I Am Your Little Sunshine

It was more than a month after the relationship between Ma Yangyang and Xie Tian was exposed, the school has relaxed a lot about catching puppy love, basically only occasionally sending a security guard to make a symbolic inspection, and the topic of gossip in the school has also changed. After a while, Ma Yangyang and Xie Tian couldn't get out because they were thinking wildly.

During the mid-term exam, Ma Yangyang dropped a few places. The teachers and parents were not in a hurry, but he himself was in a hurry.Since the school began to strictly control puppy love, every time he thinks of the two classmates who broke up because of the gap in grades, he feels chills in his heart, and the result is that the more nervous he is, the more mistakes he makes.

The questions in the midterm exam this time were not difficult, so most of the people did well in the exam. Only Ma Yangyang was always in a daze, and cried immediately after the results came out.

Xie Tian felt bad for him like this, he kept reminding Ma Yangyang that he had promised him to go to college together, but he didn't expect to push him to this extent.Ma Yangyang has always remembered the matter of "going to college together". There may not be that big gap between his and Xie Tian's grades in school, but they are not at the same level when viewed nationwide.

Xie Tian wants to be admitted to the best school with his own ability, and even has the idea of ​​winning the prize, so he has been pulling Ma Yangyang on the run. Others are in love and dating are watching movies and shopping, and their dating is non-stop Do the questions, but if Ma Yangyang's grades are really far behind in the end, he will not hesitate to choose the same school as Ma Yangyang.

Xie Tian's thoughts and Ma Yangyang can also guess a little bit, but because of this, he can't accept that he is holding him back. His character has always been exposed, although he tried his best to restrain himself, but he hasn't learned to completely hide his growing emotional breakdown.

I have always heard that many people will be depressed in the third year of high school, and the school regularly arranges psychological counseling for the third year students. However, Ma Yangyang is cheerful and optimistic by nature, and no one would think that he will be troubled by emotions.

These are all my faults, Xie Tian thought, if he didn't like me, he wouldn't need to bear these pressures; if I didn't press him hard, he wouldn't be so depressed.

That was his little sun, the sky light that took him out of the cold world. He only thought that he could not lose him, and he only wanted to tie him by his side, but he forgot that liking someone is not just possession.

At the beginning, Ma Yangyang just shed tears uncontrollably, Xie Tian felt uncomfortable and didn't care what others thought, so he stretched out his hand and patted his back carefully. Started to sob.

Although he was sobbing softly, it still attracted the attention of the surrounding students. Ma Yangyang has a good personality and gets along well with his classmates. He is always smiling all day long. His cry scared many people. Several rows of people ran over to comfort him.

He didn't expect that he would completely lose control of his emotions, and he was frightened when there were too many people, so he hurriedly explained: "It's okay, it's just a little sad that I didn't pass the exam."

Losing several names in a row is not a disaster, but for those who are good at learning, the pain is quite understandable, and they all comforted him.

In the end, someone said: "Don't worry, isn't there Xie Tian!" Everyone nodded repeatedly, and they all looked at Xie Tian who was sitting on the side without saying a word.

It is almost said that everyone knows that Xie Tian and Ma Yangyang have a good relationship. Xie Tian may not teach others, but if that person is Ma Yangyang, there will be no problem. This is the consensus of everyone.

Xie Tian kept looking at Ma Yangyang, Ma Yangyang followed everyone's gaze, Xie Tian nodded and said, "Well, there is me, don't worry."

Ma Yangyang felt inexplicably sad when he heard his words. If there were not so many people around, he really wanted to rush into Xie Tian's arms and cry. Seeing his tears filled his eyes again, Xie Tian raised his head and said to the students who came to care : "It's okay, I'll teach him how to solve the problem."

Everyone could hear the meaning in his words, so they comforted Ma Yangyang a few more words and then dispersed.

Xie Tian opened the test paper and took the draft paper, wrote a few words on it and pushed it over. Ma Yangyang took a closer look and saw "I love you" written on it.

Ma Yangyang picked up the pen, carefully traced it according to his handwriting, and then whispered: "Xie Tian, ​​I will definitely not be separated from you."

Xie Tian stared at the words written by the two people, then turned his head to look at the mist in the eyes of Ma Yangyang and said seriously: "Shall we talk?"

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Xie Tian was originally unwilling to talk openly and honestly, even if there was only one ten-thousandth chance of losing him, he was unwilling to gamble, let alone see him in trouble, but now he would rather put all these aside, just want to let Ma Yangyang regained his previous look.

Xie Tian seriously said that he wanted to talk, but Ma Yangyang was timid. It was already very cold in the early winter evening, so he put on a scarf early, buried his face in the scarf and walked with Xie Tian on the playground for a while. Circle and circle, "What do you want to talk about?" I still can't ask.

The sky was getting dark, the lights in the distance were gradually turning on, a gust of wind was blowing, and the dead leaves were falling. Ma Yangyang shivered from the cold, Xie Tian stopped, held his hands together and rubbed them for him. He put it on his lips and breathed, the two of them hadn't been this close for a long time, Ma Yangyang really wanted to throw himself into his arms regardless of everything, but he couldn't do that, he just let Xie Tian warm him carefully his hand.

Xie Tian was nearly ten centimeters taller than him, and usually he had to raise his head slightly to see his face clearly, but now that he lowered his head, he only needed to be able to see him clearly at ordinary times.

"I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. At that time, I always thought that if I could accompany you through high school as a friend, it would be enough. Later, I became friends with you, and I thought that if I could always accompany you as a brother. It would be nice if my identity was by your side. Later, you treated me better and better. I thought it would be great if you could like me too. I never thought that I would be so lucky. Luck can make people greedy and make people Worrying about gains and losses, as long as I think of the possibility of being separated from you, I can't bear it, even if it's just for a day." Ma Yangyang clenched Xie Tian's hand with his backhand, and cried softly: "Xie Tian, ​​no matter what we don't want Let’s separate, okay? Even if we are found out, even if our family doesn’t agree, even if the whole world disagrees, let’s not give up, okay?”

Xie Tian was surprised. He always thought that Ma Yangyang was worried about not being able to go to the same school with him because of his poor grades, and also worried that he would have to face his family and his choice after being found out, but he didn't expect that what he was most worried about was actually being separated from himself .

Xie Tian's heart throbbed in pain, how lucky he was to be liked by such a good boy.The boy's bright eyes were full of tears, Xie Tian's heart ached and he also shed tears, Ma Yangyang couldn't hold back his cry anymore.

Xie Tian couldn't take it anymore, he pulled him into his arms, patted his back with one hand, and stroked his hair with the other, Ma Yangyang cried louder and louder, Xie Tian also choked up in his ear Get up: "Cry, cry, just cry."

"At that time, I really hated this world. I didn't know what it meant to be alive, but there was a boy who was as warm and bright as the sun. He always thought of me unconditionally, and he stood firmly by my side no matter what happened. On the other hand, he is so good, kind and enthusiastic, full of kindness to everyone, even if he has suffered a loss, he will never resent the injustice of God, men, women and children like him, he is so good, he would like someone like me, I think he is my salvation, I can't lose him, I want to lock him tightly by my side, but I find that I put too much pressure on him, I am very afraid, afraid that he will leave me, and even more afraid of him because of me Become an unhappy person. I don't know what to do, I don't want to lose him, and I don't want to lose his smile."

"Xie Tian, ​​don't be afraid, I understand, and I'm not afraid anymore." Ma Yangyang stood up on tiptoe and put his arms around Xie Tian's neck in distress, and stretched out his hand to stroke his back comfortingly, "You won't lose me , I will try my best to keep up with you."

Xie Tian hugged him tightly in his arms, rubbing his warm lips on his forehead, and the two hugged each other tightly in the bleak and deserted playground in the cold wind of early winter. They only had each other in their eyes, and their ears I can only hear each other's heartbeat and breathing, and I just want to hold each other until the end of time.