lonely city, lonely love

When they arrived at the corner coffee shop, Chi Yan's wife, Su Wanyu, was already squatting on the side of the road crying out of breath, the tears rolled down, staining the makeup on her face, the pear blossoms were raining, so pitiful.

"Where's Chi Yan's letter?" Gu Anfeng asked calmly. He didn't know why, but somehow felt a little irritated. This kind of thing was staged over and over again, and it really didn't bother the performers, but also the viewers.

The whole city was shrouded in a layer of dark clouds. It seemed that the mountains and rain were about to come, and the wind filled the building, and the silence was terrifying.

Su Wanyu stretched out her hand and handed over the letter tremblingly.

Chi Yan's handwriting was seen again after several years.Chi Yan has always said that her handwriting is ugly, so she doesn't want to write, and after graduating from university, she doesn't need to write anymore. Everyone is used to using the keyboard to communicate.Gu Anfeng couldn't remember the last time he saw Chi Yan's words.

"Wanyu, I'm sorry, I can't lie to myself. I know I can't go back, but I'm really afraid that one day, everyone around me will be there, and the only thing missing is the person I love. How hopeless it must be. I left him, I didn't want him anymore, but now I blame him for not wanting to go back to the past, I am the most selfish person in the world. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

The next page is full of I'm sorry, neatly arranged, I don't know if I'm apologizing to Su Wanyu or Gu Anfeng, but the handwriting has melted in the end, and everyone knows how it melted.

Such Chi Yan left with despair, sadness, and scars, and disappeared.

Holding this thin piece of paper tightly, using force with fingertips, it was pierced.The corners of the mouth are raised, the eyes are piercing, and the smile is cold in the night.

It's really ridiculous, Chi Yan, you've been thinking about yourself all your life, you left your lover when you needed to maintain your marriage, and you abandoned your wife when you needed love.Such a Chi Yan must not be the Chi Yan I liked at the beginning.

Everyone has changed, but I don't know what has changed so beyond recognition.

My heart is cold.

The night is like glue, and there seems to be something rolling and brewing in the sky. The black and low clouds, low and low, seem to be within reach.

When Gu Anfeng climbed to the top of the mountain, the thunder in the sky was approaching, and he skillfully found a small wooden house among a bunch of bushes. There was a faint light inside, and there seemed to be a shadowy figure.

This is an abandoned rest stop. It was accidentally discovered by Gu Anfeng when he was in college, so he dragged Chi Yan here. It became the secret base of the two of them. They often came back here to overlook the entire city.

Memories are always good, even when I think about it now, it is sweet, and the corners of my mouth will rise involuntarily, but I don't have the energy to smile anymore.

Pushing open the door, there was a rattling sound, and Chi Yan's curled up figure was displayed in front of Gu Anfeng's eyes. Under the light of the mobile phone, Chi Yan's face was very bad, his lips were purple, and his whole body was trembling.

"An." Chi Yan's eyes lit up, and his whole body brightened up like a flash of light. The light in his big eyes seemed to reach the bottom of a person's heart.

"Chi Yan, stop messing around." These were Gu Anfeng's first words, filled with deep fatigue.

The light went out like this, and Chi Yan got up slowly, smiling undiminished: "An, look here, do you remember? You brought me here, you said this is our secret base only."

"Chi Yan, Su Wanyu is waiting for you at home." This was Gu Anfeng's second sentence, and he had regained his composure.

"Ann, I'm getting a divorce." Chi Yan continued to speak with a smile, as if she didn't hear what she said just now, but the tears in her eyes began to flicker, sadness cannot deceive people.

"Yeah." Gu Anfeng didn't move, just stood at the door, his whole body was stiff, blocking the whistling wind.

Chi Yan couldn't stop it anymore, and started to cry, covering his face, trembling all over: "Why don't you care about me, Gu Anfeng, why are you so cold-blooded? Don't you fear that something will happen to me?"

Hysterical, heart-piercing, and finally roaring and crying, his face was extremely hideous under the looming light, the tears were shining brightly, revealing sadness, his trembling body seemed to be continuously exploding with strength, a kind of death struggle. strength.

In the end, Chi Yan rushed up and began to roughly tear Gu Anfeng's clothes, chattering endlessly: "An, An, I miss you so much! Give it to me. We can go back to the past."

With just a light force, he pushed Chi Yan aside. Gu Anfeng looked down at Chi Yan who was in a state of embarrassment, his eyes were piercing, his whole body was deserted, and his voice was piercingly cold in the night: "I'm not your massage stick. .”

Chi Yan sat on the ground, stunned, and then began to laugh, laughing, tears slipped down, covering her face and crying, with messy hair, dirty clothes, and wounds on her hands, obviously when she came up because of the road The branch is injured.

The originally gentle and jade-like young man seems to be no different from ordinary people at this moment.

"Su Wanyu is still waiting for you at home." Gu Anfeng squatted down, looked directly at Chi Yan, and said calmly, his eyes calm, "Chi Yan, whatever you want to do, no matter what it is, just face it yourself .I will never forget the past. But this is the past, even if it is rotten in the bottom of my heart, it is the past."

Chi Yan hugged Gu Anfeng's neck fiercely, and with a strong crying voice, began to shake her head violently, tears streaming down: "I don't want it, I don't want it, Ann, I'm back, we can continue! Ann, I will I'll never leave you again, really."

Sighing, he gently took his hand off his neck: "You know, I won't take it if someone else has used it."

These are probably the most vicious words Gu Anfeng has ever said in his life.The words were pearls, blood was seen on the knife, and the injured Chi Yan trembled all over, and even the tears stopped falling.It is probably that grief has used too much strength, so now I have no strength to resist the pain.

The pain pierced my bones, penetrated deep into the marrow, froze the blood in my body, and I didn't even have the strength to cry.

Chi Yan stared blankly at Gu Anfeng, finally twitched the corners of his mouth, and squeezed a stiff smile: "An, don't you want me?" His tone was confused, like a lost pet, begging to go home.

Gu Anfeng reached out and touched Chi Yan's head, and the other party let him caress meekly, as if enjoying it, he rubbed his slender fingers and narrowed his eyes.

For a moment, I thought of the little milk cat at home.

She withdrew her hand abruptly, pushed Chi Yan away fiercely, stood up, and stared at him: "Come down the mountain with me."