The rest of life may not be different

"You guys know each other?" Bai Lingge looked at Su Wuxu who came back and sat opposite him.

"Well, what did he come to ask?"

"You don't know, why ask again, I know what you mean, he is not sick, you are getting worse." Bai Lingge was blunt.

Su Wuxu looked at him, that look remained cold and aloof, "That's why I came to you. Obviously everything is going in the direction I expected, but it feels more and more unreal, and even feels that everything is absurd."

After finishing speaking, Su Wuxu laughed at himself, and said again, "Yes, I am indeed sick. When I was alone in the room, I saw lonely ghosts and homeless ghosts, and they all ran to my small room to be with me. , I am very annoyed but I can’t do anything, because I can’t drive them away at all, I pretend to be indifferent every day, and never show a little in front of others, but the person closest to me should have noticed it long ago, but he just didn’t say it, his silent suspicion made me I was terrified, but I didn't dare to tell him, even when facing him, I was always cautious, but the malice in my heart was infinitely magnified."

"Have you taken your medicine on time?" Bai Lingge said quietly after listening.

Su Wuxu smiled helplessly, "Do you think my medicine has improved me now? I can't get rid of my dependence on medicine or doctors. I have worked hard, but it still doesn't work. I am more and more aware of the previous things. Playing it back in my mind, the picture of lying on the bed and looking at the flowers flashed in front of my eyes. There are good and bad, but I only remember the bad, so it reminds me more and more that the difference between today and the status quo, even I am very afraid that this is a dream, I will wake up from the dream, I will be beaten back to my original shape, he is not by my side, and I have no reason to let him stay by my side..."

Bai Lingge was silent at first, and after a while he spoke slowly, "You mean you don't exist? Maybe they don't exist?"

Su Wuxu didn't respond, and then said lightly, "Maybe."

Bai Lingge's eyes were darker, "Existence precedes essence. Existential philosophy puts forward three basic principles: one is "existence precedes essence", and it is believed that human "existence" precedes "essence"." First It is the human being who exists, who shows up, who appears, and who later defines himself. "

The so-called existence, first of all, is the existence of "self", which is "the existence felt by oneself". If I do not exist, then everything does not exist.The so-called "existence precedes essence" means that "self" precedes essence, that is to say, man's "self" determines his own essence.

The second is "the world is absurd, and life is painful".It is absurd to think that in this "subjective" society, there must be conflicts, struggles and cruelty between people, full of ugliness and crimes.And man is just a suffering person in this absurd and cruel situation. The world can only give people endless depression, disappointment, pessimism and negativity, and life is painful.As with the poor, so with the rich.

The third is "free choice".This is the essence of existentialism.The core of existentialism is freedom, that is, people are absolutely free when they choose their own actions.It believes that in this world, everyone has their own freedom, and they can make "free choices" about what actions to take and how to take actions in the face of various environments. "If existence does precede essence, man can never explain his actions by reference to a known or specific humanity, in other words, there is no determinism - man is free. Man is freedom." Sartre argued, In front of things, if a person cannot make a "free choice" according to his personal will, this kind of person has lost his individuality and "self", and cannot be regarded as a real existence.Sartre's existential philosophy is not only the ideological core of existential literature, but also the ideological basis of various schools of postmodern literature. "

Su Wuxu raised his eyes and looked directly at him. There was something flickering in his eyes. Bai Lingge continued, "What you think is a hypothesis after all. Everything is actually happening. You have the right to make any remarks, and you can also distort them wantonly." In this sense, human beings do not live for survival at all, but are enslaved by some immaterial things in the brain. To put it bluntly, the reason why human beings are human is different from other animals, because human beings put heavy shackles on themselves and then willingly lead himself along.

To put it bluntly, the essence of life comes first, and the other is hell. "

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"Ah Jing, you... are really with him!" Qi Yu exaggeratedly shouted this sentence.

Wei Jing felt that he was making a fuss, so she squinted at him, since she hadn't seen him for so long that he seemed to be recovering well. "Why are you so surprised, isn't it normal?"

Qi Yu calmed down a bit, "No, you two are not on the same side. It doesn't matter if his family is rich and powerful, but your father is just on the rise. If you are exposed, have you thought about the consequences!"

Wei Jing nodded, very calmly, "Think about it, so there are very few people who know our relationship, don't worry, we are not so irrational and know how to measure."

Qi Yu is not as calm as he is, he is naturally aware of what Wei Jing has been doing secretly in the past two years, not to mention Wei Jing's family, Su Wuxu has been helping the Gu family in recent years, who wants to kill him or threaten him behind the scenes There are people in the National People's Congress, if they take aim at Wei Jing, it will affect the whole body!

Wei Jing had already seen what he was thinking, turned her head and said seriously, "Don't think about it, I didn't stop you, and you don't want to get involved, we won't be discovered, anyway, we will wait until the next year's general election."

Qi Yu's heart tightened, thinking to himself that he really knew, sighed and said angrily, "Then you can do it yourself!"

"A Jing." Su Wuxu glanced at Qi Yu with an ordinary look and said, "You are here too." But his eyes stayed on Wei Jing, full of nostalgia and enthusiasm.

Qi Yu narrowed his eyes and looked at him for a moment, "How about chatting with you?"

Wei Jing glanced over, Su Wuxu patted Wei Jing, and said gently, "Hey, go to the car and wait for me first."

Wei Jing looked up at him, then hesitated for a moment, turned and got into the car to wait for him.

Then Su Wuxu's gaze turned sharp, and Qi Yu's mouth turned into a cold smile, "You are with him because he will not understand!"

Su Wuxu's eyes were still gloomy and cold, and he was clamoring about these things again in his mind. Everyone said that I would harm him, and I didn't deserve it?Why!

Qi Yu, who stared at Qi Yu wanting to peel his skin and cramps, shuddered, feeling that this person was more terrifying than he imagined.

"Why do you think so? What's wrong with what you do? Don't say it's high-sounding, it's all the same. What's the difference between your nature and mine?" Speaking of this, Su Wuxu smiled secretly.

Qi Yu's eyes widened instantly, he grabbed Su Wuxu's collar and said viciously, "It's you! How dare you f*ck tell Wei Jing!"

Su Wuxu instantly released his wrist that was holding his collar, and smiled at him emotionlessly, "So what, you are still at the mercy of others, after all, you are not qualified."

Then strode away, leaving behind Qi Yu with a gloomy face.

Wei Jing kept his face sullen and said nothing, Su Wuxu turned to look at him and said aggrievedly, "I didn't do anything to you, didn't you see it, he was the one who pulled me first."

Wei Jing yelled at him, "You're still reasonable, you didn't provoke him on purpose, I don't know you yet."

Su Wuxu smiled when he heard the words, "Yes, yes, how can my boyfriend not understand me." The tone was showing off, Wei Jing was also amused by him, seeing his childish appearance was inexplicably relieved, In fact, he was also apprehensive at the bottom of Su Wuxu's sullen face and deep eyes.

Ever since they entered the third year of high school, they began to have legitimate reasons to live on campus, so while the two of them dated and fought in the dormitory unscrupulously, they would not worry about someone watching you all the time.

The dormitory is fully equipped with kitchen, bathroom and bathroom. After Su Wuxu and Wei Jing came back, Su Wuxu started to cook. Su Wuxu was afraid that Wei Jing would be choked by the smell of oily smoke, so he was not allowed to enter every time, but he was not allowed to watch Wei Jing's heart itch again, imagining that cruel and inhuman face looking serious at the vegetables in his hands, cutting and frying vegetables in one go, Wei Jing will be amazed every time he looks at it, but also feels a little distressed, even if he reveals his heart, Su Wu Xu still thinks that he will never tell him what he shouldn't tell, but Wei Jing also vaguely guessed the undercurrent of the Su family's calm.

He stepped forward and pressed Su Wuxu on the refrigerator and kissed him, imitating Su Wuxu's usual way of gnawing at each other savagely, trying to gnaw away all the stagnation, so he was extremely ferocious, Su Wuxu was a little dazed, Feeling Wei Jing's tongue digging deep into his teeth and biting his lips, he could feel the taste of rust in his mouth, his eyes deepened, he grabbed the back of Wei Jing's head and bit it harder than him...

Su Wuxu used to feel a little bit depressed when he came back to Su's house. Su Xiangshan beat and scolded him for "hating iron but not steel", and Su Beiyue's polite greetings just wanted to make him more embarrassed. Su Wuxu was worried when Mr. Su got older. Naturally, he didn't talk about his body, and the undercurrents of the whole family were not revealed in front of Mr. Su.

But Mr. Su can still feel it even when he is old. When he was young, Su Wuxu couldn't resist, and the appearance of resignation made Su Xiangshan feel agitated for a while. The child he was thinking about was not a father, and every time he had to beat him, he would not Only when you resist can you feel your majesty. Later, when you heard that Su Wuxu and the Gu family were getting close, you planned to beat Su Wuxu without saying a word, thinking it was for his own good.

How could Su Wuxu be willing this time? He sideways dodged so fast, and then slyly walked behind him and said, "Dad, the clay figurine is still angry, and the Buddha also has moments of anger!"

Su Xiangshan turned around and saw him without getting angry, pointing at him and scolding, "Okay, you actually preached to me, you are the only one who deserves to be angry! Don't forget that I am your father, and I will teach you a lesson. It should!"

Su Wuxu smiled inexplicably, "But I never dare to forget that the whip wounds on my body are also due to you!"