grief

Qiao Yuxi stood at the door, took out the key, and hesitated whether to go in.

After the last quarrel, there has been no contact, and I don't know how Yi Yan and Geng Ye are doing. Will they be angry?

Thinking, opened the door.There was no one in the living room, a few dishes were placed on the dining table next to it, and there seemed to be movement in the kitchen.

"Feather, you're back. There's still one dish left, and it's ready to eat soon." Wearing an apron, Yi Yan poked his head out of the kitchen, showing a gentle smile.

It seemed that they had never quarreled or separated, they just went out and separated for a while.

A warmth surged into his eyes, Qiao Yuxi blinked: "Okay."

"Yu Zhi, why did you come back!" Geng Ye rushed out of the room, "It's been so long without a single call, do you know how worried we are about you? I was going to find you, but Yi Yan refused !"

"I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, Qiao Yuxi couldn't say anything more.

These are his friends, the brothers who grew up together, even though he can't remember, they still care about him as always.

"What are you talking about!" Geng Ye punched Qiao Yuxi on the shoulder, grinning at him.

Qiao Yuxi chuckled lightly, and his mood was instantly relieved.

"Dinner is ready." Yi Yan came out of the kitchen and put the last dish on the table.

Qiao Yuxi looked at the four dishes and one soup on the table, all of which were his favorites: "Yi Yan, how did you know I would be back today?"

"How did he know!" Geng Ye complained dissatisfiedly, "Since you left that day, he only cooks these few dishes every day. I begged him for a long time that day, but he refused to change it, saying that you could come back at any time. return……"

"Geng Ye, aren't you already hungry, why don't you eat quickly." Yi Yan interrupted Geng Ye's chatter, and put some vegetables into his bowl.

"Oh." Geng Ye stopped talking and lowered his head to eat.

"Yaxi, you should hurry up and eat." Yi Yan put the food into Qiao Yuxi's bowl again, "And..."

"No picky eaters!"

"No picky eaters!"

Qiao Yuxi and Geng Ye spoke at the same time, and smiled at each other.

"Yi Yan, you repeat this sentence every time. Feather tree is not annoying, but I am annoyed. Besides, everyone is not a child anymore, so don't be so verbose."

"Hurry up and eat."

"it is good."

Happiness is very simple, but we are not easily satisfied.Once you get it, you want more.

Perhaps it is not the right thing to open the door of memory, but since it is determined, it will not change.

So, when he was lying on the operating table, facing the doctor's repeated confirmation, Qiao Yuxi had a firm expression: "OK, let's start."

Not everyone will approve of your actions, but some things must be done.

Even if there are some unpredictable risks, it shouldn't be possible to become an idiot.Big deal, do it all over again.

***

It was already late at night, and Qiao Yuxi was wandering aimlessly on the street, and had been walking for a long time.There are fewer and fewer pedestrians on the road, and occasionally a few trucks can be seen passing by in the dark.

"...It's nothing, I just want to call you a few more times."

Ouyang Liling repeated his name over and over again, and was slightly disappointed after being interrupted impatiently by him.

He could subdue Geng Ye easily, but he endured his punches and kicks.He was obviously the one who was injured and should be comforted the most, but he still apologized to himself.

"Let me put all my trust in a stranger, are you sure you have this kind of charm?"

"If there is a next time, please leave me directly on the street. I don't like dealing with strangers very much, especially... Strangers who think they know me well."

What was Ouyang Liling thinking at that time? How much effort did he use to pretend not to care?

"Ouyang Liling, you and I are not friends yet. The reason why I live here is very simple. Since you can't help me, what's the point of my staying here."

In the face of deliberate harm, he can only say nothing.

"Feather, are you particularly reluctant to see me?"

"No, you're thinking too much. I'm just not used to dealing with strangers."

The pain in his eyes was so clear, but he didn't realize it at the time.

"If I help you recover your memory, will you..."

"Forget it. I still believe in myself."

Even if you don't see Ouyang Liling's expression, you can imagine his emotions about to collapse.Not everyone can pretend to be indifferent to being treated like this by a loved one.

Scenes from the past came to mind, Qiao Yuxi squatted by the roadside in pain, weeping silently.

He finally understood why the person who was supposed to be proud and superior could be careful to please him.

He never knew that Ouyang Liling's suffering was due to his ruthless hurt.

Ouyang Liling who broke into the private room suddenly that day, Ouyang Liling who was not awake that morning, Ouyang Liling like that was really happy, but was disturbed in his short dream.

The phone kept vibrating, Qiao Yuxi stared at the screen for a long time, Yi Yan's name was persistently displayed on it.Take a deep breath and pick it up.

"Feather, you..."

"Yu Zhi, where are you, why haven't you come back?" Geng Ye seemed to have snatched the phone.

"I... will not go back tonight."

"Not coming back? Then where are you going?"

"..."

"Hey, talk!" Geng Ye was anxious, "Yu Zhi, where are you?"

"I want to be alone."

"Are you kidding me? Didn't you feel fine yesterday? How come you..."

Qiao Yuxi could imagine how Geng Ye was about to get angry: "I remembered."

"What!" Geng Ye cried out in surprise, and then fell silent.

"What's wrong?" Seeing Geng Ye's expression was wrong, Yi Yan thought that something happened to Qiao Yuxi, "Is Yuxi alright?"

"He...he..." Geng Ye trembled and couldn't say a complete sentence.

"What's the matter?" Yi Yan hurriedly took the phone, "Feather..."

"I'm fine, don't worry, I'll go back when I think it through."

Yi Yan's expression changed, and he realized something: "Are you going to find... Li Ling?"

"I don't know, maybe." Qiao Yuxi looked up at the dim light of the street lamp, thinking of the day when she woke up and faced a new life.

Yi Yan should know himself best, he can always easily guess his own thoughts, and show up when he needs it most.

What was Ouyang Liling doing at that time?

"Yu Zhi, no matter what Li Ling has done, now is not the time to look for him, tell me where you are, I will go there with Geng Ye right away."

"No, I..."

"Feather, we will be worried." Yi Yan's tone was full of pleading.

Qiao Yuxi withdrew her gaze and stared at the word "Yi Yan" flashing on the phone screen.

It seems that his own willfulness has always been perfectly played out under Yi Yan's tolerance. In fact, he should think about them.

"I'll go back now."

Qiao Yuxi hung up the phone, found the unfamiliar number he had answered, and saved it at the top.

Yi Yan and Geng Ye were waiting at the door, and Geng Ye was in a low mood.

"Feather last." Yi Yan stepped forward, "Go ahead."

Qiao Yuxi nodded.

The three of them sat down on the sofa one by one.

Yi Yan spoke first: "Yu Zhi, have you really recovered your memory?"

Qiao Yuxi nodded, thought for a while, then shook his head.

Yi Yan and Geng Ye looked at each other suspiciously.

"I still can't remember the time in prison."

The operation did help him restore his memory, but it was only part of it. The time stayed more than three years ago, and there was a large blank in the middle.

Doctors expressed regret and said they had done their best.

Qiao Yuxi just smiled, these are enough.What has not yet recovered should be the three-year prison life Geng Ye mentioned.Those memories that are not considered happy may be better without them.

The reason for going to prison is the only thing he can't let go of now.

"What about mine?" Geng Ye asked suddenly.

"What Geng Ye meant was that you had a conflict with him." Yi Yan explained.

Qiao Yuxi nodded again: "I have no impression."

"Then what exactly do you remember?" Geng Ye was in a hurry.

Yi Yan patted Geng Ye, signaling him to be calm.Yi Yan already understood that Qiao Yuxi only remembered those happy days, but he still didn't know anything about the series of conflicts that followed.

Qiao Yuxi doesn't want to be entangled in those right and wrong right now, he is only thinking about one thing.

"I'm going to find him and apologize to him..."

"Yu Zhi, what are you talking about?" Geng Ye couldn't understand more and more, "Who are you going to go to and apologize to?"

"Yu last is talking about Li Ling." Yi Yan explained lightly.

"Ouyang Liling?" Geng Ye stood up, "Yu Zhi, what kind of mess did you remember? Is your memory messed up?"

Qiao Yuxi ignored him, and continued: "I was with him some time ago, and I said so many unforgivable words, intentionally hurting him, I almost hated myself..."

"Feather, don't blame yourself, it's not your fault." Yi Yan comforted softly.

"That's right! No matter how much you have done compared to what he has done, it is not too much."

"Perhaps the memory of being in prison is indeed painful, but after all, there are still many important things worth cherishing, aren't there?"

"Treasure?" Geng Ye thought it was ridiculous, "Yu Zhi, wake up, Ouyang Liling has nothing worth cherishing, he is a liar!"

"Why do you say that?"

"You were imprisoned because of Ouyang Liling. Tell me, is a person like him worth your cherishing?"

Qiao Yuxi didn't believe it, and looked at Yi Yan, "Is what Geng Ye said true?"

"this matter……"

"When you were arrested, everyone was trying to find a solution, but Ouyang Liling stopped us from intervening, saying that he could solve it alone." Geng Ye interrupted Yi Yan and sat back down again, "Later, he disappeared, I disappeared for several months, and didn't show up until you were sentenced to prison. After that, Yi Yan and I went to find him, but he didn't give any explanation or response to this matter. Who else could it be if he didn't do it!"

"There must be a misunderstanding." Qiao Yuxi concluded.

"There is no misunderstanding, he has been using us from the very beginning, and we have always believed in him in vain."

"No, he won't lie to me, let alone hurt me." Qiao Yuxi insisted.

"Feather, you are so stupid, since he knew me and you..."

Geng Ye suddenly paused, he wasn't sure what the consequences would be if he told that matter, he didn't dare to imagine if he could still stay with Qiao Yuxie.

"Stop arguing. Yu Zhi, you just recovered some memories, you need to rest, don't think about it so much."

"No, I can't sleep. I have to find out exactly what happened to make you misunderstand him like this." Qiao Yuxi firmly believed that Ouyang Liling was innocent.

"Yu Zhi, why are you still so stubborn. You don't understand Ouyang Liling at all, he is a complete hypocrite." Geng Ye has a deep prejudice against Ouyang Liling, and I'm afraid it will be difficult to change.

"I know what kind of person he is. I'm sorry to disagree with you." Qiao Yuxi couldn't let Geng Ye slander Ouyang Liling again and again.

Yi Yan's gaze slowly turned to Qiao Yuxie.Such Qiao Yuxi is back again, every time there is a dispute or disagreement, he will always stand by Ouyang Liling's side without hesitation.Right or wrong, unconditional trust.It's not that he doesn't have his own opinions, it's just that he loves too deeply and is willing to lose his sense of proportion for him.

"Qiao Yuxie!" Geng Ye scratched his hair irritably and turned around anxiously, "Why don't you believe it! You just recovered part of your memory and don't understand the cause and effect of it, so you think he is credible of."

"Since I don't understand, then tell me, what is the key thing that I haven't remembered."

"You...I..." Geng Ye froze instantly, dodging around, unable to explain why.

Qiao Yuxi knew that it was impossible to ask anything from the two of them, what's more, what they knew was not necessarily the truth, so he just left.

"Yuxie, where are you going?" Yi Yan grabbed Qiao Yuxie who was walking out.

"I'm going to find him now, and I must figure things out."

"Now? What time is it now!" Geng Ye was going crazy.

"He'll see me."

"I really don't know where you have so much confidence!" Geng Ye began to speak angrily.

"Yu Zhi, it's really too late now, Li Ling must have rested, can we talk about it tomorrow?" Yi Yan stopped him, trying to dissuade him.

Qiao Yuxi stopped talking and went out directly.

"I'll accompany you." Yi Yan had no choice but to follow quickly.

"Crazy, both of you are crazy!" Geng Ye jumped up angrily, tugged at his own hair, and followed.

"Go back, you have to go to work tomorrow, I can do it by myself."

Qiao Yuxi didn't want to implicate the two of them because of his stubbornness, he who had already recovered part of his memory remembered everything he had with Ouyang Liling, and was eager to figure things out.