Those years when I was Princess Yan

Xu Qingqing hugged her head and cried until she doubted her life, but she still didn't wait for the scholar to coax her. For a moment, she really thought that the scholar had made up his mind to write a divorce letter to her.

"Snowing."

His voice was very hoarse, as if he had been trapped in the desert for a long time without drinking water.

Xu Qingqing raised her head with tears in her eyes, first she saw the scholar's lightly wounded and clear face, and then she saw that there was really snow falling outside the gazebo.At first, it was just dots, not big. After a while, snow like goose feathers began to flutter one after another, and even a few flakes were blown to Xu Qingqing's eyes with the breeze, hanging on the strands of hair hanging down on her forehead.

Xu Qingqing was stunned.

The scholar took off his cloak, put it on Xu Qingqing, and held her up.

"Don't cry, I lost."

"You didn't lose, today is not yesterday, the agreed time has passed." Xu Qingqing sniffed pitifully.The scholar gave in, it was he who gave in, it wasn't the result of her winning him, she didn't dare to take credit for it.

The scholar saw Xu Qingqing rubbing her eyes and crying, red and swollen, with dry and painful emotions coexisting in her eyes.His hands hidden in his sleeves clenched into fists, trembling slightly, and infinite contradictions clashed in his heart.He wanted to hold Xu Qingqing in his arms, coax her, comfort her, and tell her that there was nothing to worry about, and that he was willing to do everything for her.

But another thought was pulling him crazily, tearing him apart, forcing him to stay away from Xu Qingqing.Choosing her meant that he had to admit that he was an incomplete person, a superfluous thing that should disappear!Prince Yan is Xu Qingqing's real husband, and he is just an additional existence that Xu Qingqing has to accept, a 'disease' that should be dispelled.

In fact, he lied. He never planned to leave Xu Qingqing completely and bid farewell to Xu Qingqing.How could he be willing to give up, he has already loved her deeply, she has already surpassed everything to him, and the life without her is no longer meaningful.Even if he can't be with her day and night, at least he exists, he can still look at her from a distance and feel her, that's enough.

But if he accepts the existence of King Yan, there is already a strong feeling in his heart telling him that he will disappear like smoke in the unknown confusion, cease to exist, and never see the sun again , never seeing his beloved woman again, never feeling her existence again.

But when she cried, crying so sadly, his heart was broken at that moment, and he completely turned against her almost instantly.Even if it disappears, even if you don't feel it anymore!Anything less than everything, as long as the woman in front of him can stop crying, he is willing.

Coincidentally, the snow came, just at this time.

It seemed to tell him how correct this decision was.

"I'm wrong, I'm not good, I didn't take your feelings into consideration."

The scholar grabbed Xu Qingqing's arms, looked down at her with his head down, and apologized sincerely to her.

"Don't cry, I was wrong."

Xu Qingqing originally wanted to be self-willed, to let the scholar know that she is not easy to coax, so that he can remember the lesson in the future.But when she felt the scholar's hands trembling slightly as she grasped her, and found that the scholar's eyes were full of complicated emotions and distress, Xu Qingqing suddenly realized that she had simplified the problem.

A scholar is never a cruel person, and his decision must have his pain.In comparison, her 'unscrupulous' method of forcing him to sympathize with her was too obscene.

"Does accepting the existence of the prince mean anything to you?" Xu Qingqing hurriedly asked the scholar.

"It's nothing." The scholar smiled softly, pressed Xu Qingqing's head with his hand, and patted it, as if it was really nothing.

Xu Qingqing raised her head to observe his smiling expression, it was very good-looking, and she was trying hard to cover it up.But she couldn't hide it from her, she could sense his reluctance.

"Will you disappear?" Xu Qingqing asked, she couldn't think of any other possibility.If it's something else, it's a trivial matter, and it's not worth the scholar's reaction to be so 'ruthless'.

"It's enough to have you at this moment."

The scholar did not directly respond to Xu Qingqing's words, but just hugged her, treated her like a treasure, gently cared for her in his arms, and rested his chin on Xu Qingqing's forehead.

"You don't have to remember me, live a good life with him. As you said, he and I are the same person."

Xu Qingqing shook her head, although she didn't see the scholar's eyes and expression, maybe the scholar hugged her like this to prevent her from observing these things, thinking that she would believe everything just by listening to his voice.But a woman's sixth sense is the strongest, she knows that the scholar's words are just coaxing herself, he actually doesn't think he can coexist with King Yan.

What a painful thing that should be. If you choose to admit the existence of another person, you will disappear.If it was her, someone asked herself to admit the existence of another person, then she would give up herself to die, and she would definitely choose herself selfishly.Why, why should she want it!If you want to live for someone else, do you have to die?

Xu Qingqing hugged the scholar, and grabbed the clothes on his back with both hands.This time she really shed tears, from the heart, more ferocious than rubbing pepper water.

"I don't want you to disappear, you don't have to admit it, you don't have to admit anything, it's fine as it was."

"But I know it now, and I accept it." The scholar gently wiped the tears on Xu Qingqing's face with his hands, "Seeing that you don't give up on me, I don't regret it anymore. I shouldn't exist in the first place. After I left , you take the child to live well with the prince."

"What, are you going to knock me out or give me sweat medicine? When I fall asleep and wake up again, tell me that I'm dreaming, so you don't have to admit what happened?" The scholar laughed and asked Xu Qingqing lightly. .

Xu Qingqing looked at the scholar in surprise.Wondering how he would know?

"Since you choose to accept it, you will naturally think about everything." The scholar scratched the bridge of Xu Qingqing's nose with a light smile, asking her to promise not to cry again, "If your eyes become more swollen from crying and you can't see anything, it will snow for a while." Stop, who will sweep the snow and make tea for me?"

When Xu Qingqing heard this, she pursed her lips, her tears became more violent, and she couldn't even breathe.

After the scholar heard the words 'I will please you first', his face, which was concealed by a smile, suddenly collapsed.His eyes froze, his body froze, and his whole figure was like a wife-seeing stone frozen by spells.After a long time, he closed his eyes, breathed a sigh of relief slowly, and smiled again at the corner of his mouth, but he was much more relieved than the previous smile.

"That's great, I have no regrets." The scholar lowered his head and kissed Xu Qingqing's forehead lightly, then looked at the flying snow outside the pavilion, "Accompany me to enjoy the snow until dawn, and we will sweep the snow and make tea together."

Xu Qingqing tried her best to restrain herself from sobbing, wiped away her tears with a handkerchief, and sat beside the scholar, leaning her head on his shoulder.

The scholar put his arms around her and recited poems to her.He had written many poems for her, but he was ashamed!Yu read it, but now it is time to say it, because there is no tomorrow.

The snow stopped, the dawn came, and so did the poetry.

Xu Qingqing still refused to move in the scholar's arms, it was the first time she was so afraid of losing, hated parting so much...

The night's wind and snow made many budding red plums bloom in the yard.The bright red and white snow complement each other, the beauty is beautiful, but it is also heartbreakingly cold.

Half a pot of snow was burned on the stove, and after the water boiled, the tea was poured in, and soon the fragrance of tea wafted out faintly.

Soon a bowl of brewed tea was placed in front of Xu Qingqing.

Xu Qingqing was nervous, the work of sweeping snow and making tea had been completed, she was worried that the scholar would be easily satisfied and leave at a certain moment before she realized it, so she kept staring at the scholar for a moment.

"Try it."

Xu Qingqing picked up the tea, watched the scholar nodding at herself, then looked away, and took a sip of the tea.

The tea is fragrant and has a sweet aftertaste, and aftertaste carefully, there is a touch of plum fragrance in it.

"It's delicious." Xu Qingqing smiled at the scholar, and saw the scholar smile at herself.

Xu Qingqing moved her eyeballs, she picked up the tea in the bowl and drank it hastily, then went to hold the scholar's hand.

"Do what?"

"Your plowing snow and making tea are finished, but I still have many unfulfilled wishes. I want to go shopping with you in the streets of the capital, eat the snacks there, listen to storytelling, watch juggling, and hear about Manxinglou's The location of Tianzi No. [-] room is particularly good, where you can see the most beautiful night scenery in the capital."

There was a gentle smile on the scholar's brows and eyes, "Okay, let's go together."

So the two of them, who hadn't slept all night, went shopping in the market in high spirits, traveled all over the hustle and bustle of the capital, listened to storytelling in teahouses, and watched enough juggling on the street. When the sky was full of stars, they checked in Room No. [-], Tianzi, Manxing Building.There is the most beautiful night, and there are couples who cherish each other the most...

Xu Qingqing didn't know when she fell asleep last night. After all, she didn't sleep all day and all night, and she ran for two days. She drank wine while enjoying the night view with the scholar, and she was really tired in the end.But she vaguely remembered,! , I kept yelling not to let the scholar go.

Xu Qingqing rubbed her temples, opened her eyes with a headache, and saw the scholar lying beside her, eyes open, looking at the top of the bed, but motionless.

Xu Qingqing was startled, thinking that something had happened to her, she rushed to push him.The other party grabbed his wrist with a backhand, and sent a sharp look.

This is an instinctive defensive action, just enough to prove that this person is no longer a scholar. A scholar can't do martial arts, but King Yan can.

Seeing her reaction, Zhu Di frowned even more.

When Xu Qingqing realized that King Yan was back, she immediately remembered Zhu Di's warning that she was not allowed to have a husband and wife relationship with a scholar.

"We did everything last night." Xu Qingqing said frankly.

Zhu Di glanced at her.

"So, you're guarding against me?" Zhu Di noticed Xu Qingqing's movements again.

Xu Qingqing lowered her head even lower and said nothing.

"I'm very reluctant to please him first, huh?" Zhu Di asked again.

Xu Qingqing pursed her lips and nodded.After hearing Zhu Di sneer, she suddenly realized that something was wrong, he looked up at Zhu Di in surprise, "You—"

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