Quickly wear my first love a thousand times

It was late March, and the afternoon sun was not very strong, but it was like a ball of soft cotton wrapped people up. It was so warm and comfortable that people couldn't help but want to take a nap, but today is my mother. On the day when I was brought into the palace for the first time, I dared not fall asleep. My mother said that she would take me to see her elder brother, who is now the Holy One.I have never had the slightest impression of this uncle since I was born. Although he and I are related by blood, he really doesn't feel close. Besides, before the emperor, the relationship between the monarch and his ministers always comes first, so I always remember my mother. What I said to me before entering the palace, I was afraid that my uncle would be displeased if he lost his sense of proportion.

It's just that after entering the palace, my mother suddenly heard some unknown news from the mansion, so she rushed back first. She left me in the palace and told me not to move around. She will come back in a while. Naturally, I listened to my mother's words Yes, just hang out in that little garden.I actually figured out what happened at home, it was nothing more than my father messing around again. My mother is a princess, so it is impossible for my father to take a concubine. Although I am only five years old, I also know that my father usually The behavior is a bit inappropriate, which makes me disgusted with him. My mother really likes my father, but my father doesn't only like my mother. People outside seem to call this romantic, but I don't think so. Come on, as a man, it seems common to have three wives and four concubines, but seeing my mother weep silently behind my back, I feel that I will never let my wife be so sad in the future.

There was no one in the small garden, it was a bit boring, I walked forward again, and saw a forest of apricot blossoms, the apricot blossoms were about to bloom at this time, the trees were all white, as if they had been piled up a lot The snow on the branches is like snow. I picked up a small flower from the ground. The petals are white and transparent, which makes people feel very cute. My mother has always liked flowers, and it was she who taught me how to distinguish peach blossoms from apricot blossoms, so Then I started to pay attention. I saw clusters of white on the top of my head. I felt as if there was only one color left in the world. .

"Where are you from, kid?"

Hearing this voice, I realized that someone was coming, so I turned my head to look. The man was really tall. Normally, I would look up at my father, but now I have to stretch my neck to see him. After seeing his face clearly, I realized that this man is also good-looking. Originally, my father was a well-known elegant and handsome man, and my mother married him because of this, but this man is much more beautiful than my father. , I thought for a long time and couldn't find any words to describe him. I just think he is the most beautiful person I have ever seen.Such a good-looking person talked to me, so I naturally wanted to go back, so I told him that my mother was Princess Wenjun. He looked me up again when he heard this, and then smiled slightly: "It turned out to be His Highness Cheng Yu."

I looked up at him and asked, "Then who are you?"

He just laughed without saying a word.

Although he looks better when he smiles, I always feel that his smile seems to be separated from the clouds, which is not real at all.

He was standing next to me looking at the apricot blossoms. A gust of wind blew off a lot of petals. I reached out to catch one and turned to look at that person, but that person stopped smiling, showing a kind of expression that I couldn’t see. I looked at it with my head tilted for a long time, and then I suddenly realized that this expression was very sad. Sometimes my mother would show this expression, and it was all because my father broke her heart. I couldn't help but think, What is this man sad about?

After a long time, I felt very bored, the man suddenly said something softly, his words were very soft, like a petal floating on the ground, he said: "Is it going to snow?"

I couldn't help laughing out loud, "It's March, why is there snow?"

After hearing what I said, the man suddenly turned his face and smiled at me. This smile was different from the previous ones, as if he had put on a smiling mask forcibly. I couldn't help but think of what my mother taught me One word - forced smile.Mothers are often like this, so I remember this word very clearly.

He repeated my words with a smile: "Yes. It's March now, how can there be snow."

For some reason, I felt that his eyes were full of sadness, as if he was actually looking at someone, I thought about it, and said to him: "Do you not like this flower? "

"Why do you say that?" he asked me back.

"Because you're not happy when you see this flower." I looked at him and said, "My mother sometimes gets sad when she sees the things my father gave her before, just like you did just now, she just misses what she sees. "

He chuckled, then suddenly reached out and touched my head, and said, "I didn't expect you to know a lot at such a young age."

I thought I knew more than that, I hated the maid in my mother's room, she always looked at her father, so I always deliberately lost my temper in front of her, and my father would scold me , but as long as I cry, my father will have nothing to do with me. That maid always wants to buy me with some gadgets, so I ignore her. I think in my heart, when I grow up, I will definitely drive her out of us Home.

The man rubbed my head and said: "I am really sad when I see this flower, but it will be even more sad if I don't look at it."

What he said was really convoluted, and I didn't understand what it meant. I just knew that this flower must have a very important meaning to him, so I couldn't help asking: "You are also like my mother, thinking of someone you like. ?"

He didn't say anything, just nodded silently.

Seeing him so sad, I also felt a little sad. I couldn't find a word to comfort him, so I hugged him. My mother used to like to hug me when she was sad. I don't know if it is useful to this person. .

Unexpectedly, he actually laughed, "You little thing is interesting."

"Are you happier?" I asked him.

He just let me go and said, "I'm never going to be happy in my life. You're too young to understand this."

I couldn't help feeling unconvinced when I heard this, and said: "Why don't I understand? My father betrayed my mother. My mother is the best woman in the world, and he is the worst man in the world. I won't want him in the future." As a person like him, I will be good to the person I like wholeheartedly."

The man just smiled and didn't speak.

"Don't you think I'm wrong?"

He sighed, and said, "For things in this world, it's not enough to say that you like it."

I couldn't quite understand this, so I asked him, "Are you sad because you are not with the person you like?"

He looked at me for a while, and then said, "Didn't your mother teach you not to ask about other people's sad things?"

When he said this, I felt a little embarrassing. I know that I asked too much, but I really want to know what kind of person can make this person show such an expression, as if he will die in the next second. There is nothing to be nostalgic about.

After a long time, he sighed and said, "I saw him under an apricot tree when I was very young."

I tilted my head and thought for a long time before I realized what he said without beginning or end. It turned out to be the same as my mother. My mother told me that one day when I was passing by the market in a sedan chair, I saw my father.

"If you're an adult, you'll know what it's like."

I dare not ask him who the person he likes is and where he is now, I just vaguely think that that person must have broken his heart too.

The man didn't open his mouth after saying this, and kept staring at the wandering apricot blossoms. I thought he was also a weird person. He felt uncomfortable looking at the flowers, but he deliberately stabbed himself in the heart with a knife.I just looked at him like that for a while, and then I realized that it had been a long time, and my mother guessed that she was going to come back, so I said goodbye to this person and went back the same way.

Before leaving, I seemed to hear the man recite some poem.

It seems to be-although the first bloom of light red is gorgeous, it is not as good as the wind and snow in March.

I have read many poems and books since I was a child, and my mother has taught me many famous poems, but I have never heard this sentence.I thought it was written by some unknown poet.

When I got back to the small garden, I saw my mother waiting there, but she didn't blame me, she just said that my uncle was ill today and couldn't see me anymore.Although I have some regrets, I am more relieved. It is rumored that the current emperor is an extremely violent person, and I am still somewhat afraid.

Not long afterward, news of the emperor's death came from the palace, and the will he made was intended to be passed on to me. Only then did I know that the current emperor had no heirs throughout his life, and even the harem had no heirs. I was actually surprised that there was only the queen alone. He was not much different in age from my father. Why did he go there at such a young age? It seems that he died of a serious illness. I think it must be a serious illness, otherwise how could he It can make the imperial doctors in the palace helpless.It's just that after my mother heard the news, she wasn't surprised at all. She just sighed and muttered to herself: "I knew he was not going to get better when I saw his appearance in the palace that day, but I didn't expect this to happen." Hurry up, I'm afraid he has been waiting for this day for a long time, it's true that life is full of passion."

I didn't understand what my mother meant by that, but when I entered the palace again, I never saw that good-looking man with very sad eyes again, and for some reason, my first thought was him He is no longer in this world, probably because he was really lifeless that day.

It's just that he doesn't know what's going on with the person he likes.

The author has something to say: In fact, I imagined that this episode should be written in more detail, but the pen is not strong enough, so I can barely describe it.

The next chapter is the main text of the second world. Continue to be cute and ask for support. It will probably have a different style from this world_(:зゝ∠)_