lonely city, lonely love

At the moment when the lock was locked, the sound of the lock was clearly heard in the ear.

"Crack clap."

The tears could not hold back anymore, trembling, took out the phone, dialed Sheng Xilan's number, over and over again, even if no one answered, still stubbornly continued, the phone started to heat up, but it was still on, unwilling to let go, like It was the last straw, in Gu Anfeng's hands, there was no other way but to hold it tightly.

"Sheng Xilan, Sheng Xilan!" Crying, reaching out to wipe away the tears, the helplessness in his heart gradually magnified, Gu Anfeng felt aggrieved like a child, until a magnetic voice came from the other end of the phone.

"An Feng."

The simple two words, with magical power, healed everything in an instant.

"Sheng Xilan?" He held the phone tightly in disbelief, as if it would disappear if he let go.

"An Feng." It was still a simple word, and there were already heavy gasps. There was no other words between the two of them, they just quietly listened to each other's breathing, even if it was just a gasp, it was very precious.

"Are you alright?" He opened his mouth softly, tears streaming down his face.

"I'm not good." The man smiled wryly, looking at the scene in front of him, if it wasn't for grandma's arrival, he didn't know when he would be released, saw the sun again, and conveyed his thoughts with his mobile phone, which was extremely thick, Like an abyss, with no end in sight, "I miss you so much, An Feng."

Inexplicably, the palm of his hand started to hurt violently, and Gu Anfeng cried loudly: "Sheng Xilan, Sheng Xilan... I won't let you go, don't leave me, you know?"

"I know." The man's answer was firm and forceful, easily touching the softness in Gu Anfeng's heart.

"Sheng Xilan, I miss you so much." The last words were like a sigh, like a kind of coquettishness from nowhere, Gu Anfeng stared blankly at the outside world with dull eyes.

"Wait for me." After two simple words, the phone was hung up.

What was in your mouth waited for you to cut off the audio before you had time to say it.Gu Anfeng sat on the sofa blankly, looking at the screen of the phone that kept going dark, without any time to react.

I'll wait for your return, Sheng Xilan.

Isolated and helpless, Gu Anfeng felt that he was like an isolated island, drifting uncertainly, not knowing where he was going or where he should go.No mercy, no direction.

The phone started to vibrate, and it was exceptionally clear in the extremely quiet living room.

The unfamiliar number kept ringing.

"Hi, hello, is this Mr. Gu Anfeng? I'm a reporter from the entertainment newspaper. I want to interview you about the intensifying incidents on the Internet. Do you have time? Just a few words. I want to hear your opinion." Opinion."

"My opinion?" The voice trembled unconsciously, as if laughing or crying.

"Yes, what do you think about this matter?" The reporter immediately laughed when he saw that the other party was willing to answer, with a very high tone. If this is dialed out, it must be an exclusive news.

"What do you think?" He asked suddenly, looking down at his hand, the wound seemed to be sprinkled with salt, densely packed with pain, even moving his fingers was a heart-rending pain.

"Me? I don't have an opinion. I'm free to fall in love now." I knew it was insincere when I heard it.

"I went to the coffee shop today, and accidentally hurt my hand there. Fortunately, I am not so popular, and no one recognizes me. Otherwise, your news will become that I committed suicide for love." Gu Anfeng didn't know what he was talking about. What, my heart is empty, it seems that only by talking constantly can I grasp the consciousness that is constantly being lost, no matter who the other party is, as long as I can speak.

"We reporters aren't that unscrupulous." He smiled awkwardly, and didn't know what to say, probably because his emotions were contagious, and the two of them became very quiet.

"I like someone, shouldn't I ask each of you for their opinions?" Gu Anfeng opened his mouth softly, feeling a little wronged, really, just a little bit, just like this inexplicably magnified, with tears washing down, his mouth full of bitterness.

"no."

"Then why are you all chasing after me?"

"..."

"Who do I like, what do you care? Is it unforgivable for me to like a man?"

"..."

"You said just now that love is free, why should my normal love be put on the table?"

"..."

"Who I like and who I don't like has a dime relationship with you? Who are you to me? You come to blame me? I love someone and hate someone. Does it have anything to do with your life?"

"..."

"I like a man, will your life be the end of the world?"

"..."

"I'm so tired, aren't you a reporter? Can you talk to them? Don't pay attention to me anymore. I'm not a star or a model. I'm just an ordinary person. burnt to death."

"..."

"I just want a quiet life. I don't care if you accept it or not. Please pretend you don't know my existence. Even if I live humblely, that's my business alone."

"……sorry."

For the first time in so many days, someone apologized because of this incident.Gu Anfeng couldn't stop crying.The inner emotions are like a flood, constantly attacking the heart, constantly impacting, until one day it collapses.But people still cared, asked if it hurt, and no one apologized for their relationship.

"It's okay, you're a reporter." Gu Anfeng wiped his face indiscriminately, got up, and went to the bathroom. There were mirrors all around, reflecting his pale face, like a ghost from hell.

Turned on the faucet, the water was rushing, I reached out to catch some, and washed my face.

The face was covered with water, so it should be hard to tell whether it was tears or something else.It seemed to be an excuse for his crying.So, Gu Anfeng began to cry, covering his face and weeping, the voice was intermittently transmitted to the other end of the phone, and the reporter's expression was also not good.

"Mr. Gu, I'm sorry." The reporter apologized, and he didn't know if the recording pen in his hand was turned off.

"It's okay." He replied hoarsely.

"It won't disturb your life in the future."

"Thank you."

The phone hung up just like that, Gu Anfeng looked at himself under the white light in the bathroom, lonely, lonely.It seemed that something was festering silently, not like the original Gu Anfeng.

It turned out that Gu Anfeng would become so haggard after leaving Sheng Xilan.