Lost the most important place in your heart

On the way back to the hospital, the three of them were all in a daze, and only managed to return to the place with the memory of their bodies.

Along the way, it was Chris who pushed Heizi, and Kise could only watch from a distance, not taking a step closer.

Huang Lai suddenly understood that the beautiful little things he had with Hei Zi in the past month were just his gentle gifts, but they had become the most precious memory in his life.

Now he also understands that he can no longer be close to that person, and he has no way to pray for his forgiveness after he has done such a thing.

When going upstairs, Kise stopped in his tracks. No one would notice. He stood there blankly, raised his head, and watched the familiar ward lights turn on from darkness to light.

"Is it true that we will never see each other again?"

No, I don't want this!

Almost exhausted his courage, Huang Lai rushed into the corridor, pressed the elevator a few times and found it too slow, turned around and climbed the stairs next to him, and went up to the seventh floor at the fastest speed in his life, ignoring the throbbing left Feet and almost stagnant breathing, he pushed open the door of Heizi's ward.

Putting his hands on the door frame, panting heavily, he walked towards Heizi: "Little Heizi, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, forgive me, please forgive me?"

Huang Lai cried, wishing he could show his heart to Hei Zi to prove his feelings, as long as he could stay by Hei Zi's side, even if it was small enough for him to stand on a palm, he would pay any price for it. Just don't chase him away.

Heizi turned his back to Kise and didn't turn around. Chris looked at his downcast eyes and knew that he was restraining his emotions and trying to maintain a superficial calm.

Looking at Kise Ryota again, Chris could only choose to compromise: "Kise Ryota, you go back today first, and remember to bring your two packs of instant noodles tomorrow. Let me tell you, tomorrow will be more than 5 minutes. Easy."

Heizi raised his eyebrows slightly, the scene of Huang Lai obediently kneeling on instant noodles every day appeared in front of him, it was impossible not to be moved.

Kise looked at Chris in surprise. He knew that she hated him much more than Heizi, but she would help him. Kise didn't expect that, seeing her Hinting, as if he had received the greatest favor, he trembled and asked tentatively: "Xiao Heizi, see you tomorrow."

"Yeah." Heizi nodded slightly.

Huang Lai covered her mouth with her hands excitedly, forced back the tears, turned around and walked back wisely, no matter how much she wanted to be around him, this was not the right time.

When passing by Chris, Kise whispered, "Thank you."

Chris sighed, if possible, why would I just give you a chance like this?It's just that she has no choice at this time.

After Huang Lai left, the room returned to its previous quietness. Heizi sat quietly on the wheelchair in front of the bed, with his head bowed.

Chris walked over slowly, and called him distressedly: "Tetsuya."

Without warning, Heizi hugged her waist behind his back, plunged into her arms, and began to cry wantonly.

The expression on Chrissy's face was so gentle that water dripped out. She gently stroked his head and comforted him: "It's okay, it's okay, I'm by your side."

Heizi cried even harder: "I hate it so much! I really hate it so much!"

"But you don't want to hate them, do you?"

"Yes, but I can't help it, I really can't help it! It's so painful."

"It's okay, it doesn't matter whether you want to hate or don't want to hate, Tetsuya, you just have to do what you want, because you are still a child, you don't have to feel guilty or wrong about hating them, because This is the most normal feeling for a human being.”

"Zhi Yu!" Heizi cried even harder, he had already found his own support, and now it seemed too silly to hide his true emotions, and now he wanted to vent it all at once, "Why? Why?! Why? Is it me?! Why do I have to suffer like this?! I want to go back to school, to Seirin, to play ball! Era!"

"I know, I know, when you are in pain, my shoulder is your support, you cry, I cry with you, whoever you hate, I hate with you, whether you are afraid or angry, I'm with you all the way."

Heizi didn't answer, but he held Chris tighter and cried harder.

The two cried all night, and the next morning their eyes were much more swollen than that of pandas, which shocked the Heizi couple and Xingmotoya, but the Heizi couple reached a tacit agreement without saying too much, Xingmotoya I was so anxious to talk, but Chris dismissed me by saying I'm going to roll up your trouser legs.

Xingmotoya has to roll up the trouser legs every time, but Chris is not used to it, so every time he sees it, he has to ask him to roll up the trouser legs, and of course he has helped her solve many dilemmas.

This time things seem to have been fooled just like that, but the uneasiness in Heizi's heart has expanded again. The secret that Chris hid from herself seems to have become a bomb, and she always feels that it is about to explode.

When the other four left from there, and who left first, they couldn't remember clearly, and they just followed the crowd when they returned home.

When Atsushi Ziyuan returned home, it was nearly 10 o'clock, because it was a bit far away. When he opened the door and turned on the lights, what greeted his eyes was the delicious sticks he piled neatly on the table.

Originally, this was his favorite food, and he would eagerly grab a pack and stuff it into his mouth all the time, but now he has no desire to eat it at all, almost without thinking about it, he waved all the delicious food The stick fell to the ground without any distress, and then such a big man actually bent down, lay half of his body on the coffee table and cried loudly, completely lacking the strength that his height should have.

"Why? Why? As Xiao Chizai said, delicious sticks and basketball are the most important things in this world to me. That’s why I asked that question, but why does it hurt so much now?”

It's like a big piece of my heart has been taken away, and I can't make it up with delicious sticks and basketballs.After hearing that Little Heizai was almost gone, the blood in his whole body seemed to stop flowing, as if he was about to die.

Maybe I haven't come back alive now, because I am deeply hated by such a little black boy, and it is myself who is helpless for him who is struggling hard on the verge of death, and the murderer who drove him into such an abyss One is himself, so it is better to be dead.

My future, what I like, what I want, used to seem to be very certain, but now they all seem to be unreal things. The sense of emptiness finally came back, it was bone-piercingly cold, icy and snowy, and no one could save him.

When the Ziyuan couple heard such a big commotion and drove out of the room, they were stunned by the sight in front of them. They didn't know why their proud son became what he is now. Heartbroken, they kept asking why But Atsushi Murasakihara couldn't answer a word, because he had lost the whole world.

Midorima Shintaro also looked devastated when he returned home, but because he had seen him go crazy before, the Midorima couple seemed much calmer this time.

Both of them just shook their heads slightly, and Midorima's mother asked tentatively, "What's wrong with you, Shintaro?"

Midorima looked at his mother blankly, without answering.

Midorima's mother was terrified by this look, and took two steps back in fright.

"I'm going back to my room first."

After Luma said this, he left. Luma's mother and father didn't dare to say anything. Seeing him leave, both of them heaved a long sigh.

When Midorima returned to the room, he suddenly felt extremely thirsty, and there was no water in the room. When he opened the door and went out, he heard his parents talking below.

Midorima's mother cried and said to his father: "It's the first time I've seen that child's eyes like that, me, what should we do?"

Lvjian's father hugged his mother in his arms and comforted him: "This child has always been reassuring, why is he so abnormal recently, I think I have to take some time to visit his school."

"That's right, there is also Teacher Shangshan. Although I am embarrassed to trouble her all the time, after she talked with Shintaro last time, the effect is still obvious. So I will ask her for help this time."

"Oh, I can only try this."

Faced with the disappointment of his parents, Midorima originally thought he would feel guilty, but the strange thing is that he didn't feel anything. He touched his left chest with his hand, and his heart was still beating. Then why, why is it so hard, so cold?As if those two people had nothing to do with him?

Are your feelings gone?When did it start to become like this, ah, I remembered.

I asked myself just now, why didn't Heizi tell me that he became like this, I didn't expect Chris's answer to be like that, no, I should have thought of it earlier, right?

He remembered that Takao told him that day that Seirin's manager had come to him, and that Takao wanted to tell him Chris's phone number, and he had a chance to ask, but he refused all of them.

In order to live up to everyone's expectations, he abandoned Heizi, but maybe he never regarded this as a real abandonment in his heart, so he could hurt and hurt that person unscrupulously.

The car accident, the wheelchair, and the hatred in that person's eyes were recurring in my mind, and I was exhausted from the torture along the way, and my head was about to explode, but I still refused to let myself go.

"Then what is really important to me?" Midorima couldn't help asking herself.

Is it an honor?Parents' approval or teacher's reward?

These things that I regarded as my standard in the past seem not to be so important now.

So what is it that I am pursuing now?Can this cold heart recover its original temperature?

Maybe not?Because the most important things were destroyed by myself.