Autumn Yu'an

After the annual meeting, it was almost the Chinese New Year, Lin Yuan asked Qin Qingqiu to accompany her back to City C to celebrate the New Year.

Qin Qingqiu was unwilling, "Go back, I have arrangements."

"Don't go back to Xinjiang for the New Year?" Lin Yu'an played with her fingers, Qin Qingqiu sighed, "I won't go back, it's too far away, I don't want to bother".

"Your parents don't want you, and they don't come here?" Lin Yu'an raised his eyes to look at her.

Qin Qingqiu didn't answer, pinching her face, "Nah, I'm such an old man, I can handle it myself."

Lin Yu'an had never seen Qin Qingqiu call his family before, so he asked tentatively, "Do you have a bad relationship with your family?".

Qin Qingqiu rolled over and held her down, "Say it straight, do you want it?".

Lin Yu'an glared at her, "Can you stop doing this every time you encounter a question you don't want to answer?!".

"But this method works", Qin Qingqiu smiled and lowered his head to kiss her, the two of them got into a mess, she didn't want to say it, so Lin Yu'an stopped asking.

Facing the bombardment of his relatives at home, Lin Yu'an's head became dizzy.

"Oh, I'm 26, I'm going to eat 27 soon, and I don't have a boyfriend yet," the aunt said as if the sky was about to fall,

"Let me tell you, it is difficult for a woman to marry when she is 30 years old, let alone having children in her 30s, she will suffer."

Mama Lin was peeling fruit beside her, nodded and said, "It's just right, I said she wouldn't listen, you listen to your aunt, there is nothing wrong after all."

"Mom, I have something to do, I'm going out first." Lin Yu'an changed his coat and went out.

"Why are you running! Are you talking to me?" Mother Lin shouted from behind.

"Student reunion", Lin Yu'an put on his shoes, closed the door and left.

This time the class reunion sat in a private room, and the students who made money in business, 26 or 7 years old with a big belly and shiny faces, began to greet the students to take their seats.

"Boss Su is treating guests today, it's incredible, you've made a fortune in business," the male students said with a smile on their faces,

"Oh, what a fortune, it's just a meal." Su Yuan greeted, "Sit down, sit down."

"Africa is back," Su Yuan greeted Lin Yu'an,

"Don't make fun of me," Lin Yu'an said with a smile, "Are you married this year?".

Su Yuan chased after Lin Yu'an when he was studying, and contacted her once after graduation, but he is chubby and has pimples on his face, Lin Yu'an doesn't like him.

"That's right, can't wait for you?" Su Yuan joked, "Look, I married someone else."

"Come on, I saw you showing affection in the circle of friends that day, your wife is very beautiful", Lin Yu'an patted his hand away, "Don't be careless when you are married".

Su Yuan touched his nose and smiled, "Okay, I'm really guarded against me, go and sit down, and it will be counted on my account tonight."

For more than 3 years, it seems that the immature face when I just graduated has been tempered into faces of various colors.

It is the traces left by scrambling in the big dye vat of society. Some people have become greasy, some have become cowardly, some have become glamorous, and some have become calm.

"Yu'an", Lin Yu'an turned around and saw Lin Xia, with makeup on, high-heeled boots, woolen skirt, black stockings, yellow down jacket, and purple-red curly hair permed.

Lin Yu'an stared at her dazed, remembering that when he was studying, Lin Xiadong always liked to wear an oversized thick down jacket, with a plain face tucked into a red scarf, long trousers, and white sneakers.

At that time, Lin Xia's facial features were not the most beautiful in the class, and Ban Hua was Lin Yu'an's deskmate, and had a good relationship with her.

But Lin Yu'an just likes Lin Xia, likes her pure and simple eyebrows and eyes, and her clean smile.

Like when the male students next to her were making colorful jokes, Lin Xia asked her silly and quietly, "What are they laughing at?".

It turns out that the years cannot be turned back, and time is always ruthless, and the cruelty has carved traces of a knife on everyone's eyebrows and eyes.

Lin Xia looked at Lin Yu'an's eyes looking at her, her heart softened suddenly, and she took her arm, "Yu'an, long time no see".

"Busy man", Lin Yu'an laughed at her, "Go in and sit down".

"Hey, Lin Xia, what's going on with your finger?" Chen Qiulian shouted as if she had discovered the big news.

Everyone looked around, Lin Xia was wearing a shining diamond ring on her finger, "I'm getting married", she smiled, "The family is urging me so much, there's nothing I can do about it".

"Lin Xia is married, my God", Chen Qiulian shouted, "I have my first crow's feet, see?" She pointed to the corner of her eyes and sighed.

"What does it matter if I want to get married? You see, Yang Le's child is about to be born, and the class reunion is not coming today," Lin Xia said with a smile,

"That's right, half of the people in the class are already dating." Chen Qiulian shook her head, hugged Lin Yu'an and howled, "It's just me and Yu'an who are single."

"How do you know that Yu An is not in a relationship?" Lin Xia laughed,

Chen Qiulian sat up straight and stared at her, "Yu'an, do you... have a date? Didn't you see you posted in Moments? You won't abandon your sister and start dating yourself."

Lin Yu'an smiled awkwardly, "I'll get a drink."

"Small face, my face is blushing, I think there may be something wrong," Chen Qiulian said to Lin Xia with a smile, "You are her best friend, do we have someone for Yu'an?".

"Ask her." Lin Xia smiled and shook her head, looking at Lin Yu'an's figure.

Years seem to be extra lenient to Lin Yu'an, she is wearing a plain down jacket, jeans, and sneakers today, as if she was the same as when she graduated.

A pure face, a clean smile, and clear eyes seem to reflect your appearance.

Looking at the whole table, only Lin Yu'an still has a clean youthful air, as if he has never been polluted by the big dye vat of society.

When Lin Yuan sat down, Lin Xia looked at her with a smile, "They all said, you haven't changed much in the whole class? It's exactly the same as when you were studying."

"Really? Then they can't see for sure." Lin Yu'an smiled, his ink-like eyes flickering.

The male students drank and fisted, all of them blushed, while the female students talked about cosmetics, TV dramas, and all kinds of strange things they encountered.

Lin Yu'an drank juice, ate vegetables slowly, and looked at his phone from time to time.

"Are you... still with her?" Lin Xia asked after hesitating.

Lin Yu'an nodded, but did not speak.

"Yesterday, my mother told me that when your mother was chatting with her, she also asked me to introduce you to someone, and she was worried that you would be alone in S City and no one would take care of you." Lin Xia said softly, "Have you ever thought about it? Have you passed the parental barrier?"

Lin Yu'an looked at her and said, "I am filial to my parents, and I respect their wishes, but it doesn't mean that I have to sacrifice the happiness of my life as a bargaining chip for filial piety."

Lin Yu'an lowered his eyes and said in a low voice, "You can say I'm selfish, but in my life, I won't be able to do what they want."

Lin Xia looked at her in a daze, "Have you thought about the future? If you don't get married and don't have children, what do others think of you? How sad should your parents be?".

Lin Yu'an glanced at the diamond ring on her finger, "You have fulfilled your parents' wish, are you happy?".

Lin Xia curled her fingers and forced a smile, "This life is so short, and there are so many people in the world, who can find the right person within the specified time?",

"My mother said, live as long as you are suitable." Lin Xia looked at her with melancholy eyes, "Do you think you can really find your other half? A perfect and suitable other half."

"I believe," Lin Yu'an smiled, "Even if I go through all kinds of setbacks, I would rather pick roses by hand than settle for a weed."

"Life is so short, I don't want to live for others," Lin Yu'an smiled, "Perhaps, this is because I have more courage than you, so a little bit of courage."

Lin Xia's pupils shrank, she lowered her head and smiled, and said nothing more.

After the class reunion ended, Lin Yu'an took a taxi to take Lin Xia home first, "You can walk with me for a while," Lin Xia said.

Her house is not far from Lin Yu'an's house, and she can walk back.

Lin Yu'an nodded in agreement. This seemed to be a habit they had developed over the years. Every time they sent Lin Xia back, Lin Yu'an walked back home.

It was late at night, there was no one on the road, and a long figure was drawn by the dim light.

In this rainy city, there is always drizzle.

Lin Xia seemed to be preoccupied, frowning slightly, looking at her feet, walking slowly.

"Your home is almost here, I'm going back." Lin Xia's thoughts were interrupted by Lin Yu'an's words, and she turned around suddenly.

"Yu An", Lin Xia walked up to her step by step, squeezed her fingers, and looked up at her.

"Can you..." Lin Xia said hesitantly, "I want to know, what does it feel like?".

"What?" Lin Yu'an asked,

Lin Xia's face moved closer to her, with confusion in his eyes, "Can I kiss you?".

Lin Yu'an grabbed her shoulder and pushed her back, "Why bother? You are getting married."

Lin Xia was stunned for a moment, then repeated, "Yes, I'm getting married",

She stared into Lin Yu'an's eyes and murmured, "If you were a boy, the other half of my life would be you."

"It's a pity..." Lin Xia murmured,

"I'm a woman", Lin Yu'an smiled, "It's nothing if, I'm a woman, I won't be your other half circle".

There is no rule in this world, half of a man and half of a woman, together they form a circle.

The halves of two women can also form a circle.

if....

if....

How can there be so many ifs,

It's just an excuse for your cowardice.

I'll only love you if something's wrong with you.

Front to back.

If you really love, what do you still care about?

Lin Yuan shook his head and stood in the rain with a smile.

"Yu'an, you've changed." Lin Xia looked at her quietly. The former Lin Yu'an had a questioning temper. Every time she asked her what she wanted and what she wanted to eat, she always said casual, casual.

Later, Lin Xia heard her say that she would get a headache casually.

She pays too much attention to other people's feelings, and chooses to ignore her own preferences. She doesn't know what she wants.

But now Lin Yu'an has firm eyes, she is very clear about what she wants, for this reason, she will never give up.

"People always change"

, Lin Yuan waved to her, "Let's go".

Leaving Lin Xia silently standing there, watching her leaving back, after a long time, she turned and left.

The author has something to say: When I was young, I would always feel that I was not good enough or perfect because of someone else’s saying that if... if.. Is it because I am not good enough? The self in the if..

In fact, when you really meet the right person, you will find that there are not so many ifs. What people love is not the perfect you in the ifs, but the imperfect and real you in front of you.

Of course, we still need to be a better version of ourselves, so that we can meet the person who is waiting with more confidence and a better attitude, but when others ask you, come to reject you, You can smile and say, how can there be so many ifs, I am me, and I am irreplaceable.

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