love letter to summer

"The lion symbolizes rebellion. The lion wants to fight for freedom and rule its own desert. Its enemy is a giant dragon. The dragon is covered with scales and shines with gold. It lies on the path of the lion. The golden words "you should" flashed. The dragon said, "all the value of all things - shine on me." It kept saying "you should" to the lion, "you should", implying that it asked the lion to perform One's own responsibility, one cannot think of 'I want', and the lion just represents 'I want', it wants to resist the dragon, create freedom for itself, and say 'no' to obligations."

"Xiao Xia's article made me think that she should be a very brave person, just like that lion." Xia Tang looked at the ceiling and said sadly, "And I was just a camel all my life."

Ye Ji: "You are not a camel, you just don't want to hurt others."

Xia Tang looked at the ceiling and thought for a long time, then shook his head: "No, I don't think I dare to resist just because I'm afraid of the consequences. Every time I think that the people around me will reject me, when I imagine that they show me Disgusted or dissatisfied expressions, I feel scared."

He said softly and slowly: "I care too much about what other people think of me, and I am afraid of being abandoned by the group."

"Sometimes I envy you very much." He turned his head and looked at Ye Ji, his soft hair fell down beside his face, "You live so freely, you never care what others think of you. Do you know? Wei Donglin also I envy you. He once said to me that the age of sixteen or seventeen is the age most eager to be accepted by the group, so almost every high school student wants to make friends in school, and those who have no friends will be ridiculed, Seen as a lonely and weird wretch, but you don't seem to be interested in anyone in the class, and you never want to know anyone. When you are approached, you play with them for a while. When no one seeks you, You just focus on your own thing. He thinks you're cool."

Ye Ji was very surprised. When he was in high school, or in his entire past school career, he really seldom took the initiative to make friends, but he didn't do it on purpose, he didn't even think about it, let alone expect it. Until someone thinks it's cool.

Ye Ji said: "... I didn't do it on purpose."

Xia Tang said: "I know, but others don't." He laughed, "Old Wei also asked me, do you think other people are too stupid, and talking to them would be boring."

Ye Ji: "..."

Xia Tang laughed out loud: "He also said that every time you talk to him, he will be nervous and wake up his energy, afraid that he won't understand what you are saying. But later he thought that your words were very concise and clear, On the contrary, it is easier to understand than ordinary people.”

Ye Ji hummed.He was famous for his succinct and clear speech back then. His Chinese teacher had tears in his eyes more than once when he wrote his composition, and once said sadly, "You can almost write a lyric essay into an experiment report."Composition has been entangled with Ye Ji for more than ten years like a nightmare. However, when he was finally able to get rid of this nightmare, he fell into a bigger pit.

Ye Ji himself didn't expect this, he can only say that life is full of surprises.

Xia Tang: "However, there is one thing I can't figure out - usually people with a withdrawn personality are less popular in school, but your popularity is not bad. Although occasionally you meet people who don't like you, most of them The classmates still like you very much. Even if you have 'I don't want to make friends' written all over your face, there will still be people coming to tease you one after another, which is really unimaginable."

Ye Ji didn't know why, the two looked at the ceiling and thought for a long time but couldn't figure it out.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

Ye Ji and Xia Tang continued to lie still, because Xia Tang's parents knocked twice symbolically, and then pushed the door open by themselves.

But this time the door didn't open.

Ye Ji and Xia Tang looked at each other suspiciously, Ye Ji stood up and opened the door.

Ye Ji opened the door, Ye Ma stood at the door, she looked up at Ye Ji, and asked flatly, "Are you going home tonight or staying here?"

Ye Ji: "Go home."

Ye Ma raised her right hand to reveal her watch, and said, "09:30, time to go."

Ye Ji was stunned for a moment, he suddenly felt that this was like a long-term parting between him and Xia Tang, and this parting came quite suddenly - even though it was just going home, and he knew long ago that he would go home Home, and his home is less than 10 minutes walking distance from Xia Tang's home, but he still feels extremely lonely.

Ye Ji turned his head subconsciously, Xia Tang sat up from the bed and walked to the door.

Ye Ma looked at him and asked gently, "Are you okay?"

Xia Tang pursed his lips and said, "It's not good." He raised his left leg, swung his knee towards Mama Ye, touched the position of his heart, and said, "Both physically and mentally injured."

Ye Ma covered her mouth and kept laughing.

Xia Tang was lying on the door frame with a miserable look on his face.

Mother Ye said: "It's so pitiful, otherwise I would lend you Ye Ji for one night and let him stay to comfort you."

Is this sentence a joke that came out of my mouth, or is it a test?

Ye Ji looked at Mother Ye, her eyes were on Xia Tang, her expression was very calm.

Xia Tang smiled at the side: "Hahaha, he won't comfort me, he will only mock me, let me stay alone."

Mama Ye nodded and said, "Then let's chat for a while." She looked at Ye Ji, "I'll be back in 10 minutes."

Ye Ji: "Yeah." He watched Ye Ma turn around and walk into the living room, and then closed the door again.When he turned to look at Xia Tang, Xia Tang was also looking at him.

The air seemed to freeze at this moment.

He saw Xia Tang's black eyes, and the dim and soft light shining on his side face, Ye Ji thought of those portraits of Renaissance figures, Xia Tang seemed to become one of them, frozen forever In the long river of time.

He couldn't help stretching out his hand to caress Xia Tang's face, as if he was stroking his lover thousands of years away through time.

"I'm going back." Ye Ji said.

The atmosphere was indescribably subtle, and even a little weird. After saying this simple declarative sentence, it turned out to be like a farewell word when parting from life and death.

Xia Tang was also affected by this inexplicable atmosphere, he looked at Ye Ji with round eyes, and did not speak for a long time.

His appearance made Ye Ji feel even more reluctant.

Ye Ji walked over and put his arms around his shoulders.

"I'm going back," he said again.

"En." This time, Xia Tang nodded slightly, his short hair slid across Ye Ji's face.

The hair is so soft - Ye Ji thought to himself.

After a long silence, Ye Ji let go of Xia Tang's shoulders, Xia Tang's body temperature also left at the moment of letting go, so Ye Ji immediately felt empty in front of him, as if a part of his body had been People cut away, which made him feel even more sad and empty.