I am at odds with the school grass

Gu Xizhe took Wen Chenyang to see a psychologist the next day. After a series of inquiries, the doctor learned that Wen Chenyang's mother had a history of depression and asked him to take a depression symptom test.

The test result, without any suspense, is depression, moderate.

After coming out of the hospital, it was almost noon, Gu Xizhe's face was uglier than Wen Chenyang's.

Wen Chenyang pretended to be relaxed and said: "Damn, what the hell is depression? I'm such a lively and cheerful person, I've been tricked."

Gu Xizhe has read related books, and there are many causes of depression, but from Wen Chenyang's situation, genetics and stress events are both related.Although Wen Chenyang didn't show an extremely negative side during this period, Gu Xizhe was with him every day, and he could still feel his true emotions. Relaxation and optimism were just a false appearance he made up.

Wen Chenyang looked at Gu Xizhe and frowned, "Gu Xizhe, it's me who suffers from depression, not you, what are you doing with such a sad face?"

Gu Xizhe looked at him, "Depression can be cured, you have to follow what the doctor said just now."

"Understood, I'm not stupid." The doctor prescribed medicine for him just now, but he doesn't recommend relying too much on the medicine, and recommends self-regulation with a positive and optimistic attitude.

Wen Chenyang hooked his shoulders, and said as he walked, "The biggest advantage of me is optimism. Don't worry, I will be fine in a while."

Gu Xizhe asked, "What do you want to eat today?"

"Did you do it yourself again?"

"Well, you don't want to eat what I made?"

"It's not really, I just feel that it's wronged for you to be asked to cook by a young master who has never been in the sun since childhood."

"Everyone has to eat, how can cooking be considered a grievance."

Wen Chenyang was blunt, "That's fine, today I'll have steamed sea bass, roasted tofu, and pork rib soup."

"it is good."

The way the two get along is just like ordinary lovers. They sleep together, eat together, care about each other, and love each other, but neither of them takes a step to talk about the relationship, it seems to be tacit agreement.

Everything was ready for Su Yike's micro-movie, but shelved because he couldn't find a suitable actor. More than half a month ago, he approached Wen Chenyang and asked him to be the actor, but Wen Chenyang refused. At that time, Zhang Haiyin had just left, and he and Gu Xizhe was still in Cangcheng.

Su Yike really couldn't find a suitable one, so he came to find Wen Chenyang in person with the cheek, called him to the sugar shop at the back door of the school, and offered him Hong Kong style sugar water.

There were many people in the sugar shop, and a school band outside the shop was performing on the street, singing and guitar occasionally came in, Su Yike said: "Chen Yang, think again, I really can't find anyone more suitable than you." gone."

Wen Chenyang couldn't be more clear about his current situation. He pretended to be relaxed on the surface, but his heart was empty. During this period of time, he followed the steps, but in fact he had lost interest in many things. He was not surprised when he was diagnosed with depression. He knew the situation best.

"President, it's not that I don't want to, but that I may not be able to perform well."

"Why? I think your acting skills are good, and you have a strong camera sense."

Su Yike should be regarded as his closest friend in this school besides Gu Xizhe, they have shared many things and they got along very well, Wen Chenyang didn't want to hide it from him, "Actually, I've been sick during this time, depression. "

Su Yike's eyes widened, obviously shocked. Such a cheerful and optimistic Wen Chenyang actually suffers from depression, which doesn't fit him at all. However, looking at Wen Chenyang's appearance, it doesn't look like he was joking, "What's going on?"

Wen Chenyang took a sip of poplar nectar, "At the end of last month, my mother passed away."

Su Yike didn't know at all. During the National Day holiday, he even asked him if he would like to be the leading actor. It seems that Wen Chenyang refused at that time, "Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

Wen Chenyang said: "It's not too late now, you are the second one in this school to know."

Su Yike: "The first one is Gu Xizhe?"

"It must be him."

Su Yike really didn't see anything wrong with Wen Chenyang, he concealed it too well, "Do you need my help?"

Wen Chenyang shook his head, "No."

"Did you see a doctor then?"

"Look, I prescribed some medicine, and I think it's okay after taking it recently."

Su Yike felt a little uncomfortable when he said this in a relaxed tone, "Chenyang, since you can't be the leading actor, then come and play too, be behind the scenes, be a supporting role, didn't our crew have a lot of fun last year?" , to help you recover."

Wen Chenyang's heart warmed up, "Okay, you can give me a melancholy or facially paralyzed character, and I will act in my true colors."

"Your family, Gu Xizhe, is the one with facial paralysis." Su Yike said, "How about I go and find him?"

Wen Chenyang smiled, "Don't, he doesn't like to show his face, he only agreed last time when I made fun of him."

Imagining Wen Chenyang rolling around in front of Gu Xizhe, Su Yike couldn't help laughing, "Chenyang, are you sure you really don't have that kind of relationship with him?"

Wen Chenyang paused, deliberately pretending not to understand, "What kind?"

"Just like me and Xiao Yi."

Wen Chenyang stirred the poplar nectar in the bone china bowl with a spoon, "It's a little more complicated for me and him."

Su Yike smiled and didn't continue to ask.

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Wen Chenyang takes the medicine regularly every day. It has some effect, but it is not completely effective. Especially when he wakes up in the middle of the night, his mood will be particularly low, and all kinds of negative thoughts will come up, which makes people suffocate.

When he was in his own dormitory, if he woke up in the middle of the night, he would sneak to the balcony and smoke a cigarette. The smell of nicotine would make him temporarily get rid of the negative things in his mind.

Gu Xizhe still waited for him at the place he passed by when get out of class was over at noon. Even his roommates were surprised that people from different majors could still eat lunch together every day.

Wen Chenyang felt that Gu Xizhe was too tired during this time, he didn't care much about many things, he didn't even care about the people around him, but he couldn't stop worrying about Wen Chenyang.

Wen Chenyang said: "Gu Xizhe, don't wait for me all the time, I have the same lunch as anyone else."

Eating lunch is secondary, Gu Xizhe just doesn't want Wen Chenyang to leave his sight for too long, "Just pretend that I don't want to eat alone."

Wen Chenyang didn't speak anymore, Gu Xizhe saw that his dark circles were a bit heavy, "Didn't sleep well last night?"

"Fortunately, I woke up once in the middle of the night."

"Have you taken the medicine?"

"Eat, don't worry."

Gu Xizhe said, "Come and sleep in my dormitory tonight."

"Well, okay."

Gu Xizhe's roommate, Ye Cheng'an, is going to the capital to participate in a science and technology competition, and he will be there for a week.

After Wen Chenyang went to university, he didn't put as much energy into his studies as he did in high school. Although his academic performance was above average in his major, he wasn't considered top-notch, but he didn't care. After all, he couldn't rely on grades alone after college. To measure whether a person is good or not.

When he was with Gu Xizhe, Gu Xizhe read books, and he followed suit.Today's linear algebra class, the teacher assigned a lot of homework, due tomorrow morning.

Gu Xizhe's desk was very long, and it was just right for the two of them to sit side by side in front of the desk with a chair.

Both of them were writing their homework, very quiet.

Wen Chenyang did the last linear algebra and got stuck. He was distracted during class today and was chatting with Su Yike about micro-movies in the group. He didn’t understand the content of this class, so he didn’t bother to go by himself. Research.

"Gu Xizhe."

Gu Xizhe responded, Wen Chenyang put the book between the two of them, and scratched a question, "How to do this question?"

For the first time ever, Wen Chenyang, who has always been competitive, would take the initiative to ask others what to do.

Gu Xizhe put down his homework and took a look at the linear algebra problem. They were also learning linear algebra this semester. This problem was not difficult for him. He picked up his pen and began to lecture Wen Chenyang on the problem.

After finishing the topic, Wen Chenyang felt that he would have been able to solve this problem if he had done it before. "Am I becoming stupid? I can't even do this difficult problem."

"No, IQ is still two hundred."

Wen Chenyang smiled, "If I have two hundred, do you want to say that you are three hundred?"

"No, two hundred and one."

"Fuck, I don't want to play with you anymore."

Gu Xizhe put the book in front of him, "Do your homework."

After Wen Chenyang finished his homework, he took a shower and got under the covers to brush his phone. When Gu Xizhe came up, he put down his phone and moved closer to him.

"I feel like it's getting colder."

Gu Xizhe helped him cover the quilt by the way, "Do you feel cold?"

"Fortunately."

Gu Xizhe and him were lying face to face, the distance between them was very close, "It's my mother's birthday next Saturday, and I'm going back to Nancheng."

Wen Chenyang: "Yes."

"My mother asked you to go too."

Wen Chenyang thought about it. When Zhang Haiyin passed away, Ye Zhiying made a special trip to Mucheng and helped a lot. He should buy a gift for her birthday.

"Okay, I'll go back with you."

"Ah."

Ended the topic, the two of you looked at me, I looked at you, did not speak any more, each other's breath entangled, fueled the love in the bottom of my heart, and the eagerness in the body was uncontrollable, Wen Chenyang's hand came out of the quilt Stretch it out, and use your index finger to gently trace Gu Xizhe's sword eyebrows, then the high bridge of the nose, and finally land on his lips.

Gu Xizhe let him go.

Wen Chenyang's index finger lightly stroked his lips, then obviously dissatisfied, he leaned over and touched his lips like a superficial touch.

Gu Xizhe reached out to clamp the back of his head, not giving him a chance to retreat, he changed from passive to active.

The burning flame turned into a raging fire in an instant, which could never be extinguished.

Buried feelings, once they erupt, are overwhelming.

Gu Xizhe's arms supported Wen Chenyang's sides, and his body was on top of him. When they let go, their lips were red and dripping with blood.

Wen Chenyang was hypoxic for more than ten seconds just now, he coughed violently twice, realizing the changes in his body, he moved Gu Xizhe's arm propped aside, and went to the bathroom.

Of course Gu Xizhe knew what he was going to do, he pressed his shoulder, "I'll help you."

Wen Chenyang looked at him, his Adam's apple rolled, and he lay down again, as a default.

This was the first time someone helped him, at first he felt ashamed, but later he thought that the person who helped him was Gu Xizhe, and he gradually learned to enjoy it.

Afterwards, Gu Xizhe went to the bathroom to wash his hands and came out, Wen Chenyang's face was still red.

Gu Xizhe threw off the quilt and lay down, and heard Wen Chenyang say: "Old Gu, I didn't expect your craftsmanship to be quite good."

Gu Xizhe smiled, "Sleep."

After school on Friday, Wen Chenyang carried a backpack, which contained two sets of clothes and a gift for Ye Zhiying, and went to the school gate with Gu Xizhe to take a taxi.

The car was reserved by Gu Xizhe at noon, and the time was 04:30.

While waiting at the school gate, Gu Xizhe entered the convenience store next to him. He took two bottles of water from the refrigerator, a bottle of chewing gum when paying the bill at the counter, and a box of Okamoto next to the chewing gum.

When Wen Chenyang, who was waiting at the entrance of the convenience store, turned his head to look in, he happened to see the picture of Gu Xizhe holding Okamoto, his ears turned red, and he quickly looked away.

Gu Xizhe paid the bill and came out, handed him the bag in his hand, Wen Chenyang took it, and when he opened it, there was only a bottle of water, a bottle of chewing gum, and two pieces of chocolate inside.

It takes more than an hour to get there by taxi back to Nancheng. It has been more than three months since the last time he came to Nancheng. He still remembered that the last time he came, it happened to be Gu Xizhe's birthday, and he just discovered the secret of the original owner at that time.

Looking back now, that secret doesn't seem to matter much.

The author has something to say: Gu Xizhe: I bought this for the first time, and I don't know if it will work.