Baiyun ambition

One day later, when Yu Fangyun was picking up the trash, he picked out the greasy and crumpled piece of paper.He once praised his uncle for his beautiful handwriting, so that man always showed off. This time he wrote:

"In the smoky and dusty atmosphere of the Happy Realm, a stick of incense half obscures the clouds.

A few times, Yueming sat on the pine, and the sound of clear chimes hitting the water a few times. "

After glancing at the two lines of the poem, Yu Fangyun felt ashamed and heartbroken, and dared not look at it any more, and spat at him in his heart, saying that shit doesn't make sense.

After talking about Yu Lin's near-failed special interview with his brother, he finally saw some hope.Director Yan from General Surgery said that there is a patient who can be interviewed, that is, the egg old man last time.

"Okay, okay, director, what kind of conflict happened between him and your doctor?!"

"There is no contradiction."

Yu Lin was stunned: "Then what did he want to say to me?"

Yan Xiru thought for a while, and answered seriously: "Praise me."

Yu Lin had no other choice, so he brought the club to interview.The old man's surname is Wang: "Just call me Wang eggs, and I will sell eggs."

In fact, he is only in his 50s, but his skin is dark and wrinkled, his eyes are covered with gray, he looks like a little old man in his 70s and [-]s, and so does his wife.Yu Lin wanted to make do with it, but he didn't expect to ask a sad story by mistake.

Although the conditions in Wangdan's family are difficult, there is a sensible son with excellent grades, who is enviable when he talks about it.The life of the family took a turn for the worse since last year. His son was diagnosed with thymus cancer after the college entrance examination. Fearing that his parents would be sad, he hid it from his family at first.Later, he started radiotherapy, and his condition was so severe that he could no longer hide it. The family sold their home and accompanied him to the cancer hospital for treatment.The old couple usually spread a few baskets at the entrance of the vegetable market to sell eggs, and the little money they saved was all invested in their son's medical expenses, which was still a drop in the bucket.Moreover, his son's condition was getting worse and worse, and the crazy growth of cancer cells could be barely suppressed by repeated high-energy rays.The pain caused by radiotherapy is inevitable. The skin is ulcerated and the soft tissue is swollen. It is almost like death, and the body that should be young and strong collapses overnight.

The story came to an abrupt end, everyone looked at him, but Wangdan stood up calmly. "I am not here today to talk about these things. I am here to thank all the good doctors in this hospital. Here, I would like to express my gratitude to them! Thank you for their wonderful hands, benevolence and bodhisattva heart, for saving my old woman's life! "

Wang Dan bowed deeply, and then wiped his eyes with dirty hands: "Although all the money in our family has been given to our son to see a doctor, and the old woman needs money for the second operation, I will definitely find a way to save the money and return it to the doctor." For the good doctor. You doctors and nurses have helped us so much, we can’t ask for your money anymore. As long as I have these hands and legs, I will not give up even if I am digging coal and moving land!”

He spoke with hope, but he brought everyone in the ward to cry, among whom Yu Lin cried the loudest. "Master, come on! Our entire community, no, our entire school will help you!" He sniffed, removed the tripod and pulled out the camera, and was about to leave, but was stopped by Yu Fangyun: "Why are you going?"

"I'm going to raise money! I want my mother-in-law to have the second operation!" Yu Lin hugged the camera and walked away with high spirits.

Yan Xiru looked at his back from behind: "Your cousin, sometimes you really look like you."

It was rare for Yu Fangyun to go back to general surgery, and he walked back to the office with him: "So what is the final result of his wife's pathology? You haven't told him yet, have you?"

"Well, I haven't said yet, T1b1 stage. It's not the worst result, and it's not good, at least it needs a second cleaning."

Yu Fangyun nodded after listening.Fortunately, Yu Lin was called. If the surgery fee can be raised in time because of this interview, there is still some hope.

"By the way, what happened to Director Liao's matter?"

Yan Xiru shook his head at him: "I can't be saved."

Yu Fangyun frowned: "What do family members mean?"

"It should be in the hospital right now, drinking tea with Fang Guangming." Yan Xiru pushed him to the previous seat and grabbed his hand, "Do you know what it was like when the patient's daughter came today? The first sentence he said was pointing Liao Sijun: I heard that you killed my mother. My mother’s life is worth a lot of money. How do you pay for it?——I have seen so many bossy patients, but this kind of mother just left, even a little I don’t even bother to pretend to be sad, this is the first time I’ve encountered it.”

Yu Fangyun was taken aback for a moment: "Their family is not rich enough? This happened to my mother...why do you still speak like this?"

Doctor Yan sighed softly. "In short, as soon as she came, the lawyer also came, and the process was proficient." The hospital has seen a lot of fanfare, and this kind of game of hypocrisy and deception is actually even more disturbing.

Yu Fangyun lowered his head: "Sometimes, I feel that there is nothing in the world that is more valuable than people, and sometimes, I feel that there is nothing in the world that is not worth more than human life."

Then asked: "What about Director Liao? What is the family's attitude towards him now?"

Yan Xiru said: "He made an obvious mistake in this matter, and those medical records and examination results can be used as evidence. If the patient's family is determined to hold the department accountable, Lao Liao is really in danger this time."

"Actually, I think...it shouldn't be a postoperative infection caused by a gastric tube. If so, she wouldn't have a fever symptom on the day of the gastroscopy. Besides, she has an infusion port on her body, and she is a patient with pulmonary fibrosis. The source needs to be Only after careful investigation can we be sure..." Yu Fangyun looked up at him, and dared to whisper these words to this person.

Yan Xiru shook his head: "But a mistake is a mistake. Even if it's just a part of it, Liao Sijun's situation is hard to argue with now. The hospital wants to give his family an explanation, so Fang Guangming will have to push him out. And there are rumors that he is going to quit now. In the midst of the uproar, the will is far less firm than before, and the hospital is also afraid that Liao Sijun will be killed if there is a big trouble..."

"After Lu Chizhang's accident, I never understood how the hospital handled it. But this time the situation is different, and the interests of all aspects are intertwined. I think, if I were in Liao Sijun's position, what should I do? What can I do?" Yan Xiru sat down on the table, a little frustrated, "Is it true that I don't want to continue to be a doctor...I don't think I can do it."

This time it was Yu Fangyun who gently pressed his forehead: "But you are not him, you don't have to imagine your own predicament."

"For so many years, the only truth I understand is that there are so many truths in this world." Seeing the gloomy outside the window, Yan Xiru seemed to sigh, "It's just trying to live."

The dark clouds in the sky could not see through the light, and the rain had not yet fallen. A loud cry outside broke the short tranquility, and another car accident patient was sent by 120.

Yan Xiru jumped off the table, rubbed Yu Fangyun's cheeks, and got some comfort: "I'm on stage, don't wait for me."

When he opened the door, a ray of light from the corridor shone on him, and Yu Fangyun was a little distracted.The table was still as messy as before, with endless medical records and articles to read, but Yan Xiru tidied up a corner and put the pot of cactus that Wei had given to him before—it was originally for himself, but it was called that. People grabbed it.

He said annoying and disgusting words on his mouth, but he actually took care of him carefully.The cactus had been bred by Dawei so much that its roots had rotted, Yan Xiru cut it again, and hydroponically cultivated it to grow new roots.

Director Yan was really childish. He even picked up the biggest cardamom he gave him, buried it in the soil, and put a piece of paper on a bare flower pot: "Don't throw it away, keep it."I don't know how the cleaning lady feels every time she waters the black soil.

Yu Fangyun glanced at the line and felt relaxed.After hearing so many truths in the world, I still think the world is cute, and I still think he is the cutest.

The sky is dark, and the twilight turns over the calendar to reveal a brand new night.He got up and followed the door he pushed open, and walked into the brightly lit world together.

Dr. Yu has a night clinic tonight, from six to eight o'clock. At 08:30, he glanced at his phone, and it seemed that Yan Xiru's surgery was not over yet.He asked the nurse: "Are there any patients outside? If not, you can get off work first."

As soon as the voice fell, a patient opened the door and came in. "Xiaoyun—" It turned out to be Mrs. Yan.

"Grandma?!" Yu Fangyun quickly got up to help her, "You came to the hospital so late, why are you feeling uncomfortable?"

"No. Grandma just had dinner with her friends and was going home. I saw that you have an outpatient clinic tonight. I miss you. I definitely won't have a good meal." The old lady patted his hand and let go Packing box, "here, they are all packed from the restaurant. They are new. I haven't eaten a single bite."

Seeing Yu Fangyun dumbfounded, she first spread out all the food, and a bowl of goji berry fish soup. "Don't worry, eat slowly, there are no other patients outside, grandma will watch you eat."

Yu Fangyun's eyes were sour again. He had never been loved by any elders since he was a child, and it was the first time he knew how good it is to have a grandma.He took the bowl of warm fish soup and said silently in his heart: Yan Xiru, just tonight, lend me your grandma for one night.

The old lady smiled and watched him eating quietly, serving soup, picking fishbone, how she liked it, how she looked like a grandson's daughter-in-law... The door was pushed open suddenly.

After Yan Xi's surgery, he came to see if he was off work. When he opened the door, he saw that the cardamom had set up a table of eight precious jade food behind his back, and the food was delicious.Opposite is... my old lady?

The old lady was startled by him first: "Why are you here?! Oh, you must be on duty. Then why are you here on duty to come to the clinic, go back quickly!"

Sweat from standing on the operating table was still dripping on Yan Xiru's back, and the cold wind passed through the hall, feeling sad: "Old lady, your grandson hasn't had dinner yet."

He dragged a chair to sit beside Yu Fangyun, and even broke the lid of his lunch box, and evened out half of the white rice.The old lady scolded him: "Every day, you know the operation! You know how to eat when you come down! If you don't do serious things, you won't find a partner!"

Yan Xiru happened to hold a chopstick of mushrooms for Yu Fangyun, and smiled slightly after hearing this: "Grandma, I already have a date."

"..." Yu Fangyun was so startled that a grain of rice dropped out of his mouth, afraid that he would go crazy again, and exposed the truth of the two of them in front of grandma.

The old lady didn't seem to understand his hint, thinking that she was making fun of herself again, and said nonsense: "Oh, what about the last one?"

It was Yan Xiru's turn that his complexion changed drastically: "Where did the last one come from?"

"Isn't the last one pretty? It has a round face, round eyes, a round nose, and a... quite round mouth." The old lady couldn't make it up anymore.

Yan Xiru snatched her warm water cup and took a look: "Damn it, I'm drunk with a cup of chrysanthemum tea! The old lady should go home and sleep soon!"

Yu Fangyun was confused and couldn't understand what the grandfather and grandson were saying, so Yan Xiru pushed the old lady out.

At the gate of the hospital.The old lady laughed vigorously: "Then, when will you bring this one over to show grandma?"

Yan Xiru replied with a smile: "After a while, my partner is shy."

The old lady understood and blinked: "Okay."

"Who's coming to pick you up? The wind is so strong, why don't you call a car for you?"

"No, the boat will pick me up."

Oh, Shen Weizhou.Although this nephew has no blood relationship with the Yan family, he still calls the old lady grandma, but in fact, according to his seniority, he should be called grandma.But Yan Xiru took advantage of this, and he refused to obey.

Standing in the cold wind, Yan Xiru suddenly had an idea, and counted his fingers——Yu Fangyun was a junior and senior in the same school, and there was a person who was also studying for a Ph.D. in Tong University at that time, and now he is in Tongshan again. The one on... isn't it a fucking boat sinking? !

Taking advantage of the darkness of the night and the bright moonlight, Yan Xiru sent Yu Fangyun home, and followed up into the bedroom logically.As soon as the door was closed, he pressed the person against the wall.

Yu Fangyun stared at him with his neck straightened, and was the first to attack: "The last one? The round one?"

Yan Xiru smiled, "You can believe what the old lady says when she's drunk with tea." She rubbed her lips against his neck, "Then after she goes out, she tells me to marry you and come home as soon as possible, will you listen or not?"

When Yu Fangyun was annoyed, he left room for it. He only used silence as a deterrent, and by the way, he compared all the round faces he had ever seen in his heart to see which one was the roundest.

Yan Xiru was not happy to see him hiding his thoughts, but rather to see him aggressive, confident, and unbridled into his arms, even sloppy and shameless.

But he is always too sensible.

Then he pinched his waist with one hand and leaned forward to offer a kiss. "The last one..." The light was shining, and Yan Xiru gestured for his height with the palm of his hand, "I don't need to bend down to kiss him."

Yu Fangyun: "..." He pushed violently, and the man slammed into the doorknob hard, his waist hurt, but he was happy in his heart, and finally saw a little obvious anger on his face.

Seeing him shamelessly sitting on his bed, Yu Fangyun stomped his feet angrily: "Get out, don't touch my bed."

Yan Xiru stretched his arms and looked at him: "Where are you going to sleep, and roll on the ground like last time? I like it, but I'm afraid you'll be crying and begging me to hug you."

On the opposite side, a small face was painted white against the wall, but his cheeks were flushed, and he gave him a fierce look: "Then I'll go to sleep downstairs, Dr. Shen..."

——The word "the sofa" hadn't been uttered yet, but Yan Xiru picked it up from behind and threw it in the middle of the bed.

He clamped Yu Fangyun tightly with his long legs: "Do you still want to find Shen Weizhou?"

Yu Fangyun shrank his back and turned his head: "Dr. Shen is about the same height as you, so you don't have to bend down to kiss him."

Yan Xiru was stunned for a moment, and laughed dumbly: "What is in this brain?" He gnawed on the tender flesh behind the ears of the man in his arms, and rubbed his soft hair on the temples: "I'm kidding, I haven't kissed you before, Not as dear as you."

He grinds him carefully, bit by bit, day after day, and he can always grind through the bottom of his heart.

In the rouge tent, Yan Xiru hugged him and turned his posture up and down.I could see the bright lights, and I could see his hot sweat dripping down his waist, continuing to drip to a hotter place... At the same time, he pressed those palms tightly against his hard chest.

Finally let Yu Fangyun fully understand what it means to be...

"Several times Yueming sits on the pine, and counts the sound of Qing chime hitting the water."

Yu Lin put Wang Dan's interview on the school's official account.He is born with strong empathy, and the stories he wrote made those who heard them cry. A few days later, the first charity money raised was credited to the account. Yu Fangyun happened to go back to the school laboratory on the weekend, so Yu Lin took out the cash and entrusted him with it. Take it back to the mother-in-law and family members.

The Lunar New Year came late this year, and now we are seeing early spring, and the cherry blossoms are showing signs of quietly blooming.

Most of the students had returned home, only Yu Lin, who was reluctant to leave, remained in the school, and it became deserted under the sycamore tree.Yu Fangyun thought of the last New Year's Day, when he pretended to be drunk and bumped into Yan Xiru's barrier, and after only a few days, he had eaten all his belt and bones, and his lower back was still sore and numb.

Yu Fangyun patted his blushing face.He can do everything at will, but how to fall in love is a big problem.But it's not easy to deal with Shang Yan Xiru who is so sloppy and casual.

He stayed quietly in the laboratory all day, the phone rang for the first time in the afternoon, and he answered, "Teacher Yu, someone is looking for you outside the door."

Yu Fangyun ran out, met Yan Xiru, and almost threw himself on him in surprise: "Why are you here?"

"Come to pick you up."

Yu Fangyun saw that his expression was different: "What happened?"

Yan Xiru stabilized his emotions, but the ending sounded astringent: "Something happened to Wei."

It was the chief director of cardiothoracic surgery who performed the operation on Dawei, and there was an accident after the operation.

After Da Wei was transferred to the cardiovascular hospital, his blood creatinine and blood urea nitrogen indicators were slightly abnormal, so he waited until his indicators returned to the normal range before undergoing surgery.During the operation, extracorporeal circulation with moderate hypothermia was used, and the patient had slight symptoms of hypotension, but the rest were considered normal, and the operation ended smoothly.Two hours after the operation, low cardiac output syndrome appeared, and the patient's serum creatinine and renal failure also showed a progressive increase. The diagnosis was acute renal failure, and cardiac arrest occurred [-] hours after the operation.

Yan Xiru said: "ARF is a high-risk factor for heart surgery, but he is still young and has no kidney problems before. No one expected this to happen."

After hearing this, Yu Fangyun sat by the wall blankly, feeling a thunderbolt from the blue sky, feeling uncomfortable and almost out of breath.He has always been used to seeing illnesses and accidents, and he has always been the calmest, but at this time, the vivid appearance of Dawei keeps appearing in front of his eyes, like a revolving lantern—he pesters himself to get his pulse, pesters himself to say some shameless words, pesters himself Promised him to visit him, and said with a smile like a flower that he would write poems for himself.

Yu Fangyun agreed, but he himself did not keep the promise.

Yan Xiru's mood was also low: "The nurse said that the two days before his operation were the most relaxed and happy time of the year."

Yu Fangyun wiped his face: "What does the family say? What does Dawei's younger brother say?"

"I didn't say anything. I just said that I would follow Da Wei's wish, and I would bear all the consequences myself, and I would not hold anyone accountable."

Yu Fangyun hadn't eaten anything all day, and at this moment, his eyes were dark, and he almost fell forward, and Yan Xiru held the back of his head and pressed him on his waist.

"It's definitely hard for the family to accept...it's not considered a medical accident, but it shouldn't happen..." His voice became softer, and he understood——

Only hatred can best dissolve sadness, but in the end, who should we hate?

"Sometimes, it's not a doctor, a hospital, or death..." Yu Fangyun's tears wet Yan Xiru's shirt, and he said hoarsely, "Then who else can you hate? To hate life itself?"

Yan Xiru was speechless, hugged him even tighter, and said after a moment of silence: "Da Wei also signed the body donation agreement before the operation."

"This is an ending that no one wants to see, but it is also the most realistic situation. His departure has given all the countless doctors who will see this case a little experience. It seems insignificant, but together, it may be subsequent progress."

Da Wei walked alone, leaving others with bloody hope.

The words above his head suddenly reminded Yu Fangyun of something that this person told himself at the end of that anatomy class seven years ago.I didn't fully understand it at the time, and tears filled my eyes.

Yan Xiru supported the podium and said to all the young students.

"Medicine is not science, but human beings' uncompromising exploration of death, so there is no established path and no end. Maybe in the future, we will get blindsided by reality, misunderstanding, setbacks, and even slander. But since we have chosen this path , I still hope that everyone here will not disappoint the original intention at this moment."

"No matter what the road ahead is, be magnanimous and live up to this body."