I am at odds with the school grass

On the last day of September, many students started classes in the morning, and rushed to the station with big bags and small bags after class. The rate of skipping classes in the afternoon was very high, and almost one-third of the students in each classroom were missing.

After Wen Chenyang finished class, he went to the library to borrow books. Now the bus station is too crowded, and he doesn't want to.

After staying in the library for half an hour and borrowing two books, he walked to the school gate to take the bus home.

After returning home, he changed his shoes and found that there was no one in the room. He yelled mom, but no one answered. He went to the balcony and checked the room, but there was still no one.

Did he go out?

Wen Chenyang went into the room, put down his backpack, and went out to the living room to find something to eat. There were few things in the refrigerator, so he could only eat apples.After washing an apple and sitting on the sofa, I caught a glimpse of a box on the coffee table, above which was written: For Chenyang.

Wen Chenyang was curious, so he opened the box and took a look. Inside was the real estate certificate, account book, bank card, and a letter on top.

He had a bad premonition in his heart, put aside the apple he took a few bites of, and picked up the letter to read.

The letter was handwritten, in Zhang Haiyin's handwriting: Chenyang, I wanted to live for you, but I found that I couldn't go on, so I decided to leave...

Wen Chenyang looked at Zhang Haiyin's handwritten letter, his hands trembled unconsciously, and his eyes were red. He ran into Zhang Haiyin's room and found that the room was very tidy, and everything inside was still there, and nothing was taken away.

He took out his mobile phone and dialed Zhang Haiyin's number, and the receiver said: Hello, the number you dialed has been turned off, please try again later.

This is true no matter how many times he dials.

Wen Chenyang clicked on WeChat again, and called Zhang Haiyin for a video, but WeChat indicated that there was no answer.

He sent a message to Zhang Haiyin with trembling hands:

Mom, where are you?

I'm home, when are you coming back?

Don't leave me behind, I haven't grown up yet, please, come back, okay?

……

Wen Chenyang called Gu Xizhe again, who answered quickly.

His voice was bewildered, "Gu Xizhe, my mother is gone."

Gu Xizhe knew from Wen Chenyang's tone that the matter was serious, "Did she leave any information?"

"Yes, she left a letter, I think she can't think about it." Wen Chenyang was very anxious, "I called her and turned off the phone, and I didn't reply to the message...Gu Xizhe, what should I do..."

"I'll go right now."

After Wen Chenyang hung up the phone, he opened the door and planned to go out to look for it. He knocked on the door next door, and the other party opened the door. He asked urgently, "Auntie, did you see my mother today?"

The aunt shook her head, "I didn't see it, did something happen?"

Wen Chenyang said: "It's okay."

After speaking, he immediately went downstairs again, came to the security booth at the entrance of the community, and asked the guard uncle, "Uncle, have you seen my mother?"

There are thousands of households living in the community, and the security guard can't remember who belongs to the family, "Which is your mother?"

Wen Chenyang took out his mobile phone and found Zhang Haiyin's photo, "Did you see this?"

The security uncle looked at it, "Oh, I saw it yesterday, but I haven't seen it today."

"Then what time did you see her yesterday?"

The security uncle tried his best to recall, "What time is it, I didn't pay attention."

Wen Chenyang caught a glimpse of the surveillance cameras in the security booth. Some public places in the community are equipped with surveillance cameras. He said, "Can you show me the surveillance cameras at the exit?"

Uncle Security was a little embarrassed, "I don't know how to do this, I need to find a property."

"That's fine, I'll go and tell them." Wen Chenyang ran to the property center, found the staff of the property, and said that he wanted to check the monitoring. As the owner, Wen Chenyang had the right to check, and the property called him out.

Wen Chenyang watched the surveillance for more than an hour in front of the monitor, and finally saw Zhang Haiyin's whereabouts. According to the time shown by the surveillance, she went out yesterday afternoon and never came back.

Wen Chenyang's heart trembled. One day later, what would Zhang Haiyin do?

If she wanted to commit suicide, where would she go?

Wen Chenyang suddenly felt helpless. Although he had been in Mucheng for more than a year, he was not as familiar with the locals after all. Now that Zhang Haiyin was missing, he was helpless at all.

"Morning Sun!"

Hearing a familiar voice, Wen Chenyang followed the sound and looked over. Gu Xizhe was running towards him with a luggage bag. He had actually taken a taxi out of downtown Mucheng, and asked the driver to turn back and change his destination.

Gu Xizhe's first sentence was to ask: "How is the situation?"

Wen Chenyang said: "I checked the surveillance, she didn't come back after going out yesterday afternoon, I'm afraid..."

Wen Chenyang didn't continue talking about the rest.

Gu Xizhe patted him on the shoulder, "Let's go to the police station immediately and report the crime first."

"Uh-huh."

After Gu Xizhe appeared, Wen Chenyang felt instantly supported, and he was no longer alone.

The two first went to the police station to report the case, but it was already dark when they came out, and the two of them planned to go out to look for it, maybe Zhang Haiyin hadn't committed suicide yet.

Holding on to that glimmer of hope, Wen Chenyang ran around in this city he was not very familiar with. In the noisy metropolis at night, the neon lights were very dazzling, and no matter where he went, it was like daytime.

After walking violently in various places in this city for several hours, Wen Chenyang's feet developed blisters, and Gu Xizhe knew that he couldn't find them, but he still stayed with him.

At ten o'clock in the evening, they hadn't had dinner yet, and Wen Chenyang, who usually yelled when he was a little hungry, didn't feel hungry today.Passing by a KFC, Gu Xizhe bought some food.

Wen Chenyang sat on the flowerbed beside the road, staring at the flashing neon lights across the street in a daze.

Gu Xizhe didn't care about whether the flower garden was clean or not, so he sat next to him, and handed him a Coke with a straw and an open hamburger in front of him, "Eat something first."

"Yeah." Wen Chenyang held a Coke in one hand and a hamburger in the other. He couldn't taste anything, so he just stuffed it into his mouth.

In the middle of eating, Wen Chenyang suddenly remembered that there was another person. He put down the Coke, took out his mobile phone, and dialed Wang Yun's number, who answered quickly.

"Uncle Wang, has my mother contacted you recently?"

On the phone, Wang Yun said, "No, what's the matter?"

"She left a letter and left and I have never been able to find her."

"What's the situation, be more specific."

Wen Chenyang told him the specific situation. Wang Yun was working overtime, and immediately drove to meet Wen Chenyang after hearing the news.

In half an hour, he found Wen Chenyang. He looked very anxious, "Did you report the crime?"

Wen Chenyang nodded, "Reported."

Wang Yun asked, "Then what did the police say?"

Wen Chenyang said: "They asked me to wait for news."

"No, we can't wait in this situation. Let's go to the police station now to see if we can call out all the nearby surveillance cameras and track down her whereabouts."

When Wen Chenyang was mentioned by Wang Yun, he suddenly realized that, yes, he knew how to ask the property to adjust the monitoring, but why didn't he know how to ask the police station to adjust the monitoring, so stupid.

"Okay, let's go right away."

Wang Yun drove the two of them to the police station immediately. As a lawyer, Wang Yun often dealt with people in the police station. He also knew people in the police station, so it was more convenient to do things.

The police agreed to call out the nearby monitoring, but because it was too late, the nearby businesses with monitoring had already closed, and they had to wait until tomorrow to check the results.

After leaving the police station, Wang Yun asked, "Chenyang, are you going home?"

Wen Chenyang also knew that he couldn't look for it blindly, because Mucheng was so big that he couldn't find it at all, "Well, let's go back."

"I'll take it to you."

It was getting late, Wen Chenyang didn't want to bother Wang Yun, he said: "We will take a taxi back by ourselves, I will trouble you today, you should go back and rest too."

Wang Yun said: "Actually, I also want to read the letter left by your mother, do you mind?"

Wen Chenyang shook his head, "I don't mind."

Wang Yun drove them back home. The house was tidy, but Zhang Haiyin was not around, so the house became a bit empty.

Gu Xizhe didn't treat himself as an outsider either, he poured a glass of water for Wang Yun, Wen Chenyang and himself.

After reading the letter left by Zhang Haiyin, Wang Yun felt very heavy. He folded the letter and put it back. It seemed that he was not surprised by this incident, but only regretful and sad. "Your mother suffers from severe depression. She told me not to tell You. I introduced her to a doctor, and I thought she would actively cooperate with the treatment, but I didn't expect to do something stupid."

Wen Chenyang covered his face with his hands. In fact, he already knew that Zhang Haiyin had been unhappy for the past two years. Since she was subjected to domestic violence, he rarely saw her smile. Later, Liu Yufen's death completely broke her down. I didn't think of depression, I just thought it was a normal sad emotion, and I could get out of it after a while. I didn't expect Zhang Haiyin to be swallowed up by depression, and it would end in that way.

And before he went out yesterday, Zhang Haiyin hugged him with red eyes.

In fact, it was her last farewell.

Why didn't he notice it?If he had noticed it earlier and stopped it earlier, it would have caused such consequences.

-

At one o'clock in the morning, Wang Yun left.

Gu Xizhe took a shower, and it was already two o'clock when he lay down, Wen Chenyang didn't feel sleepy, his mind was in a mess, he still couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality.

If it is a dream, can you wake up earlier?

Wen Chenyang only fell asleep for a while at dawn, and was awakened by the ringing of the phone in the morning. It was a call from the police station. He answered the phone hopefully, but his expression slowly changed.

The police station called and said that a female corpse was found in the river early this morning, and its characteristics were similar to the description of the person he reported yesterday, so he was asked to go there immediately.

When Wen Chenyang and Gu Xizhe arrived, Wang Yun was already there. He also received the notification early in the morning and arrived 10 minutes earlier than them.

Wang Yun's mood also seemed very depressed. Usually he would wear a suit when he went out, and his hair would be combed with hairspray, but not today. He almost rushed over immediately after receiving the call, and he was still wearing home clothes.

At the door, he stopped Wen Chenyang, choked up and said to him: "Chenyang, be mentally prepared."

Wen Chenyang already understood, "Yes."

No matter what, we have to see each other for the last time.

The hand placed by his side was held by the other hand, Gu Xizhe said, "I'll accompany you in."

"okay."

Gu Xizhe led him in, and when he came out, Wen Chenyang's eyes were red, although the face inside was badly soaked by the river water, he could recognize it.

The heart seemed to be pierced by countless sharp swords, and it was so painful that even breathing became difficult.How could his mother leave him like this?

-

In the following time, Wen Chenyang began to deal with her funeral. Although he didn't understand much, when Liu Yufen passed away, he followed his uncle to deal with it, so he knew most of the process.

He is not as strong as he looks, but he is not so fragile either. He knows what he should do. He has to deal with Zhang Haiyin's funeral, and then go back to school and continue his life.

Fortunately, Gu Xizhe accompanied him every step of the way.

Gu Xizhe didn't talk much, but Wen Chenyang could see him every time he turned his head.It felt like he was standing on the edge of a cliff and could fall off at any time, but when he turned around, he found someone holding him tightly behind him.

Uncle Zhang Mingyi and Gu Xizhe's mother Ye Zhiying rushed over the next day.Although Ye Zhiying didn't know Zhang Haiyin for a long time, she was very sad when she heard the news of her death, and worried that Wen Chenyang couldn't bear it alone, so she came to help take care of it.

Zhang Haiyin doesn't have many relatives, except for Zhang Mingyi's family, there are no other relatives.Most of the colleagues and friends he knew were from the entertainment industry, and Wen Chenyang did not notify each one of them. He did not want Zhang Haiyin's death to be hyped up by the media. All kinds of reports would be a kind of blasphemy to the dead.

On the third day, Zhang Haiyin was cremated, and Wen Chenyang returned to Cangcheng with her ashes.This third-tier city is where she grew up and where she cares most.

He buried Zhang Haiyin's ashes next to Liu Yufen's cemetery. Zhang Haiyin was so dependent on his mother and had endless conversations with his mother. They will never be lonely when they are together.

After the funeral, Wen Chenyang stayed at Cangcheng's house for two days, and Gu Xizhe was always by his side.

Zhang Mingyi didn't leave until the end of the National Day holiday. As an uncle, although he didn't deal with Wen Chenyang often, he was related by blood anyway. He asked him if he needed help or money.

Wen Chenyang said no need, Zhang Haiyin left enough money for him to spend ten or eight years.

The [-]th was the last day of the National Day holiday. Wen Chenyang and Gu Xizhe returned to the house in Mucheng. There was no Zhang Haiyin's voice in this house anymore, and only Gu Xizhe and Wen Chenyang were left.

In the dead of night, Wen Chenyang still couldn't sleep. Since the day Zhang Haiyin left, he suffered from insomnia, and the time he could fall asleep every day was very short.

Gu Xizhe was sleeping next to him, breathing very shallowly, it seemed that he had fallen asleep.Wen Chenyang didn't move, for fear that his actions would wake him up, he stared at the void in front of him in a daze.

The person next to him also moved, the movement was very light, he lifted the quilt for him, and Wen Chenyang knew that he also woke up.

"Gu Xizhe."

Wen Chenyang's voice sounded in the darkness, and Gu Xizhe responded softly, "Well, I'm here."

He asked again: "Still can't sleep?"

"Ah."

Gu Xizhe moved towards him, and stretched out his arms to hold Wen Chenyang in his arms, "Everything will be fine."

"I know." Wen Chenyang let him hug him. In fact, these days, Gu Xizhe always hugged him, no matter it was day or night, being in his arms gave him a sense of security, "Actually, now that I think about it, my mother might have I was planning this day. She decided to buy a house in Mucheng, and she only wrote my name. In fact, she wanted to pave the way for me in the future. She considered almost everything, but only wanted me to live a good life after she left. a little."

Hearing Wen Chenyang's words, Gu Xizhe also remembered that half a month ago, when he was helping Zhang Haiyin prepare lunch in the kitchen, Zhang Haiyin suddenly said something strange to him. At that time, he thought it was very abrupt, but now he understands her intentions.

Wen Chenyang continued: "But how can she be so stupid? She doesn't understand. I don't care about the house or the money. I just hope that she can live well and our mother and son can live together. She is sick, and I can accompany her to treat her. Accompanying her to recover, this world is obviously so beautiful, but she chose a road with no retreat, it's not worth it."

Gu Xizhe followed his words: "It's really not worth it, so you have to live well."

Wen Chenyang said: "I know, I will go to school tomorrow and do what I have to do."

"Move to my dormitory, okay, I'll be with you."

Wen Chenyang posted a post in his arms, "Yes."

When Wen Chenyang learned of his feelings for Gu Xizhe before, Wen Chenyang avoided, purposely distanced himself, and tried to suppress it, but an accident made his previous worries become worthless.

He is now a person walking in the lonely desert. When looking ahead, he does not know the end, and when looking back, he does not know the starting point. The only thing he can grasp is Gu Xizhe. If he lets go, he may be stuck in the desolation forever in the lonely desert.