I Am Your Little Sunshine

After a while, the two bought the required materials and books, and went separately to browse other reading materials that they were interested in.

In fact, Xie Tian didn't have any books that he particularly wanted to buy, so he wandered aimlessly in front of the bookshelves.

There are always a lot of people in front of the bookshelves of youth books, most of them are students from junior high school and high school, and most of them are girls. Just as Xie Tian wanted to go around, he heard two girls whispering about the illustrators in a petty bourgeoisie literature magazine. Coincidentally, it was Xie Tian who was talking about.

The two little girls were saying that he must be a tall and thin goddess with long hair who likes to wear white gauze skirts and an indifferent expression. The pictures he drew always made them feel hopeless and imprisoned. Then they talked about his new picture in the last issue , Said that the intertwining of despair and hope in the new picture is like reaching out to grab a thin ray of morning light when you are in minus ten degrees, the bone-piercing cold but the warmth that makes you want to cry.

Xie Tian was the first to hear someone comment on his paintings, and he had already stood at the corner listening for a while before he realized it.

The two girls didn't see Xie Tian who was covered by the bookshelf, and happily took the magazine and left. Xie Tian then came out and picked up the magazine.

The magazine that Xie Tian contributed to will be revised in the new year, and now it is also published in December. It is a special issue with the theme of nostalgia. There is a topic plan in it, which is an inventory of the magazine’s illustrations in recent years. Xie Tian has three works selected, among which One is the painting that the two girls were discussing, and it was the draft he handed in during his eleventh year.

The painting was drawn after he returned to City D during the [-]th holiday. He drew it very smoothly, and handed it in directly after finishing the painting.This is the first time that the editor-in-charge did not provide a theme for his own draft. He had no hope of publishing it, but he did not expect the editor-in-charge to react so strongly. He even praised him for a long time, and the magazine was about to be printed. One painting topped the others.

After returning from City A, the editor-in-chief called Xie Tian and told Xie Tian that the company wanted to package him. Xie Tian refused without thinking. Don't pass up the opportunity.

Xie Tian just didn't like oil and salt, and the editor in charge was a little angry in the end.It is true that Xie Tian's paintings are not bad, but there are many people who are good at painting. It is not difficult to find someone who can paint better than Xie Tian and is more obedient. Although the company is interested in Xie Tian's appearance, he wants to It's a marketing gimmick, but in the end it's still pulling him. If he agrees, it's a win-win situation.However, Xie Tian just didn't want to. He has always talked less, and basically only talked about business when communicating with the editor in charge, and he didn't have a word of extraneous words.

The call from the editor in charge to persuade him to sign a contract was not categorized by him as business affairs. Usually, before the editor in charge said a few words, Xie Tian would say that he was very busy studying and had to hang up.

The editor-in-charge mentioned this plan to him, because Xie Tian's drawings were all bought out, so he didn't pay extra for this use, so Xie Tian didn't take this matter too seriously.

After a few times, the editor in charge basically gave up on persuasion. Although the usual manuscript invitations were still going on, Xie Tian obviously felt the difficulty of submitting manuscripts. After the manuscripts of the previous issue were reviewed, he had already been returned three or four drawings in a row.He also knows that his current personality is not suitable for living in society, and he also knows that he has offended many people intentionally or unintentionally, but he can't get out of the prison in his heart and show himself under the eyes of everyone. I can't suppress the most fear and disgust in my heart.

Xie Tian felt that his understanding of this painting was not as deep as that of the two girls just now. He only remembered that his heart was very peaceful when he was painting, and now he looks at that painting and still does not feel any other emotions.

Putting the magazine back on the bookshelf, Xie Tian shook his head and couldn't help sighing. I'm afraid he has to contribute to a few more magazines.

The compensation from the previous fight had almost used up his savings. Although his uncle had regularly deposited money into his card, he didn't want to take that money, let alone spend it.

There is no rush to submit a manuscript, so Xie Tian can only comfort himself that he has no special need for money in the near future, and the little savings left can last for a while. If it is not possible, he may consider going out to work during the winter vacation.

In the past, I would never want to work part-time. At first I didn’t need it, but later I didn’t want to. During this time, I was always pulled out by Ma Yangyang. When I think about part-time work again, I don’t seem to be so resistant anymore .

Thinking of Ma Yangyang, Xie Tian couldn't help but start searching for that boy with bright eyes. If it wasn't for this boy who always surrounds him enthusiastically, his life would be much worse now than it is now, whether it is from the spiritual level or other aspects. aspect.

Thinking of this, Xie Tian suddenly couldn't wait to see him, and saw him standing in front of him, with starry eyes shining, slightly raised his head and smiled at himself.

Ma Yangyang didn't go too far, he was basically in the same area as Xie Tian, ​​and Xie Tian found him after a while.

He was really half-squatting next to the bookshelf holding a photo album and was fascinated by it. Xie Tian was watching him a few steps behind him, and he didn't respond after watching it for a long time.Xie Tian took a few steps forward and knelt down beside him.

Ma Yangyang sensed that there was someone beside him, so he hurriedly moved a step before looking at the person. Seeing that it was Xie Tian, ​​he really showed Xie Tian's meeting smile, "Have you seen it?"

Xie Tian nodded, "Well, there's nothing I particularly want to read."

Ma Yangyang collected the photos and stood up to put them back.He squatted here for a long time, and when he stood up, he realized that his legs were so numb that it wasn't his own. He stood up in a hurry and almost didn't fall. But he also knew that the grin he had just now must have been a bit stupid.

Ma Yangyang's mind was full of imagination, Xie Tian guessed what was going on by looking at his expression, and quickly stretched out his hand to help him.

Ma Yangyang was supported by him like an old man, embarrassing and shy, his heart was overwhelmed, and he evaded: "I'm fine, just a little numb after squatting for a long time, and I'll be fine soon."

Xie Tian still didn't let go, and said wrinkledly, "Try standing on your toes."

Ma Yangyang obeyed obediently, but his feet were numb, and it took him a long time to stand on tiptoe until the numbness gradually disappeared. Anyway, he still gave Xie Tian a credit, "Wow, Xie Tian, ​​you The method is so effective that it is really not numb.”

Xie Tian didn't reply, his eyes scanned the bookshelves, and asked, "Do you like photography very much?"

Ma Yangyang nodded, "Yes, I really like portraits."

Xie Tian thought of Ma Yangyang, who was incarnate on the mountain that day, shooting crazy demons, raised the corners of his mouth, and said, "It's pretty good." He took out the photo album that Ma Yangyang had just put back and flipped through it, and suddenly thought that he still I have never drawn portraits before, so I asked again: "Would you like to buy it?"

Ma Yangyang shook his head, his tone suddenly a little disappointed: "I won't buy it, we are both sophomores in high school, I can't get distracted because of my poor grades."

Xie Tian looked at him sideways, and saw that his eyes were still staring at the album in his hand, with a look of entanglement and reluctance, so he said, "It's good to have some hobbies and adjust the pace of learning."

Ma Yangyang sighed greatly when he heard that, "You are a top student and you don't understand." He said and looked at Xie Tian, ​​"You study for an hour and I have to study for almost three hours. It’s not certain when they will be separated.”

If you don't work hard, even if you don't get assigned, I'm afraid I won't be in the same class as you by this time next year.Ma Yangyang didn't dare to say these words, and he couldn't help but feel a little depressed when he looked at Xie Tian.

Xie Tian never knew how to comfort others. He kept talking a few times, but he didn’t know what to say. Seeing him like this, Ma Yangyang comforted him in turn, “It’s okay, I won’t be discouraged. was separated."

Xie Tim tightened his hand holding the album, stared at him and said, "You won't be separated."

Ma Yangyang was warmed by his earnestness, feeling like he was being filled with blood, and said with a smile: "Well, I will definitely not be separated." In order to be in the same class with you, I will definitely not be separated, not only that, I will try my best to go to the same school as you, and I will try my best to always be by your side.

You can't slow down, and I don't want you to slow down, so I can only try to catch up.

Ma Yangyang leaned his back against the bookshelf and looked forward, pretending not to care and asked, "Which university do you want to go to in the future?"

Xie Tian also looked down at the album and replied, "I haven't thought about it yet."

Ma Yangyang glanced at him sideways, sighed a little, and said in a brisk tone: "Anyway, your grades are so good, and you will definitely go to the best university in the future."

Xie Tian also turned around and leaned side by side with him, was silent for a while, and said, "Maybe."

Ma Yangyang asked again: "Will you take science classes next semester?"

Xie Tian shook his head and asked, "What about you?"

He used to think about going to the best university. At that time, he was full of vigor, and he always thought that he would go to the best university, the best major, and even become the number one there, but today he feels that even those goals So what if it's all achieved?There is nothing in the world that will not collapse, so what is the point of fighting for it?

Xie Tian didn't know how afraid Ma Yangyang was of the possibility of parting, and Ma Yangyang didn't understand that Xie Tian was a duckweed without roots, and didn't understand the horror of drifting with the tide and nowhere to stop, so he replied quite confidently, "Science? .”

Xie Tian nodded and said, "Me too."