Quickly become fine before the founding of the country

After the eight hundred bhikkhuni left, Liu Xi'er did not hurry back but sat down where she was, letting her hot eyes follow the sea breeze to take away the heat that was constantly evaporating from her body, she quietly looked at the The endless sea.Let his long curly hair be messed up in the wind.

The sun is slowly rising in the morning, and there is still sea fog that has not dissipated on the sea, making it difficult to see the horizon in the distance.Just like Liu Xier now, she can't see her own heart clearly.

Her heart was in a mess, as if only the sea in front of her, which was wide enough to contain everything, could accept her little self.She has no doubts about her feelings for Jiang Yan, it is the most penetrating love, it is the obsession accumulated in countless reincarnations of falling in love but not being able to stay together.Because she clearly felt that even if Jiang Yan did many things that made her sad, she was only sad.

It's like he is really sad now, but he is not willing to say even a harsh word to Jiang Yan.She was afraid that if she showed something bad, Jiang Yan would be like the scene she saw in meditation, so she turned around and said "let's break up" to herself, and then disappeared.So she escaped hastily under the pretext of sending the eight hundred bhikkhunis away, and was here alone worrying about the sea.

To be honest, she felt that she was not valued by Jiang Yan, as if she had exhausted all the opportunities to be with Jiang Yan, but Jiang Yan just nodded and accepted everything.Suddenly she didn't know what she wanted.

But before that, she knew exactly what she wanted.Didn't she just want to be with Jiang Yan before?But now they are together.Why is he so terrified and worried about gains and losses?

Jiang Yan is a great exorcist with great strength.It can be said that as long as Jiang Yan is willing, she can easily put herself in a situation where there is no redemption.And even if she made rapid progress after that trip to Japan, she was just a fairy who was no longer so weak and could barely maintain her human form in front of her.What if she makes Jiang Yan dissatisfied in the future?Will it be like today, just a spiritual suppression can make her powerless to resist.Or turn around and never see each other again...

Before the two of them were together, she would not think about many things, and even felt that those were not important, as long as the two were in love, everything could be overcome.But after she was really together, she would still think about it and care about it.Maybe this is the legendary insecurity.

"Sense of security" She used to disdain this word very much, she thinks that as long as one's heart is strong enough.Security is what you give yourself.

But when you really fall in love with someone, especially when you give everything, it's like an infatuation.That's different. This kind of emotion will completely change a person, and he will become cautious, worry about gains and losses, and have low self-esteem.Liu Xi'er is like this now, she doesn't know whether to blame herself or Jiang Yan.

She sat by the sea like this until the sun was so high that she couldn't open her eyes. Then Liu Xi'er sighed as if she had recovered, and slowly stood up and stretched her legs that had been sitting stiff. .She decided that some things cannot be figured out by herself alone.She still decided to go back and have a good chat with Jiang Yan, maybe everything is really not as she thought?

When Liu Xier returned home, Jiang Yan had just returned.The two met at the door, and Liu Xier looked at her with emotion in her eyes. Even in this state, she still couldn't control herself, every pore seemed to have its own life, and she couldn't help but feel like Jiang Yan tells of love.But Jiang Yan turned her head away as if she couldn't bear it, she stretched out her hand to support Liu Xi'er's waist and gently led her in.While walking, he said, "Go in and talk."

Liu Xi'er walked into the room with her strength and sat down at the table. She watched Jiang Yan turn around and slowly close the door with her back facing her, motionless, as if she was making an important decision.Liu Xi'er was a little nervous, she felt that she might hear a lot of unexpected words next.The two of them waited quietly for the other to speak first, and the only sound of breathing in the room was silent for a moment.

I don't know how long the two of them passed like this, but Jiang Yan's voice first broke the silence in the room.

"Liu Xi'er, do you feel that this room gives you a familiar feeling?"

Liu Xi'er looked up at her in surprise, and then looked around the room. Indeed, as she said, every wall and pillar here gave people a special sense of familiarity.She vaguely remembered the feeling when she accidentally entered this courtyard when she was wandering around Jiang's house. At that time, it was a dilapidated place, but she just had an inexplicable feeling, as if she had lived here.

Later, whether she was cooking in the kitchen here or watching the moon in the courtyard, she felt very satisfied.She also guessed that it was either because she had lived here before, or because Jiang Yan had lived here and she loved Wujiwu so she liked it too.But this is the territory of the Jiang family, and it is still possible for Jiang Yan to live here, she guessed... But she has not verified it after all.Now that Jiang Yan brought it up, she was also a little curious about why she felt this way.So she nodded and said, "Yes."

Jiang Yan turned her head, found a chair and sat down face to face with her, and said, "This place has a long history, even older than that mourning hall. It used to be the original piece of land of the Jiang family, and it was also ours. The place where the two lived together."

Sure enough, as Liu Xier expected, she knew that Jiang Yan would not live in a house with a better environment, and it was probably because of this reason that she insisted on bringing her here, but why did she mention this now?She asked silently in her heart, but waited silently for Jiang Yan's next words.

"I know that you knew some things about the past when you were in Bhikkhuni, but you don't know as much as I do. Thanks to this status, as long as I want to recall any past events, I can definitely recall them, even if I want to I can’t even forget.” Jiang Yan smiled self-deprecatingly, then continued to look at Liu Xi’er and said, “Do you know? We have gone through ten lifetimes of love and parting, and I remember it every time. I remember the beginning, Remember the sweetness, the contradiction, and the parting."

Hearing this, Liu Xi'er couldn't help but "swipe" and raised her head to stare blankly at Jiang Yan, but was so shocked that she couldn't speak.He could only watch Jiang Yan's eyes that would have been infinitely gentle towards him suddenly become hollow.Looking at her blankly like a puppet, he continued: "Speaking of which, I don't know whether you fell in love with me first or I fell in love with you first. In short, it seemed like a bad relationship at the beginning, waiting for you and me to react When we came over, we couldn't help ourselves."

"We once swore to each other for life. But I thought that life was just you spending the whole life with me, but after all, demons live longer than humans. You said you couldn't bear the separation from me, so you developed the art of transforming demons. Hope I can realize the wish of the two of us to be together forever by turning into a demon."

Hearing this, Liu Xi'er was very shocked. She was the one who developed the vicious magic transformation technique!How can it be?So she couldn't help but opened her mouth and interrupted Jiang Yan and said, "Wait, you mean I developed the 'magic magic'?"

Jiang Yan nodded and said: "Yes, you are very smart, and you were also the leading demon at that time. The demon removal technique is aimed at the great demon master, and the great demon master will have the spiritual power of the demon master at the same time." And the longevity of demons. But ordinary demon exorcisers and humans are fatal, and they will never succeed. But at that time, I was a very proud exorcist, and there was no way to abandon my identity. Although you are very sad, but He also respected my opinion."

"But the good times didn't last long. When I was with you, I was opposed by the demon world. At that time, the demon world was very prosperous, and there were many great demon masters. Although I have a place in the demon world, I can't bear it." After being isolated, the wall collapsed and everyone pushed him away. Later, the magic technique bestowed by Li Xuewen flowed out. Suddenly the whole society was in chaos because of this, and everyone thought it was the secret technique of immortality and broke their heads. You and I have also been pushed to the top of the storm."

Liu Xi'er listened quietly, but all this was so strange to her, it sounded like someone else's story.But at the same time, she also wanted to know more about the past between the two of them. She wanted to know what kind of mentality Jiang Yan had with her until now.

Jiang Yan seemed to be completely lost in memory, and continued to say: "At that time, they couldn't catch you anyway, so they tied me up with tricks, and threatened you to come here alone before letting me go. And you know I knew it was a trap but I still came as promised, and I fell into their trap. How could I not understand the tricks of demon masters? If you were really captured alive, you would definitely die, and your soul would be scattered. So later, I couldn’t bear your suffering and committed suicide It's you." At this point, she swallowed, and her empty eyes regained light as she looked at Liu Xi'er who was weeping beside her.

"What you said is true?" Liu Xi'er asked in disbelief with a crying voice.This must be a story, it cannot be true!

"Yes, but in this way I ruined their good deeds, and I couldn't stay in the demon world anymore. I personally built my own mourning hall near this courtyard, but the great demon master will bring memories to reincarnate, and I I love you and I am afraid. So I let Daji and Baichun seal my memory. I just hope that I will never see you again. But reincarnation is so wonderful, it makes me meet you forever, but even if I have no memory, it is still inevitable Falling in love with you. No matter who you are, I will fall in love with you." Jiang Yan said with an expression.

"What happened later? What happened to Wenwen and Li Xuewen?" Liu Xi'er felt her heart tightening up and down, and her intuition told her that it's best not to listen any further, she would definitely not be able to bear it any longer. .But she still couldn't help asking out in a masochistic way.

Hearing this, Jiang Yan gritted her teeth and continued: "I promised Daji that I would stay away from you in the future. But some things are beyond my control. If I still have memories, even if I commit suicide after reincarnation Dare to provoke you easily, but it’s ridiculous. Every time you reincarnate, you and I will love each other, but either I’m one step late or you are one step late. Or you and I are not too late, but Daji will come forward to stop. Wenwen is the Daji sect at that time to stop you and me."

"I hadn't met you at that time. Wenwen's appearance made me mistakenly think that I fell in love. After all, not everyone can resist the fox demon's charm. But then I met you. At that moment, I knew that I loved you. It's not Wenwen but you. So I chose you unswervingly. You should know the things after that. In short, I am really sorry for Wenwen, but... there are some things I really can't do, six Xi'er, do you understand? I can't do it! The person I love has always been you! Since this fact can't be changed, then I will be with you, even if you ask me to transform into a demon now, I won't care! "Speaking of this, Jiang Yan stood up abruptly!

She came to Liu Xier's side, wanted to grab her shoulder but stopped at the moment when she was about to touch her.She noticed that Liu Xi'er began to tremble slightly because of her approach.So she couldn't help taking a few steps back and said, "I'm sorry..."

Liu Xi'er got up and wiped away the tears that had flowed out of her eyes at some point and said, "I want to be quiet, please let me be quiet." Then she trotted and left the room.

Jiang Yan looked at the door that was wide open after Liu Xier left, and hugged her head in frustration.She didn't know if it was right for her to tell Liu Xi'er?These memories are not good and give her frequent nightmares.She knew that if possible, it would be best for Liu Xier not to touch such a painful thing.But she also knew that Liu Xi'er had already seen the tip of the iceberg.In this case, the past will always be like a bomb, either buried in her heart or in Liu Xi'er's heart.If you don't take it out to see through the light, I'm afraid the two of them will be blown to pieces that day.

The author has something to say: Ah, it’s really too hot recently, 39° for a week in a row.It is impossible to live without the air conditioner, but the babies should also learn my lesson. It is okay to turn on the air conditioner all night, but remember to turn up the temperature and cover the quilt, otherwise it will really kill you if you catch a cold!I have a bit of a fever and cold for the past two days, and my runny nose is okay, the key is that the diarrhea is really fucking...