It's not my fault to be ugly

Lu Mingran discovered that Feng Dingkun often suffered from insomnia these few nights.

He didn't know it at first, but Lu Mingran, who slept until midnight one night, feeling tight in his chest and out of breath, woke up and found that it was Feng Dingkun leaning on his chest.Although it is very happy to be snuggled up by a loved one like this, but if you die young when you are so suffocated, wouldn't it be joyful to be sad.Lu Mingran gently moved his body away to reveal Feng Dingkun's face, only then did he realize that Feng Dingkun's eyes were open.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Lu Mingran rubbed his eyes tiredly.

"I just had a nightmare and woke up with a fright. Did I wake you up?"

"The chest is a little stuffy." Lu Mingran reached out and rubbed Feng Dingkun's head, hugging him: "Go to sleep. If you don't sleep, you will have dark circles under your eyes. Dark circles are irreversible."

His hand touched Feng Dingkun's face, and the tentacles were all wet, only then did he realize that Feng Dingkun was crying just now.

"What's the matter?" Lu Mingran leaned close to Feng Dingkun, and pressed his forehead against his forehead: "Why are you crying?"

"I was a little scared after having a nightmare." Feng Dingkun reached out and hugged Lu Mingran tightly: "It's much better now, go to sleep."

Lu Mingran, who woke up the next day, remembered this incident and took a closer look at Feng Dingkun, only to find that there were faint dark circles under his eyes.

Lu Mingran, who guessed why he was insomnia, arranged a psychiatrist for Feng Dingkun on the day he was discharged from the hospital.

But Feng Dingkun was not active in seeing a psychiatrist, and even begged Lu Mingran to take him back to school.Lu Mingran had no choice but to cancel the appointment and take him back to school first.

After helping Feng Dingkun to deal with the sale of holidays, Lu Mingran took a look around. At this time, there was no one around, and everyone was in class. He took Feng Dingkun and sneaked back to his dormitory.

"You should stay with me first. So that you won't be able to sleep again at night."

Feng Dingkun nodded and nodded.Lu Mingran's dormitory all carried his style and aura, which made Feng Dingkun much more at ease, and he no longer stingy with his smile: "Then I'll bother you."

"Are you going to work tonight?" Lu Mingran had asked Feng Dingkun for a week's leave before, so it was time to go back to work tonight.

Feng Dingkun's originally relaxed expression immediately became heavy.

Lu Mingran looked at him and asked, "Don't you want to go? Then I'll ask the boss for another day off."

Feng Dingkun hesitated for a moment, and sighed: "I paid three months' salary in advance, and it's not good to ask for leave all the time. I'd better go to work tonight."

Lu Mingran showed a worried look, and went to the handicraft workshop with Feng Dingkun at night.

He ordered something casually, sat in the corner reading a book, and looked up at Feng Dingkun from time to time.Because Xiang Ying was imprisoned in the police station, there was one person missing in the store. Tonight, the two influential figures in the school came again. The students rushed into the store like butterflies fluttering flowers. For a while, Feng Dingkun He was overwhelmed, but Lu Mingran still noticed that Feng Dingkun was a little afraid of contacting strangers.His smile was just a deliberate effort to look relaxed.

It seems that Xiangying's matter left him a lot of hurt.It's PTSD.

Although I thought, "Akun doesn't get in touch with others, so it's good to be the only one", but human beings have to socialize, and they can't selfishly keep him by their side, and Lu Mingran also hopes that Feng Dingkun can still think about the past. He also smiled carefreely, so he decided to take Feng Dingkun to see a psychiatrist.

After work in the evening, Lu Mingran and Feng Dingkun walked back slowly holding hands.

"What do you think?" Lu Mingran asked.

"What do you think?"

"It's about Xiangying."

Feng Dingkun was silent for a moment with some resistance, and said in a low voice, "I don't understand why it's me? Why did this happen to me..."

Lu Mingran stretched out his hand to wrap Feng Dingkun's shoulder.At this time, the moon was hiding behind the clouds, and the warm spring breeze was blowing on the treetops. He was embraced by his lover's tender arms. Feng Dingkun let go of his defenses. Finally relaxed, he put his forehead on Lu Mingran's shoulder: "I'm really uncomfortable, it's all my fault for growing up like this... It's all my fault..."

"Don't think so..." Lu Mingran hugged him.

"It must be like this! It's because I grow up like this that I encounter perverts. Otherwise, why can't others encounter it, but I just..."

Not knowing how to comfort Feng Dingkun, Lu Mingran could only hug him tightly in this warm and somewhat sad spring night.

The author has something to say:

Ah, is this chapter a bit short?Wouldn't it be better to wait and add?