The years when I was an interpreter for monsters

Since coming here, Yan Shiyu has seen [-] or [-] monsters, each one more strange than the other.

It's not that all young people can accept it without any burden, but at present, only this crying monster makes him feel resistance, rejection, fear and disgust all over his pores.

To use an inappropriate metaphor, it is probably like a person who is afraid of insects and falls into a spider's nest, or is facing a highly corrupted corpse for the first time. It's his limit.

So, after the monster disappeared, Yan Shiyu was really relieved.

"It turned into water? No wonder we couldn't find it." The black cat walked around the wetland, "He should appear again."

"It should be, probably tomorrow evening." Jin Long guessed.

The black cat asked curiously: "Then ask who he is tomorrow, it's the first time I've seen such a monster."

Ao Zheng looked at the young man who hadn't spoken the whole time: "Shi Yu doesn't seem to be acceptable, if not, it doesn't look like a dangerous monster."

"No, no." Yan Shiyu quickly denied, "I just got scared suddenly, I can't accept it, we'll ask him again tomorrow."

"Is it really okay?" Jin Long confirmed.

Yan Shiyu wiped the sweat off his palms and nodded vigorously: "It's okay."

Neither Ah Fu Xiaohei nor Jinlong seemed to have any feeling for the appearance of that monster.If he showed disgust at a monster that was just ugly, he would definitely be hated.

Yan Shiyu followed behind Ao Zheng, lowering his head to cheer himself up secretly: It's okay, don't be afraid, it's just a puddle of water.

The golden dragon who was walking in front slowed down, turned his head sideways and looked quietly at the young man.

The next day, Ah Fu was still at home to guard the door, and Yan Shiyu put the bucket containing him in the place where the monster disappeared, and went to mine.

As the sun went down, the young man became visibly anxious.The movements of cleaning up in his hands were grinding and chattering, and the words "I don't want to go home" were written on my face.

Ao Zheng and Heimao didn't seem to see it, and returned to the tower according to the plan.Ah Fu held the barrel with his fins, stuck his head out and stared at the wet ground, his tail kept flicking.

Hearing their return, Ah Fu immediately jumped out in human form: "Mr. Long, he hasn't emerged yet."

As soon as he finished speaking, there was movement behind him.Everyone's eyes moved over, only Yan Shiyu, although his head was turned there, his eyes were darting around his feet.

He's a puddle of water, a slime stung by a swarm of bees!

The wet water stains on the ground slowly gathered, bit by bit turning into the ugly monster from yesterday.He slowly straightened up, walked to the wooden barrel, and looked inside with his feet on his feet.

His face was reflected on the surface of the water, and the monster shrank back again, turning around slowly, with tears in its eyes.

He was about to cry, but when he raised his eyes, he saw a group of monsters surrounding him, and he choked in fright.

The monsters stared wide-eyed, but no one moved.

"Hey, Shiyu, what's his name?" The black cat hit the young man with its tail.

Yan Shiyu, who was doing mental construction, was taken aback, and when he came back to his senses, he met the monster's eyes.

Yan Shiyu was stunned for an instant, feeling a churn in his stomach, and subconsciously took a step back.

He finally knew why this monster was the only one that made him so hard to accept—because he saw in him the terrible things that would appear on people.

That feeling, like the first time he saw a leprosy patient in a textbook, like when he heard the lotus/flower/milk and searched for the picture①, like the rotten kitten he accidentally encountered on the side of the road .

All sickness and death.

Yan Shiyu's openness to death is based on the fact that he died happily and cleanly, but he is extremely afraid of the scars caused by illness.

The young man's performance stimulated/excited the monster, and his tears fell immediately, and he let out a cry of "嘤嘤".

Yan Shiyu wanted to step back, but his hand accidentally touched Ao Zheng's sleeve. His heart shook, and he remembered why he was standing here.

He stood firm and set his eyes on the wooden barrel behind the monster. At first glance, he seemed to be looking at the monster.

"Who are you? Why are you here?" Yan Shiyu's voice trembled slightly.

The monster stopped crying and stared at the young man in surprise: "Are you talking to me?"

"Yes." The young man said with a wooden face.

"My name is Squeak," the monster said excitedly, "no one has spoken to me for a long time."

Yan Shiyu's heart softened, his eyes couldn't be controlled, and they fell on Squeak, and he couldn't help but close his eyes.

Squeak rolled himself up again, and asked with low self-esteem and sadness, "I'm ugly, right? No one will like me, right?"

The young man's Adam's apple twitched, and he tried to force a smile with erratic eyes: "It's not particularly ugly, but it's not very pretty."

Squeak stared at the young man: "Then why don't you want to look at me?"

Yan Shiyu couldn't answer, he couldn't do it.

"I know, I've always known." Squeak's tears didn't stop for a moment, and his body began to blur again.

"I'm just, just asking."

"I just, wanted to talk to you."

Yan Shi's voice seemed to be blocked: "Squeak, I'm sorry..."

"You've done nothing wrong," said Squeak with a twisted smile on his deformed face, "I haven't been called by my name for a long time."

"Thank you, good bye."

Gently, with a "bang", it turned into little splashes and seeped into the soil.

Like those who are forced to die alone.

Since then, Squeak has never appeared again, and the water stains on the ground dried up overnight.I don't know if he left secretly, or... passed away quietly.

Yan Shiyu sat alone on the stone, silently and gloomyly burning the bonfire.He dared to show such an expression only when the black cat and the others were not around.

"Old Dragon, you should go and have a chat with him," the black cat looked at the young man from the window on the second floor, "The kid seems to be twisted at first sight, it's not a big deal at all."

"Should I be tougher at that time, I can clearly see that he is trying to be tough." Jin Long rarely hesitated, "The relationship between you seems to be closer, or you should go."

The black cat shook its head: "Believe me, you are more useful than me, and the kid is very concerned about what you think of him."

"You may not believe it when you say it," Jin Long raised his arm and looked at his palm, "I'm a little nervous."

"It's the first time I've met him like this," Ao Zheng smiled helplessly, "He always looks very energetic, loves to laugh and is sensible, and a little clever."

"Nervous? I heard you right." The black cat's eyes widened. "You've met so many people, it's impossible that you don't have children."

"Yes, there are too many, too many to count," Jin Long looked into the distance, "but at that time, I didn't have time to pay attention to everyone's emotions."

He may help a person in danger, help a village get rid of a disease, seek a few days of rain for a prefecture, or extinguish the flames of war for a country.

But alone will not comfort a lost person.

Because he can't handle it.Because at that time, other than life and death, it was all idle business.

And here, only Yan Shiyu is human.He needs more care than the monster, so he gets more attention.

So his joy, anger, sorrow and joy entered his eyes and also entered his heart, making him different.

Ao Zheng didn't know whether such a change was good or bad, but he didn't hate it.

Jin Long came down from the stairs and walked to the side of the young man.

"Pick up words." He called out.

The young man regained his senses suddenly, quickly hid the gloom on his face, raised his head and smiled and said, "Mr. Long."

Ao Zheng hesitated, lifted his clothes and sat on the ground.The rock Yan Shiyu was sitting on was not high, and the two were at eye level.

They seldom talk like this, Yan Shiyu was slightly startled: "Mr. Long?"

"Hmm." Jin Long raised his hand and touched the young man's head, "Oh, um... Actually, I really hope that you treat me as a friend, not an elder."

"I also don't want Lord Long to play the role of an elder." Yan Shiyu said silently in his heart: But I also hope that my gender will be added in front of friends.

"Can we be friends now?" Jinlong asked.

"En." Yan Shiyu nodded.

"Then, are you willing to tell this friend why he is unhappy?"

Ao Zheng picked up a stone and rubbed it back and forth in his palm, anxiously waiting for the young man's answer.

If he still doesn't want to say it, what should he do?

Fortunately, Teacher Xiaoyan couldn't bear Jinlong to think about such a nerve-wracking problem.

"Actually, I just think I'm so hypocritical that it's disgusting."

Ao Zheng was a little surprised.He thought the young man was depressed because he was frightened by the monster called Squeak, or because he didn't feel that he was doing well enough in front of them.

"hypocritical?"

"Actually, I'm very afraid of Squeak, and I feel sick," Yan Shiyu lowered his head and fiddled with the bonfire with a branch.

"A lie that is too obvious may indeed seem hypocritical," Ao Zheng said softly, "However, it cannot be denied that your answer at that time came from good intentions."

"Not only that," the young man shook his head, "I don't want to see him at all, and I don't care what happened to him, I just don't want to be hated by you."

Ao Zheng didn't intervene this time, he had a feeling that Yan Shiyu probably needs someone to listen to rather than explaining it.

"When he disappeared, I was indeed a little sad and a little guilty. But when I knew he would not come again," Yan Shiyu's hands stopped, "I was secretly happy. With that sad expression, I was secretly happy You don't have to face him, and you don't have to worry about your pretending not to hate him being exposed by you."

"Maybe I didn't cover it up perfectly when I was talking to Squeak, but when Squeak disappeared, you definitely didn't notice..."

"I'm chuckling."

Ao Zheng did not see it.

"I feel disgusted by myself like this. What's more disgusting is that I have imagined it many times. If I do it again, the result will not change." Yan Shiyu turned to look at Jinlong, "If I ask Mr. Long now, what do you think? Am I disgusting? Lord Long will definitely deny it."

Ao Zheng suddenly smiled: "I thought, what's the matter?"

"Shi Yu," Jin Long said seriously, "I really don't feel disgusted, this answer is not a kind comfort."

"Because you are human."

"The gods are still three points dark, let alone human beings."

"For thousands of years, the darkness I have seen is enough to pollute the heart of a god, and I can still love human beings because I can still see light when surrounded by darkness."

"Shi Yu, come on, look into my eyes, have you seen the light on yourself?"

The author has something to say: walk the emotional line.

①Although most of the related pictures on the Internet are p, there are many dense black holes on the skin.I've already told what it looks like, so really don't search it, it's visually disgusting.