love entanglement

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When Hua Yeyu woke up again, she had an unreal feeling, she felt like she was dead, and everything that appeared now was what she saw after she died.After all, the feeling before the coma was too painful, the pain that felt like her whole body was being torn apart, like a walk in hell, so she couldn't even raise her strength now.Hearing the footsteps coming from the door and seeing that angry face, Hua Yeyu knew that she was still alive.

Fu Baizhi sat down by the bed, looked at Hua Yeyu's pale face, gently covered her with the quilt, then turned around silently without saying a word.The silent atmosphere made the two of them even more speechless, Hua Yeyu didn't even dare to move his body, for fear that turning over would break the tranquility.In the end, it was Fu Baizhi who spoke first.

"Don't you have anything to explain? Or are you still trying to hide it from me?" Fu Baizhi's voice couldn't tell whether she was happy or sad, Hua Yeyu couldn't see her face, but she didn't know how to answer her problem.What should she say, how should she tell her lover... the words that she will die?It's cruel, isn't it.

"Azhi...I'm sorry...I..." Hua Yeyu didn't know what to say, and her feeble apology seemed even paler at this moment.She saw that Fu Baizhi lowered her head even lower, her thin shoulders kept trembling, she wiped her face with her hands helplessly, but the trembling became more and more serious.Looking from the side, Hua Yeyu saw drops of crystal clear water falling on the hem of her clothes.

"Azhi, don't cry." At this time, Hua Yeyu was relieved, she no longer had to suppress her concern and love for Fu Baizhi, and she didn't have to hide her love for her.At this moment, seeing Fu Baizhi crying so helplessly, she felt sad.What she is most afraid of is this kind of thing, and what she can't bear the most is that Ah Zhi is sad.

"Yu'er, what's the use of saying sorry now? I really didn't expect you to hide it from me for so long. Just now I called the doctor, and he said you don't have much time. I don't believe it. I asked him to tell me over and over again. You diagnosed and scared people away... He must have regarded me as a fool and lunatic, I would rather be treated as a fool and lunatic by everyone, but you alone can't."

"I don't." Hearing Fu Baizhi's words, Hua Yeyu stood up and hugged her. When the two bodies were tightly pressed together, Hua Yeyu rubbed her cheek against Fu Baizhi's back. Such a person made her nostalgic endlessly.

"You didn't, but why did you hide it from me for so long? What's the matter with the poison in your body? You had it early in the morning, right? That's why you didn't recognize me when you first met me, and finally Leave me in every possible way. Everything is because you are dying, isn't it?"

Fu Baizhi asked with red eyes, she turned around, and pressed Hua Yeyu's shoulders with both hands, she just wanted an answer now, even though it was obvious in front of her eyes, she still wanted to hear Hua Yeyu say it herself .

"Azhi, you are right. My body should have died six years ago. It was Yan Luopo who saved me, but also turned me into a monster. There are hundreds of poisons in this body. There is no solution and there is no salvation." Hua Yeyu said softly, even though her tone was relaxed, Fu Baizhi was terrified.

It turned out that Hua Yeyu's poison had been with her for six full years, and she must have endured the torment of this poison every day, day after day, until now.She hides from herself and pushes herself away, not because she doesn't love her, but because she is afraid that she will know her physical condition, so she chooses those extreme methods?

"Hua Yeyu, you lied to me so badly. Liu Jingmo knows it, and Shadow knows it. Everyone close to you knows your situation, but I, the person who should know the most, is the last to know Yes. What am I in your heart? You keep saying that it’s for me, but you have chosen to make your own way from the very beginning, haven’t you?”

"It's the same with the alienation when we first met, and it's the same with Kuihailin being hurt by me, and even the incident with the shadow behind. In your heart, have I always been useless? You always just put I regard it as a person who can share pleasures but cannot share sufferings. I am your lover and the one who wants to spend the rest of my life with you, why don't you tell me?"

"Do you know the pain of being deceived and concealed by your lover? Do you know how scared I was when I saw you fall to the ground today? I worked hard to catch up with your pace, and I kept making myself stronger, becoming I can protect you, but you have already sentenced us to death, no matter what I do, how I chase you, you still want to push me away."

"I...I never thought that selfish me would love someone so much. It is clear that I have to put in [-]% effort if I want to live in this world, but I want to work harder and desperately want to be with you, But I still can't catch up with you, can I?"

Fu Baizhi's voice was hoarse, and tears had already blurred her face.Seeing her uncomfortable appearance, Hua Yeyu held her chest, and finally realized that what she feared the most had happened.Indeed, she has been self-righteously making decisions for Fu Baizhi, and everything she thinks is good is another kind of harm to Ah Zhi.

However, Hua Yeyu's character is like this, she looks very weak, but her heart is more ruthless than anyone else, even for herself.If Hua Yeyu was given another chance to choose, she might still choose to bear these tasks alone.

"A Zhi, I know that you will be sad if I say anything. I...why don't I want to be with you, but how do you tell your lover, I don't have a long life, but I love you. I see all your changes In my eyes, the more outstanding you become, the less courage I have to speak out. Because I am not qualified to let you consume anything for me, my road will soon be broken, but you still have a long way to go. "

"You are too good, but I am not good enough. Every time I get poisoned, I am afraid that I will lose one glance at you. Sometimes I even think selfishly and terribly, if you can die with me, you should die with me." How wonderful. If I can kill you, then we may never be separated. But I am reluctant, I have never been to that world, but I know that it will definitely not be better than this world. "

Hua Yeyu didn't cry, but her eyes were scarlet. Hearing what she said, Fu Baizhi stood quietly by the bed and stared at her.After a long time, she moved her body, and suddenly knelt down on the bed, and took out the jade pendant hidden in Hua Yeyu's collar.The jade was complete from the very beginning to incomplete, and now... Seeing the crack in the jade pendant, Fu Baizhi lightly broke the jade pendant along the trace, and then tied it with ropes.

She hung one around her neck, and the other gently lifted Hua Yeyu's long hair, and put the jade pendant back on.In this way, a piece of jade is worn by two people again, and it is self-evident what this behavior represents.

"Yu'er, Liu Jingmo can't do anything to you, can she?" Fu Baizhi asked in a low voice, she touched Hua Yeyu's thin cheek, and her tone returned to gentleness.

"Well, Jingmo can't do anything about it, unless there is a miracle and find the Long Mi grass that can cure all poisons." Speaking of her only hope, but it is also an extravagant hope, Hua Yeyu's face does not show much regret, Instead, she nestled into Fu Baizhi's arms with some enjoyment.She felt that this moment might be God's last reward for her.

Only then did he remember that he hadn't changed the wet clothes on Hua Yeyu's body yet.Just now watching Hua Yeyu vomit blood, Fu Baizhi always remembered that her brain stopped functioning at that moment, and she went to the doctor after recovering, but she never thought that the best doctor in the city would say that she The words are useless.

Fu Baizhi never imagined how a person who was fine before would suddenly vomit blood, and why he was hopeless.Unexpectedly, the doctor actually said that the poison in Hua Yeyu's body had gone all over his body, even if Hua Tuo was still alive, there was nothing he could do.After hearing this, Fu Baizhi felt her brain go blank for a while. She kept begging the doctor to take another look. There must be something wrong. Her words are clearly invulnerable to all poisons. How could she be poisoned? He looked at her like a madman, and ran out in a hurry.

"What is Yu'er thinking? I didn't mean to treat you like that, I just wanted to wipe your body for you. I was in the rain just now, and I was busy looking for a doctor, so I forgot to change this layer of underwear for you."

Hearing Fu Baizhi say that she never helped her change her clothes, Hua Yeyu was relieved, but thinking that she was going to take off her own clothes at this moment, it was hard to avoid.Hua Yeyu is very clear about how her body is now.She didn't dare to let Fu Baizhi see it, not because she was afraid that the other party would dislike her, but because she was afraid that Fu Baizhi would be sad.

"Azhi, I'll do it myself, you still..."

"Yu'er, from now on, don't hide anything from me, okay? If you don't let me see, you must be hiding something from me." Fu Baizhi said firmly, as if she had confirmed it early in the morning.

Then she took off her body little by little, and as this body was exposed in front of her eyes, even though she was ready, Fu Baizhi still felt a stagnation in her heart.She held back her tears and squeezed out some smiles, but her eyes were still red.

She originally thought that Hua Yeyu had only lost a few laps, but she never thought that the other party just wore thicker clothes, so she deceived herself like this.This person has lost more than a few circles, her body is so thin that she is almost out of shape.In front of the chest was a hideous scar, with two deep sword wounds snaking across it, always reminding Fu Baizhi of the pain Hua Yeyu had suffered because of herself.

And on her fair skin, those bluish-gray marks on her legs are particularly obvious, Fu Baizhi knows, wants to know, this is an important reason why Hua Yeyu is afraid of letting herself see it.Although it is not ugly, it shows that the body is close to decay.

"Will it hurt?" Gently touching the rotten part of Hua Yeyu's leg, Fu Baizhi was very careful, for fear of hurting Hua Yeyu, but the other party just shook his head, his face turned pink. "Why do you want to get it tattooed?" After checking that there was no other problem with Hua Yeyu's body, Fu Baizhi picked up a towel beside her and wiped her body.

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