melancholy summer

The warm wind in May brought a hint of summer, and Sun Xiang looked at the green trees outside the iron window, which were shady.

He thought: Spring is finally over.

Sun Xiang is an ordinary doctor in a mental hospital.Spring is not only the season of animal sex, but also the season of high incidence of mental illness, and it is also the busiest time of the year for him. He hates spring.

Dozens of patients wandered around in the activity room, and some of them looked and acted like zombies in TV dramas.

In order to facilitate management, all patients on this floor are concentrated in the activity room during the day.

Looking boredly at the patients playing poker at the table, one of them hit the opponent with a pair of kings with a pair of fours.A dilapidated TV in the distance was broadcasting a program he didn't like to watch.

The activity room is also a restaurant, connected to the toilet, and there is a foul smell in the air.

There are locked doors everywhere. This is a mental hospital. There are all kinds of patients here, even murderers.

Before being sent to the hospital, the ferocious Yaksha with a ferocious face only became a docile sheep temporarily after taking the medicine. Most mental patients are incurable and need to take medicine for life.

Sun Xiang took care of patients with one or two colleagues in the activity room.It only took a week or two to get used to it when I first started working.

Being beaten and scolded is also a very common thing, and he no longer cares about it.Human adaptability is really a scary thing, Sun Xiang thought.

The colleague's call brought him back to his thoughts, a sick number came, the director made a diagnosis, asked him to go to see it again, and arrange the follow-up after admission, the director is very busy.

As soon as he entered the door, Sun Heng saw that handsome boy between a youth and a teenager, with a slender figure and soft features.

In other words, Sun Xiang felt, um, a little girly.

He just lowered his head like that, couldn't see his expression clearly, and sat there quietly, without saying a word.

On the contrary, it was the boy's mother, a middle-aged woman who was full of vigor, and when she saw Sun Xiang in a white coat, she pulled him and started crackling.

From his mother's words, Sun Xiang knew that he was only 20 years old this year and had a somewhat introverted personality since he was a child.

After going to university, he attempted suicide many times, and the last time he almost failed to save himself. The family was terrified and had to be sent to a mental hospital.

"Since you have attempted suicide many times, why didn't you see a doctor earlier?" Sun Heng frowned, feeling that the matter was not simple.

The woman paused in embarrassment, and explained: "I thought he was joking a few times before, and my Xiaoyue finally got into college, and the neighbors are envious. If you know that he is a psycho...or, or..."

"What is it? Tell him all about his condition so that he can be treated." Sun Xiang asked calmly and gently.

The woman faltered and said nothing.

He turned his head and asked the boy who hadn't said a word, "Do you have anything to say? Or is it uncomfortable?"

The boy looked up at him with complicated eyes, hesitated to speak, then shook his head lightly, lowered his eyelids again, and lowered his head.

The woman began to chatter again, what to eat, sleep well, cut her wrist with a knife, etc...

Sun enjoys a little helplessness. He can see all of this. He has huge black eye circles, a slender body, and has been pulling his sleeves to cover the old and new scars on his wrists. He needs more information.

"Then do you know when he started to have suicide intentions and why?" The boy has been uncooperative, and Sun Xiang had no choice but to ask his mother.

"University is not a good place. My Xiaoyue used to study so well, she was always the top in her class in high school, and she failed one course in her freshman year... The children in the dormitory bullied Xiaoyue, so it was useless to find a school... ..."

Hearing this, the boy pursed his lips, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything in the end.

According to the medical records, the boy's name is Zhou Yue, which is a bit girly, Sun Xiang thought.

Looking down, the director's diagnosis was a major depressive episode without psychotic symptoms.

Sun Heng frowned. He felt that he couldn't give a brief answer to this diagnosis, but he was just an ordinary resident doctor, so what qualifications did he have to question the director.

Zhou Yue was seriously depressed, and the director suggested that he should be hospitalized, so his mother went home and packed his things for the hospital.

"Your mother is gone. Is there anything you want to say? You can tell me anything. I'm a doctor and I'll keep it a secret for you." Sun Xiang's voice was soothing and gentle.

"I don't want to...live..." Somewhat unexpectedly, the boy's voice was hoarse and deep.

Sun Xiang froze for a moment, then asked, "Why, can you tell me?"

Zhou Yue answered Sun Heng's question slowly and bluntly. After asking a few words and answering a few words, Sun Xiang finally understood the general idea.

When I went to college, my grades fell short compared to high school, and I didn't handle my interpersonal relationship well. I had too much to think about, so I couldn't eat well or sleep well.

For ordinary people, small setbacks will only snowball for sensitive depressed patients, and negative emotions will accumulate more and more.

Going from mild to moderate to severe depression can be a quick process for some people.In addition, Zhou Yue's family felt that mental illness was a shameful thing, so they didn't take the initiative to seek medical treatment in the early stage, which delayed the treatment.

Zhou Yue felt that she couldn't do anything well, was useless, and living was just a burden to her parents, so it was better to die, anyway, they had a younger brother who was [-] times stronger than herself...

In the conversation between the two, Sun Xiang was mostly saying that Zhou Yue should be in the right time.It was tiring, but Sun Xiang enjoyed it a bit.

He didn't want to go back to the entertainment room to watch "Zombie Parade", and compared with most middle-aged men with unshaven beards and dark complexions, the fair-looking young man was more pleasing to the eye.

The two chatted about the same, and the mother came back.

After going through the hospitalization procedures, before Sun Xiang explained the specific treatment plan to her, her mother left in a hurry after leaving a sentence of "all according to the doctor".

Zhou Yue's younger brother is two years younger than him. This year's college entrance examination, she will go back to prepare meals for him.It is said that he was a sunny and lovable child with good academic performance.

The sun slanted on the trees outside the bars, casting long shadows.

Why hasn't summer arrived yet, but it's coming soon, and in a few days, I'll be free, Sun Xiang prayed silently.