love like wind

Xu Li didn't seem to listen, his voice hesitated, "Jiayou, did you remember wrongly?"

In Xu Li's view, they are not in a romantic relationship. Although he is used to Yang Jiayou, this is not the case in real love.

Real homosexual love needs to face parents and real life pressure, the price is too heavy.

And that day Xu Li took the initiative to kiss him and said he didn't want him to be responsible, but he didn't even want to kiss him. He just kissed his forehead, and the answer was very clear - Yang Jiayou couldn't walk.Afterwards, Yang Jiayou kissed him, or made intimacy, in Xu Li's view, it was acquiescence to accompany each other for a period of time.He wanted Yang Jiayou to go abroad with peace of mind, and he never thought that the two of them would be together for a long time.

Yang Jiayou was dizzy with anger, raised his head and panted, thinking of Xu Li's recent actions, he seemed to understand something, no wonder he often didn't reply to messages in time, sometimes he didn't know where he was, he would be absent-minded when kissing, and sometimes he was very nervous. Perfunctory.It turned out that Xu Li didn't think they were together, or he didn't have any expectations for this relationship at all.

He couldn't stay any longer, he would collapse when he saw Xu Li again, Yang Jiayou didn't think much, picked up the phone on the table and walked towards the door.

Xu Li quickly stood in front of him, his voice trembling, "Jiayou, where are you going?"

"Where do I go?" Yang Jiayou clenched his cheeks, turned off the flashlight of his phone, the faint blue screen light reflected on his face, and the room suddenly returned to darkness, his voice sounded chilly, "Please let me go."

Xu Li stood still at the door. Yang Jiayou was in a bad mood now, so he couldn't be let out like this. He still had something to say to Yang Jiayou.

"I said, please let me go." Yang Jiayou said darkly.

Xu Li stretched out his hand to stop him, but Yang Jiayou was extremely disgusted, and waved his hand away, "Come on, don't force yourself." He found the answer, and felt that Xu Li didn't really love him that much. There is too little space for him, and it turned out that he was moved by himself.

Yang Jiayou grasped the handle of the door and exerted some strength. The light from the corridor shone in. Xu Li couldn't stop him, so he could only put his back against the security door to prevent him from leaving, "Jiayou, calm down, listen I explain..."

Yang Jiayou was stimulated by this sentence, "Tell me, how should I calm down? Let's not mention the fact that you can't be contacted for 28 hours—" He was breathing hot, and his whole body was on fire: "On Christmas, I Let me tell you, Xu Li, let’s be together. You promised. Up to now, let’s not talk about it, it’s almost six months? Six months, six months, I feel like I’ve been talking to you for six months If you are in love with me, come to me now, 'Jiayou, when did we get together', why the hell didn't you say that I was a one-night stand with you?!" He paused, shaking his head feebly, "No, we two I haven't slept yet, it's not even a one-night stand."

Xu Li tried his best to think about what happened before, as if he didn't hear Yang Jiayou's words.To really be together for a long time, we have to face Uncle Yang and Aunt Xu.If it was just them making a fuss in private, with Yang Jiayou going abroad to study and focusing on his studies, the elders would not know what happened between them, and there is still room for change.

"Why don't you talk? Are you dumb?" Yang Jiayou took a deep breath, feeling extremely uncomfortable, "Okay, I know now, you just expect me to go, right, everything will be fine when I go, and you don't have to You're forcing yourself, aren't you?"

"It's not like that," Xu Li's voice was nasal, and he didn't know where to start, so he could only say in desperation: "I found my sister, and I've been busy with this before..."

Yang Jiayou choked when he heard this, and raised his voice: "I knew you when I was 13 years old, and it's been nine years this year. I even know your toothbrush! What kind of sister are you looking for?!" , his breathing was unsteady, "You want to fool me, please find a better excuse."

Seeing that he was about to go out, Xu Li hugged Yang Jiayou. Unexpectedly, Yang Jiayou pushed him away. He couldn't bear it anymore, and his voice was full of resentment: "I said, don't force yourself! You didn't understand, did you?"

Xu Li was pushed back a step, and his back bumped against the anti-theft door. There was a dull impact echoing in the air, and soon, a tingling sensation came from the back of his head. Xu Li bent his back, feeling a little uncomfortable, as if he had hit something.

Yang Jiayou panicked, realized something, and said hoarsely, "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay..." Xu Li stood up straighter.

Yang Jiayou took out his mobile phone and saw Xu Li touching the back of his head with pale cheeks. He carelessly touched Xu Li's face, running his fingers through his short hair to make sure he was not injured. "Where does it hurt?"

Xu Li pressed his hand: "It's okay, Jiayou, I'm fine."

Yang Jiayou touched the back of his head, but fortunately he didn't find any wounds, and turned on the flashlight to check the door. There was a plastic hook stuck behind the door, and a pair of badminton rackets were hung on it.Yang Jiayou threw the phone on the shoe cabinet, the light illuminated the corner of the wall, and he freed his hand to rub Xu Li's head.

Fortunately, it's just a plastic hook, in case it's metal...

Yang Jiayou didn't dare to think about it, and breathed nervously: "Sorry, I didn't mean it just now."

Xu Li sniffed, "It's okay."

Yang Jiayou touched Xu Li's face and neck, and then withdrew his hand after confirming that he was not injured. His tone was stiff: "Okay, since you've come back, I'll go first." He doesn't want to say a word to Xu Li now .

Xu Li hugged Yang Jiayou, trembling uncontrollably, "Jiayou, I didn't hug you just now because I was a little scared. I get scared when you get angry." He closed his eyes and tried his best to keep his tone steady, " I didn't expect you to leave. The photo was not about my anger with you, and I didn't play word puzzles. My sister lost it when she was less than one year old. At that time, my grandma had dementia and often forgot things. After the nanny bought the balloons, I found that the old man and the child were gone. Grandma later became obsessed with balloons and often sat alone in the square for a long time, and then there was a gas leak at home.”

"This is all before I was 13 years old. These things are too heavy, so I didn't tell you." Xu Li paused for a moment, and then said: "I also like balloons, because when I look at balloons, I think of my sister and grandma. Sorry, I didn't know you didn't like me writing your name on the balloon, and I apologize."

"As for the sentence you said 'together' at Christmas, I really didn't hear it. I finished the performance with Kayu before, but I actually wanted to tell you, I wanted to be with you, but at that time I took the initiative to kiss you , you rejected me, I knew the answer, I thought it was because you didn't want to be together—"

Yang Jiayou interrupted him with a bad tone: "Didn't you hear what? On Christmas day, I told you in front of you, and you said 'hmm'!" His breathing became short again, and he continued: "We still kissed that day Now, you said it yourself, who would kiss someone you don’t like? Am I the kind of person who touches you casually? Did I give you a watch on New Year’s Eve? Did I tell you to read it in China? Yan, said I want to write you a postcard, and told you to wait? I can't help but hug you, kiss you, and bring you your favorite food..."

Speaking of this, Yang Jiayou was extremely wronged, tears welled up in his eyes, and pointed to his heart: "Why do you think that all these sacrifices make me not even a boyfriend? Are you insulting me, or are you insulting yourself? I have known you for so long, how did I teach you? People need to be self-reliant, stand upright, and deal with setbacks head-on. You are still called 'Xu Li'. Where the hell did you go? Parents, I will think Way to face, you see how you treat me?!"

"You are the one who hesitates, don't I hesitate?" Yang Jiayou's voice was extremely dull, "My sister is in a special situation, and her marriage may not be smooth in the future. I have made plans to take care of her for the rest of my life. I kissed your forehead that day because I felt that I There is really no way to possess you selfishly. I am the son of my parents and Jiayu’s elder brother. I have my responsibilities. I can’t let you down, and I can’t hurt my family. Tell me, what should I do? Huh? "

He gasped, almost heartbroken: "We both grew up together, I want you to live well and walk in the light, even if there is no me on this road, I am willing! I don't know how to describe the most cherished person in my life. Now you tell me, Jiayou, when we are together, my heart is about to burst!"

"I couldn't reach you for 28 hours, so I called the police, you know?" Yang Jiayou took a deep breath, breathing tremblingly: "Okay, even if you want to find your sister, I stopped you? Which time on the issue of principle, I Didn't respect your wishes?"

The air froze for a moment, and there was a slight choking sound.

After a long while, Xu Li said softly: "Jiayou, I'm sorry." He paused, trying to keep calm, "I know you won't stop me from looking for my sister, but Lan Lan was separated when I was young, and I have been with you since I was a freshman. Pay attention to the matter of child abduction and trafficking. Finding relatives is basically looking for a needle in a haystack, and it is very possible to find it in a lifetime. So when I first looked for Lan Lan, I didn't tell you."

"I accidentally found out that there was a girl who might be Lan Lan. After many inquiries, I found out about her current situation. She is not doing well. Her adoptive parents originally opened a restaurant, so she can maintain a normal life, but Lan Lan's The adoptive father, that is, Uncle Sun, was hit some time ago, and he may not be able to walk normally for life. Aunt Li sold out the shop, but it was still not enough for her husband to see a doctor. They borrowed 20 foreign debts. I received them at [-] o'clock yesterday afternoon The phone call from the community said that Lan Lan’s house had been smashed, and it seemed that the relatives who lent them money before were waiting to get the money back, and Aunt Li couldn’t get that much money for a while, so the two families quarreled and it was a bit big.”

"The police were there at the time. After coordinating the work, I talked to that distant relative and promised to help them pay back the 20 yuan."

"Where did you get so much money?" Yang Jiayou couldn't help asking, still angry.

"It's the money on my father's card," Xu Li choked up when he said this, "Jiayou, I listened to what you said, I didn't insult you, how could I be willing to do so. Over the years, because of being received by Uncle Yang and Xu Auntie’s care, Dad’s card still has more than 20 yuan. Maybe these words sound vulgar to you, but I really received too much care and favor. Your parents are my parents. Finding my sister , can’t be met, how can I make them worry about it? You’re going abroad soon, and you have to study for a graduate student with peace of mind. Didn’t you say you want to study for a Ph. you."

"Speaking of which, I have to thank Jiayu for being able to find Lanlan. She is kind-hearted and found a girl who is very similar to me." Xu Li hugged Yang Jiayou and took a deep breath, "Jiayu is not only your responsibility , like Lanlan, she is an indispensable part of my life. I love you, I want to take care of you, treat you well, maybe sometimes the way is wrong, but I’m really not joking. Please forgive me for the 28 days when I disappeared For an hour, because Lan Lan's family was in an emergency at the time, I couldn't leave her alone."

"I've been with Lan Lan all day today. Although she still refuses to say a few words to me, at least she won't avoid it like before. Because of her growth experience, Lan Lan is introverted and a bit withdrawn. Not easy to get close to, but also very strong. In order to take care of Uncle Sun, she missed school for a long time, and I was afraid that she would drop out of school because of this. Aunt Li didn’t want to lose Lanlan, and she has always been very hostile to me. This is human nature, I understand .”

Xu Li paused, and then said: "I will accompany Lanlan to have lunch at school at noon, talk with her, relieve her stress and depression, and let her not be afraid, I will be there for everything. After she finishes school, I will go back to Liyuan with her. Auntie’s house is very messy. I helped them clean it up. There didn’t seem to be a fire when I left the KTV yesterday. Put it at Wang Yunfei's place."

Panting for breath, Yang Jiayou felt better, and asked, "Then you didn't come back last night, where do you live?"

"At the hotel near Aunt Li's house, I didn't come back because I was afraid of irritating Aunt Li and didn't want to go back and forth." Xu Li sniffed, "I originally planned to tell you about Lan Lan after the matter was settled. If it hadn’t happened suddenly yesterday, I would have contacted you and wouldn’t have made you worry for so long. But no matter what, it was my fault for making you worry and anxious, and I sincerely apologize to you.”

Yang Jiayou's eyes were moist, thinking of his feelings for his younger sister Jiayu, his anger dissipated, "Then you were in a trance before, was it also because of Lanlan?"

"En." Xu Li responded sullenly, with a sincere tone, "I'm sorry, Jiayou, I was under too much pressure, and I kept thinking about other things in my mind, ignoring your feelings." Yang Jiayou gently pushed him back: "When I came back today, I saw a cake in the dessert shop. It was SpongeBob SquarePants and Patrick. I thought it was very cute. I remembered...your birthday is July 7th, although At that time, you had already gone abroad, and I still wanted to celebrate your birthday with you. I bought the cake and I plan to eat it with you tomorrow. Now that you are here, you can take a look in advance. "

Speaking of this, Xu Li's tears fell, and he cried quietly: "I cherish the watch you gave me very much, and I didn't take it seriously. I have saved all the love you gave me. I have kept everything from childhood to adulthood. I remember all of them. Jiayou, I love you, and I always have you in my heart." He paused, and said clearly: "Tell me, does this kind of relationship far exceed that of a 'boyfriend'?"