Wouldn't things have been different if I hadn't met you

"Please Liu Xia go to Clinic No. 3" a gentle female voice sounded on the radio, and at the same time Liu Xia's name was displayed on the big screen in front of the triage desk.Sitting in the waiting area, Liu Xia put away her mobile phone and looked up in a daze to find the direction of the No. 3 clinic.

25 years old is a young and strong age. This is the first time Liu Xia went to the hospital to see a doctor after he became an adult. In the past, he only saw people complaining about "difficulty in getting medical treatment" in the news. Today he really feels how serious the medical problems in China are. Look at the diarrhea, he has been waiting in the waiting room all morning.

In the labyrinth-like consultation room, Liu Xia finally found the consultation room No. 3. He knocked on the door politely, and heard someone coming in softly.He tidied up his appearance habitually, pushed the door open and walked in.

The room is not big, but because there is only a table, a sink and a bed, it looks very spacious and bright. The table is placed directly opposite the door. There is a computer on the table, and a 30-year-old man sits in front of the computer. The doctor, looking gentle, has the typical southern boy's eyebrows and thin lips, and wears rimless glasses, the thick lenses hide those slightly tired eyes.

Liu Xia turned around and closed the door carefully, but when she turned around, she saw that the glasses doctor was still concentrating on typing on the computer, his face was full of impatience that was hard to hide, and he ignored Liu Xia at all, as if he wasn't the one who called in just now.

Liu Xia is shy by nature. Although she has practiced in the mall for many years, she still can't help being nervous when she is in a strange place.Standing at the door, he could neither enter nor retreat, feeling at a loss for a moment.

It seemed as long as a century before the optician remembered Liu Xia's existence as if he had just woken up from a dream, and raised his head to greet Liu Xia.Liu Xia hurriedly walked over in three steps and two steps, and handed in the medical records. The glasses doctor took it impatiently and began to write. Liu Xia saw him write: "On April 2015, 4, the chief complaint of Shuli Central Hospital:"

"Tell me, what's wrong?" asked the glasses doctor, pointing to the chair in front of him and telling Liu Xia to sit down.

"Diarrhea, it's been a week." Liu Xia felt like she was back in her student days, when she was distracted in class but was suddenly called up by the teacher to answer questions.

"Is the stool formed? Is there blood in the stool?" The doctor frowned, his face full of indifference.It was written in the medical record book.

"It's out of shape, thin." Liu Xia didn't expect the doctor to ask such a detailed question, and blushed in embarrassment.

The doctor was obviously dissatisfied with the answer, and with an even more impatient expression, he asked again: "Is there any blood in the stool?"

Liu Xia knew she couldn't avoid this question, but how should she answer it?There is blood in the stool, but it should not be counted, after all, it was because Xiaodong broke it too hard two days ago.But the doctor asked if there was any.

"No."

The optician glanced at Liu Xia through the thick lenses, then put down the pen in his hand, pointed to the examination bed in the corner of the consulting room and said, "Lie down on the bed and take off your pants."

It's okay, it's all about your health.This is the best hospital in the city.The other party is a doctor with professional quality.Me and the doctor are both men and he is straight.I also have to be straight.Liu Xia found various reasons to comfort herself, and put her legs on the braces as calmly and naturally as the doctor asked.

But he still couldn't help but feel ashamed, and his face was uncontrollably red all the way to his ears.

Fortunately, Xiaodong didn't know, if he saw this scene, he would definitely blow his hair.Liu Xia thought to herself.

"Cooperate for a while and relax," the optician put on his gloves formulaically and walked towards him.

Liu Xia hummed humbly, and raised her hand to cover her already reddened face.Liu Xia was already extremely nervous, but this sudden stimulation made him tighten completely subconsciously.

"Relax! Why are you clamping it so tightly!" The optician's tone was stern.

Liu Xia's face became hotter, and the doctor was still urging him repeatedly, so he had to adjust his breathing quickly. He felt that his heart was about to jump out, and he didn't even know how to inhale.

For a moment, he hastily shut his mouth tightly, fearing that he might be misunderstood by making a strange sound.After holding back for a long time, I still couldn't hold back, and finally screamed out.

As soon as the voice came out, Liu Xia was about to die.

It's over, it's over, what will the doctor think?

"Okay, get up." The doctor's voice sounded calm.

Liu Xia raised her head and glanced at the expression of the glasses doctor. It was still the same as before, without any change.

It seems that the doctor didn't think much about it, maybe many people who did this test called it that.The doctor has long been familiar with it.Liu Xia secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and got up as he said.

"Sex should be moderate, lubricate before doing it. Don't force it when you shouldn't. Young people don't always pursue excitement." The optician said while taking off his gloves, his tone was still very professional.

Liu Xia was putting on his trousers, halfway through, he was petrified on the spot when he heard this, and it took him a long time to realize what the doctor meant.My heart, which was slowly calming down, was beating non-stop again.Disgraceful.He almost wanted to leave immediately.

The glasses doctor didn't realize it, and walked to the sink, looked up at Liu Xia, and continued to say with a half-smile: "You have a big hole inside, but fortunately, it doesn't seem to be infected. Things like before the wound healed Just hold back for a while."

Liu Xia was taken aback, because the wound hadn't bleed for two days, and he didn't feel any pain, so he thought it was healed, so he let out an inaudible hum, and continued to put on his trousers with his head down in embarrassment.

The optician came over with a blank expression, and handed him the medical card, medical records and checklist: "Go and have a stool check."

What?Still want to check?

Liu Xia glanced at his watch. It was 11:30, and 12:[-] was the lunch break, and he had to wait until the afternoon for the check-up, and then went to the doctor to prescribe the medicine, and then went to get the medicine. I don't know how long it would take.Liu Xia was thinking in his heart that usually he and Xiaodong were busy with their own jobs, so there were very few opportunities to have dinner together.If it weren't for the Ching Ming Festival, which is a taboo for businessmen, they wouldn't have a holiday.In the afternoon, I plan to go to the movies with Xiaodong. God knows how long he has been looking forward to today.He didn't want to spend all day in the hospital during the rare vacation.

You can lose your face, but you must not lose your date. Even though she was very embarrassing just now, Liu Xia still said, "Well, doctor, I am in sales. I usually have a lot of entertainment and I used to have diarrhea. This time it must be because of eating too much. There should be no other problems, just prescribe me some medicine."

"No, the examination must be done. Don't think that you are still young. Many serious illnesses start from small illnesses." The doctor waved his hand, his tone was unquestionable, "Hurry up, try to keep the specimens in the morning, and come to me after the results in the afternoon .”

Liu Xia took the list depressed, and sighed sincerely: Why is it so troublesome to see a doctor!

It is not easy to do the examination. You have to mark the price on the first floor, then go to the third floor to pay, and then go to the second floor to get the cup, keep the specimen and send the cup to the laboratory opposite the outpatient building.In order to quickly get the specimen, Liu Xia ran decisively to the canteen at the entrance of the hospital to buy a popsicle, and ate it all in two or three bites. As expected, within 10 minutes, her stomach responded vigorously, and then ran away at the speed of a [-]-meter sprint The Laboratory Department finally rushed to hand in the specimens at the last moment.

Because Chen Xiaodong doesn't like to wear a condom, in order to be clean, Liu Xia is used to enema every time, so he usually eats very light food, even when socializing, he tries to eat soft and digestible food, and try not to eat food with a lot of fiber , so that the enema will not be very sad.But also because of this, Liu Xia has always been very thin.Recently, after a week of diarrhea, Liu Xia has already lost another seven or eight catties.

Although today is sunny and the sun is warm, it is only April after all, and it is still a bit cold. Liu Xia just thought about how to avoid delaying the appointment in the afternoon, and did not consider eating ice in such a season at all. Whether the sick stomach can bear it.Only at this moment did he realize that something was wrong, the effect of the popsicle didn't seem to be going away, the abdominal pain made him break out in a cold sweat, his walking steps were sloppy, a gust of wind blew by, and there were stars in his eyes, as if he was about to faint.

Liu Xia murmured in her heart that it was bad, maybe she had to stop cooking.After looking around, he couldn't find a place to rest, and suddenly remembered that there were chairs in the outpatient building, so he forced himself to go to the outpatient clinic.

As he was walking, the phone rang a familiar ringtone—it was the exclusive flavor he specially set up for Chen Xiaodong—Liu Xia pressed the answer button while walking.

"Where did you go?" Chen Xiaodong's voice sounded anxious.

"It's at the central hospital." Liu Xia said weakly.

"What's the matter? Why the hell didn't you wake me up." There was a fumbling voice on the other end of the phone, and Chen Xiaodong's voice sounded angrily.

Liu Xia got up this morning very lightly, not even daring to boil the pot of water, for fear of waking Chen Xiaodong up—because he still remembered the last time he had a serious gastroenteritis, Chen Xiaodong was worried like something, even working to take care of him It was all delayed, so don't mention the guilt in Liu Xia's heart.This time, I wanted to bear it and pass it, but I started vomiting and diarrhea yesterday, and I felt a faint sign of gastroenteritis last time. It happened to be a holiday again today, so I rushed to the hospital. I thought it would take an hour to see the doctor and get the medicine. Who knew it took 1 hours to queue up.

Finally found a seat, Liu Xia sat down almost collapsed, his shirt was already drenched in cold sweat, he panted slightly: "I'm fine, it's just that I've been drinking a lot these days and I have diarrhea, it's fine." Xia said, when he looked up, he saw the doctor wearing glasses who had just treated him come out of the treatment area.

The embarrassing anal examination just now flashed through Liu Xia's mind, so he immediately wanted to find a place to hide.The moment he stood up, he was overwhelmed by dizziness. If he hadn't held on to the armrest of the chair with one hand, he would have fallen down ugly.

"You wait there, I'll come right away." Chen Xiaodong said on the phone.

"Bring some chocolate when you come here." Liu Xia said after a while.

The other side responded and hastily cut off the call.

After hanging up the phone, Liu Xia hurriedly sat down, his eyes darkened, and he felt that he was really going to die.He was panting heavily like an asthma patient, so that when the doctor wearing glasses walked up to him, he didn't notice at all, until he took out a piece of Dove from his white coat and handed it to him, he didn't see it. he.

"Thank you, but I don't like sweets." Liu Xia smiled politely, urging the doctor to leave quickly.

"You have to eat it if you don't like it. You have already suffered from severe hypoglycemia." The doctor said in a cold tone.

"My family will be here soon." Liu Xia argued.

"If you don't eat, they will have to go to the emergency room to pick you up in a while." The optician's tone was beyond doubt.

Liu Xia really felt that it was getting worse and worse, so she didn't refuse any more. She thanked her for taking the chocolates, and at the same time, she slandered the doctor because she likes to scare people.

"The next time you see a doctor, don't come alone. Hypoglycemia is very dangerous." The optician said with both hands in his white coat.

Maybe it was a psychological effect, Liu Xia felt that the doctor looked at him with contempt.

But Liu Xia nodded with a smile on his face, and put the chocolate into his mouth.

The doctor raised his hand and looked at his watch. He seemed to hesitate and said, "I'll wait for your family with you. I'm off work now. There's no one here. It's dangerous if you faint." Sit down on the chair, take out your phone and click on a game.

Liu Xia was taken aback. She still had to stay with this doctor?

"Doctor, go and eat, I'm fine."

The glasses doctor is indifferent, seems to be addicted to the game.

After resting for a while, I went to the toilet again. The abdominal pain gradually eased, and the dizziness also improved.Liu Xia turned his head to look at the people around him who were concentrating on playing the game. He wanted to thank him but couldn't say it. After all, in his opinion, what happened in the morning was really embarrassing.

So the two of them sat in silence all the time. In order to divert attention, Liu Xia took out his mobile phone from his pocket and swiped Moments.

Liu Xia has two WeChat accounts, one for work and one for daily life. Liu Xia logged on to the WeChat account she used in daily life, and when she opened Moments, she saw high school classmates posting babies.Liu Xia gave a thumbs up.Scrolling down, I saw a buddy from the university posting a marriage certificate. Liu Xia liked it, and then transferred 600 yuan to him from □□, and teased him that he was not enough friends, and he kept his marriage hidden.Liu Xia was a little bit emotional. In a blink of an eye, he was 25, and people around him were getting married and having children one after another. What should I do?How long can I hide the fact that I am gay?If Chen Xiaodong's parents knew that they might not be able to hold their grandson in this life, would they accept it?But there is one thing Liu Xia is sure of, that is, he will never hide his sexuality and find a girl to marry. He thinks that would be too cruel to girls. Although he knows that many gays around him do this, he will never No, besides, he loves Chen Xiaodong so much.

I remembered the ringtone of the exclusive taste again.The doctor sitting next to him glanced at him and continued to play the game.

Liu Xia picked it up and asked Chen Xiaodong to wait for him at the entrance of the hospital, but Chen Xiaodong was obviously a little annoyed that Liu Xia came to the hospital without telling him, and insisted on coming in to pick him up, so Liu Xia had to continue to sit and wait for him to come in.

"Doctor, my family is here. I really trouble you and delay your meal." Liu Xia finally felt relieved.

The optician put away the phone readily, said nothing, stood up and walked out.

The doctor walked forward, and Chen Xiaodong walked in behind him.He raised his hand angrily and wanted to teach Liu Xia a lesson, but he didn't even tell him about coming to the hospital. What else can't be kept secret?But looking at Liu Xia's pale face, he couldn't help it.After thinking about it, I had to throw a whole box of Dove chocolates into Liu Xia's arms.

Liu Xia smiled flatteringly, opened the box, and took out one.

"It's better not to eat, let's go to eat, eat something good, you usually eat too little." Chen Xiaodong saw Liu Xia's pitiful smile, and his heart ached in a mess—from the first time he saw Liu Xia, he Can't see Liu Xia laughing.Liu Xia's big watery eyes are especially clear when he smiles, which makes Chen Xiaodong's heart so soft.

Liu Xia shook her head, chewed the chocolate, and glanced at her watch, it was already 45:[-]. "Just eat something at the entrance of the hospital. I have to get the inspection report in the afternoon. I asked just now, and the report will come out at two o'clock in the afternoon. We will ask the doctor to prescribe medicine immediately after we get the report, and then go to the movies. There will be no delay."

"Why do you still watch movies? After seeing the doctor, go home and sleep." When Chen Xiaodong heard that Liu Xia still wanted to go out to play, he was so angry that he snatched the chocolate box from Liu Xia's arms with one hand, and pulled it away with the other. Follow Liu Xia to the door.

"No! It's a rare holiday, how can I go home and sleep." Liu Xia protested while walking.

Chen Xiaodong simply pretended not to hear, and dragged Liu Xia to continue walking.

Chen Xiaodong drove Liu Xia to a steakhouse they had always liked. During the meal, Liu Xia was always depressed, and Chen Xiaodong couldn't make fun of him.Chen Xiaodong knew that Liu Xia was especially accommodating to others in everything, and he was not a person who liked to express his unhappiness on his face.The last time Liu Xia was so sad was when he was dumped by his girlfriend in his sophomore year.This made Chen Xiaodong almost want to go back on his word, and secretly took out his mobile phone to check what time it was more appropriate.As a result, on the way back to the hospital, Liu Xia vomited up and down, and vomited away the last bit of hesitation in Chen Xiaodong's heart.

"Where's your family? Why are you still alone?" It was the optician doctor in the morning, holding Liu Xia's examination report in his hand, and asked Liu Xia while frowning as he read it.

"It's outside, do I need to call him?" Liu Xia swallowed, suddenly he felt that the atmosphere was not right, as if it was similar to the plot of some TV dramas, so his tone became more cautious involuntarily, "Doctor, what did I get?" Is there a disease that can't be cured? It doesn't matter, just tell me directly, I can bear anything, really. "

"No, no..." The optician couldn't help laughing, feeling that it was inappropriate, so he had to cover up the spectacle frame on the bridge of his nose with his hand.When he turned around and typed on the computer in the next second, his face had changed into a calm expression.

Liu Xia was at a loss.

"You should avoid eating and drinking. Don't take anything spicy, raw or hard for the time being. The medicine is in the consultation card. Go to the pharmacy to get the medicine first, and then come back for a follow-up visit in a week." The optician said while typing. After typing for a while, he remembered something. She paused for a moment: "You should also avoid intercourse, the wound there needs medicine, do you need me to prescribe it for you?"

Liu Xia blushed instantly like an electric shock, lowered her head and muttered, "No need."

The glasses doctor looked at him with a meaningful smile and continued to write on the computer.

After walking all the way to the outpatient hall, Liu Xia calmed down a little, and took out his mobile phone to call Chen Xiaodong.

"Xiaodong, I've finished reading it. I'm going to get the medicine now. Wait for me a little longer."

"Come on, let's go together."

"No, soon."

In the underground parking lot of the hospital, Chen Xiaodong sat in the car and closed his mobile phone, a flash of frustration flashed in his heart.After so many years, Liu Xia still can't face up to their relationship, and he doesn't expect Liu Xia to come out for him, but at least it's okay to hold hands and hug naturally when going out together.But Liu Xia always deliberately keeps an absolute distance from him in public.Chen Xiaodong felt like a San'er who couldn't get on the stage, he could only have Liu Xia in a place where he couldn't see the sun.

After waiting for another quarter of an hour, Liu Xia walked towards him with a big bag of medicine.

He was really too thin, the depression in Chen Xiaodong's heart was diluted by guilt and heartache.Although every time I would warn myself to be lighter beforehand, I couldn't help asking him again and again every time.Liu Xia cooperated with him too much, and endured the pain no matter how hard he was. The day before yesterday, he accidentally injured him with too much force, and he didn't even yell out the pain. It was only after he finished the work that he found the bed was covered in blood, so he rushed to help him. Prescription.

Liu Xia, it will be great when he can restrain himself, he really has no way to refuse him.

"Let's go." Liu Xia jumped into the car, his voice was still not very energetic.

"What did the doctor say? Let me see what medicines are prescribed?" Chen Xiaodong didn't rush to start the car, reached for the medicines in Liu Xia's arms, and read the instructions.

"It's nothing, it's just diarrhea. People in Mingwei Group can drink too much." Liu Xia was absent-minded, still thinking about the optician just now.

These are commonly used medicines for treating diarrhea.Chen Xiaodong calmed down a little.

"Let's go to Haibin Road to play at night." On the way back, Chen Xiaodong couldn't bear to see Liu Xia's sleepy look.Looking at it, it shouldn't hurt to just play for an hour.

As soon as Liu Xia heard that he was going to play at midnight, he immediately forgot the unhappiness that happened in the consulting room and the sadness of not being able to date, and his eyes brightened again.

"But you can't drink." Chen Xiaodong added.

There is a bar called Zero Point on Haibin Road, which is a famous gay bar in this city.Because the resident singer in that bar sings very well, and often sings some original songs that cannot be heard outside.Liu Xia has always liked it very much.When he just graduated from university, Liu Xia went to listen to his singing almost every day when he was not so busy at work.Later, because Chen Xiaodong was unhappy that he was infatuated with other men, he consciously reduced the number of times he went, and always took Chen Xiaodong with him and sat in a far corner.