Baiyun ambition

Yan Xiru originally had a day off, but didn't go home at night.Everyone's heart is attached to Paizhuang, and his heart also ran there with the rescue team, how can a person sleep peacefully.

The backbone of the medical team was transferred to the front, and the rear departments were stretched.Yan Xiru stayed in the outpatient clinic as a leader, and heard from all parties that there was an urgent shortage of disinfection supplies on the front line.Jiang Jian was afraid that the boss would be overworked and hurt himself, so he resolutely kicked him out.

The next day, Yan Xiru became a volunteer escort of the material transportation team and rushed to Paizhuang County Hospital overnight.

"Doctor Yu? Is that the Dr. Yu from Tong City? He treats patients in the isolation ward, on the second floor... Hey! Hey! You won't see him even if you go there!"

After running for hundreds of kilometers, Yan Xiru could only look at him through a window, which was heartbreaking.

After leaving the gate of the county hospital, he wanted to buy something for Yu Fangyun, but the streets of Paizhuang were deserted and deserted, and the passers-by who rubbed shoulders were all in a hurry.Yan Xiru lingered to no avail, so he had to go to the rescue station to exchange for a bucket of instant noodles and two ham sausages.

There is a temporary medical point built with wooden sheds in front of the rescue station, and patients who cannot be admitted in the county hospital are temporarily arranged here.Yan Xiru found a familiar figure in the crowd. Yang Ming was kneeling in front of a simple hospital bed to change the patient's urine tube.

Yan Xiru didn't dare to disturb him, so he didn't come forward until he was done.

The doctor was tired, and when he saw him, he just greeted him lightly. Only then did Yan Xiru notice that his left arm was bound with a splint, and he was operating with one hand just now.

Yang Ming had a few huge herpes on the corner of his mouth, and wiped off the sweat on his forehead: "I was hit by a steel frame during the aftershock, so it's fine."

It's been a long time since I saw you, the young man who used to be domineering and domineering, with a lonely expression and a lonely tone. "The splint on my hand was bandaged by Dr. Liu. The day before he disappeared, he still told me that my son finally recognized his father, and that he would forget about it when he returned from this mission."

Yan Xiru sighed, not knowing what to say.

Before he had time to say more, Yang Ming took a sip of water and was about to go back to continue the rescue. Before leaving, he turned back: "Yan Xiru, after these few days, I finally know what Teacher Liao has been teaching me. And at the last moment of his life, What is still holding on."

His tone was pathetic, but the light in his eyes had never been so intense.

Yan Xiru remembered that besides Yang Ming, the two young doctors who were sent to the frontline by the General Foreign Affairs Bureau were also students of Liao Sijun.In the dark, everything has its own destiny.

Yan Xiru turned to leave, but bumped into another person - white hair glaring, and his stature was far less tall than he remembered.Suppressing his sorrow, he shouted hoarsely: "Dad."

Yan Chengsong raised his head and saw him, the corners of his eyes were instantly wrinkled, and he was not at all touched by the meeting between father and son in a different place.

"Why are you here? Fang Guangming asked you to come?!"

"I came with the supplies team, and I'll leave right away." Yan Xiru shook his head, trying to pull out a relaxed smile, "By the way, let's take a look at the object."

The person on the other side didn't move, just glanced at him: "You're messing around again."

Still the same, the son will be dissatisfied no matter what he does.Yan Xiru asked: "Dad, aren't you at the CDC? Why are you still on the front line? It's so dangerous here."

"How would you know what's going on if you don't come here? Everyone here knows the danger." Yan Chengsong changed the wounded's dressing with his own hands.The place is dusty and smoky, and his collar and temples are also covered with dust, but his hands are clean.

It is rare for Yan Xiru to say a soft word to his father: "I know you have to be the first in everything, but you must protect yourself. Mom is always worried about you at home."

Yan Chengsong paused, without raising his head: "Understood."

Yan Xiru fumbled in his pocket, reluctant to give the only instant noodles, so he gave up a piece of ham sausage to his father.

Yan Chengsong was actually moved, so he accepted it without saying anything.Always silent, when we parted, I returned a box of canned beef to him.

"I'll give you that... take that. In fact, our frontline department has enough food and drink. A big man has a partner...don't be so picky."

Yan Xiru's hand sank when he took the tin can, and his heart also sank.

He sent the things to the county hospital and asked someone to bring them in. This time he didn't even see him face-to-face, so he was going back with the team.The seat was cramped, and I rolled down the window to look at the sky, reluctant to miss the moonlight that had seen that person.

If it is said that the moon shines on the world, people are often separated, but the moonlight always shines on lovers.

Hearing that there was an extra meal, Yu Fangyun sat obediently in his seat and waited. They had been living in the ward for the past two days.After the noodles are soaked, they need to be exposed to ultraviolet light for half an hour. When they are delivered to the hands, the noodles have already been soaked into cakes, and they are swallowed with cold water, only to find that there are still a few lumps of precious beef hidden under the soup.At the bottom was a piece of waste paper. It was unknown where Yan Xiru picked up the drug instructions, and it was written in his rare and correct handwriting.

"It may not be the right time to talk about love, but I hope you remember..."

The words on the back were wet with water and could not be read clearly.

Flip over to the back.

"The cold and warm are not always, so I miss it. A few words, it is hard to express my affection."

In the past few days, the responsibility is ahead, Yu Fangyun has no time to think about it, and even thinks that he will be able to see him when he turns around.Now eating this unpalatable noodle cake, I finally feel sore throat and dry eyes. I only have a mask at hand, and I am reluctant to use it to wipe my tears.

The open paper bag is the most precious. It contains a box of pink strawberries. Yan Xiru carefully carried it all the way to avoid being crushed, but the car was bumped and bumped, and many of them were damaged.On the way, I couldn't find a piece of paper to write on, so I simply took off the badge, tore off the photo, wrote on the card and stuffed it into the gap of the plastic box.

Yu Fangyun didn't dislike the wilting strawberries, he picked up some weird ones and swallowed them, at least they were sweet.

On the card were a few words he was familiar with, "General Surgery Department of Tongshan Hospital, Deputy Chief Physician Yan Xiru".

Four words were left where the photo was torn off, dyed with pink strawberry juice, and wiped away, like a blush on a lover's face.

——"Kiss you for me".

Yan Xiru traveled hundreds of kilometers back and forth from Paizhuang just to see him.When I came back, I cheered up and continued to support the rescue from the rear.

This day he met Liu Rui who came for a follow-up visit in the outpatient clinic. The boy's complexion was still pale, but his spirit was better.

"Dr. Yu hasn't come back from Paizhuang yet?"

"Soon." The first batch of medical support went for three weeks, and most of the rescued patients were transferred to higher-level hospitals, and some hospital teams have returned safely.Yan Xiru asked Sun Qi three times a day when the rescue team from Tongshan would come back, and was so annoyed that the old director blocked his number.

Dr. Yan lifted Liu Rui's shirt for inspection, and found that the surgical incision was well formed, and said, "Your one is coming soon."

"I'm going back to school soon, so I may not have time to wait for Dr. Yu to come back." Liu Rui smiled shyly, "I also want to tell him that I have found the goal that I couldn't find before. I want to be like Dr. Yu Yes, people like him."

But what kind of doctor Yu is, the young man can't think of specific adjectives after thinking about it.Yan Xiru chuckled: "It's okay, I will convey it for you."

After finishing speaking, Yan Xiru was also surprised, frightened by his increasingly gentle temper recently.

In the next few days, heavy rain continued, and the Thunder God roared.Under the dark clouds resting, midsummer suddenly kicked off.

In the flash of lightning, the rescue team quietly returned to Tongshan.This Triumph has no flowers, no red carpet, no banners, not even a formal welcome.

When Yan Xiru received the news that the medical team had returned, the entire team of medical staff had silently returned to their respective departments.

In this way, without seeing him at all, trying to meet him in the messy hospital again is like picking shellfish on the beach on a rainy day, it all depends on fate.

Yu Fangyun accepted a meal of criticism and encouragement in the department, and the secretary asked them to put down their burdens, adjust their mentality, and continue to work.He stepped into the hospital again after a lapse of nearly a month, but he felt alienated and lost, and he didn't feel the joy of going home at all.

Another flash of lightning flashed outside, making the sky pale.Yu Fangyun pushed open the door of the hospital, and before the raindrops fell on him, he was taken under the big umbrella.

People outside the umbrella came and went in a hurry, and they were all embarrassed by the rain. Yan Xiru under the umbrella hugged Yu Fangyun tightly. ——No matter what other people look at, no matter how rainy, no matter whether there is applause or not, he still welcomes him home.

Yu Fangyun raised his eyes blankly to meet him, his eyes were clear and fragile, like a little animal that has not learned how to shed tears after being injured.This look caused Yan Xiru to goug out a piece of his heart, gasping for breath in pain.

He took the cardamom back where he had lost his soul, pushed open the door of the house, and Shou Shou also crawled out of the water tank to pick them up.

Yan Xiru pressed Yu Fangyun's wrist and explained: "Sun Qi originally planned to hold a welcome meeting in the whole hospital, but regarding Dr. Liu... In order to take care of the emotions of their departments and family members, everything was kept simple, commended and rewarded. We'll figure it out later."

"En." Yu Fangyun replied dully.

Looking at it under the light, he has lost a lot of weight since the last time, and his face is haggard.

Yan Xiru went to put the bath water for him, the hot steam curled up, and only turned on a mirror lamp.Holding Yu Fangyun's hand underwater, he still clings to his fingers, and tried to break them apart, only to find that the bottom of the finger is connected to the palm, and the gap between the five fingers is covered with peeled and cracked blood. mouth.

Under the harsh extreme conditions, everyone is operating at the limit, who will care for him to touch less water.

Yu Fangyun turned his head away, and also felt that he couldn't bear to look at his bruised hands: "I'm going to take a bath, you go out." I didn't feel hard when I was two places away, but when I saw him, my limbs were sore and I couldn't do it at all. Spirit.

"I'll wash it for you," Yan Xiru touched his forehead with his lips, "I won't trouble you."

Warm water gurgled down from the top of the head, halfway into water vapor and evaporated, and the rest flowed away from the bottom of the feet.Yan Xiru's hands were foaming the top of his hair, which was so soft that he couldn't even grab it.

"Doctor Liu is a very good person." Yu Fangyun raised his head, not afraid of water splashing into his eyes, and looked at him, "The mountain road was bumpy when we went, and the car was shaking all the time. I vomited all the way, and it was Dr. Liu. Take care of me. He said that he has participated in more than a dozen disaster-stricken areas or front-line rescues, and he is very experienced and lucky, so he promises to do the same this time.”

Yan Xiru poured water from the top of Yu Fangyun's head, and dripped down along the bridge of the tall nose, in the middle of the mouth, lip socket, chin, Adam's apple...

He closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembling slightly: "But on the way back, Yang Ming and I were the only ones sitting side by side... I also think that Yang Ming is as responsible a doctor as Mr. Liao... At least for now."

"Well, I met him in Paizhuang." Yan Xiru nodded.In the end, in the face of life, those good and bad behaviors, greed and selfishness, are all diluted.

Yu Fangyun rested his arms on the edge of the bathtub, resting his chin lightly on it. "How many people congratulated us after we came back, but those who should really celebrate are not here anymore."

The light caused the shadows of the two people to overlap, Yan Xiru gently wiped away the fine foam with his fingertips, and listened to his speech in a daze.

"I met Dr. Liu's sister in the hospital when I came back. She is a nurse in our ICU. When the director went to find her, her eyes were red and swollen, but she couldn't say anything, she just cried."

...The hero draws his curtain call, but those who live for the hero continue to live in grief.

"Sun Qi said that we are heroes triumphant. But I am not a hero. If you can choose, no one wants to be this hero."

Yu Fangyun's words faded along with the sound of water flowing.After Yan Xiru rinsed off the foam on his legs and wiped the ends of his hair, Cardamom really fell asleep in the bathtub.

Uncle Shi wrapped himself in a towel and wanted to hug him to bed and sleep cleanly and purely.But Yu Fangyun suddenly sobered up and got off him.

"You haven't eaten yet. Let me cook you some wontons, or what do you want to eat..."

What else is there to eat, Yan Xiru couldn't laugh or cry, clamped his waist from behind, and hugged him horizontally. "I don't want to eat, and I can't eat what I want, so you should worry less."

It's this person that I've been thinking about day and night, but looking at his dejected look... Yan Xiru, a man who was so yearning for his spring and became sick, is almost cultivating himself to become a Buddha now.

The hospital gave three days' leave to the medical staff who came back from the front line.Yu Fangyun sank into the bed, wrapped himself in a quilt, revealing his misty eyes: "Can you stay here to accompany me these two days?"

Yan Xiru straightened the slippers beside the bed, knelt down on one knee, and kissed Yu Fangyun's ear. "sure."

He stood up and turned off the bedside lamp, leaving only the moonlight shining, "Sleep, good night."

But both of them are restless at night, lying awake separately

After an unknown amount of time, Yu Fangyun confirmed that Yan Xiru was asleep, got up and pulled on his slippers, and searched for sleeping pills in the drawer.He slept on the floor of the ward for a month, and he couldn't get used to the sudden return to the warm home. When he closed his eyes, he saw those scenes that couldn't be closed.

Yan Xiru woke up as soon as his arms were empty, looked at a sneaky figure from behind, raised his glass and swallowed the pills.

When he lay back in his arms again, Yan Xiru muttered something and mixed into his dream.

"I miss you so much."

"……I know."

Yu Fangyun brushed against his lips, was embraced, and kissed deeply.There was no passion/desire in their kiss this time, only the joy of cuddling each other.

The moon shines on the world and often separates people, but the moonlight always shines on lovers.

Year after year, the moonlight is not always there, but my love is always there.