Chronicle of Studying Abroad

When Xue Jun came out of the shower, Yuan Shan made an appointment online with the landlord who had rented the house before.

Yuan Shan glanced at his phone, it was fine, he washed it for two hours.

Xue Yun changed into a clean white T-shirt and sat in front of Yuanshan, with a red nose and swollen eyes.

Yuan Shan poured him a glass of boiled water.

Xue Yun held the glass in both hands, staring blankly at the water glass in a daze.His fingers were white and wrinkled from soaking in water for a long time, but the color of his nails was darker, a little purple.

Although the hot bath warmed him all over, his heart seemed to be covered with ice, sending out bursts of cold air that spread to his limbs, and Xue Yun couldn't help shivering.

Yuan Shan glanced at him, not knowing how to speak.

Xue Jun unexpectedly spoke first: "If your lover slept with someone else, would you forgive him?"

The next second he shook his head and denied himself: "No, no. At least he won't."

Xue Yun could still be mistaken for an underage boy by looking at his appearance. His hair was highlighted with a touch of dark blue, just next to his cheek. At this time, it was wet and stuck to his face, looking extremely pitiful and cute.

Yuan Shan thought of the lonely man standing at the door that day, and felt blocked.

He knew that Xue Yun didn't need anyone's response at this time, he needed to vent.

In fact, Yuan Shan regretted the promise he made when he softened his heart, but the help of a child who seemed to be about to collapse made him unable to ask.

"You've seen him before, he's very good, right?" Xue Yun turned the water glass, and the transparent water floated back and forth in the transparent container, "He's so good...I can't catch up with him..."

"We have known each other for a long time. He is an excellent big brother who is 3 years older than me next door. He moved away later, and I didn't see him again until I was in high school. I am a bit precocious. I knew that I liked the same sex as early as in junior high school. Yes. I know that the circle has always been chaotic, and my family is strict, so I dare not participate.

When I was in the third year of high school, the family hired a tutor, who was him in college.He is very smart and went to university at the age of 16. At that time, he was applying for a graduate student in a world-renowned university in country A.Because it was an old acquaintance, he agreed to come.The moment I saw him, I knew it was him.From then on, I could never take my eyes off it.

You haven't seen him at the age of 20. He is more outgoing and lively than he is now, just like the sun that never knows how to restrain itself.

I slowly heard many things about him, such as he was also very rebellious in his early years, such as his mother is a very respectable woman, and so on.The more I understood, the deeper I fell. "Xue Jun took a sip of water, and his eyes fell on the table. The obsession in his eyes was frightening.

He sighed: "I confessed to him before the college entrance examination. I knew I was mean, and I took advantage of his kindness and intolerance. I knew he would not reject me at that moment. Then it was logical... as long as I If he doesn't leave, he will never let go first.

However, he is going to country A.Which school would reject him who is so outstanding?

I also followed.I can't help it, I know if I don't chase after it, there will be no result between us.I have no idea.

I chose the engineering department he was in. I don't care if the school is good or bad, as long as it is close to him.

But it's so difficult... I tried my best, but I still couldn't keep up. "

Yuan Shan pursed his lips, looking at the hair twirling on the boy's head, a little lost in thought.

What kind of emotion is love?

Xue Jun smiled, without any haze, and without any grievance: "He doesn't like me going to parties, so I won't go out with others. He doesn't like me playing music without doing my job, so I won't touch the piano again. No matter how much I love music, no matter how much I vowed to become a famous musician when I was a child, no matter how much I enjoy the rapport with strangers at parties, no matter how hard it is for me to be alone.”

"I love him and I gave up everything for him."

Yuan Shan was taken aback, and seemed to see the shadows of many people from Xue Yun who was muttering to himself.

"I'm doing it for your own good!" The middle-aged woman stared at Yuan Shan with a gloomy expression, her voice was hoarse and shrill, her mouth covered in bright red lipstick opened and closed, making people dizzy.

"I'm here for you!"

"It's not for you!"

"Because of you!"

Many people, many people said so.

Faces of people flashed in front of my eyes repeatedly, and I heard "for you" over and over again, and my headache was splitting.

Yuan Shan couldn't help but sneered.

Xue Yun didn't notice it, and continued: "He thought he liked me, but he didn't. He was just used to my company. Do you understand? We have been together for three years, he and I stopped at kissing, he never touched pass me!

Doesn't liking someone want to have him?

Me, how could I be willing... I managed to snatch him away from so many people. "

Yuan Shan closed his eyes, his expression seemed to be a smile but not a smile.

Xue Jun didn't seem to expect that she would tell a person who didn't deal with her very well, and he would always see her most embarrassing time.

Xue Jun took a breath, her fingers holding the glass tightened, and her fingertips turned white.

What was he doing just now?

How could he say such... so resentful words?

It turned out that I was actually blaming that person in my heart?

Thinking in this way, Xue Yun couldn't control the desire and desire to express himself. It has been held in his heart for too long, and no one has ever understood his thoughts.

Those thoughts are like the darkness buried in the soil and cannot see the light, and they will be wiped out in the sun, and the seemingly bright and beautiful flowers will also be destroyed.

He poured out: "I just realized it, I dare not admit it, I am a coward. I chased him to country A, and then here. I am so tired... I just want him to slow down, slow down One point, I'm so stupid...why can't he wait for me?

I often dream that I am running, chasing something, there is no end, nothing.I ran for a long time and fell many times, but he still walked farther and farther.

what do I do? "

He was so good and so cruel.

Xue Yun raised her head and looked at Yuan Shan with anticipation and bewilderment in her eyes.

With wet hair, he looked like a kitten in the water.

But I can't bear to let go.

Yuan Shan avoided his gaze, and looked sideways out of the window. At this time, the sun was shining, hitting the walls and plants, and the years were quiet.

"Does he know you think so?" Yuan Shan said softly.

He turned his head and looked into Xue Yun's eyes, there was a kindness in his eyes that he didn't realize: "Have you talked about this with him, even once?"

Xue Yun froze, hesitated for a long time, then shook her head dejectedly.

The corners of Yuan Shan's mouth were curled up, and the single eyelids were carved into the corners of his eyes, showing a charming smile. His dark brown eyes had a little sunshine, like a spring in the mountains: "Let's have a good talk sometime."

Xue Yun looked at him and nodded blankly.

"Good boy." Yuan Shan reached out to add water to the glass in his hand.

"I'm not that kind of person." Xue Yun said suddenly, with a very serious expression, flushed cheeks, and a little excited look.

Yuan Shan's smile did not change: "I know."

Otherwise...you wouldn't cry so badly.

Thinking of the voice from the bathroom just two hours ago, Yuan Shan felt a little relieved.

While breathing, it became a lot heavier.

Love is truly awe-inspiring.

Qin Shui leaned against the wall of the carriage, watching the field scenery passing by outside the train, but at this moment he had no intention of admiring it.

The color of the sky near the evening is light and mild, light blue with light orange, and occasionally there are clouds dyed light pink.Near the sunset, the color is intense, transitioning unobtrusively from light tones to rich and vibrant gold, and deeper to intoxicating vermilion.The bird spreads its wings, leaving a free and smooth arc on the retina from a distance.

On this road from T City to Q City, there are mostly well-tended but natural pastures or fields along the road, and there are even dense forests.Occasionally, a stream that is neither wide nor long meanders in it, and then disappears from sight in a few seconds, as if deliberately hiding its source to prevent people from easily finding it, and I am so surprised that I can't figure it out.

His mind is full of what Xue Yun asked him out not long ago, what he said to him in a corner of the coffee shop.

The surroundings are a bit noisy, and the place where they sit is well hidden, and no one can hear them talking, except each other.

Xue Yun's expression may be due to pondering too many times in the past two days, but now it is a little blurry. Even Xue Yun's appearance seems to be steamed and hazy.

Qin Shui didn't have what others thought—the experience that a child prodigy with a smooth sailing would have.

Although he was clever, he was only a clever kid when he was a child.Playing with cats and dogs, he likes the toys that ordinary boys like to play with. He has also bullied one or two little girls, and has been called a parent many times.

He was tanned when he was a child, and although his features were good, he played around all day without a break, so in the eyes of many people who knew Qin Shui's childhood, Qin Shui was just a naughty boy at that time.He is not particularly liked by girls or teachers, and his studies are just so-so, the kind who paddles leisurely in the upper middle class.

When I get older and understand a little bit, my eyebrows and eyes grow, and I know how to dress up and pay attention to hygiene.Only then did the embryonic form of the now popular teaching assistant appear.

He stumbled and walked for 24 years. Looking back, it is amazing to go to college at the age of 16, and there is nothing else to say, at least he thinks so.Even many of his friends are better than him, and some of his peers have already received a doctoral degree, so he is really nothing.

But just a few days ago, Xue Jun's words almost turned his three views upside down.

He said he liked music, but gave it up for him.

Qin Shui was silent, he didn't know.

He said he was one of those extroverts who endured being alone for his sake.

Qin Shui was silent, and he didn't know either.

He said that he chose the project in order to have a common language with him.

Qin Shui was silent, he still didn't know.

Xue Jun said a lot of things that Qin Shui didn't know.

Is it because I am too self-righteous and self-centered?

Qin Shui thought about it for a long time, but he didn't understand what the problem was.

He thought it was due to his own personality, but he always felt that something was missing.

He thought it was a communication problem, but it still didn't seem to be enough.

Tsk, trouble.

"Excuse me, sir, may I change places with you?"

Qin Shui looked up and saw a Middle Eastern woman wearing a headscarf, holding a little girl who was looking at him timidly, and she was a little embarrassed to hook her skirt.

Seeing Qin Shui turning her head, the woman hurriedly handed the tickets in her hand to Qin Shui: "I bought 26B and 27A, but my daughter is still young, so it may not be convenient for me to sit separately, please."

Qin Shui nodded, and threw the tablet on the table into his backpack.

He doesn't carry many things with him, a tablet, a mobile phone, and a wallet.

Other daily necessities that need to be used are put in the suitcase and placed on the luggage rack in front.

He stood up and looked at the seat sign on the side of the luggage rack where the small luggage was placed on the seat.

The woman thanked him again.

Qin Shui nodded casually.

Well, row 27 is right behind row 26.

It may be because it is near the end of the carriage, and the last few rows are arranged with four seats facing each other, which is convenient for the family to talk.If you are a stranger, you can also communicate appropriately to relieve the boredom of the long journey.

Qin Shui stood still in the 27th row, looked down, and saw a person who surprised him.

The man was wearing over-ear headphones, his hat was taken off and hung on the shoulder bag strap on the table, and he swayed gently with the train.

He didn't wear glasses, and his newly opened eyes were a little confused.

Kind of cute.

Qin Shui sat down next to him under the same surprised gaze of that person, then turned his head and greeted naturally: "What a coincidence, Yuanshan."

"Why are you here?" Yuan Shan was stunned for a while, then pulled off the earphones and hung them around his neck.

A little handsome.

"Come out to play." Qin Shui put down his bag, and smiled generously with the old lady who was looking at them quietly through the top of the book.

The old lady put down her book and talked to him through reading glasses: "You guys know each other."

Qin Shui nodded.

Yuan Shan looked at the old lady, as if suddenly a little reserved.

The old lady's hair was gray and her short hair was neatly cut. She also wore a small red and white floral hair tie behind her hairline.A comfortable white fur coat is paired with a red floral long skirt of the same color as the hair rope. Earrings, jewelry, pendants and nail polish are all well matched.It's pleasing to watch.

Qin Shui praised the old lady's clothes, and the old lady laughed happily.

Yuan Shan sat upright on one side, his muscles tensed.

Qin Shui glanced at him with a smile, but instead pointed to Yuan Shan and the old lady to introduce him.

Yuan Shan glanced at the smirking Qin Shui, met the old lady's kind gaze, and answered the words skillfully and fluently.Soon he got into a ball with the old lady and was regarded as a friend who had forgotten the year.

Qin Shui chuckled, feeling much better for some reason.

Forget it.

The author has something to say:

This chapter has been changed again and again, I think it will be too abrupt. . .

2017.6.9 Catching insects (thank you for the reminder from the long-tailed readers~ づみ3￣)づ）