grief

Autumn is deep, and winter is approaching.

Standing at the entrance of the supermarket, Qiao Yuxi carried tonight's hot pot ingredients, tightened his coat, and walked slowly into the wind.

Geng Ye called early in the morning, saying that he was cooking hot pot tonight, and asked him what he wanted to eat, and bought it directly after get off work.

He thought, anyway, he has nothing to do when he is idle, so he might as well go out to buy, and take advantage of this time to stroll outside.

Since seeing Ouyang Liling last time, he rarely went out.

Both Yi Yan and Geng Ye returned to their original companies. The boss is a very talkative person, especially appreciative of Yi Yan's ability, and didn't pay much attention to the sudden resignation last time.

Qiao Yuxi just picked up some odd jobs online, and didn't plan to go out to work anymore.

As for the job, Yi Yan and Geng Ye also asked, but Qiao Yuxi didn't say anything, so they stopped asking.

After storing the things, Qiao Yuxi walked to the fountain in the square and sat down.

At this time, there were few people in the square and it was relatively quiet.Not far away, several children are playing happily.

Qiao Yuxi's gaze followed them unconsciously, and a slight smile appeared on the corner of his lips.

He also had such a carefree time, he didn't know what troubles were, and he simply ran in the sun, venting his best emotions.

He also firmly believed that as long as there is someone he can rely on, as long as someone shares his mood, laughs and tears with him, he can be satisfied and happy.But it turns out that reality is never that simple.

Ouyang Liling brutally shattered his dream, although Yi Yan was still by his side, it was difficult to get into his heart, and Geng Ye and Lou Yi, did their relationship really not deteriorate?

The price of growth is always unbearable, but no one can escape this necessity.

"Brother, are you unhappy?" A boy tugged at the corner of Qiao Yuxi's clothes, and looked at him with big eyes.

Qiao Yuxi came back to his senses, his unhappiness was so obvious that even a child could easily see through it.

"No, brother is not unhappy." Qiao Yuxi smiled and stroked the boy's soft hair.

The boy tilted his head and thought for a while, then took out a handful of colorful candies from his pocket, divided them into two parts, took Qiao Yuxie's hand, and put one part in his palm: "Every time mom buys me I’ll be very happy when I’m here, I’ll give you these, I hope my brother likes them.”

Qiao Yuxi stared at the few candies in his hand, and the smile on his lips deepened unconsciously.A child's world is always so simple that it is unimaginable that a few candies are enough to dispel all unhappiness. It would be great if he could be so simple.

"Thank you." Qiao Yuxi clenched the little warmth in his palm, and stroked the boy's hair again, "I like it very much."

The boy ran away laughing.

There were more and more people in the square, Qiao Yuxi looked at his watch, and before he knew it, he had been sitting there for almost an hour, and it was time to go back.

As soon as Qiao Yuxi opened the door, Geng Ye rushed over, took the bag, and went straight to the kitchen, shouting at the same time: "Yuxi, you are back, I am almost starving to death."

"Something happened on the way, so I'm delayed." Qiao Yuxi took off his coat and hung it on the hanger.

"Feather, is it cold?" Yi Yan came out of the kitchen, took Qiao Yuxi's hand, and rubbed it gently, "The temperature has cooled down in these two days, remember to wear more when you go out."

"It's okay, but the wind is a bit strong." Qiao Yuxi gently withdrew his hand, and walked to the kitchen, "Everything is almost ready, I'm going to help Geng Ye wash the vegetables..."

"Yu last, you didn't buy Flammulina velutipes!" Geng Ye took out the dishes one by one, and found that his favorite was missing, and he had specially ordered it.

Qiao Yuxi paused in her footsteps and stopped in place, feeling suddenly in a trance.

It is not only Geng Ye's favorite, it is also his, but there is one person who is allergic to mushrooms. From the day he knew about it, he quit it.

Every time he chooses dishes, he will deliberately avoid them, and it becomes a habit over time.

Even though Geng Ye had warned him thousands of times, he still forgot.In other words, he didn't want to remember subconsciously.Just like many times before, he deliberately ignored Geng Ye's request just because of Ouyang Liling.

"sorry."

Geng Ye just complained casually, didn't think much about it, and didn't notice Qiao Yuxie's expression, so he waved his hand indifferently: "It's okay."

"Yu last, take these out first." Yi Yan noticed Qiao Yu last's abnormality, and handed him the bowl and chopsticks.

"Oh." Qiao Yuxi took it and walked out of the kitchen silently.

"Geng Ye, don't talk nonsense." Yi Yan lowered his voice.

"What did I say?" Geng Ye was puzzled.

"You know why Yuxi forgot..."

"Ah!" Geng Ye uttered again, and Yi Yan covered his mouth in time.

"Okay, wash it now."

Except for Qiao Yuxi's occasional absence, the atmosphere of the dinner was not bad.

After drinking and eating, Geng Yelai watched TV on the sofa, Qiao Yuxi helped Yi Yan clean up, and went back to the room.

Taking out those candies, carefully putting them away in the drawer, Qiao Yuxi had a smile on his lips.Although it is not a precious thing, it is the pure heart of a child.

"Yuxi, can I come in?" Yi Yan knocked on the door, asking for Qiao Yuxi's opinion.

Qiao Yuxi opened the door and let Yi Yan into the room: "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I just haven't chatted with you for a long time." Yi Yan sat on the bed, "What are you doing?"

Qiao Yuxi closed the laptop on the table, pointed to the pajamas that he just took out next to him: "I'm getting ready to take a bath and rest."

"Feather last."

"What's wrong?" Qiao Yuxi sat on the chair and looked up at him.

Yi Yan stood up and walked to Qiao Yuxie's side: "Yuxie, you were absent-minded during the meal just now, did you have something on your mind?"

Qiao Yuxi smiled lightly, avoiding Yi Yan's gaze: "I don't have anything on my mind, it's fine."

"Feather." Yi Yan knelt down and held Qiao Yuxi's hand, "Promise me something, okay?"

"What... what?" Yi Yan's overly serious expression made Qiao Yuxi a little nervous.

"Forget Li Ling, let me take care of you."

Qiao Yuxi didn't understand for a while: "Huh?"

Yi Yan let go of his hand, caressed his face, and looked at him solemnly: "Feather, there are some words that I have kept in my heart for a long time. I couldn't say it because of Liling before, but now you and him It has ended……"

"Yi Yan, I..." Qiao Yuxi realized something, interrupted Yi Yan eagerly, but didn't know what to say.

"Feather, let me take care of you in the future, okay?"

"I...you have always taken care of me, like a brother..."

"Feather, I don't just want to be brothers with you, I want to be closer to you." Yi Yan knelt on the ground with one knee and leaned closer to Qiao Yuxi, "Stay with me. I will make you forget everything Unhappy things, always happy."

Qiao Yuxi didn't know how to react, he never knew that Yi Yan had such thoughts towards him.Shouldn't they be brothers?What if it changed?Will he go to the step where he and Ouyang Liling are, hurting each other and being strangers to each other?No, this is terrible.

"Don't!" Qiao Yuxi held Yi Yan's hand, "Yi Yan, aren't we good brothers? You are my closest person, I can't lose you, don't do this..."

"Feather..." Yi Yan hugged him, "I'm not Ouyang Liling, I won't let you go easily like him, I will treat you well for the rest of my life, trust me!"

Qiao Yuxi shook her head, tears overflowed uncontrollably: "No, Yi Yan, why..."

Yi Yan held his face, and gently kissed away his tears: "Feather, forget about him."

"Please, don't be like this..." Qiao Yuxi kept shaking her head.

"Feather..." Yi Yan hugged his head and kissed his lips, "I love you..."

Qiao Yuxi wanted to struggle, but he didn't dare to push Yi Yan away. He had already lost Ouyang Liling, and he couldn't lose Yi Yan anymore.What should he do, no one can tell him.

Yi Yan's breathing became heavy, and the kiss began to deepen. This wonderful feeling was about to overwhelm his reason. He didn't care about Qiao Yuxi's crying, and he didn't care about that slight struggle. He wanted more.

Picking up the helpless weeping person and putting him on the bed, Yi Yan pressed directly on top of him, put his hands into Qiao Yu's last clothes, and slowly kneaded the slippery skin.

Qiao Yuxi froze, staring blankly at the intoxicated eyes that were close at hand, it was the first time he felt that Yi Yan was so strange.

A face slipped before his eyes, Qiao Yuxi's heart throbbed, and he began to struggle: "Yi Yan, please, don't be like this..."

Yi Yan pressed his hand, panting and said: "Yu Zhi, good boy, I will not be worse than Ouyang Liling, I will definitely satisfy you, trust me."

Qiao Yuxi was taken aback again, what on earth was he talking about, is he really Yi Yan?No, he's not Yi Yan, and Yi Yan wouldn't say such things.

"Do not……"

"Enough, Yi Yan!" Geng Ye didn't know when he came in, he pulled Yi Yan away and pushed aside, "He's in pain, he doesn't want to, can't you see it?"

Yi Yan's eyes that were lost due to sex gradually became clear. Seeing Qiao Yuxi curled up and sobbing softly, he secretly regretted that he had lost his sense of proportion for a while.

"Feather last..."

"go out."

"Sorry, I……"

Qiao Yuxi hugged her head with her hands, buried her face between her knees, and curled up into a ball: "I beg you, let me stay alone for a while... Please..."

"Go!" Geng Ye grabbed Yi Yan and dragged him out of the room.

Qiao Yuxi hugged herself tightly, tears streaming down uncontrollably.He thinks that the person who will not change the most is already different.It turns out that the so-called eternity has always been just his wishful thinking.

In the living room, Geng Ye was arguing loudly, but Yi Yan seemed to have remained silent, making no sound.

Qiao Yuxi looked out the window, it was already late at night, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.

After sleeping peacefully for a few days, the insomnia seems to be starting again.