu to lie down on the bed, and raised his legs, "You have to wait for me to feel comfortable first."

Ah Wu snorted softly, Bai Xiaonan hardly did any preparations, he was a little hurt, but more satisfied.

He not only longs for the happiness he bestows, as long as it is given by him, he is equally obsessed with pain.

Happiness makes people lost, more pain makes people sober, and sobriety makes him feel that he exists.

He hugged Bai Xiaonan's neck, and there was no gap between the two of them, the only gap was his heart disease.

Ah Wu closed his eyes, and only when he got rid of that person, they would truly become one.

It's not that he can't abandon himself, he just can't give up for that person.He swore that he would remember, he would always remember, the price someone had paid for him behind the scenes of his current life.

"Master," he murmured, "own me, don't let go."

"You are mine, mine." Bai Xiaonan panted heavily, looking at Ah Wu's confused eyes, suddenly smiled, and kissed him.

A Wu's eyes widened in surprise, and then she relaxed her lips, accepting his gentle and lingering kiss.

This kiss was very long, and every corner was not spared. Their lips and tongues intersected, savoring each other's taste, and engraved different marks for this moment of intimacy.

It's not that they have never done anything closer, but in Ah Wu's heart, it was his first kiss.

This kiss is more unforgettable for him than the words on his thigh.

After returning from the cruise ship, Ah Wu seemed more obedient than before, no matter in front of or behind her, she would never question Bai Xiaonan's words, and she no longer even hesitated to complete it.

When I saw Zhang Chengyan again later, even Zhang Chengyan couldn't find his fault, only Li Shengwen secretly showed a disdainful smile when no one else could see.

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You are so smart!They all guessed it was clear!

Thank you Luoying for your long comment and mine!I was so surprised to see the long comment, huh?