Difficult to love

Yue Rong felt uncomfortable looking at the comatose Gong Jingyun. This feeling was not heartache, but that his heart seemed to be gone.

"Uncle...is he all right..."

Yue Lin took off his gloves and wiped his sweat, "For the time being, his life is not in danger, thanks to his good physical fitness."

Yue Rong held Gong Jingyun's hand, his hand was still so hot, "Why do they always like to stab in one place when they fight?"

"........."

Yue Rong lowered his head slowly, his eyes were so hot, "No matter how healthy a person is, they can't stand such a toss..."

Yue Lin patted Yue Rong on the back, "You can accompany him." Yue Lin walked out of the ward after speaking.

"Almost... almost lost your kidney, why are you so careless? Your parents didn't give birth to you to fight...but...how much hatred is there to kill you... If you die, what about me...what about other people...have you never thought about other people's feelings...asshole...old wounds are only healed and you..."

Even though Yue Rong endured desperately, tears still fell down. He couldn't explain why, but he just wanted to cry.

"This... this feeling is the same... different..."

"What's the difference?"

"I can't bear to leave my patient..." Yue Rong raised his head suddenly when he said this, Gong Jingyun actually woke up, "Are you awake!?"

"How can I sleep when you are so noisy."

"........."

"What did you say was different?"

"It's nothing, you heard it wrong."

"I'm already like this, can't you say something nice?"

"What did you say?" Yue Rong saw the smile on Gong Jingyun's face and suddenly felt pain in his heart, he still had the strength to laugh even though he was so weak.

"Forget it." Gong Jingyun held Yue Rong's hand tightly, "If you don't say it, don't say it, just stay with me."

"Let me talk for a while, and don't let me talk for a while. What do you want to do?"

"What I want to do most now is you."

"........."

"It's a pity that I have more than enough heart but not enough strength."

"Irregular."

Gong Jingyun stretched out his other hand, he wanted to touch Yue Rong's face, but his long hand couldn't reach it.

Yue Rong looked at the hand in front of him and looked at Gong Jingyun with doubts.

"What are you looking at! You have no eyesight to see!"

"Oh." This time Yue Rong was very obedient and moved his face closer automatically.

Gong Jingyun wiped Yue Rong's eyes, "You are crying."

"No, I didn't sleep well yesterday, and my eyes were a little red."

"You think your face can deceive people?"

"........."

"It's a good thing you didn't become an actor, otherwise you would have been scolded to death by the director."

"Are you praising my pretty face? Can I become an actor?" Yue Rong smirked.

"Hehe, idiot." Gong Jingyun withdrew his hand, and at the same time raised the hand holding Yue Rong, and gently kissed the back of Yue Rong's hand.

"What are you doing? It's not serious after all this."

"Don't you know that people desire what they want the most when they are weakest?"

"Am I something?"

"I didn't talk about you, what are you doing so proactively?"

"I..." Yue Rong grabbed his hair vigorously and was extremely annoyed, he always couldn't beat this rascal.

Having teased Yue Rong enough, Gong Jingyun suddenly closed his eyes tiredly, "You were the first to see when I woke up, that's great."

Yue Rong stopped torturing his hair, he found that Gong Jingyun seemed to be fainting again, so he asked nervously: "What's wrong? Does it hurt?"

"Don't be nervous, I'm just a little tired, let me sleep for a while."

"Oh……"

Yue Rong found that although Gong Jingyun gradually relaxed, his hands were still tightly grasping himself.

A week later, Gong Jingyun could get out of bed. This day, Yue Rong came to take care of several patients after seeing them.

"Help me out for a walk today."

"No, your wound hasn't fully healed yet, so don't try to move around." Yue Rong changed his medicine and packed his medicine box and was planning to educate him when he turned around, but this guy went down to the ground by himself, "What are you doing! I'm not Tell you not to move!"

Gong Jingyun grinned, "Unless I'm on the bed, you can't control me."

"Fuck! Can't you listen to the doctor?"

"If you are afraid that I will fall, come and help me quickly."

"I won't help."

"Okay, I'll go by myself."

As a result, as soon as Gong Jingyun took the second step, Yue Rong couldn't help it anymore. He walked over and grabbed Gong Jingyun's arm automatically, "Why don't I take you for a walk in the corridor."

"........."

Gong Jingyun didn't answer, he just threw Yue Rong away, and Yue Rong was out of control now, "All right, all right, let's go outside, go outside, damn it! It's really hard to serve!"

The two came to the courtyard, it was noon at this time, when the sun was strongest, Yue Rong helped Gong Jingyun to sit down slowly, Gong Jingyun suddenly lifted his clothes.

At first, Yue Rong thought he was hot and wanted to take off his clothes, but when he saw Gong Jingyun removing the gauze, Yue Rong felt something was wrong, so he held Gong Jingyun's hand, "What are you doing?!"

"The sun is so good, let my wound come out to bask in the sun, maybe it can kill and kill viruses."

"You are sick! What if you get infected!"

"Aren't you still infected?"

"I'm not a surgeon, can you be more honest!"

"Kiss me and I'll be honest."

"You..." Yue Rong was also angry this time, and he kissed Gong Jingyun's mouth in a fit of anger.

Gong Jingyun didn't expect Yue Rong to be so obedient, and by the time he realized it, he had already left with his own mouth.Gong Jingyun touched his lips and looked at Yue Rong with a smirk on his face, "If I knew it earlier, I would just say it."

"Get out!" Although Yue Rong's chrysanthemum tightened, he did not forget to fix Gong Jingyun's gauze.

The two sat for about 10 minutes, and Gong Jingyun suddenly pointed to the side and asked, "Are they..."

Yue Rong looked over, and there was an old couple in their 60s sitting not far from them. Yue Rong remembered that they were Gao Lin's patients, "Oh, they are patients on the second floor, and they both seem to have dementia."

"Is Alzheimer's forgetful?"

"Forget, what's wrong?"

Gong Jingyun looked at their holding hands and said: "Forgetful but remember each other..."

"Maybe it's not terminally ill yet. If the disease is serious, you will forget a lot of things."

Gong Jingyun turned his head to look at Yue Rong, "How can I not forget the person I want to remember?"

"You changed the subject too suddenly."

"You tell me."

"how could I know?"

"..." Gong Jingyun suddenly became quiet and then looked at the old couple.

Feeling a bit awkward in the atmosphere, Yue Rong asked suddenly: "Why did you fall in love with me in the first place? I...I mean let me be your doctor."

Gong Jingyun looked away, "I fell in love with you at first sight, do you believe it?"

"Just because of my pretty face?" Yue Rong asked, pointing to his own face.

"Just because of your face."

Yue Rong sneered, "Hmph, it seems that I really can't expect you to give any special reasons, so you are also a member of the Appearance Association."

"Do you think I will tell you a clichéd plot like a TV series? I said that I met you when I was a child, and I made a private appointment with you for life. Do you insist on marrying me?"

"Hehe, this seems a bit unrealistic."

Gong Jingyun raised Yue Rong's chin and said: "So you should thank your face, take good care of it."

Yue Rong shook his head angrily, "Tch! How can I talk to you about such a meaningless topic."

"Yue Rong."

"what."

"I might be away for a while yet."

Yue Rong's heart skipped a beat suddenly, "You still want to leave? What are you doing? Going to risk your life with someone again? You don't want your life!"

"Are you nervous about me?"

"I...doctors should be nervous about patients."

"Then I should thank you for your nervousness."

"What are you doing?"

"can not say."

"..." Yue Rong lowered his head, his mood suddenly became bad again.

Gong Jingyun rubbed Yue Rong's hair, "What's wrong?"

Yue Rong pushed him away and said, "It's okay."

"Reluctant to let me go?"

"I can't wait for you not to show up again."

"Is that why you hate me so much?"

"I……"

Gong Jingyun sighed, he raised Yue Rong's head and found that Yue Rong's eyes were red.

"Are you a man, you cry at every turn."

"Who is crying?"

"Even your voice has changed, and you haven't cried yet?"

"You heard wrong."

"Oh~ my eyes and ears are suddenly not working?"

"You are not good at all!"

"Okay, okay, there is something wrong with me." Gong Jingyun suddenly held Yue Rong's head in his arms, "I promise you, I will come back alive."

"Just living is not enough."

"Then what do you want?"

"Don't get hurt."

"........."

"Why didn't you speak?"

Gong Jingyun just stared straight at Yue Rong, staring at Yue Rong thinking that something had grown on his face, "Hey, you have something to say, what's the point of staring at me like this? I'm um... "

As soon as Gong Jingyun lowered his head, he kissed Yue Rong's lips. He didn't give Yue Rong a chance to buffer, and directly used his tongue to pry open his teeth, enjoying his taste to the fullest.

Gong Jingyun left a month later, that day Yue Rong received a WeChat message from Gong Jingyun as usual, the content was still those four words.

Yue Rong held the phone in a daze for a long time, and finally he opened the emoticon menu and replied with a left hum.