Difficult to love

"Doctor Yue." Yan Lei nodded in greeting.

"Why are you here? Need to see a doctor?" Yue Rong closed the door and sat down and asked.

"No, I just want to talk to you."

"What do you want to talk about?" Yue Rong still had a grudge against Yan Lei, but recently, because he was too annoying to Gong Jingyun, he didn't hate Yan Lei so much.

"I am divorced."

"What?" Yue Rong noticed that Yan Lei's eye bags were heavy, bloodshot around his eyeballs, and a thick layer of stubble grew on his chin. He looked like a decadent uncle whose business failed.

"I'm divorced, and I can't live with a woman for the rest of my life."

"There is nothing wrong with you doing this, at least don't delay others."

Yan Lei smiled bitterly, "Hehe, yes, I... I came out to my family, and they kicked me out... Do you think I have nothing now?"

Yue Rong noticed that Yan Lei's eyes were dull, which was not a good sign, "Why do you think so? They just couldn't accept it for a while, they are your family after all, they won't..."

"But they have already said they don't want my perverted son!" Yan Lei suddenly stood up and interrupted Yue Rong, who stared at Yue Rong and panted heavily.

"Yan Lei, calm down, things are not as you think..."

"I have nothing... I have nothing..." Yan Lei repeated this sentence repeatedly, and he lowered his head and took out a knife from the inner pocket of his clothes.

Seeing Dao, Yue Rong also stood up and retreated to the corner, "Yan Lei, calm down, listen to me, you don't have nothing, at least I still..."

"Don't talk!" Yan Lei pointed at Yue Rong with a knife and shouted, his hands were shaking violently, his eyes were so red that they seemed to ooze blood, "The person I hate the most is you!"

"Me? Why do you hate me?"

"Because you have what I've always wanted...why can you and him be together, why can you be happy? Why? Don't your parents object? Don't your friends discriminate?"

"Yan Lei, my situation is quite special. My parents..."

"Shut up! I don't want to listen to you! How can you get a man's love without giving anything? Why? God why is it so unfair? I have tried to talk to women...but it still doesn't work... "

Yue Rong glanced at the door next to him, Yan Lei is very emotional now, no matter what he says will irritate him, so the only way to save himself now is to run.

While he was talking to himself, Yue Rong moved towards the door bit by bit.

"I don't think it's right to like anything... If I like men, I get scolded, and if I like women, I get scolded. Should I like dogs? Why don't they understand me... I can understand you when I see the people around you, I... I just now When I came in, I heard the little nurses in your hospital talking about you and 410, they had a great chat, why did it become discrimination when I came here?"

"........."

"Doctor Yue, why is your life so good? Why... Where are you going, Doctor Yue?"

Yue Rong was already very careful, but Yan Lei still saw his actions. Yan Lei's eyes at this time were very scary. His eyes changed from dull to a kind of deformed hunger and thirst. As for what he longed for, Yue Rong I don't dare to think about it anymore.

"I...can I find someone to help you?"

"Not good!" Yan Lei rushed towards Yue Rong while saying that, Yue Rong dodged to the side, but Yan Lei's strength and speed were higher than him, Yue Rong felt a cold on the left side of his lower abdomen, followed by a sharp pain.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!" Yue Rong held the knife on his stomach and sat down slowly against the wall behind him, he knew that what he needed to do most now was to calm down, he couldn't make any more big movements, Otherwise the blood flow will be faster.

Yue Rong endured the pain and looked at Yan Lei, who was indeed smiling.

"Hehehehehehehe, I'm sorry, Doctor Yue, you can't be so happy by yourself, it's impossible."

Yue Rong lowered his voice and said slowly: "I'm already like this, can you listen to me?"

"Yes, but..." Yan Lei knelt down and reached out to press the knife handle on Yue Rong's stomach.

"Ah, ah, you... stop!" Yue Rong raised his leg and kicked him, but Yan Lei dodged nimbly.

"Hey hey hey, now you can say it, I am very willing to listen to your last words, come, say something sad, and make me happy."

Yue Rong felt that the knife seemed to go in a little more, it hurt so much, he really hoped that Yan Lei could give him a punch and knock him out.

"I...my parents died when I was young, so...if I'm with a man...they have no chance to object..."

"..." The smile on Yan Lei's face suddenly froze.

"Also... because I have no parents... I was often ridiculed by my peers when I was young, so I am not very good at making friends, and there are not many friends who are close to me... I am discriminated against by the people around me when I am with men... ...I don't care, because...they are not my friends..." Yan Lei's face kept turning in front of Yue Rong, and he knew that he must be bleeding a lot.

"You...hehe, you are lying to me!"

"Is it necessary for me... to lie to you? It's no good to lie to you... and I'm with him... It's not without giving..." Yue Rong stretched out his hand to Yan Lei, "Give me your hand... "

"What are you doing!"

"I'm already like this...what else can I do! Quick...give me your hand!"

"I don't think you can do anything." Yan Lei stretched out his hand in doubt.

Yue Rong grabbed his hand and put it on his lower body/body, Yan Lei was completely shocked by the strange touch, he looked at Yue Rong with wide eyes.

Yue Rong raised his eyebrows, "This is the price I pay for loving him...can you do it?"

Yan Lei withdrew his hand, stood up and backed away quickly, and didn't stop until he hit the table behind him, "Why...how did this happen! Who did it! Is it 410! Doesn't he love you!"

"It wasn't him who did it...he loves me very much, it's his enemy...did it, at that time he...couldn't protect me..."

"You...how...how can you accept this kind of thing! How can you accept it!"

"Just thinking about him... I can accept it... Who told me... I love him..." Yue Rong's eyes became hot when he said this.

"This... this is terrible! It's terrible! So you... you are like this, you are like this!" Yan Lei muttered while scratching his hair.

"So...there is no smooth sailing in love, even if you pay...you may not get rewards...but I just got rewards, Yan Lei, since you are out of the closet...find someone you like...let's live a good life... "Yue Rong felt ironic when he thought of the "reward" Gong Jingyun gave him.

"It turns out...it turns out that everyone is the same, all the same..." Yan Lei put down his hands, he didn't dare to look at Yue Rong, he didn't realize how terrifying his actions were until after hearing Yue Rong's words just now.

"Yan Lei, you're just... blinded by jealousy, there are some things that you just let go...you won't be bothered anymore...that...if you figure it out...can you go out and find someone...help me ..." Yue Rong felt that his eyelids were getting heavier and his body was getting colder.

"I... I'm sorry... I'm sorry Doctor Yue, I... I have to leave here... I have to leave!" Yan Lei opened the door and rushed out after speaking.

Seeing Yan Lei's actions, Yue Rong actually regained his energy, he was startled, since he had already spoken, why didn't he save him?

"You just ran away like that?!" Yue Rong took advantage of this energy and hurriedly looked for the phone.

As soon as Yue Rong took out his mobile phone, someone came in, he looked up and saw the person was stunned, he felt so happy to see Yue Rong at this moment.

"Who did it!" Gong Jingyun ran to Yue Rong's house to stay at Yue Rong's house after finishing the company's affairs, but he didn't wait for anyone. He only found out that Yue Rong was working today after asking Aunt Zhang.

"Hiss! Don't touch me! Go find my uncle!"

"Looking for him? Don't waste time when I come back! I'll carry you!"

Yue Rong opened his hand, "Don't touch me!"

"Why? You just don't believe me? How can I throw you!" Gong Jingyun was so anxious that he wanted to knock him unconscious before taking him away, but he couldn't bear it.

"What do you know, I think the position of this knife should have stabbed my intestines."

"Then what happened?"

"If the feces in the intestine come out, it will cause infection, so I can't move."

Gong Jingyun sneered, "Hehe, you are really humorous, but I can't control that much."

"What do you mean, you... ah!"

Gong Jingyun picked up Yue Rong and walked out, "Don't worry, I will be very careful, I won't fall you!"

"Fuck/You!"

"Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it when you're better!"

"Who cares! Let me down!"

"To shut up!"

In this way, Yue Rong was carried into the dean's room by Gong Jingyun in full view.

After more than a month, Yue Rong's injuries were almost healed, but he still couldn't be discharged from the hospital despite Gong Jingyun's repeated warnings.

Yue Rong had been watching Gong Jingyun's performance during this time. Although he was moved, he was still a little bit unwilling.

"Why are you staring at me? I'm so handsome?" Gong Jingyun handed the peeled apple to Yue Rong.

Yue Rong took the apple and took a bite, "It's really shameless."

"Yes, I'm shameless, how do you feel today?"

"I've been fine long ago, okay?"

Gong Jingyun looked at him for a while and said, "I didn't see it."

Every time Yue Rong said that, Gong Jingyun would definitely answer him like this, and he was really convinced, "Gong Jingyun, it's really difficult for me to talk to you."

"By the way, I have something to ask you, Yan Lei, how do you want to deal with it."

Yue Rong put down the apple, he was very troubled when he thought of Yan Lei, did he ask someone to chop him off?It didn't seem to be enough, but if he let him go, he felt that he had to suffer this knife for nothing.

"I……"

"If you sue him for intentional injury, you should be sentenced to a few years."

"Don't!" Yue Rong grabbed his hand and said nervously.

"I knew you were soft-hearted."

"I... I don't know what to do... After all, he is also my patient. I am also responsible for what he is doing now. He has always had a knot in his heart. I shouldn't have let him out of the hospital..."

"Don't worry, I sent him to another mental hospital. When he can be discharged depends on my mood."

"He is my patient, why did you send him to another hospital?!"

Gong Jingyun held Yue Rong's hand instead, "Yue Rong, I don't care about others, I only care about you, you can't have another accident."

"You...you are so selfish." Yue Rong didn't know why, but he thought Gong Jingyun's words sounded better than saying I love you.

"Can't I just be selfish to you?"

Yue Rong glanced at Gong Jingyun and exaggeratedly sighed, "Hey~ It's really hard to fall in love with you."

"Is it difficult?" Gong Jingyun stood up and kissed Yue Rong's lips.

"It won't be difficult in the future."

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