love letter to summer

In the rear-view mirror, Yao Yue's figure gradually shrunk, and finally turned into a dot. Brother Nan looked away and looked at the road ahead.

Brother Nan: "Where do you live?"

Ye Ji said the address.

The streets were cold and quiet in the early morning.

There are street lamps on the side of the road, and the street lamps emit faint yellow visible electromagnetic waves, which are transmitted in the form of waves in the air, illuminating the dark road.

"What are you thinking?" Brother Nan asked.

Ye Ji: "Light."

Brother Nan: "Huh?" He glanced at the street lamps on the street and laughed, "So you don't like beautiful women but street lamps."

The car stopped at the intersection.

The red light hangs in the air like a little sun.

Ye Ji turned his head and looked at the driver's seat: "Brother Nan, I want to ask you a question."

Brother Nan: "Ask."

Ye Ji: "Have you come out to your parents?"

"Yeah, I came out when I was 16, what happened?"

Ye Ji: "How did you tell them?"

Brother Nan was stunned for a while, then looked at Ye Ji: "You want to come out?"

Ye Ji said calmly: "Sooner or later, this day will come."

Brother Nan: "Ah, that's true." He scratched his hair, "Different situations require different methods. My method may not be suitable for you, but experience can still be passed on."

The light turns green and the car is back on the road.

Brother Nan: "The most important point is: don't try to be reasonable. There is no reason to speak of anything related to feelings. Those things like 'homosexuality is born', 'love is free and equal', do you think your parents Have you really never heard these words? Maybe they have heard them more times than you, maybe they have used these words to comfort others. "

Brother Nan turned the steering wheel quickly, and the car turned on the road.

"Imagine if your son said to you 'Dad, I'm in love with the dog next door', what would you think? I'm not comparing gays to dogs, I just want to say that in the eyes of many parents Here, 'fucking gay' is as deviant as 'fucking a beast'."

Brother Nan looked at Ye Ji from the rearview mirror: "Come on, tell me, what reaction will you give your son."

Ye Ji: "I won't object."

"Ah?" Brother Nan slipped his hand and almost drove the car onto the sidewalk, "Are you serious?"

Ye Ji nodded.

"You don't have a fever, do you?" Brother Nan put one hand on Ye Ji's forehead, "Your son is going to have sex with a little animal."

Ye Ji: "Humans are nothing but animals."

Brother Nan burst out laughing, withdrew his hand, and said, "I have forgotten that you have unique views, so I can't use you as an example. Anyway, what I want to say is that for most people, 'homosexual' and 'human' Bestiality' is weird, twisted, and disgusting, and if you tell them 'humans are just animals, and bestiality should be respected', they'll just think you're sick, get it?"

Brother Nan: "I think there are indeed vicious people in this world, but such people are only a minority, and more people are just fragile ordinary people. When faced with an incomprehensible thing, they are afraid, terrified, Lost my mind."

The car drove into a residential area, and the residential buildings not far away were lit up, and the flickering lights were like countless floating candles.

Ye Ji suddenly felt that these lights were very warm.

Brother Nan stopped the car and turned off the engine.

The sound of the engine running stopped abruptly, everything was completely silent, and Brother Nan's voice became very clear.

"No matter how my parents treat me, I can't blame them, because I can feel the anxiety and fear that come from their hearts."

Ye Ji turned his head to look at him, Brother Nan looked at him for a while, and suddenly said, "Why are your eyes so bright? Are you wearing contact lenses?"

Ye Ji shook his head.

Brother Nan stared into his eyes for a while, and said, "Your eyes are so pretty."

Ye Ji: "Thank you." Xia Tang's eyes suddenly appeared in his mind, Ye Ji thought for a while, and said, "I will introduce you to Xia Tang later, his eyes are prettier than mine."

"Really." Brother Nan chuckled, "I'm looking forward to it." He pressed the switch of the CD player, and soft music played.

Brother Nan: "In the beginning, there was a lot of trouble at home. For a while, my dad didn't even let me in the house. Later..." He smiled, like a child, with his tough face The face is extremely inconsistent, "I just pretend to be pitiful with them. Every time my dad is about to scold me, I immediately rush over and say, 'Dad! I also think I am abnormal. What should I do? There are so many girls who like it. Me, I can't date them, I feel so sad!"

Ye Ji: "Are you serious..."

Brother Nan: "Hahaha, yes, why did you lie to me? Actually, I am quite open-minded, and I have long since taken the matter of sexuality aside. I don't take it seriously at all, and naturally others can't take it seriously with me. ,Am I right?"

He leaned in his seat and looked at the light outside, and said in a low voice: "To be honest, I found that there is nothing that cannot be let go after a person reaches a certain age. The Buddha believed that life is suffering, and this suffering is the source of suffering. From 'ignorance', 'ignorance' means 'foolishness', everything in the world is just illusory, but people can't see through it, but are obsessed with money, obsessed with material, obsessed with these illusory things, with obsession, there will be Desires and longings, when you have desires, you want them. If you don’t get what you want, you will be angry and painful. I didn’t understand this when I was young. Every time I saw such arguments, I wanted to burn the book, but now I feel more and more, These three words of 'greed, hatred and ignorance' are really precious."

Ye Ji looked at him seriously, Brother Nan glanced at him, rubbed his cheeks, then let out a long breath, and said: "This is the first time I've said this to others, and I didn't expect that I would say so much. "

He looked into the distance and thought for a while, then looked at Ye Ji, showing a gentle smile: "Maybe because you are a good listener, I feel that no matter what I say, you can understand and understand me."

The lights in the residential buildings went out one by one, and now there are only sporadic points left.

The surrounding fields are silent, and the sound of insects is sparse.

Brother Nan turned down the volume of the player, and the sound of the music turned into a trickle, as weak as breathing.

Brother Nan: "It's late, let's go back."

Ye Ji opened the car door and was about to get out of the car. He stopped half way through his legs and turned around.

Brother Nan took off his glasses and was pinching the bridge of his nose, looking a little tired.

Ye Ji: "Brother Nan."

Brother Nan stopped, turned his head to look over, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Ye Ji: "Thank you."

Brother Nan laughed: "My own people don't have to be so polite, and I don't know who to thank whom."

He put the glasses back on, then grabbed a handful of hair on his forehead in a handsome posture, and said, "I can't stand it because you are so cute. If I were five years younger, I would definitely chase you."

Ye Ji was already standing outside the car. Hearing this, he bent down to look at him and said expressionlessly, "Didn't you say that I'm so boring?"

Brother Nan: "Every personality has its unique charm, and boredom is no exception. Actually, I enjoy your dullness (I enjoy your dullness very much)."

Ye Ji: "I enjoy your verbosity too (I enjoy your verbosity too)."

Brother Nan laughed, and said while laughing: "Sweetdreams, mybeauty (good night, my beauty)."

Ye Ji shook the goose bumps on his body.

Brother Nan: "Let's meet again by fate!" Accompanied by his laughter, the car quickly left and disappeared into the night.