love entanglement

"Chu'er, as a teacher, I have always regarded you as the most beloved disciple. I never thought that one day you would do such a rebellious thing. Your heart for Buddha has been broken. This Chenyuan Temple will not tolerate you anymore." It's gone." The cold ancestral hall echoed the voice of Mrs. Jinghui, as well as the voices of some young disciples discussing.

Yi Chu raised his head, looked at the disappointed Jinghui in front of him, and staggered back a few steps.Since she was a child, she knew that she was an abandoned person. It was the master who picked her up, took care of her and taught her Buddhism.At first she didn't like this boring thing, but Yi Chu could always see the concern and expectation for herself in Jinghui's eyes, and she couldn't bear to embarrass her master and be disappointed in herself.As time goes by, Yi Chu hides all her emotions, she no longer seeks anything, she only focuses on Buddhism, and has no desires or desires.

"Master, I know I was wrong. All of this is due to my lack of concentration. But Yan'er has nothing to do with her, please let her go." Yi Chu said in a low voice, with a pleading gesture behind him, listening A trace of disappointment flashed in Master Jinghui's eyes at her words.She flicked her sleeves, and a snake covered in blood fell to the ground. It had black scales and a white head. It was Ruan Qingyan.Yi Chu saw Ruan Qingyan's bruised appearance, and hurriedly hugged her in his arms. She still had a little breath, but she was dying, and even talking to herself seemed so difficult.

"Master, please let her go. I am willing to bear all the responsibilities. Please let her go."

"Evil disciple, you still haven't repented at this time, this snake monster is bewitching your mind, you must not stay!" What Master Jinghui said, Yi Chu could no longer hear, she just saw Ruan Qingyan being crushed by the ice layer. Freeze, slowly turning into broken ice cubes in front of yourself.At that moment, my heart seemed to be broken into slag.

"Master...don't! Yan'er! Yan'er!" Sitting up suddenly from the bed, Yi Chu shouted loudly, but found that this was not the ancestral hall, but his own room.She hurriedly looked at Ruan Qingyan, who was looking at her worriedly.

"Yuyou, what's wrong with you? Did you have a nightmare?"

Ruan Qingyan was soundly asleep at first, but Yi Chu's sudden cry made her think something happened, and the vigilance of the snake woke her up.She stretched out her hand to touch Yi Chu's smooth back. There were marks left by her last night and a layer of cold sweat on it.Ruan Qingyan hurriedly took the handkerchief on the side to help Yi Chu wipe it clean, and put her arms around her and lay back on the bed again.

"Yan'er, I'm sorry, I woke you up." Yi Chu leaned his head on Ruan Qingyan's shoulder and said softly, only to realize that they were still hugging each other intimately, he was inevitably a little shy.Last night, they tossed and tossed until midnight before resting. Ruan Qingyan kept demanding, and she seemed to be going all out, satisfying her with everything.

Feeling the soreness in the arms and waist, as well as the stabbing pain in the center of the legs from time to time, Yi Chu is not very sensitive to pain, but this pain is not like the pain of a wound, but rather tingling pain, It's really hard to bear.She didn't sleep well last night, she kept dreaming, and the content of the dream was somewhat similar to the dream just now.She dreamed that the master found out about her relationship with Ruan Qingyan, so he told Ruan Qingyan...

Thinking of those terrible scenes, Yi Chu felt even more uneasy. She shivered and nestled in Ruan Qingyan's arms, showing a rare fragility.She blamed herself, felt guilty, and at the same time was afraid.He blamed himself for violating the family rules and the teachings of his master, and felt unspeakable guilt towards Ruan Qingyan.I am a monk and an ordinary person, and I can't stay with her forever, but make her like me.And the last fear is the fear of their future.

There are so many emotions in Yi Chu's heart that she can hardly breathe. She really doesn't know what to do now.If she wants to leave Chenyuan Temple like Yi Xin, she absolutely can't do it, after all, the master only has her own disciple left, if she leaves, the master will lose the last disciple.

But she can't just let Ruan Qingyan stay with her for the rest of her life, and accompany her from youth to old age, from birth to death in this boring Chenyuan Temple. How cruel it is.How can I trap her selfishly and make her lose her freedom.

"Yuyou, are you sad? Is it because of the dream just now?" Even if Ruan Qingyan is stupid, she can feel that Yi Chu is very sad at this moment.She hugged her tightly, trying to make Yi Chu warmer. This action moved Yi Chu a little, but her mood was more complicated.

"Yan'er, have you thought about your future plans?"

"Plan? What plan?" Hearing Yi Chu's question, Ruan Qingyan didn't understand. Her current plan is to get tired of being together with Yi Chu every day, and not to be separated all the time.

"I mean, have you thought about what we're going to do in the future?"

"Yuyou must think that I have never thought about it. In fact, I have been thinking about it all the time. I want to be with you, find a chance to get my things back from the old bald donkey, and then bring you back to fun Demon Valley. There are many powerful demons there, but they are all very good. I can take you back and ask them how to let you practice longevity, so that we can be together forever."

Ruan Qingyan talked about her idea, but Yi Chu was stunned. She didn't expect Ruan Qingyan to think so much, even thinking about such a distant future, and these things were all related to herself.Thinking that he was determined in his heart that he would not leave Chenyuan Temple, and hearing Ruan Qingyan's arrangement, Yi Chu felt even more guilty.She didn't answer any more, but got up and put on her Taoist robe, ready to go out for a breath of air.She didn't dare to stay with Ruan Qingyan anymore, otherwise she would become more and more confused.

"Yuyou why are you up?"

"I'm going to the ancestral hall to prepare for the morning class. You can take a rest." Yi Chu didn't say much, and had already left the room quickly. Seeing her just leave, the smile on Ruan Qingyan's face gradually faded away. The laughter disappeared, and the color of the eyes became darker.

She could see that Yi Chu was afraid, but she didn't know what she was afraid of. She tried her best to eliminate Yi Chu's panic, but obviously, she didn't do well enough.It was clear that they had only been intimate last night, but Ruan Qingyan felt that the relationship between her and Yi Chu was not only not getting closer, but even a little bit further away.Thinking of Yi Chufang's eagerness to leave her, Ruan Qingyan covered her eyes with her hands, the snake eyes flickering on and off.

It seems that cultivation really cannot be delayed, and things must be obtained quickly.Yi Chu is not happy here at all.She has to become stronger in order to take good care of Yi Chu.

From the room to the ancestral hall, Yi Chu knelt on the futon, chanting scriptures with frown, but no matter how hard she tried to chant scriptures, her mood never calmed down, and the more she read, the more chaotic she became.Looking at the arm in the sleeve, the fair skin is covered with red marks, which are the hickey marks left by Ruan Qingyan last night, and there are also scratch marks.Yi Chu stared blankly, then actually laughed.

"Buddha, the disciple made mistakes. The disciple made mistakes again and again. These are all the faults of the disciple. Please, please don't punish Ruan Qingyan. She is innocent, and it is the fault of the disciple." Yi Chu said He kowtowed silently in his heart, begging for forgiveness.She rubbed the marks on her arms and the remaining hickey marks on her neck vigorously, trying to remove those marks that shouldn't be there. The delicate flesh was scratched by Yi Chu's nails and blood stains appeared, but even so , she did not stop.

Yi Chu has never been so flustered, never been so rude in front of others.But she was afraid, she was really afraid that everything in the dream would become reality.She was afraid that the master would find out about her and Ruan Qingyan, and that the master would show the disappointed expression in his dream.Yi Chu was completely immersed in guilt and self-blame, she didn't notice the footsteps behind her, until someone patted her on the shoulder, she turned her head suddenly.

"Master...Master, why are you back?" Yi Chu didn't expect that Mrs. Jinghui would come back early, thinking that her embarrassing appearance might be seen at the moment, she hurriedly got up and tidied her clothes, but lowered her head a little guilty , not daring to look up at Jinghui.Seeing her reaction, Jinghui nodded, didn't say anything, just walked aside, and pulled her to sit on the futon.

"I was going to deal with some trivial matters, and I came back early after I finished. But you, Chu'er, have extremely irregular breathing and erratic eyes. This is not an act of a monk."

"I know I was wrong." Listening to what Jinghui said, Yi Chu frowned and knelt aside. She also knew how ridiculous she looked just now. She didn't want to be seen by Jinghui the last time, but she was caught by Jinghui. looked over.

"It's okay, you don't need to blame yourself, after all, the years you have passed are still young. You will encounter more temptations in the future, if you can overcome them, you will be able to succeed." Jinghui glanced at Yi Chu's neck, said softly. "Master, if you can't resist the temptation, is it a violation of Buddhism? If you do something wrong, there is no way back." Yi Chu didn't notice Jinghui's gaze just now, and kept his head down.She muttered softly, as if she was asking Jinghui, more like talking to herself.

"No, the road to the Buddha is never what you think. It is because of the guilt of the body that you need to atone for your sins. It is because the world of mortals is gone that you escape into Buddhism. If you are greedy for things in the world of mortals, you are not a real monk. "

"Master, I understand." Hearing Jinghui's guidance, Yi Chu's restless mood finally calmed down.She knew that she could not be regarded as a real monk now, because her heart towards the Buddha had long been messed up.

"It's best if you understand."

"Well, that disciple will retire now."

"Wait a minute."

Seeing that Yi Chu was about to leave, Jinghui got up slowly and walked in front of her, reaching out to touch her neck.Seeing Jinghui's actions, Yi Chu was startled, and then she realized that she was only focusing on arranging her clothes, but forgot to cover the marks on her neck. If the master saw it, she would be suspicious.But... the master probably doesn't know about love, maybe he doesn't know what it is.Yi Chu thought with a fluke heart, his eyes dodged, and he didn't dare to look into Jinghui's eyes.

"Chu'er, although it's autumn, there are still mosquitoes. Go get some medicine from me later, so you don't hurt yourself again." Hearing Jinghui's words, Yi Chu breathed a sigh of relief, she nodded, Only then did she turn around and leave, watching her back disappear at the door, Jinghui sighed softly, and looked at her hand.

"The evil fate needs to be broken."