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Su Xuan moved slightly tentatively, Shen Chao quickly tightened his arms and hugged him a little tighter, and buried his head in Su Xuan's shoulder, with a muffled voice: "I want to take you to meet someone."

Su Xuan thought to himself that if it was his parents, I'd already met your mother, but isn't Shen Chao our progress too fast? ! ? !

Do you want to see your parents without even snoring? !

Su Xuan still said obediently: "Did you see Aunt Shen?"

Shen Chao whispered in a low voice, "No, it's my psychiatrist."

Su Xuan was confused: "...huh?"

……

When Su Xuan sat in the psychological consultation room, his face was still full of confusion. He didn't know how he jumped from the suspected success of the confession to the mental illness. Could it be that Shen Chao still needs to screen the mental health of the object first even when he is in love? question?

Do young people nowadays not only need to have a physical examination but also a psychological examination when they fall in love?

Shen Chao seemed to be very familiar with this place. He walked in holding Su Xuan's wrist, and said a few words in English to the kind-faced female doctor sitting on the sofa chair. During the communication, the doctor looked at Su Xuan from time to time. Xuan looked at this side, and occasionally met Su Xuan's awkward eyes, and the female doctor would show a very easy-going smile on her face, as if asking him to relax.

Su Xuan's English is not particularly good. Both Shen Chao and the doctor speak very fast. With his listening level of four or six, it can only be heard that Shen Chao should come here often for psychological counseling.

This is quite common among actors. After playing a role, if you really study hard, you need some psychological counseling to help actors adapt to different psychological states.

When Su Xuan was in college, he knew that many famous movie stars in Europe and the United States have regular counselors, but Su Xuanqiong, he has never experienced this kind of service, and he used the beating of the director (named Qian Huai) to adapt to different psychological counselors. role.

But it seems that Shen Chao has a regular psychological counselor, but he doesn't know what Su Xuan has to do with him, a confessor who harbors evil intentions.

Su Xuan sat anxiously on the small bench. He secretly caught a glimpse of the female doctor pulling out a thick book from the top shelf of the tall bookcase in her hand. It looked like a classmate book, which seemed to be from a long time ago There is still some dust on the notebook, and the case is very thick and black.

She stared at Su Xuan for a long time before turning her head to look at Shen Chao. The female doctor seemed very happy for Su Xuan's decision. She asked Shen Chao repeatedly, "Are you sure sharing this to him?" Share it with him?"

Shen Chao glanced at the restless Su Xuan from the corner of his eye, his eyes were calm, and he paused for a few seconds before replying: "sure." (Yes)

Before leaving, Shen Chao lowered his head and hugged Su Xuan again. Su Xuan could feel the turbulent restlessness under Shen Chao's calm appearance, so strong that Su Xuan felt uncomfortable. He could feel that Shen Chao really wanted to do something to him. Something very egregious, like biting him or something.

But Shen Chao restrained himself.

Su Xuan was very melancholy.

Shen Chao is so damn proud of his self-control!

Shen Chao looked at Su Xuan and said, "If you still want to be with me after hearing all this, then you will completely lose all rights to reject me in the future."

After Shen Chao finished speaking, he looked at Su Xuan for a long time, and turned around to leave here with downcast eyes. Su Xuan nervously held Shen Chao's hand: "Wait! Do you want me to talk to this doctor alone?"

Shen Chao's eyebrows were lowered, his expression obviously changed from a kind of restlessness to dead silence, his eyes were as cold as ice, the light disappeared from his eyes, and he asked in a flat tone: "Do you regret it?"

"No, it's not!" Su Xuan showed the shameful expression of a scumbag, "I'm not good at English, and I only got 428 points in the sixth test. I just passed by. I can't understand what she's talking about..."

Female doctor: "..."

Shen Chao: "..."

Su Xuan lowered his head in shame: "I...can I use Google Translate to chat with her?"

The female doctor couldn't hold back a burst of laughter, Shen Chao looked away from Su Xuan very slowly, his fingers held by Su Xuan moved uncomfortably twice, and he said in a low voice: "No need!" , she can speak Chinese."

Su Xuan was confused: ""

Then why did you speak English to her just now? !

Are you looking down on me, a scumbag? !Su Xuan felt that he had been humiliated unnecessarily!

After Shen Chao finished speaking, he left and locked the door behind him, as if he was afraid that Su Xuan would run away.

Seeing the locked door and Su Xuan who was getting more and more confused, the female doctor couldn't help laughing louder and louder. She introduced herself to Su Xuan: "Hello, my name is Andy, and I'm Shen Chao's psychiatrist. You are Su Xuan." Xuan? I have heard your name from Shen Chao many times, but this is the first time I meet you, hello."

Although the female doctor looks like a standard Latino female foreigner, her Chinese sounds almost without accent, fluent and with a little local accent.

Su Xuan also felt a little embarrassed, but still puzzled: "Hello, Doctor Andy, you and Shen Chao can both speak Chinese, why did you just talk in English..."

Andy stood up and shook hands with Su Xuan. She said interestingly: "Because Shen Chao is shy, he knows that your English is not good, so he uses English on purpose. He just doesn't want to let you know something in person. He wants to let you know something. I'll talk to you, not him to your face."

Su Xuan shook hands with Andy a little restrainedly: "...what's the matter?"

Andy smiled and said: "Don't be so nervous, I think if what Shen Chao keeps talking about is the real you, then I might know you better than you yourself, so relax."

Andy got up from the table and opened the book that was very similar to the classmate record. She was checking the records carefully. Su Xuan saw [Nelson] written on the record with sharp eyes. Su Xuan knew that this was from Shen Chao. English name, Andy collected the "classmate records" together, put them upright on the table and shook them twice, she raised her head, Su Xuan withdrew her eyes.

Andy smiled: "You don't need to peek, this is all the records of Shen Chao's from the first time he visited me to the present, just now he said that he can show you all, but you still need to sign a consent form, Guaranteed not to divulge the secret."

"Can I read these things?" Su Xuan was a little shocked. Although he had never seen a psychological counselor, he also knew that such things should not be seen by others easily. "It seems that even parents can't see it?"

Andy nodded, and she said, "Yes, but with my consent, I can show it to you."

"And," Andy smiled meaningfully, and slid her hand twice on the spine of the file, "Most of the information here is related to you, Su Xuan."

"Shen Chao initially went abroad to see a doctor, but then he stopped the treatment, and then I moved here, and I brought all his previous materials overworked. Before he was 18 years old, he always had paper materials. After the age of 18, there are recordings, all of which are telephone consultations, but there are also paper records.”

Andy seems to touch the handwriting on these materials with some emotion: "He is the longest and most difficult patient I have treated. Shen Chao was referred twice because he did not cooperate with the treatment, and then he was transferred back. I am here for treatment, and the treatment was interrupted in the middle, I almost thought he would not be able to recover."

"Now you will be able to see his files and recordings immediately. You are about to open Shen Chao's heart, Su Xuan, what are you thinking now?" Andy asked.

Su Xuan said nervously: "Do you want to tell the truth?"

Andy said, "Of course."

Su Xuan asked: "I want to know if the records are in English..."

Andy: "..."

Su Xuan asked with some despair: "Don't tell me that the phone recording is also in English..."

Andy: "..."

Su Xuan's listening level is only in the new concept volume. He can tell how much the shirt is and what time the store opens. It's not bad. Su Xuan starts to be completely blind when the listening conversation lasts for more than 5 minutes. Conversations are all spoofed.

Let Su Xuan listen to the English conversation between Shen Chao and the female doctor, which has lasted for several years from the age of 18 to the present...

Su Xuan felt that if this was an exam, he would hand in a blank paper.

Shen Chao can use English to encrypt Su Xuan's information, and he can see how bad Su Xuan's English is. Su Xuan thought very sadly, who would have expected that a sudden English listening made Su Xuan stop The footsteps that opened Shen Chao's heart made their already poor love worse.

Su Xuan looked at Andy expectantly, and he slowly took out his mobile phone from his pants. Su Xuan's big eyes were full of the hope of [Can the teacher let me cheat?], and he said, "I can …listen to recordings and look at archives with Google Translate?”

Andy paused subtly, she suppressed a smile and said, "...Of course."

Su Xuan took over the file a little embarrassed, and he took Google Translate seriously and started to read it, as if doing an English reading question. After Su Xuan asked andy that he could use a pencil to take notes on it, Su Xuan Xuan will also circle the words that he does not understand.

Andy looked at a record with mixed emotions, two-thirds of the words were circled by Su Xuan. There are indeed many professional terms in the psychological record, and ordinary English people may not understand them, let alone Su Xuan. up.

When doing English reading questions, Su Xuan has a habit of simply browsing through first to understand the general idea, and then look up the unknown words to understand. But Su Xuan looked at this record, and there are many places with the same word, which is [crush].

Shen Chao said in the record that he had a very strong [crush] towards Su Xuan, which made him not want to see Su Xuan.

At first, Su Xuan thought it meant disgust or boredom, and felt a little heartbroken. As a result, Andy had no choice but to turn the file over after seeing Su Xuan circled the word [crush] 27 times. Andy seemed to find it interesting and She looked at and examined Su Xuan amusedly. She had never seen anyone take such a serious attitude towards a psychological file, as if they were treating a life-defining exam.

Andy pointed to the word circled by Su Xuan with his finger: "But on the premise that you don't know the meaning of crush, what word do you think crush is? What do you think Shen Chao felt about you at that time?" Strong?"

Su Xuan pondered for a while, then he connected the context and made a bold guess: "Homophobia?"

Andy: "..."

Su Xuan looked at Andy's expression and considered for a while: "Disgusted? Disgusted? Annoyed?"

Andy was completely dumbfounded.

It's really hard for Shen Chao to like you.

Andy laughed and said, "crush doesn't mean fear or disgust. The word means infatuation. Shen Chao's [crush] used here generally refers to the unhealthy and abnormal obsession with the person you like in your teenage years."

Su Xuan was stunned for a moment, and then his whole face turned red slowly and slowly. He stared at Andy, lowered his head and looked up the meaning of the word, then looked up at Andy opposite him hesitantly, and asked: "Then why doesn't he want to see me?"

Andy flipped through the text in the file page by page in front of Su Xuan, Su Xuan saw a lot of [crush], Andy said: "Because this kind of feeling is a burden to Shen Chao, but to you, It's a threat."

"Why?" Su Xuan asked.

"Because it's uncontrollable, and it's too much." Andy said, "Did you see, this is just a record for a period of time, how many crushes Shen Chao used on you."

She said: "Even the last time we talked, Shen Chao was saying that the crush on you is like a drug addiction, and it's getting worse."

Andy closed the file, she looked directly into Su Xuan's eyes: "Do you know why Shen Chao brought you to see me before agreeing to you?"

Su Xuan shook his head honestly. He actually didn't know much about Shen Chao. Most of the time he didn't know what Shen Chao was thinking. Fu Mu also used this to mock Su Xuan, saying that you don't even know what the other party is like. How dare you like someone so recklessly.

But that's it, Shen Chao is Su Xuan's reckless boy, Su Xuan is Shen Chao's late-maturing crush who lasted until he was 22 years old, irrational, immature, unhealthy and not in line with mainstream values, but Su Xuan and Shen Chao just like each other .

Why do people have to fully understand what the other person is thinking in order to like the other person?

Fu Mu said what if Shen Chao wanted to hurt you, Su Xuan said that I like him because I believe he won't hurt me.

Fu Mu said why do you believe that he will not hurt you, Su Xuan said because I like him so I believe him.

Fu Mu was so pissed off by Su Xuan's self-closed-loop liking deduction that he scolded Su Xuan for blindly liking Shen Chao.

But Shen Chao has never hurt Su Xuan, and Su Xuan couldn't wake up, so he let it go and stayed in this blind and persistent love for four full years, and found that another person was earlier than himself, silently in a kind of In the [crush] where I can't escape, I have been obsessed with myself abnormally and unhealthily for more than four years.

Andy sighed, and said: "The reason why Shen Chao brought you to see me is to let you know what kind of person you will be with in the future, he wants you to know all his thoughts, and to be absolutely honest with you. Be honest and let you choose whether you want to be with Shen Chao like this."

"But I think, the moment you open Shen Chao's file without knowing English, you have already made a decision." Andy said with a smile, "Even if you can't understand anything, you still have to work so hard. Go get close to Shen Chao, you like him very much, Su Xuan."

Su Xuan nodded shyly: "Yes."

Andy's expression became more complicated: "But Su Xuan, Shen Chao also likes you very much."

Andy paused, she put her hands on the heavy file, crossed her hands, and said softly: "Before you liked him, he has liked you for a long time, he is different from you, Su Xuan, Shen Chaoxin There is a sense of extreme instability, he does not believe that any relationship can be maintained for a long time, and he has never had such a strong feeling for others, which makes him repulsive, so he does not want to like you, Shen Chao hated you, physically isolated this I don’t like you, don’t look at you, don’t see you, don’t listen to any news from you, and even force myself to push you away, rejecting your confession.”

Su Xuan was stunned.

"Shen Chao thought that if he was far away from you, he could suspend this irrational emotion."

"But he couldn't control it, and it got worse and worse." Andy sighed, "Every time Shen Chao comes to consult because of you, such a thick consultation record is full of his feelings for you, jealousy, hatred, What's annoying is also the self-analysis of tossing and turning, heart-piercing, unable to tell what kind of emotion it is."

Andy rummaged through the list of drugs in the records, looked at the drugs with complicated eyes, and said, "Shen Chao has taken a lot of drugs in order to control his feelings for you. He watches you when you can't see him, Su Xuan , it is not an exaggeration to say that this record is Shen Chao's love letter to you."

"It's a pity that you haven't understood it all this time." Andy knocked on the thick and dark shell of the file. Her eye sockets are very deep, which makes her look always very deep and penetrating. She said, " Shen Chao struggled with his love for you for four years, he was finally defeated by you, surrendered to you, and was willing to try a relationship that might not last, but he would definitely never forget it."

Andy looked up at Su Xuan, her tone was very serious, with a hint of pleading: "If one day you want to leave him, and Shen Chao does something that hurts you uncontrollably, please don't blame him."

"Because...Shen Chao may have used his trust in all the feelings in this world to be with you."

Before Su Xuan left the consulting room, he asked Andy if he could let him take the file or copy a few pages, and Andy asked why.

Su Xuan smiled and said, doctor, you said this is a love letter from Shen Chao to me, so I really want it.

Andy said that it is only possible to ask Shen Chao for permission. Before leaving, Andy gave Su Xuan a thick book on the treatment of mental patients like Shen Chao. Before Su Xuan had time to show a grateful smile, he opened it, The smile gradually disappeared on his face.

Holding the thick book, Su Xuan said tremblingly, "...it's in English..."

Andy: "...Sorry, there are no Chinese ones."

It may be that Su Xuan's expression was too sad, and Andy comforted him: "It's okay, you can use Google Translate to look it up."

Su Xuan: "..."

When Su Xuan walked out of the consulting room, Shen Chao was leaning against the wall and looking towards the end of the corridor. He seemed to have stood like this for a long time, but he didn't see Su Xuan coming out.

Su Xuan suddenly felt that this scene was very familiar. He looked at Shen Chao many times, but Shen Chao turned his head to look at other places. Su Xuan was still very disappointed and Shen Chao never looked at him.

Only when the filming of "Nine Streams" started, Su Xuan was caught peeking at Shen Chao, and he and Shen Chao stared at each other for a long time.

... Su Xuan suddenly had a very magical idea in his heart. His face started to turn red, and he walked a little shaky. Su Xuan's eyes wandered away from Shen Chao, but he still asked: "Shen Chao, were you just now? Peek at me?"

If Shen Chao hadn't been peeking at Su Xuan all the time, why could Shen Chao be so right every time, turning his head away from Su Xuan when he peeked over.

Damn, I can't think about it, the more I think about it, the more I blush!The more I think about it, the more narcissistic I become!

Su Xuan coughed twice, waved his hands hurriedly, and said, "I was just joking..."

Shen Chao turned his head, and his face seemed to be a little uncomfortable: "You also peek at me."

Su Xuan's face turned red, his toes were close together, and his fingertips started to feel numb, Su Xuan asked back in a low voice: "Yeah?"

Shen Chao lowered his eyes, stood up straight, but kept a certain distance from Su Xuan, and changed the subject: "You... know everything?"

Su Xuan's mind is not working well now, he raised his head and took a step forward to approach Shen Chao, and asked again: "All?"

Shen Chao took a step back and distanced himself from Su Xuan who was approaching. His face was cold and his jaw was tight: "...that's why I started liking you since I drank milk tea with you when I was 18..."

As he spoke, his eyes were slightly staggered, not facing Su Xuan who was looking up at him, his Adam's apple rolled up and down twice, as if he was being forced to tell the most shameful secret.

Su Xuan's eyes widened slightly: "...Damn, you have liked me so early!!"

Shen Chao turned his head abruptly: "Didn't she tell you?"

Shen Chao turned his head too violently, Su Xuan got closer, the two of them are now nose to nose, their breaths are viscously intertwined, Su Xuan can feel Shen Chao's heart beating fast, and he can see that his clothes seem to be Pacing with the violent heartbeat, it pounded on Su Xuan's eardrum, he was a little unbelievable, it turned out that when Shen Chao faced him, he would also have such a strong heartbeat.

Su Xuan thought that his heart would be beating like a donkey braying when he approached the other party alone.

In order to keep a distance from Su Xuan, Shen Chao pressed his entire back against the wall. All the muscles in his body were unconsciously tensed because of Su Xuan's approach, and his collarbone was raised. He looked away from Su Xuan. : "If she doesn't make it clear to you, you can go in and ask."

Su Xuan could feel the heat coming from Shen Chao's body. This person's body temperature was rising rapidly. On the exposed forearm, because of Shen Chao's force, blue veins could clearly slide on the back of his hand. Shen Chao's hands were slender and knuckle Distinct and elegant, but this aggressive state is rare.

Shen Chao was nervous.

The blood flow speeded up, the heart rate soared, the body temperature rose, the breathing became short of breath, and he began to sweat.

Su Xuan saw a saying before that girls' body temperature will rise by 0.6 degrees Celsius when they see a person they like, because it is a suitable temperature for ovulation.

What kind of temperature is suitable for Shen Chao's current temperature?Is it suitable for kissing?Is it to see the temperature of the person you like?Su Xuan thought delusional.

Su Xuan took a step forward, his knees almost touched Shen Chao's, and his head rested on Shen Chao's chest, completely covered by Shen Chao, Su Xuan asked inaudibly: "If I want to kiss you now?" , still need to go in and ask Andy what?"

Shen Chao's reaction was almost sharp, his chest heaved violently, and then he said sharply with a blank expression: "No—" Shen Chao suddenly clenched Su Xuan's arms, in a gesture of wanting to push him away , but did not move, but pulled a little tighter, Shen Chao exhaled and said: "You need to think clearly, Su Xuan, don't do this casually..."

Su Xuan laughed muffledly, and he interrupted Shen Chao: "Shen Chao, when you filmed the first kiss scene with me in "Siheyuan", I was the one who took the initiative to force the kiss and ng it many times. If you I already liked my words…”

"Can you tell me now, what were you thinking when you kissed me?" Su Xuan asked softly, "Shen Chao, did you think clearly when you kissed me?"

"If you didn't think clearly about kissing me for the first time, then every time you kissed me afterwards, did you think clearly?"

Shen Chao's pupils shrank a little, and he stood motionless as if he was forced to stand against the wall. His head was slightly lowered and his hair covered his eyes, so he couldn't see his expression clearly, only the sound of breathing was clearly audible.

Seeing that the teasing was too much, Su Xuan stopped. He raised his hands with a smile and took two steps back. He said in his heart that it's okay if he can't kiss today, and he doesn't want to be a hooligan. Shen Chao looks so innocent. He sighed and surrendered: " Okay, okay, if I don’t kiss, it’s just...uh!!!”

Su Xuan's waist was embraced by Shen Chao with one hand. His palm was wide, his fingers were slender and strong, and his ten fingers spread out could hold two-thirds of Su Xuan's waist. Through a thin coat, Shen Chao's hot body temperature could not stop him After ironing, his lips were pressed by Shen Chao's closed eyes. Su Xuan was so close, he could see Shen Chao's eyeballs moving restlessly under his eyelids, his long eyelashes trembling uncontrollably, and a smile appeared on his face. Layers of almost none blush.

Shen Chao just pressed his lips to his lips, but Su Xuan could feel that Shen Chao's teeth were biting tightly, as if he was trying his best to restrain himself from deepening the kiss.

But even if it was just lip to lip, Su Xuan murmured unaccustomed.

Shen Chao kissed too hard, Su Xuan was a little out of breath, his hands were locked by Shen Chao as if he was catching a prisoner, Shen Chao seemed to be kissing him, but Su Xuan felt like he was being arrested.

Shen Chao was irritated by Su Xuan's snort, he hugged Su Xuan's hand slowly tightened, Su Xuan felt the clothes on his back were tightly grasped, and the clothes rubbed against his skin to create a burning sensation, Shen Chao It was so hard that it seemed to tear his spine out through the coat,

Shen Chao's hand moved up slowly along Su Xuan's spine, and finally held it on the back of Su Xuan's neck. Shen Chao lowered his head and bit Su Xuan's lower lip, almost kissing Su Xuan to a ninety-degree angle. horn.

Su Xuan's tears overflowed from the corners of his reddened eyes, his fingers opened due to suffocation, the surging air couldn't escape from his lungs, and it ran around in his throat, making Su Xuan want to cough, but he couldn't open his mouth at all , Su Xuan could only absorb a little overflowing air from Shen Chao's breath to maintain it.

...too much...fuck!After the kiss, the two hugged each other to calm down. Shen Chao rested his chin on Su Xuan's shoulder. He seemed to like to maintain this kind of hug with Su Xuan in a wide range of contact. His hands were still on Su Xuan's waist, breathing It was played slowly, and the voice seemed to come out of the nasal cavity: "Do you want to be with me?"

Shen Chao's tone was calm and floating, as if he was giving Su Xuan one last chance to repent, but he hugged him tightly, Su Xuan felt that if he moved, Shen Chao would arrest him, just like before.

Su Xuan suddenly felt a little funny: "Yes."

After hearing this answer, Shen Chao became quiet, his forehead pressed against Su Xuan's collarbone, and his voice was a little hoarse: "How long will we be together?"

Su Xuan said honestly: "I don't know either, I haven't talked to anyone, and I don't know how long the general deadline is."

The posture of Shen hanging his head against Su Xuan's heart was like a gun, and he felt threatened by all the unknown emotions in Su Xuan's heart.

Feel scared.

Shen Chao lowered his eyes and asked in a low voice, "Will you leave me?"

Su Xuan put his hand on the back of Shen Chao's head, and he gently stroked Shen Chao's soft hair with his thumb. He inserted his fingers to comb it, trying to relax Shen Chao's emotions, and said softly: "Shen Chao, apart from me Take the initiative to break up with you, what if something else separates you and me? You should be able to accept this?"

Shen Chao asked: "What?"

Su Xuan said, "What if I die."

Shen Chao: "..."

Su Xuan shrugged jokingly: "Does it make you feel better when you think about it this way?"

Shen Chao raised his head coldly, caught Su Xuan's chin with one hand and pinched Su Xuan's mouth, and said with some force, "Shut up."

Su Xuan was squeezed into a chicken's mouth, but he burst out laughing, he was joking with Shen Chao just now.

Su Xuan's eyes were gentle and warm, just like him. He opened his arms and hugged Shen Chao, who seemed a little sullen, and patted him on the back: "I think I will like you when I'm alive."

"If one day I don't like you anymore, just treat me as dead."

Shen Chao said after a long time: "I'm going to be angry."

Su Xuan sighed and said, "Then what are you going to do to me? Do you have anything to threaten me with?"

With the self-control that Shen Chao is so proud of, he can resist sticking out his tongue in a kiss, and at most he can say a few words to him when he gets angry. Su Xuan is skinny and shameless, so he is not afraid of this at all.

Shen Chao stared at Su Xuan, Su Xuan saw Shen Chao licking his canine teeth, his eyes were cold.

Su Xuan took a step back subconsciously, and said nervously: "What are you going to do?!"