grief

"Ran Luo, what are you thinking?"

"Feather, tell me, why do people always like moths to flames?"

Qiao Yuxi didn't realize it for a moment, she couldn't figure out how Ran Luo could suddenly feel this emotion, it wasn't like what he could say, it seemed that he had become different since what happened last time.

"Emotion is the most tormenting thing in this world. Why is it not a taboo in the world, but so many people are desperate to try it even if they are smashed to pieces?"

"Love has its unique charm, people will always be attracted unconsciously."

"Rather than charm, I think it's more like a curse." Ran Luo suddenly asked, "Yu Zhi, if you could only choose one of love and friendship, what would you do?"

"I will follow my heart."

"What about now? Are you following your heart?"

"Now?" Qiao Yuxi smiled wryly. He always wanted to follow his heart, but someone refused to give him a chance. "I just want to destroy my heart."

Ran Luo froze for a moment, but didn't speak again.He agrees with what Qiao Yuxi said, and thinks this might be a good choice.But how can you destroy your own heart?

He suddenly seemed to remember something, and stared at Qiao Yuxi closely: "If regrets already exist, misfortunes have already happened, and no matter what the truth is, the status quo cannot be changed, what will you do?"

"I only know that if a true relationship is mixed with regret, it will be the greatest misfortune in life." Qiao Yuxi lowered his eyes. As for how to choose, he himself didn't know, or maybe at a certain moment, he had already made a decision. selected.

Subconsciously, he went against his will, he knew that Su Lingo could easily find out the truth, and he was afraid of the truth.Therefore, he rejected Su Lingo's help.

Seeing his silence, Ran Luo felt hesitation in his heart, and his eyes were firm: "Perhaps even if it's painful, it's better than living in remorse and regret for the rest of my life."

"……"Yeah?Qiao Yuxi was at a loss, he didn't know how much pain it was in his heart to obey, he had firmly believed in it time and time again, but what he got was torture that was stronger than the one time after time.How much more can he take before being destroyed?

After a while, Qiao Yuxi came back to his senses: "Let's not talk about this anymore. Are you hungry, what do you want to eat?"

"I kind of miss the noodles made by Ouyang Liling." Ran Luo smiled shallowly, with a hint of cunning.

"Then I can't help it." Qiao Yuxi packed up his things, "However, it's not enough to eat noodles for lunch, especially if you are still growing, you should add more nutrition."

"Then let's go eat something hearty."

The two went out side by side.In times like this in the past, Ran Luo must have stuck to Qiao Yuxi's body, but now he was so serious that Qiao Yuxi felt uncomfortable.

After Qiao Yuxi took a bath, he thought for a long time before knocking on the door of Ouyang Liling's room with a bottle of red wine and two wine glasses. He told himself in his heart that this was the last time, and after that, no matter what the result was, he would accept it. .

Ouyang Liling tried her best to avoid her gaze from falling on the exposed half of the chest of the person in front of her, secretly swallowed her saliva, and stepped aside.

"Living under the same roof and facing each other coldly all day long will hurt your health." Qiao Yuxi entered the room, went straight to the balcony, looked up at the high hanging full moon, and raised his glass to the room. Ouyang Liling signaled, "The moon is bright tonight, suitable for cultivating relationships. Come have a drink with me."

Ouyang Liling stood in the room and looked at Qiao Yuxi who raised his glass to him.

The person under the moonlight, with slightly curved lips and silvery eyes, looks like a purely happy child.

"Okay." A duel between emotion and reason, the latter can only give in most of the time.

Even though the weather has started to warm up, there is still a little chill outside at night.The shape of Qiao Yu last made Ouyang Liling feel distressed.

"Let's go back to the room, it's a bit cold here."

"I think it's pretty good here." Qiao Yuxi raised the goblet and shook it to the moonlight, the wine red liquid was even more coquettish.

Qiao Yuxi didn't want to stay in the room, he was afraid that the appropriate temperature and the effect of alcohol would make him lose his mind.

"Ouyang Liling, do you still remember the first time we met?"

"Remember." Ouyang Liling's eyes gradually blurred.

He will never forget in this life, the first meeting that year, the boy under the banyan tree.

He once indulged in those clean and clear eyes, and even for a moment, he prayed that the young man in front of him was the one he was looking for.

But he was fortunate after all that this person shed different blood from him, and only had the same heart of no regrets for being addicted to each other.

"You said, if we hadn't met at that time, or we hadn't come here with you, what would I be like today?"

"I don't know." Ouyang Li lowered her eyes and took a sip of the red wine.

"I don't know either." Qiao Yuxi drank the wine in one gulp, "Maybe there is no grandiose splendor, just like most people, doing nothing, having tasted life, old age, sickness and death in this world, nothing more."

"..."

"Tell me, why are people always dissatisfied?" Qiao Yuxi poured it up again and drank it all. "It's obvious that plainness is the most real, but it's so ridiculous to be unwilling and forceful, and end up with nothing."

Ouyang Liling didn't speak, and quietly watched Qiao Yuxi swallow most of the bottle of wine.

He also wanted to drink, to get drunk, but not now.He is quite a man of self-control, even when drunk, but that doesn't include facing Qiao Yuxie.Therefore, he cannot indulge himself, otherwise he will easily lose control.

"Why don't you talk?" Qiao Yuxi began to lose consciousness, moved her position, and leaned on Ouyang Liling.

Ouyang Liling reached out and pulled his open bathrobe tightly, covering his naked skin.

Qiao Yuxi grabbed his hand that was about to withdraw: "Liling, why do we hurt each other?"

Staring closely at Qiao Yuxie's intoxicated eyes, Ouyang Liling was checking to see if he had really started to lose consciousness.

"Liling, Liling..." Qiao Yuxi murmured, hooked Ouyang Liling's head on his back, and pulled down hard, letting his lips slide across his face.

"Hehe..." Qiao Yuxi chuckled, got up and sat on Ouyang Liling's lap, her eyes began to lose focus.

"Feather tree?" Ouyang Liling tensed her body, her voice trembling.

"Well, I'm here." Qiao Yuxi retracted into his arms and rubbed against his chest.

Ouyang Liling's breathing became a little unsteady: "Yu Zhi, you're drunk."

"I'm not drunk." Qiao Yuxi raised his head and looked at him obsessively, "Do you want me?"

The slightly drunk eyes were slightly confused, the rosy cheeks soaked in alcohol showed endless temptation, and the slightly parted thin lips seemed to be telling to cater.

Ouyang Liling knew that he should refuse, but he was powerless to resist, so he raised his stiff arms to hug Qiao Yuxie, and quickly kissed her.

His lips brushed against the tips of his ears, and he missed it.

Qiao Yuxi pushed Ouyang Liling away, and stood aside, her eyes were clear, she was not drunk.

Ouyang Liling lowered her eyes, hiding the bitterness in her eyes.He picked up the wine glass and took a sip slowly. The rich aroma of the wine mixed with sourness was swallowed, and the emotions in his eyes dissipated.

"Ouyang Liling, what are you thinking?"

Qiao Yuxi became more and more incomprehensible. Such a result was what he wanted, but it was not what he expected.

He could even foresee a certain day when facing Ouyang Liling, no matter how hard he tried his best, he still couldn't figure it out.

"It's late, rest early."

Ouyang Liling wanted to use this short sentence to end the ridiculous night.

"I want to share a bed with you."

Qiao Yuxi left the balcony first, and lay down on Ouyang Liling's bed.It's still the position he was in when he and Ouyang Liling lived together, but his mood is no longer the same as before.

This kind of revenge is far more tormenting than simple and direct confrontation.

Ouyang Liling realized this, but did not refuse.

The two had their own concerns until dawn.

Qiao Yuxi opened his eyes, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Ouyang Liling should have gotten up early in the morning, and was busy going in and out of the room for a while.Although the movement was slight, Qiao Yuxi, who was not sleeping soundly, still heard it.

It was almost noon, and there was not much light entering the room, and the curtains were still closed.

Qiao Yuxi sat up, feeling a little dizzy.Last night, I drank too much wine, blowing cold wind, and lack of sleep. It seems that I have a cold.

It is self-inflicted!

Sighing in his heart, he turned his head to look at the alarm clock, his eyes inadvertently hit the water glass and two pills on the bedside table, and there was a sticky note beside it, the beautiful and elegant font was obviously written by Ouyang Liling.

A sourness hit his eyes, Qiao Yuxi gripped the quilt tightly, his knuckles turned white.

Every detail is an interpretation of caring. Since you have chosen a relative position, why bother to make a fuss to give people hope.

This is a hint, or an alternative punishment like what he did.

Qiao Yuxi raised his hand and swung it vigorously.

"Snapped!"

The cup shattered and water spilled all over the floor.The two pills bounced and fell, bounced a few times, and completely stopped.The sticky note slowly fell and was immersed in the water, blurring the handwriting.

A mess.

The door was pushed open, and Ouyang Liling barged in with worried eyes.

The soundproofing effect of the room is very good, but the door is not closed tightly.He had been wandering around the door, and when he heard the movement, he hurried in to check.

Qiao Yuxi turned her head, the resentment in her eyes was so obvious, it was shocking.

Ouyang Liling glanced at the dirty floor, seemed to understand something, opened her mouth, but silently left the room without making a sound.

"Stop!" Qiao Yuxi suddenly said.

Ouyang Liling froze and stopped on the spot: "What's the matter?"

"Can we... can we go back?"

"What answer do you want?"

Qiao Yuxi sighed softly, and slowly lay back on the bed: "I must have a fever, so just pretend you didn't hear me."

Tears slid down the corners of his eyes and sank into the pillow.There was a smile in Qiao Yuxi's voice, and there was no trace of bitterness.

"Ah—boom—"

There was a shrill and tragic scream from inside the villa, followed by the loud noise of things breaking apart.

The people cleaning outside looked up at the source of the sound and looked at each other in blank dismay.

The first time Lin Bo heard the voice, he rushed to Qiao Yuxie's room at a speed that was inappropriate for his age.Ouyang Liling left, and at this moment, only Qiao Yuxi was left.

"Mr. Joe, what happened?"

Lin Bo pushed open the door, and at a glance, he saw Qiao Yuxi, who was lying on the ground, crying with his head in his arms. Computer parts and shapeless U disks were scattered on the floor.