Baiyun ambition

Yan Xiru was still lying on her stomach when she heard Yu Fangyun's phone ring.He was sitting next to his ear, and he could hear the voice on the other end of the call clearly. After arguing with each other for a long time, he finally asked if he could change the topic of the speech.

Yu Fangyun flatly refused: "This topic was agreed upon by everyone after I proposed it, and everyone spent a lot of time preparing it."

"But it's the first time we have this kind of lecture in a university. Is it more appropriate to talk about some more common topics? The juniors and younger sisters want to hear more about your postgraduate entrance examination and your experience and know-how when publishing articles..."

"It is necessary to pay attention to it because it is the first time. You also work in the hospital and see the high infection rate. There are no protective measures, no common sense of sex, and the slogan of sexual liberation makes this phenomenon increase. No reduction, psychological and physical prevention education is even less. Maybe most people can have simple respect for AIDS patients, but it is far from enough to stay out of it. Not only AIDS, but other diseases are like this, and no one should Take chances." Yu Fangyun said so much in one breath, always soft-spoken and firm, "Even if you think our position is weak and our voice is weak, we must speak out. These things, the people involved I don’t think about it, I need someone to think about it.”

Yan Xiru turned her head stiffly, and saw that his lips were pursed into a straight line, as if he was not the same as Yu Fangyun who was about to hide his smile across from him.Yes, it was not alone.

Yu Fangyun hung up the phone and found that his eyes were glued tightly: "What's wrong?"

Yan Xiru shook his head and said with a smile, "No, I suddenly felt that you looked like my future dean." He put these two faces together to look at him, and it seemed more vivid.

Yu Fangyun ordered a small moxibustion box, put it on his acupuncture point, and suddenly asked: "Master, why do I make such a note?"

What?Cardamom?Yan Xiru replied: "Long like."

Yu Fangyun couldn't hold back, and burst out laughing in front of him.For the first time in so many days, Yan Xiru saw him smile, and his smile was prettier than the Lily of the Valley plant he had destroyed, and he finally breathed a sigh of relief, so he didn't understand, so he laughed along with him.Every time he gets so close, he wants to poke his cheek flesh, the whole body is hard shell, only here is soft: "You still look good when you smile."

Yu Fangyun's moxibustion fire scalded himself suddenly, and asked abruptly: "... Which kind of smile looks better?"

"The one just now was pretty nice."

Yu Fangyun turned his head sideways, hooked the corners of his mouth, and blinked his eyes, showing his two miniature rabbit teeth: "Is this so?"

Yan Xiru was overwhelmed by this bright look and was flattered. ——This is not daring to laugh, this is clearly very good at acting like a baby.

Yu Fangyun finished the needle: "It's good to press the spine for a headache." With a thin layer of callus on his fingertips, he scratched the skin on the back of his neck, and felt a slight shudder along the vertebrae under the Fengchi point. , press down little by little.

"I heard that when Professor Rong selects students, appearance is the first must-have item." Yan Xiru lay comfortably on the stomach, "Is that your senior brother and younger brother, all of them are as juicy as twigs of cardamom?"

Yu Fangyun's hand resting on his waist pinched down, and the palm of his hand fit the curvature of the iliac bone, and it became hot when touched.The thin cuffs of his white coat hung in front of his eyes, as if nothing existed.Yan Xiru took a sip of saliva.Obviously, the one whose waist was twisted was himself, but there was a curvy and slender waist in front of his eyes, and the water chestnut flowers were tumbling.

Suddenly, an object was placed in front of my eyes, occupying the entire field of vision—dry, wrinkled, and fluffy, like a whiter and shrunken walnut, it would be too ugly to be seen after only a few days .

Yan Xiru was rather disgusted: "What is this ugly thing?"

The person on the other side replied: "Cardamom."

Yan Xiru: "..."

The next day, Jiang Jian rushed to work excitedly, and saw that the lily of the valley that he had planted for more than a month had wilted its head, and when he looked again, the roots were all rotten. "Boss! It's bad! My flowers were poisoned!"

"Who poisoned your two rotten leaves..." Yan Xiru felt guilty and changed the topic, "When is the repair schedule for the eighteenth bed?"

Jiang Jian hugged the flowerpot sadly, and raised her head when she heard the words: "You really did it for him, didn't you say you were going to be transferred to another hospital. The nurse said that Seventeen and Sixteen heard that he had AIDS, and they both made a fuss about changing the bed."

"The virus is not transmitted through the air. Besides, where can I transfer to another hospital? After kicking the ball twice, I don't care. It's already in my hands. Let's arrange a second operation for him as soon as possible. After this time, I will watch another one." After a few weeks, I can really be discharged from the hospital." Liu Rui stayed for less than half a month, but Yu Fangyun played very well with him, squatting down and playing flying chess together.Yan Xiru sighed, and Yu Doukou refused to let him go if the operation was not completed.

... Speaking of cardamom, I still have that ugly thing in my pocket.He had good intentions and wanted to praise her as more beautiful than Hua, but he forgot that in the eyes of others, cardamom is an old fruit, which warms the middle and promotes qi, dispels dampness and relieves vomiting, and looks dry and dehydrated to death.He picked up his pen and said to himself: "Why is it still called cardamom cardamom, why can't it be changed..."

Jiang Jian ran in recklessly again: "Boss! Eighteen beds are gone again!"

"It's gone again?! Didn't Yu Fangyun just go to change his medicine?"

"Doctor Yu can't be found either."

Yan Xiru ran all over the wards but couldn't find those two people. Seeing that the corridor door was ajar, he rushed up the stairs in two or three steps.The sun was shining obliquely on the rooftop, and there were indeed two figures standing there.Liu Rui's wheelchair stopped in front of the guardrail, only an arm's length away from the edge, and Yu Fangyun was holding the handrail beside it.The two of them were leisurely basking in the sun, so tired that they were middle-aged people.Yan Xiru gasped and shouted loudly: "Yu Fangyun!"

Yu Fangyun was yelled at, turned around and looked over: "Uncle Master."

Yan Xiru burst into an unknown fire, stepped forward and grabbed him by the shoulder: "Why did you bring him here? He left the ward and the hospital. If something happens, are you responsible?! Can you take responsibility?" !"

No matter how angry he was, he was never so impulsive that he couldn't control his movements, his hands were so strong that he seemed to crush his shoulder blades, Yu Fangyun hissed in pain, and the other side only let go of his strength.He pulled the wheelchair back a little, letting the sun shine on Liu Rui's knees: "Master, the weather is fine today, he said he wanted to see the sun."

"Then you push him to run around? Does the mother know? Have you told any of the family members?! He will have surgery in three days, do you know? If something happens at this time, how will we explain it!"

Yu Fangyun raised his head, the sun was shining along his beautiful eyebrows, the bridge of his nose, all the way to his chin, his whole body was shining brightly under the sunny day: "But today the sun is very good, only today."

Yan Xiru's roar did not scare Yu Fangyun, but it scared Liu Rui.His eyes widened, tears fell out uncontrollably, Yu Fangyun squatted down and pulled the blanket on his lap for him: "It's okay."

Liu Rui lowered his head so deeply that he was almost tucked into the blanket. Yan Xiru was silent for a while with his back turned away. After all, he didn't understand the name of his anger.

His mother rushed up and kept apologizing: "I asked Dr. Yu to push Xiaorui up. It's all my fault. Don't be angry, director. It's all my fault."

Liu Rui interrupted his mother: "No, it's my fault." He put his forehead on Yu Fangyun's arm, and said in a muffled voice, "The family members of the patients in the two beds next door don't want to see me. If I'm not here, they will Will be more comfortable. A lot of people will be more comfortable if I'm not around."

Yu Fangyun frowned: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

Liu Rui shook his head and pressed the back of his hand so hard that his fingertips turned white.

Yan Xiru felt that the scene was disturbing, so he pulled the blanket to cover his head: "Everyone is here for the operation, many of them have spleens but are less courageous, who is less tempered than the other, and who is more courageous than the other? Life is over. Live as long as you have to go, whatever you want to live is a day."

Liu Rui's tense string finally broke, and he fell on Yu Fangyun's shoulder and cried: "But they didn't have herpes all over their bodies, they didn't wake up in the middle of the night to vomit blood, and they weren't too scared to talk to others. Life is still very long, and it's completely different from mine." His voice broke into tears, "But what did I do wrong, I just... like someone."

His eyes were wet, tears evaporating in full daylight.Yu Fangyun just opened his mouth, unable to comfort him.

"Doctor Yan, you are the best doctor in surgery, but there are some patients that even the best doctor can't save."

The voice was low, but Yan Xiru clenched his fists.For the first time, he felt that he, a surgeon, was useless.

The iron door on the roof closed with a dull sound, and Yan Xiru took a look at Yu Fangyun: "The operation will be scheduled in three days, and the ECG monitoring should not be stopped. Complete the preoperative preparations and change to the first-level nursing care."

Yu Fangyun didn't answer right away, he paused before opening his mouth: "A year ago, he jumped out of the car by himself, so his spine was injured and he couldn't walk."

"Well, I know." He had just been diagnosed with AIDS a year ago, how desperate he must have been, so desperate that he had the idea of ​​ending his life for the first time.

Yu Fangyun followed him again: "But being treated as a monster by the people around you, and being immersed in pain every day, is there any point in living?"

Yan Xi paused as he walked downstairs, the silence in the stairwell was extremely heavy. "I don't know," he turned around, "but for me, as long as the heart is still beating, as long as it is lying on the operating table, any life is valuable. Everyone has the hope of living, and I can do it." All we have to do is give him the right to hope again."

Yu Fangyun stood at the top of the stairs, watching him go down step by step. "This question is so difficult, I don't even know what it means to be alive."

In the evening, there was a thunderbolt from the sunny day, the sky suddenly turned cloudy, and then the wind and rain slanted westward and continued throughout the night.

It rained all night, and there was a thin layer of water on the ground.Yan Xiru's trousers were half wet when he walked to work. He carried an umbrella and walked into the office tick-tock. The head nurse was distributing wedding candy. "Hey, come here, I have something to ask you." She pulled him to the window, "Did you ask what I asked you last time? Did Dr. Yu agree?"

Yan Xiru was vague: "Oh...no." He glanced at Yu Fangyun who was working with his head down. Since he was beaten by him yesterday, he has been a little wilted, like Jiang Jian's lily of the valley plant with rotten roots.

"What's the matter? Did you ask? My niece is really good. She is a graduate student from Oxford, England. Her education, age and appearance match her. You should hurry up and ask Dr. Yu."

Yan Xiru grabbed the rotten leaves and didn't want to agree at all.The patter of rain drowned out the voice, Yu Fangyun raised his head curiously, met his gaze, and immediately lowered his head, as if returning to the state when he first met.

Yan Xiru looked at the cardamom from the corner of his eye.Yesterday because of Liu Rui's matter, he got angry at him for no reason, but after he came back, he didn't explain or argue, he just kept a cold face. Before, he would pretend to be cute to himself, but now he doesn't want to pretend.

But who told Yan Xiru to be so cheeky, this kind of impenetrable wood always needs him to choke with himself to feel comfortable.The uncle walked by and deliberately spilled tea foam on the nephew's table. Yu Fangyun wiped it off with a paper towel without even lifting his eyelids.Uncle Shi passed by again and dropped the stethoscope on the ground. Yu Fangyun picked it up and wiped the dust, hung it on the computer without saying a word.

No matter how Yan Xiru provoked him, he couldn't get a response, and he scolded Yu Fangyun as a spring, which looked like it could be bullied, but it tightened once it was pressed, and it was harder than a rock when it was tightened, which made him feel uncomfortable in every possible way.

When it was almost noon, Jiang Jian started to cry out: "Boss, what are you having for lunch?"

Yan Xiru faced Yu Fangyun's direction and said loudly: "Don't eat fish!"

"If you don't eat, don't eat. Why are you yelling so loudly... What does Doctor Yu want to eat?"

Yan Xiru was full of energy, and finally found an opportunity to see the mute speak, but he said to him: "I have something to do at noon, so I don't want to eat."——He could be pissed off by the mute.

Shen Zhi told him to come to the appointment on time at night, but he said he was not free. "It's the old lady's birthday, love won't come." After hanging up the phone on the other side, Yan Xiru sighed.

Jiang Jian came back with his meal in his arms, and made a small report: "Boss, I just heard Director Liao's student Yang Ming gossiping in the elevator. Do you know who it is?"

"Me." Yan Xiru was not interested, "Which nurse or family member of the patient did I have sex with?"——Yan Xiru's gossip in the hospital was numerous, but the types were monotonous. At first I thought it was absurd, but now my ears feel calloused after listening too much.

Jiang Jian said, "It's not you, it's Dr. Yu."

Yan Xiru raised his eyes: "What about him?"

"Yang Ming said that he could stay in the research institute at the beginning, but he was assigned to our hospital because his senior fellow in the same group took up the quota."

"What's the point of gossip about this kind of thing? Liao Sijun's team is really full and free."

Jiang Jian came over mysteriously: "But he also said that his doctoral project was cut in the middle, and he was kicked out of the research group by his supervisor before he was exiled from the research institute to our hospital. And the clinical performance is also the same. It's mediocre, no matter how good-looking your resume is, it's just a piece of trash with an empty title."

Yan Xiru's eyelids twitched and she dropped the pen: "Who the hell said that?!"

Jiang Jian replied, "You said so."

Yan Xiru: "..."

What he said in the ward that day was really just talking about it, but there were so many people talking about it, so it was distorted into this in a few days.The gossip in the hospital is that the stinky seedlings on the wall will grow into a mess when splashed with dirty water.

But those who have worked with Yu Fangyun know that those words are completely nonsense and nonsense by Yan Xiru.Maybe because of his young age, he lacks enough tact and sophistication, but his achievements on the surface are not watery.Yan Xiru thought again, the intrigue of this research institute is even worse than that of the hospital, if there is no support from the backstage, no matter how powerful it is, it will be difficult to paddle alone.When Yu Fangyun entered their hospital, he was shining brightly with the title he had obtained. Who could pay attention to the loneliness and frustration behind him.If he could stay in the research institute, his life would at least be smooth sailing in the future, unlike now, he had to wait a few more years before he could barely become an attending doctor, and he had to listen to his uncle who was halfway around.

Yan Xiru snapped the cap of the pen closed, feeling that his chest was stuffed with a dry cardamom.